these things shouldnt happen..but what do they matter anyway..
another great night in tracy..
but..i hate myself...
i keep falling and falling..
when will i hit the fucking ground..huh?
you tell me..cuz it seems like everytime i think i hit bottom..
the ground breaks under me..
i know the way i feel..i know how things are..
BUT DAMMIT!!!!!!!
you said you would talk to me..
you promised..
i shouldve known better than to trust a promise..i shouldve just known better..
i tried to wait it out..i really did..
i sat on the computer waiting for YOU to get back..
but you dissapeared..
i wanted to talk to you..i wanted to show you that i could talk to you in person..
i wanted you...
but i shouldve known better..
i like things right now..you know everything..
ive never been soo open with anyone about my feelings ever..
but once again...BAM!
but hey its my fault..its always my fault...
i shouldnt have held such high expectations..cuz once again i let myself down..
YOU didnt let me down..i let MYSELF down...
soo dont go beat yourself up about this...
cuz the bruises i cause my own heart will hurt enough for the both of us..
but..i hate myself...
i keep falling and falling..
when will i hit the fucking ground..huh?
you tell me..cuz it seems like everytime i think i hit bottom..
the ground breaks under me..
i know the way i feel..i know how things are..
BUT DAMMIT!!!!!!!
you said you would talk to me..
you promised..
i shouldve known better than to trust a promise..i shouldve just known better..
i tried to wait it out..i really did..
i sat on the computer waiting for YOU to get back..
but you dissapeared..
i wanted to talk to you..i wanted to show you that i could talk to you in person..
i wanted you...
but i shouldve known better..
i like things right now..you know everything..
ive never been soo open with anyone about my feelings ever..
but once again...BAM!
but hey its my fault..its always my fault...
i shouldnt have held such high expectations..cuz once again i let myself down..
YOU didnt let me down..i let MYSELF down...
soo dont go beat yourself up about this...
cuz the bruises i cause my own heart will hurt enough for the both of us..