I hate this place
Every once and a while I am reminded how just how much I fucking hate where I am. My cousin is here for two weeks, that doesn't mean I should have to drop everything to entertain my cousin and my sister. I have a fucking midterm on Tuesday and I am expected to take them somewhere every fucking day I don't have work or school... thats all very fucking well and good if it were not for the fact I have to fucking study. Not to mention me getting bitched at fucking endlessly because a chair was too close to a table..wtf. I hate how they can make me feel like I am absolutely worthless and not going anywhere. I feel like I have to support and no one is even there to catch me if I fall behind or start to feel like complete shit. Yes this whole thing may sound like just another angsty person bitching about their homelife, but I have honestly had enough. I think I may be developing a problem. Today in order to deal with things I drank... usually I am fine with drinking, but this wasn't for fun. It scared me slightly. Im sure its nothing, I just need to get as far away from here as possible. I wil not turn out like my family, I refuse.