Hrm
Yes, so although my being iffy about being home, my mom does need my help. She has been so sick for the past couple days that I have pretty much had to step up, which is all well and good but does put more on my plate. My father being the big help that he is has basically taken off for the majority of the time, fine, its not like I was really hoping for much.
Now for another concern this guy has been calling my cell phone nonstop and I am starting to worry slightly, especially with the things that he is saying. I realize they may just be wild rantings or threats from a person with no potential spine... but still. After last night it was a wake up call to the threat that he potentially has given to me. He is a regular customer on top of that so work tomorrow should be interesting. After the first couple phone calls I ended up calling my one few friends who actually understand where I am coming from when it comes to these topics, Chris. I had my crying moment, and have now somehow convinced myself that it is my fault and that I will fix it, somehow. I mean all I really need is caller id, right? Despite my emotional night I really enjoyed speaking with him because he actually is one of the few people that can understand the personal workings of my life. That and I was able to actually express to someone just how worried everyone is about my mom's worsening condition. With all of this included I am an emotional trainwreck with an upcoming exam. I know I have to put things out of the way to think straight, its just so hard while taking care of the two girls, trying to entertain them, study, take care of my mom, work and dealing with this sick pig who keeps calling. I suppose it wouldn't have been so bad, but the last time he called I thought it was a friend who I haven't talked to in a while and when the person on the other end asked my major in university, me being an idiot said "criminology", to which his comment was "So that means you have an obsession with crime and people being in an unwilling situation". Um, no... but you know, I kinda went silent and realized who it was. My bad. Now this guy thinks I have a fetish for criminals and such, super. I'm sure I am just over reacting.. I hope I am over reacting. Better yet, hopefully he will get bored and realize that I am not interested.
Leave it to me to attract some 30-35 year old guy who doesn't know when the fuck to give up. As I said... work should be fun, as will studying.
Although I was able to talk to some about this little encounter I still can't help but feel alone. I mean what would happen if I actually was approached by this person after I leave work? My only fear with that is that I will freeze up. I can usually hold my own ground, not the strongest person, but enough to put up a fight. I am left to feel not only vulnerable/small but also so very alone in all of this. I guess this is just another one of those things I really need to learn how to take care of myself along with caller id...
Now for another concern this guy has been calling my cell phone nonstop and I am starting to worry slightly, especially with the things that he is saying. I realize they may just be wild rantings or threats from a person with no potential spine... but still. After last night it was a wake up call to the threat that he potentially has given to me. He is a regular customer on top of that so work tomorrow should be interesting. After the first couple phone calls I ended up calling my one few friends who actually understand where I am coming from when it comes to these topics, Chris. I had my crying moment, and have now somehow convinced myself that it is my fault and that I will fix it, somehow. I mean all I really need is caller id, right? Despite my emotional night I really enjoyed speaking with him because he actually is one of the few people that can understand the personal workings of my life. That and I was able to actually express to someone just how worried everyone is about my mom's worsening condition. With all of this included I am an emotional trainwreck with an upcoming exam. I know I have to put things out of the way to think straight, its just so hard while taking care of the two girls, trying to entertain them, study, take care of my mom, work and dealing with this sick pig who keeps calling. I suppose it wouldn't have been so bad, but the last time he called I thought it was a friend who I haven't talked to in a while and when the person on the other end asked my major in university, me being an idiot said "criminology", to which his comment was "So that means you have an obsession with crime and people being in an unwilling situation". Um, no... but you know, I kinda went silent and realized who it was. My bad. Now this guy thinks I have a fetish for criminals and such, super. I'm sure I am just over reacting.. I hope I am over reacting. Better yet, hopefully he will get bored and realize that I am not interested.
Leave it to me to attract some 30-35 year old guy who doesn't know when the fuck to give up. As I said... work should be fun, as will studying.
Although I was able to talk to some about this little encounter I still can't help but feel alone. I mean what would happen if I actually was approached by this person after I leave work? My only fear with that is that I will freeze up. I can usually hold my own ground, not the strongest person, but enough to put up a fight. I am left to feel not only vulnerable/small but also so very alone in all of this. I guess this is just another one of those things I really need to learn how to take care of myself along with caller id...