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that's it. i'm done with my freshman year of college. i think my mom was right; time does fly faster as you get older. i'm currently sitting my room, emily moved out yesterday, my shit is everywhere with no sign of making its way into boxes any time soon and it hasn't really hit me. i'm moving into the house on monday; 4 days away. it's been 7 months since i signed that lease. so crazy.
things have been less than awesome lately. i'm starting to worry about aaron and i. he is less than pleasant to talk to most of the time, to be honest. in person, he is fine, good, great even. idk. i was also under the impression that he was living in menomonie this summer, apparently i was mistaken. so he'll be in minnesota, i'll be in eau claire. where i'll be working from 3pm to midnight every day of the week. driving a forklift. ugh. but i'll make bank, so that's all that matters. anyway, aaron. idk, i just get the feeling that he is too comfortable, to the point where he is uninterested. and with him working there and me working ridiculous hours here...i worry. idk why i think writing this shit in here will make me feel better. the only thing that will is talking to him and telling him that i'm sick of him being flaky and less than awesome to me. which is what i shall do. because i'm a badass motha who don't take no crap outta nobody. cool runnings anyone? no? you suck.
continuing with the less than awesomeness. yeah, emily and i are pretty much fake friends. how annoying. i mean really, i think we only pretended to be nice so we didn't hate our lives as much when we were in the room. but now that she has been gone for more than 24 hours...i'm realizing how much i like not having to deal with her crazy bullshit. honestly, she was usually full for bullshit and she really is crazy. i'm amazed on how i could find two people in one year, shove myself in a 12x16 box with them and have them turn out to be sooooo...wrong.
i'm not sure why i continue to be so pessimistic when I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL. until monday. when i start my summer class. blehhh. but seriously, i have a lot to look forward to. like when aaron comes to ec for work on weekends and we can go cliff jumping and have bonfires (once i whip him into shape). and sleeping in and being independent. and living in a HOUSE. and having MY OWN ROOM. THAT I DON'T HAVE TO SHARE. and buying my own food (and losing the 15 pounds i gained this year). and fitting into my old jeans because of that last one... yeah. lots to look forward to.
note to self: time spent being angry is time i will never get back to actually enjoy things.
things have been less than awesome lately. i'm starting to worry about aaron and i. he is less than pleasant to talk to most of the time, to be honest. in person, he is fine, good, great even. idk. i was also under the impression that he was living in menomonie this summer, apparently i was mistaken. so he'll be in minnesota, i'll be in eau claire. where i'll be working from 3pm to midnight every day of the week. driving a forklift. ugh. but i'll make bank, so that's all that matters. anyway, aaron. idk, i just get the feeling that he is too comfortable, to the point where he is uninterested. and with him working there and me working ridiculous hours here...i worry. idk why i think writing this shit in here will make me feel better. the only thing that will is talking to him and telling him that i'm sick of him being flaky and less than awesome to me. which is what i shall do. because i'm a badass motha who don't take no crap outta nobody. cool runnings anyone? no? you suck.
continuing with the less than awesomeness. yeah, emily and i are pretty much fake friends. how annoying. i mean really, i think we only pretended to be nice so we didn't hate our lives as much when we were in the room. but now that she has been gone for more than 24 hours...i'm realizing how much i like not having to deal with her crazy bullshit. honestly, she was usually full for bullshit and she really is crazy. i'm amazed on how i could find two people in one year, shove myself in a 12x16 box with them and have them turn out to be sooooo...wrong.
i'm not sure why i continue to be so pessimistic when I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL. until monday. when i start my summer class. blehhh. but seriously, i have a lot to look forward to. like when aaron comes to ec for work on weekends and we can go cliff jumping and have bonfires (once i whip him into shape). and sleeping in and being independent. and living in a HOUSE. and having MY OWN ROOM. THAT I DON'T HAVE TO SHARE. and buying my own food (and losing the 15 pounds i gained this year). and fitting into my old jeans because of that last one... yeah. lots to look forward to.
note to self: time spent being angry is time i will never get back to actually enjoy things.