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I've been in a lot of pain lately. I should be going to the doctor's today to find out what's going on. They might induce me really early. A part of me really hopes they do. I want this over and done with. I'm so sick of being pregnant. It's supposed to be something you enjoy with the child's father, and I'm not lucky enough to. Even when he was around he never seemed excited about the appointments or anything. He never wanted this baby, I'm sure of it now. I wish his mom would stay out of it and let us give it away, but she's weird and she probably wants to raise it as her own son or something like that. My mom is willing to let me make my own decision and support me no matter what, why can't she support him? He DOESN'T WANT this baby, he NEVER did. I don't see why she doesn't comprehend that. I'm also glad I don't have to deal with his family any more. And he doesn't have to deal with mine. All of our parents were rude and fucked up to each other and us. I wish we could just run away with each other. If not, next time I'm definitely not getting serious with somebody unless my parents approve, and his do as well. But, that won't be for a long ass time. I'm done with love and all the lies and bullshit that come with it. All I wanted was Rob. Nobody else will mean anything for quite some time. You don't get over that kind of love for somebody. I might not ever go away and I'm okay with that.
Just please let this pregnancy end SOON.
Just please let this pregnancy end SOON.