Long entry... But yay! I have random thoughts at the bottom!
Yeah. Update. Sorry about that last post. I get randomly freaked out. I need to thank Donkey because she made me feel a lot better. She thinks it doesn't work and that she just sounds stupid but it really helps. I think she knows and understands me more than anyone probably could. So yeah... thanks because it really helped me from doing anything. It was just really weird and I know. Sorry about that but you probably know about that. :)
Mmhmm. I'm sick. It could be a lot worse though. I have a sinus infection... the same as I had back in like May where I had the worst earache and sore throat ever. I couldn't even eat. Since I learned that it doesn't go away on its own I didn't force myself to go through the pain for weeks I went to the doctor. I felt bad though because my dad insisted I go but I didn't have any medical insurance since my mom lost her job so it cost a bit of money. I was sitting in the room waiting for the doctor and freaked out because my left tonsil was huge and the other one wasn't at all... so i was afraid i'd have to have them out or something but the lady didn't even look in my mouth. ::shrugs:: She found out I didn't have insurance so she gave me free samples and crossed out half of the prescriptions but yeah... i want to get better so I kind of wanted those but bleh. I got antibiotics, nose spray crap, and eye drops. This only seems to be affecting the left side of me. My ear hurts everytime I swallow, yawn, talk too much, or sleep. So I haven't been sleeping much. My left eye is completely red and I can't wear my contacts... my throat hurts about as much as my ear... it really sucks. I hate sinus infections. Could be worse... at least my nose is stuffed up... yet. I'm probably jinxing myself or something. Bleh.
Yeah and like in my last entries... I've been kind of spazzed out or something. Randomly crying and such but I can't really figure it out. My dad says it because I've been through a lot recently but if I look at it, it isn't really that bad. I mean it could be so much worse. I guess I'm just really lonely. I hate being up here. Not like I really did anything when I lived on the westside but still... at least I was in a familiar area. I did get Rachel back as a friend though. I'm happy about that. I guess it was just some misunderstanding or something. ::shrugs:: I'm doing stuff with people this week so maybe it won't be so bad. I'm supposedly spending the night with Rachel on wednesday and then going to the fair/concert with Donkey. That'll be weird because that band is just way too christian. I don't have a problem with it and I'll have a good time but if I read the lyrics its just so... religious. And being atheist I find the idea of me going funny... lol... I think it will be fun though. I haven't been to the fair since I was little and traumatized by the damn ride where the floor drops out. I AM NOT riding that ride Donkey... don't even try. lol...
Yeah but she went to the hanson show with me and put up with the drunk girl... lol. ::grins:: I swear that was the best time of my life. I hated the fact that fans have gotten so rude. I mean I heard some really bitchy people and the crowd was nuts. I was on h.net and someone showed me a link where people were just criticizing the hell out of people that they've never even talked to. I mean getting REALLY personal and it was just mean. Maybe I'm stupid but being hanson fans for 7 years... things were so much better before. Now everyone is grown up but gotten less mature mentally. I guess you'd have to experience it but damn... its just pathetic. Hanson.net is nothing but pathetic drama. It was still the best night of my life though. The music was awesome... and I actually danced. lol... I wish I could relive that... I don't care about those damn fans. This is really weird. ::shrugs:: I don't usually rant about hanson but what the hell. No one really reads my long entries anyway.
So I'm bored and can't sleep. I'd rant more if I could get my mind to stop wandering... Blah
Random thoughts or something:
1. Eating too many ice popcicles will cause the roof of your mouth to become raw.
2. Reading creepy stories when you're the only one up at night and in an unfamiliar house can be kind of unnerving.
3. Sam's Choice tastes exactly like coke but so much cheaper.
4. If you don't like hanson but have to go to a show... at least you get to see up a lot of skirts while waiting in line. ::smirks::
5. I didn't look... I swear... ;) lol...
6. Drinking is bad when you have to throw ping pong balls into a cup.
7. Never tell my sister that you are going to let your boyfriend make decisions for you ::coughRachelcough::
8. Losing medicine in my car is not good. Especially when you have to hang upside down to find it and it ends up on the other side of the car.
