So, about 4 days ago, on Tuesday October 5th Aaron and I broke up. And it sucked. Correction: sucks. The truth? We're both quite busy with school and jobs/band and other such things. We're too busy and it's making us crazy. Too crazy to nurture a relationship. So we called it quits, and we're going to take a step back down to where we were 2 years ago; best friends with probably some residual love hiding underneath, waiting for the right time to make its way back to the surface. Because in my honest opinion backed up by a very reliable gut feeling I have....we're not over forever. I think we had something good going for a vast majority of our relationship. And the fact that it wasn't problems with US it was problems with the world around us that broke us up makes me think that once those problems subside a bit, perhaps during Christmas break or next semester, we can pick up where we left off. I'm sure what Aaron thinks about this possibility, but we'll have to see. No matter what, I do see us staying friends. He remained my best friend through our entire relationship and now that life has made us crazy, I kind of look forward to just peeling back the relationship part to reveal our old friendship. Hopefully it's easy to pick up where we left off without too much pain or mixed feelings. But that just seems a little unlikely. I still never want this to be my secret:
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And hopefully it won't have to be. The bottom line is that I'll love Aaron no matter what. If we're friends, if we become more again. I'm just lucky to have him in my life. But my gut still says that there's something special about the two of us...and I have a hard time ignoring my gut.