there have been a lot of changes in my life lately, some good, some bad. i know i haven't updated in forever so i decided to just do a bulleted post, to make it easier ( Read more... )

this is pretty much a smorgasbord entry, i suppose ( Read more... )

it seems like a constant in my life lately that my home life is shitty, and it really sucks ( Read more... )

brian and i broke up. I knew it was inevitable and best for both of us right now but that doesn't stop me from feeling miserable and like someone is ripping my heart right out of my chest.

i told tom i would make my decision one way or another this weekend, him versus brian. brian and i are going to a family thing so we'll see how it turns out (last time, a few weekends ago, he left me alone with like thirty people i didn't know and went golfing with his cousin instead for four hours), and we're going to the casino (where we usually ( Read more... )

introducing...


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brian and i have been on the verge of breaking up for like three days now. we had a big blowup last week about me closing down when things happen and shutting him out, and we had a three hour conversation about things we need fixed and how to change them. he knows that things are rough with me and not stable with us, but he's not fighting for me. ( Read more... )

sometimes i think i feel things more intensely than others, and i worry that it will be bad for me ( Read more... )

pet post!!

i forgot to mention that katie's cat had babies (actually, two did -- a total of eight kittens lol) and i am getting one!! i have named her phoebe buffay and she gets to come home in two weeks yaaay! she is so adorable, man, see:


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fuckin' life ( Read more... )