9. I like to dance when no one is watching.
10... and I don't talk to inanimate(sp?) things when I'm lonely... nope. never.
Mmhmm. I'm sick. It could be a lot worse though. I have a sinus infection... the same as I had back in like May where I had the worst earache and sore throat ever. I couldn't even eat. Since I learned that it doesn't go away on its own I didn't force myself to go through the pain for weeks I went to the doctor. I felt bad though because my dad insisted I go but I didn't have any medical insurance since my mom lost her job so it cost a bit of money. I was sitting in the room waiting for the doctor and freaked out because my left tonsil was huge and the other one wasn't at all... so i was afraid i'd have to have them out or something but the lady didn't even look in my mouth. ::shrugs:: She found out I didn't have insurance so she gave me free samples and crossed out half of the prescriptions but yeah... i want to get better so I kind of wanted those but bleh. I got antibiotics, nose spray crap, and eye drops. This only seems to be affecting the left side of me. My ear hurts everytime I swallow, yawn, talk too much, or sleep. So I haven't been sleeping much. My left eye is completely red and I can't wear my contacts... my throat hurts about as much as my ear... it really sucks. I hate sinus infections. Could be worse... at least my nose is stuffed up... yet. I'm probably jinxing myself or something. Bleh.
Yeah and like in my last entries... I've been kind of spazzed out or something. Randomly crying and such but I can't really figure it out. My dad says it because I've been through a lot recently but if I look at it, it isn't really that bad. I mean it could be so much worse. I guess I'm just really lonely. I hate being up here. Not like I really did anything when I lived on the westside but still... at least I was in a familiar area. I did get Rachel back as a friend though. I'm happy about that. I guess it was just some misunderstanding or something. ::shrugs:: I'm doing stuff with people this week so maybe it won't be so bad. I'm supposedly spending the night with Rachel on wednesday and then going to the fair/concert with Donkey. That'll be weird because that band is just way too christian. I don't have a problem with it and I'll have a good time but if I read the lyrics its just so... religious. And being atheist I find the idea of me going funny... lol... I think it will be fun though. I haven't been to the fair since I was little and traumatized by the damn ride where the floor drops out. I AM NOT riding that ride Donkey... don't even try. lol...
Yeah but she went to the hanson show with me and put up with the drunk girl... lol. ::grins:: I swear that was the best time of my life. I hated the fact that fans have gotten so rude. I mean I heard some really bitchy people and the crowd was nuts. I was on h.net and someone showed me a link where people were just criticizing the hell out of people that they've never even talked to. I mean getting REALLY personal and it was just mean. Maybe I'm stupid but being hanson fans for 7 years... things were so much better before. Now everyone is grown up but gotten less mature mentally. I guess you'd have to experience it but damn... its just pathetic. Hanson.net is nothing but pathetic drama. It was still the best night of my life though. The music was awesome... and I actually danced. lol... I wish I could relive that... I don't care about those damn fans. This is really weird. ::shrugs:: I don't usually rant about hanson but what the hell. No one really reads my long entries anyway.
So I'm bored and can't sleep. I'd rant more if I could get my mind to stop wandering... Blah
Random thoughts or something:
1. Eating too many ice popcicles will cause the roof of your mouth to become raw.
2. Reading creepy stories when you're the only one up at night and in an unfamiliar house can be kind of unnerving.
3. Sam's Choice tastes exactly like coke but so much cheaper.
4. If you don't like hanson but have to go to a show... at least you get to see up a lot of skirts while waiting in line. ::smirks::
5. I didn't look... I swear... ;) lol...
6. Drinking is bad when you have to throw ping pong balls into a cup.
7. Never tell my sister that you are going to let your boyfriend make decisions for you ::coughRachelcough::
8. Losing medicine in my car is not good. Especially when you have to hang upside down to find it and it ends up on the other side of the car.
9. I like to dance when no one is watching.
10... and I don't talk to inanimate(sp?) things when I'm lonely... nope. never.