Unaware that I’m tearing you asunder…

[sexytarawitch]

My dreams were filled with images that I wanted to do anything to scrub them out of my memory. I wasn’t sure what made my heart hurt more, killing people or the idea of Spike and I fighting for years

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[theurbancowboy]

I had to keep myself from swearing when her cold hands came into contact with my chest, she did some kind of magic and the pain was just gone. Well now that could come in handy I guess. Her hands were still there, resting against my skin and her head rested against my chest.

Fuck how could such cold hands feel like they were burning me? What the fuck is this girl doing to me? And why the hell did she have to go an get herself turned into a vampire? I mean come on, this is taking irony a touch too far don't you think?

I can't help but feel a sense of pride at her words, she came here, she says there's no where else to go but I know there where other places she could have turned, maybe none that were very great prospects but still, she choose here, with me.

I sighed and wrapped my arms around her waist. What the fuck am I going to say? I decided days ago that I wanted her and hell if I'm going to turn her away now, especially when she needs someone to just be here when her prick of a lover can't see what she needs.

"How about you stick around then?"

[sexytarawitch]

I felt him relax and put his arms around me, I did the same, putting my hands on his warm skin and closing my eyes. A soft moan escaped my lips and I pressed my body to his.

Swallowing hard I tried to get my brain to settle again as it started to spin out of control. "I feel so numb Lindsey, I can't feel...I don't know what's going on with me."

I started to cry softly, swallowing hard before I spoke. "D-do you really? Do you really want me around? I mean...Last time you got hurt, I don't want you hurt..." It's not like Spike could hurt him, but he did have access to money to pay someone - again.

"I'm so cold..." I pulled back slightly from him, feeling upset that I got his clothes wet. 'I'm sorry...I..." I sighed and swore silently when I realized I left all the clothes that I bought at the Magick Box. "I didn't...I don't have anything...I...I can't do anything right..."

[theurbancowboy]

"Just shut the fuck up ok,"

Man, I'm an asshole. Yeah well at least I didn't fucking kill her because she wanted to leave me. Though I think I get the need to keep her around no matter the cost. Still I wouldn't have fucking killed her, asshole.

"Shut. The. Fuck. Up."

I do the stupidest thing that I could possibly do at this moment, I grab her face in my hands and kiss her hard, she doesn't react at first, her body's rigid with shock and then she melts into me, kissing me back like she can't not be kissing me. Which fuck, I'm perfectly ok with. I shouldn't do this, she's broken and hurt and doesn't need some fucked up hick lawyer making her life more complicated.

Fuck that, she made her life this complicated and she came here of her own free will, if she wants to pull away then she will.

She doesn't and I keep kissing her, feeling my body harden when she presses against me. Finally I pull back and hold her away from me by the shoulders, I need to breathe. And hell, she doesn't. What the fuck is up with me and vampires?

"I didn't leave two weeks ago after this happened for a goddamn reason. Three guesses why and the first two don't count."