I think I'm doing the right thing
I think that I am finally at a place where I have just about made a choice on the decision that has been looming over my head. Things with Jeremy have been amazing. I know that he is totally crazy about me. It feels good to be wanted like that. He has what I am looking for. I've been looking for someone who can stand by me when things are hard without adding extra stress to my already crazy life and Jeremy has been doing that all along. He has always been there for me to look out for me and protect me and to see me through everything. He has been my best friend in more ways then I thought possible. I know that I am a lot closer to him then I was to Will before we got together. I want someone who respects me and will keep promises. I know that Jeremy thinks more highly of me then I think of myself and he has never ever lied to me. Somehow I know that he will always be honest with me. I want someone who can make me laugh and he has always been able to bring a smile to my face when it seems like I'll never smile again. I don't think there is any reason not to be with him. I finally told my parents what's been going on and they were so happy. Even my dad was happy and he hates that I date. I just feel like everything is telling me that being with him is right. My options are to be with someone who appriciates me and knows what he has when he has me or to wait around for Will and coninue to get hurt. I feel like when I look at it that way that it's an easy decision. I am really falling in love with Jeremy. I just know this is right for me. This is the first time since Will and I broke up that I feel safe again. It's the first time that I'm not afraid of what Will will think. I'm finally not afraid to let someone in. I finally feel like it's ok to love someone else. And I think that feeling this way is worth everything. This is ther best I've felt in over a year and I can't blow that because of Will. Jeremy has made me see that things with Will aren't ok and that I deserve better then the way he treats me. It finally seems obvious.