"...trying to get myself to get out of my way..."
Yeah... I haven't really been home the past couple days. Actually most of the week... Monday(I think) night I was upset about something. I'm not sure exactly what it is but i got really weird. I called Justin because I just needed to talk to someone and I guess he could tell I was upset so I went over to get him and we stayed the night at my moms house.
Tuesday Justin didn't have to go to work and my mom insisted on taking me to a job fair so he came with me. I hate dressing up but I sort of did anyway. All the jobs there sucked. I think I only put in 3 apps. Better than nothing though, right? Yeah... so we left and I took Justin to fedex so he could fill out an application but he didn't have all of the stuff he needed so we left. And he came to my house with me to pack some stuff because I was staying the night with Rachel... and then I took him home.
Later I went to Rachel's and she needed to go to priscillas to get some stuff for some kind of cake thing... then we rented movies but I fell asleep during the second one... went to bed and got up to get ready to go pick up donkey...
So I picked her up to go to the state fair where her concert was going to be. We got there and nothing was really open so we just randomly walked. Finally the rides opened and I spent all my money on that wrist band to let you ride rides... We didn't even really ride that many. It ended up freakishly cold so we called her mom who brought us hoodies and money. Yeah so we just walked around for a long time. I followed donkey as she attempted to stalk them but they didn't get there until right before the show. Before the show we saw these really awesome African acrobats though... lol. And i pet a baby cow. Yay for me. They opened the gates to the concert and we got to our seats. It wasn't that bad. They are just way too christian for me. I felt like I was at a very pushy church or something. Donkey you don't need to apologize to me for any of that... it was your concert. As long as you were happy then its okay. But yeah... we ended up leaving around 10:30 pm... so thats 13 hours at the state fair. Better than sitting at home though.
I ended up going home that night because I just kind of needed to be alone. I don't really know why. I guess it was just because I hadn't had my own stuff for days. I fell asleep like right when I layed on the bed.
So today I was supposed to go with Anthony and Donkey but I didn't have any gas money so I just slept. Then I got up and steph happened to be home and I talked her into giving me some money for gas. I had to go to my moms because she said she'd give me money for hanson tickets for my birthday... So I went to pick up Justin because he asked me to take him to this pmi place that finds jobs for people... and we went to my moms. I ended up with $70... and I was happy. The concert I was going to get tickets to was on the 15th and Justin said he'd go... I know he doesn't like hanson but I really wanted him to go with me. Then we went to that pmi place and we both filled out these applications. They told me they couldn't help me because I don't have any job experience... that sucked... and justin had to have more ID so he is going back on monday. Then we headed to marsh to the ticketmaster... when we were getting there Justin told me that he forgot he was recording that day... I was kind of upset but it wasn't his fault. So I go in there to get the tickets anyway and they said they don't know anything about that show. It was on the website though so I didn't end up with tickets. Then I was really upset. I hate trying not to cry... especially something as stupid as all that. ::shrugs:: I've decided that I'm going to a pennsylvania show and justin says he can go to that one. I just hope I have enough gas.
I guess today just kind of sucked. Everything seems to be going wrong. I can't get a job or even go to a place that is supposed to help me find one. None of those jobs that I applied for has even called. My birthday is going to suck so bad. ::shrugs:: I guess birthdays shouldn't matter. My dad and chris will be gone, Justin will be gone, I can't get these damn hanson tickets... and my birthday present from my mom is just going to end up costing me money because I have to drive all the way to PA and back. I also don't get to do the gymnastics thing that I wanted for it... So i've decided that I'm just going to stay home by myself all day. Steph will be back at purdue by then anyway... I hate birthdays. It shouldn't bother me but it does. Oh well. Nothing I can do. I just hope I can get these damn tickets.
Tuesday Justin didn't have to go to work and my mom insisted on taking me to a job fair so he came with me. I hate dressing up but I sort of did anyway. All the jobs there sucked. I think I only put in 3 apps. Better than nothing though, right? Yeah... so we left and I took Justin to fedex so he could fill out an application but he didn't have all of the stuff he needed so we left. And he came to my house with me to pack some stuff because I was staying the night with Rachel... and then I took him home.
Later I went to Rachel's and she needed to go to priscillas to get some stuff for some kind of cake thing... then we rented movies but I fell asleep during the second one... went to bed and got up to get ready to go pick up donkey...
So I picked her up to go to the state fair where her concert was going to be. We got there and nothing was really open so we just randomly walked. Finally the rides opened and I spent all my money on that wrist band to let you ride rides... We didn't even really ride that many. It ended up freakishly cold so we called her mom who brought us hoodies and money. Yeah so we just walked around for a long time. I followed donkey as she attempted to stalk them but they didn't get there until right before the show. Before the show we saw these really awesome African acrobats though... lol. And i pet a baby cow. Yay for me. They opened the gates to the concert and we got to our seats. It wasn't that bad. They are just way too christian for me. I felt like I was at a very pushy church or something. Donkey you don't need to apologize to me for any of that... it was your concert. As long as you were happy then its okay. But yeah... we ended up leaving around 10:30 pm... so thats 13 hours at the state fair. Better than sitting at home though.
I ended up going home that night because I just kind of needed to be alone. I don't really know why. I guess it was just because I hadn't had my own stuff for days. I fell asleep like right when I layed on the bed.
So today I was supposed to go with Anthony and Donkey but I didn't have any gas money so I just slept. Then I got up and steph happened to be home and I talked her into giving me some money for gas. I had to go to my moms because she said she'd give me money for hanson tickets for my birthday... So I went to pick up Justin because he asked me to take him to this pmi place that finds jobs for people... and we went to my moms. I ended up with $70... and I was happy. The concert I was going to get tickets to was on the 15th and Justin said he'd go... I know he doesn't like hanson but I really wanted him to go with me. Then we went to that pmi place and we both filled out these applications. They told me they couldn't help me because I don't have any job experience... that sucked... and justin had to have more ID so he is going back on monday. Then we headed to marsh to the ticketmaster... when we were getting there Justin told me that he forgot he was recording that day... I was kind of upset but it wasn't his fault. So I go in there to get the tickets anyway and they said they don't know anything about that show. It was on the website though so I didn't end up with tickets. Then I was really upset. I hate trying not to cry... especially something as stupid as all that. ::shrugs:: I've decided that I'm going to a pennsylvania show and justin says he can go to that one. I just hope I have enough gas.
I guess today just kind of sucked. Everything seems to be going wrong. I can't get a job or even go to a place that is supposed to help me find one. None of those jobs that I applied for has even called. My birthday is going to suck so bad. ::shrugs:: I guess birthdays shouldn't matter. My dad and chris will be gone, Justin will be gone, I can't get these damn hanson tickets... and my birthday present from my mom is just going to end up costing me money because I have to drive all the way to PA and back. I also don't get to do the gymnastics thing that I wanted for it... So i've decided that I'm just going to stay home by myself all day. Steph will be back at purdue by then anyway... I hate birthdays. It shouldn't bother me but it does. Oh well. Nothing I can do. I just hope I can get these damn tickets.