these things shouldnt happen..but what do they matter anyway..
another great night in tracy..
but..i hate myself...
i keep falling and falling..
when will i hit the fucking ground..huh?
you tell me..cuz it seems like everytime i think i hit bottom..
the ground breaks under me..
i know the way i feel..i know how things are..
BUT DAMMIT!!!!!!!
you said you would talk to me..
you promised..
i shouldve known better than to ( Read more... )
but..i hate myself...
i keep falling and falling..
when will i hit the fucking ground..huh?
you tell me..cuz it seems like everytime i think i hit bottom..
the ground breaks under me..
i know the way i feel..i know how things are..
BUT DAMMIT!!!!!!!
you said you would talk to me..
you promised..
i shouldve known better than to ( Read more... )
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how long was i with you for ?
how much of a chance did you have ?
til 1 in the morning.
You waited til 1 in the morning to want to talk to me ?
kay...
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ended with you on the phone..
i went outside to talk to you..
but you had to go to the bathroom..thats not bad im just saying..
then i asked where you were headed to talk to your friend..
so i just sat..and waited..
i didnt wanna interrupt your phone conversation..
anyways im sorry for this entry..
it was drunken bullshit..
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You ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS get mad at me...
You always make me feel hellof guilty about things ...
&You always find ways to bring me down ...
TELL ME THAT ISN'T TRUE JAY R.
Yeah, I'm hellof pissed off right now ...
Be all upset &mad as much as you want to.
But you just know that I can be just as mad.
&Just as hurtful.
So come on.
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natalie..your not the bad guy..nobody is..
find ways to bring you down?..
so you think i spend my nights thinking hmmm how can i hurt natalie..
too bad your wrong...i think far from that..
pissed off about what?..
im not upset nor mad..
jeez way to be malicious..
natalie..i love you..enough said..
if you dont understand that.i hope you do eventually..
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JayR... Look at how you acted the other night ...
You got mad at me... or upset... or whatever.. because I didn't talk to you.
Yes. I told you I'd always be there for you to talk to.
But you have to do a little something ...
TELL ME THAT YOU WANT TO TALK.
I'm not a mindreader.
I don't know when you're ready &when you're not.
It TOTALLY seems like you find ways to be mad at me.
Every time we have a night together we always end up fighting except that night when I was drunk &you weren't.
Idk why it was so different then ..
I didn't do ANYTHING the other night.
Which made me question ... Hmm... DOES he just find ways to make me upset ? DOES he find reasons to be mad at me ?
Way to say I'M malicious when it seems like that's exactly what YOU'RE doing.
How the hell am I being malicious ?
When you're the one sitting here writing LJ entries about me, posting comments on my myspace about "broken promises".
Broken promise ?
Right. When did you come up to me &say you want to talk ? When did at that point I turned &walk away ?
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your right..i didnt ask you to talk..
i do right entries about you..
i do..
it wasnt a broken promise..
your not a mindreader..
and im totally an idiot..
but i dont find ways to get mad at you..
i dont find ways to make you upset
it just happens..alot..
were just friends..i understand that..
and im just gonna leave it as is..
cuz i dont wanna ruin our friendship
im still here for you..
you know you can talk to me..
you know im here...
you have my number..
use it as you please..
im sorry for everything natalie..
EVERYTHING
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It just happens ?
JUST happens ?
Tell me why &how it JUST happens ...
I'd really like to know ...
&No, I don't want anything to ruin our friendship either ...
But it REALLY seems like it is ..
Like the other night ...
When you were singing all those songs ..
Tell me why each one COULD'VE related to me...
Even if you weren't singing them because I was there ..
Even if you weren't singing them to ME...
Every one of them related to our situation ..
It was SO nice ... Yeah ... SOOOOO nice.
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lets just drop it please..
lets leave it at friends..
so theres less arguements..
please..
i wasnt singing about you...
believe me please..
yes it could relate..
but i like those sings..
and there fun to sing..
im sorry if you took it the wrong way..
im sorry..
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There's plenty of other everything.
I give up on everything.
Treat me how you will.
I don't really care anymore.
You're right ... It's better we don't fight.
So say what you want ..
Do what you want ..
I'll just stand back &take it.
Not say a word...
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