So I'm thinking to myself things will start over once I move, but actucally the people who are following me i guess you can say get ahold of me by phone or messages...not that i see in person.  i just want to be left alone...its not enough to rip someones heart out billions of times... just forget that and be my best friend?  No I cant even express ( Read more... )

So its been a little over 2 months...some of my friends are getting married and runing around looking for dresses and registering.  Im happy for them but it makes me sad.  I wanna do that!  I wanna be done with school and all the stuff.  It sucks this week im in this 'im never getting married phase'  I hate it I hate how i feel like that was my ( Read more... )

i dont wake up thinking about him or go to bed thinking about him or dream about him.  Those are the worst.  The dreams really get to me, bc in the dreams he is absolutly amazing the greatest guy anyone could ever ask for...it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time. 
Today was crappy
work was work, then came the doctors....i hate ( Read more... )

Today is really hard....i had a date last night, it was horrible.  I hated it i didnt want to be there at all.  I feel bad for the guy bc i wasnt all there.  I cant date right now im not ready i came home and cried for 3 hours.  Like everything is a constant reminder.  Im so like depressed right now and I hate it.  I hate it so much I want it to go ( Read more... )