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Last night I started reading my old entries, all the way back from 2002. It seems so distant. Like did I really live those things? Everything from high school drama, to first love and all the experiences with it, to memories of friends and my old house, its all one big blur. And I realized how lucky I am to have this journal to look back on because otherwise im afraid precious memories would be lost. And then I started thinking...the last real entry I had in here was months ago...and this is supposed to be one of the most exciting times in my life, I want it recorded, I want to look back on this and remember the end of my high school, the last summer before college, hell, the beginning of college. I cant believe I'm already there.
I leave for Ithaca College on Saturday. 5 hours away, totally independant this time, im hittin the road again. This past year has been a weird experience. Moving to NY was both good and bad for me...you can always learn from change. I grew up alot and I realized all the things that were actually important. My friends, who I consider my family, and who I love with all my heart. You guys are all I missed from that little town I called home. Because you made it home. The year is finally here when we ALL go off to college. The people around you are what make any place, home. It doesnt matter where you are, what house or shack your living in...the love around you is what matters. I live with my mom now and I know that wherever she goes, will always be home to me. The hungarian club HAS always been home to me. Its stayed constant throughout my life ever since I was a child, even when I moved 5 or 6 times. I love that place and Im glad I have it to turn to, and every summer, you can find me there. And as I leave in a few days, to make Ithaca my next home, I always remember all the places I ever had the priviledge of calling home. I've learned so much because of all my moving experiences that Im not afraid to leave again. Im excited. Hell, im looking forward to it. I remember back in December 2004 when I started saying AHH i wish I were at college. Well time flies and here we are. To all of you going off to college this fall, please enjoy yourselves...youre so young and have a million oppertunities at your feet. Good luck.
As I read my past entries I realized that there were things that I tried putting into words that would frustrate me because I couldnt. And I remember thinking, one day when Im older this will be easier. Well its not easier...Life is just as confusing as before but now, I welcome it. The one thing I learned about myself over the past year was this. Life is too damn short...so we have to do whatever the hell we want, whenever we the hell we want. Because as the years go on, we wont have the same oppertunities. I think back to all the past summers and I look at how they've changed over the years. This summer for instance. Was a lot more layed back, with just a few special memories I can highlight. This goes to show that things change, but still, they can stay the same. I remember stopping at the Bauers and watching the boys in the garage working, and running up to them and hugging them because I hadnt seen them in months. Then getting to Stephs house for the first time this summer and getting so comfortable with practically living there again. Then the first night out at the tanya...and then all the nights that followed...my favorite being my moms birthday celebration and how all the adults were wasted and we had that food fight, and then chased each other with the hoses, everyone soaked and stripping down to change into dry clothes. Then the skinny dipping. That of coruse was awesome, and it WILL happen again next year. Making naked friends WHILE naked. And all this not even drunk, cuz who the hell needs alcohol to have fun, at least this way I remember it better. Seeing Bobby and Zsolt, and Monie and Kinga, and everyone else I grew up with out there. Man how we grew up...where did the time go? and seeing how people changed, can be heartbreaking and exciting at the same time.
So summer 2005, where did you go?
And 2005-2006, will be such a journey...and I will make sure I write in here. I want to remember everything. And after 3 more years, when I look back, this will be right here and I'll recognize these memories and sitting at the computer writing this out. I hope it brings good thoughs.
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So as my first real update, here we go. I already mentioned Im leaving on Saturday. But until then I still have a lot of shopping to do. Still have waay too much packing to do. My roommate is a girl named Jessica Zerillo from NJ and her and I are really getting along so far. Im excited to meet new people and strt my classes. This past weekend I had to say bye to my best friends for the last time, and ill only see them around thanksgiving and xmas. Mike, Dustin, Steph, take care of yourselves...stay safe and i'll see you soon. And to everyone else that I didnt get a chance to say bye to.
Well, im gunna try to update more, just for myself, for a record of everything. And thats it. I have to go pack some more.
I leave for Ithaca College on Saturday. 5 hours away, totally independant this time, im hittin the road again. This past year has been a weird experience. Moving to NY was both good and bad for me...you can always learn from change. I grew up alot and I realized all the things that were actually important. My friends, who I consider my family, and who I love with all my heart. You guys are all I missed from that little town I called home. Because you made it home. The year is finally here when we ALL go off to college. The people around you are what make any place, home. It doesnt matter where you are, what house or shack your living in...the love around you is what matters. I live with my mom now and I know that wherever she goes, will always be home to me. The hungarian club HAS always been home to me. Its stayed constant throughout my life ever since I was a child, even when I moved 5 or 6 times. I love that place and Im glad I have it to turn to, and every summer, you can find me there. And as I leave in a few days, to make Ithaca my next home, I always remember all the places I ever had the priviledge of calling home. I've learned so much because of all my moving experiences that Im not afraid to leave again. Im excited. Hell, im looking forward to it. I remember back in December 2004 when I started saying AHH i wish I were at college. Well time flies and here we are. To all of you going off to college this fall, please enjoy yourselves...youre so young and have a million oppertunities at your feet. Good luck.
As I read my past entries I realized that there were things that I tried putting into words that would frustrate me because I couldnt. And I remember thinking, one day when Im older this will be easier. Well its not easier...Life is just as confusing as before but now, I welcome it. The one thing I learned about myself over the past year was this. Life is too damn short...so we have to do whatever the hell we want, whenever we the hell we want. Because as the years go on, we wont have the same oppertunities. I think back to all the past summers and I look at how they've changed over the years. This summer for instance. Was a lot more layed back, with just a few special memories I can highlight. This goes to show that things change, but still, they can stay the same. I remember stopping at the Bauers and watching the boys in the garage working, and running up to them and hugging them because I hadnt seen them in months. Then getting to Stephs house for the first time this summer and getting so comfortable with practically living there again. Then the first night out at the tanya...and then all the nights that followed...my favorite being my moms birthday celebration and how all the adults were wasted and we had that food fight, and then chased each other with the hoses, everyone soaked and stripping down to change into dry clothes. Then the skinny dipping. That of coruse was awesome, and it WILL happen again next year. Making naked friends WHILE naked. And all this not even drunk, cuz who the hell needs alcohol to have fun, at least this way I remember it better. Seeing Bobby and Zsolt, and Monie and Kinga, and everyone else I grew up with out there. Man how we grew up...where did the time go? and seeing how people changed, can be heartbreaking and exciting at the same time.
So summer 2005, where did you go?
And 2005-2006, will be such a journey...and I will make sure I write in here. I want to remember everything. And after 3 more years, when I look back, this will be right here and I'll recognize these memories and sitting at the computer writing this out. I hope it brings good thoughs.
........................................................................
So as my first real update, here we go. I already mentioned Im leaving on Saturday. But until then I still have a lot of shopping to do. Still have waay too much packing to do. My roommate is a girl named Jessica Zerillo from NJ and her and I are really getting along so far. Im excited to meet new people and strt my classes. This past weekend I had to say bye to my best friends for the last time, and ill only see them around thanksgiving and xmas. Mike, Dustin, Steph, take care of yourselves...stay safe and i'll see you soon. And to everyone else that I didnt get a chance to say bye to.
Well, im gunna try to update more, just for myself, for a record of everything. And thats it. I have to go pack some more.