Feb 13, 2015 21:56
A guy I know who's involved with another girl is flirting with me and sending nudes through snapchat. This is not a problem for me, since I tell my boyfriend everything I say to him (we have an open relationship), however, I'm pretty sure his girlfriend knows nothing about this whole thing.
While I KNOW I'm supposed te tell the guy to fuck off, I never do. I get a real kick out of getting him so worked up with all my dirty talk (without ever sending nudes of myself- as a precaution) that he sends pictures showing me how much he enjoys it. I can even make him do it at work. Not only is it arousing, seducing him makes me feel so fucking powerful and I haven't had a lot of experiences where I felt like I could make a guy do whatever I want.
Secondly: I just don't feel responisble for his actions. HE is the one who always starts the conversation normally and then guides it in a lewd direction. HE is crossing a line in his relationship, not me. Even though I know that I should feel at least a little guilty that I'm enabling him to do this to his girlfriend (who is a real sweetheart btw), I simply don't. At least with me, the girl can be sure I'm not trying to steal him from her in a romantic way.
Thirdly: it feels like payback for the way he rejected me romantically (really petty, I know). He didn't want me then, he will now know what it's like to desire me and not be able to HAVE me. HAH.
Seriously, just hearing myself think all this.... I feel so bad for not caring as much as I should.