Does it really matter?

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Okay, today was the course selection day along with study my ass off day, so far I have picked my courses. The two girls drove me absolutely nuts today so it promoted procrastination. I also got into a huge fight with a friend. Apparently I walk away/disappear when I am angry and I push people away. Go figure. So anyways, I was bitched at for that along with not letting people in and apparently friends can't be expected to care if they are given nothing to care about. Ouch. Slightly harsh, but I deserve it. What was the point in attempting to save a friendship if by doing so I fucking destroyed it. I burst a bubble and in doing so that was it. I am no longer going to try to keep in contact or attempt to make ammends... its probably for the better that I for once have the strength to just pick up and move on from this. I am the one that fucked things up, I should be the one to stay the hell away. All we do is fight now anyways, which is of course my fault. Yipee.. another conscience muncher.

I can't fight off people while attempting to convince myself its all for the better