Apr 25, 2011 14:36
I think I have discovered something about myself. I don't know if it's recent or if it's kinda always been lurking.
While I do get satisfaction from the completion of a job or project...I crave acknowledgement. Maybe everyone does. But I always just want someone to be proud of me. When I accomplish something, I want someone to know, and I want them to tell me I did well. That's really all...I just want them to tell me I did a good job, and they're proud of me.
A therapist might say it's because my parents were so rarely proud of me. They might be right. The things I accomplished were rarely of the variety or caliber that they would have liked. Or maybe everyone just wants some acknowledgement. Actually a lot of people seem to have that as their primary motivation, so never mind me.
But it is very important.
therapy,
ramble,
wallowing in self-pity,
self-inspection and mental health,
angst,
family,
weird,
thinking makes my brain hurt