my ex, Eddie(sexual assualt), decided to message and try to add me on facebook.

just seeing his face again,
was awful.
why won't he just go back to fucking arizona and stay his ass there?!

I blocked him,
deleted the message.

"I'm sorry if you felt that my kisses hurt you."
fuck you.
I don't owe you anything,
not an explantion or a chance.

2 years ago,
he ( Read more... )

Lost internet for a few days,
thanks cricket.
-_-;

I've not had a fun time lately,
memories just won't leave me alone
and I once again lack a clear understanding of whats real and not
(that is, assuming I had one to begin with),
in a sense any way.

the memories come in nightmares and daydreams,
in random strands of thought and fever visions.

that on top ( Read more... )

( memory )

now I know why I can't stand it when any one touches
the left side of my neck.

( a small expansion on the drunk memories )

( memories of drunks )

my memories are reeeally starting to take a toll on me,

I'm angry and sad,

but so far I've just hidden it,

..probably not a good thing.
>_>;

I'm doing my best though,
I'll keep trying.

( digital rape )

( oral rape )

( me bitching about my sleep problems )