i hate waking up >.
my sleep cycle sucks.
in feb-don't really sleep so much as lie half awake with vivid dreams of abuse I don't remember while convulsing lightly to be forgotten when I become fully awake usually mintues later with no rest at all.
summer-generally I try to sleep through the whole thing.
in the worst cases with me, I'll go to bed at about 8am and sleep til 3 pm,
sleeping past eleven makes me feel like absolute dung all day.
I get this sinus body pressure ache accompanied with an awful headache and various muscles deciding to not work and randomly seize up in a cramp feeling kind of like someone clamping their hand tightly on it or sometimes hitting it very hard and very suddenly.
+ worse dizzy spells than usual(normal for me b/c I don't have that liquid filled thing in your ear that helps with balance) which cause me to on occasion not be able to stand for more than 30 min at a time.
now,
I'm sleeping fitfully,
taking forever to fall asleep(last night, went to bed at 12, last time I looked at the clock it was 4)
than getting all trapped in nightmares I don't remember upon waking up.
my muscles are sore when I wake up and I wake up at random times b/c I feel like some one is either there, watching me, or on me, touching me etc.
I can't focus very well,
I'm completely numb,
haven't even laughed in probably two weeks even though I've seen funny things. -_______-
and I wake up sweaty and really really hot no matter how cool the morning actually is.(well, cool for Texas in the summer anyway which really isn't much lol)
bleckkk