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I need rest days. I should not jam pack my weekends. But i always do. I think i drank too much the past few nights, but not too too much, just a little too much, where i get the morning hangover shakes. Nothing that can't be cured with just a little more sleep, and water. I really should drink more water.
I am at his place right now and he's at work. I don't remember much after i decided to go to sleep last night. Also the night before i remember i was really drunk and sleepy that i just wanted to sleep on the floor. Hmm. He dropped me off food and coffee just now--so nice to work nearby.
I'm glad i can work from home. I will probably devote the rest of the day to pivot tables and manuscript writing.
Yesterday Lauren was stressed out. He planned his own birthday dinner, but not that well, but i didn't want to stress him out even more. Reservations not conducive to large groups. Individual text messages not best method.
Earlier in the day i woke up hungover ish to get ready to drink more. The boys watched football and we played arcade games at Dave and Buster's. That was fun. I would go back! He made fun of me for even asking him. "Oh no, you're asking if it's okay for me to watch football and drink?" The horror.
Then we picked up Lauren and his planning was such a mess it was funny. There were literally like 3 meetup locations and times. Then they were slow to smoke. Then he wanted to move his rez but to 8, no 6:30, no 7, for 11 no 13 no 15. Then people were all at the restaurant but he wasn't and he didn't tell anyone about moving the time. Lol.
He said "how are you two?" I normally don't like this friends and friends but i like you two. Are you official or what? With the random grilling!
After we all met up, hugs all around, it was quite nice. Bottles and bottles, food was fast, and good. Everyone laughed. There were about 3 groups mixing, it was nice i knew everyone!
Jay asked how come we don't show pda and i said I just don't like it, but i held his hand? We took a break outside to breathe, and Jay and Lauren came outside and giggled. It was cute. Lauren gave really tight tight hugs. I know he was so happy last night. He's a really good guy! I hope he gets his soon.
I was going to sleep at 10 but was told to come out. So i drank more. Listened to music and shoulder danced. Cut up fruit and cheese. I probably should have slept at 10. Oh well!
Friday night: we made the best poke ever, so much better than in restaurants, with different textures and tastes. I wanna do that again! We missed improv though but it was okay, we just talked at the bar till bedtime
Saturday: did house work at my house by installing the front screen door. I hope every week i do more house stuff. I can't believe that one thing took 3+ hours! Then got ready for comedy show. It was ok. Comedy must be so hard. Then had drinks and dinner nearby. That was so good. And empty! I would definitely go back. Dustin came to deliver us stuff and hung out for a bit. He is really disciplined with his diet and working out now! He was really nice. I feel bad for thinking negatively of him last year. He was comfortable with us to bring up some of his secret thoughts. That was nice. Then we met up with Steven for his gf's birthday. It was so sad that none of her friends were there! She was really nice. I really like her. She has no I'll intentions and she's not calculating, or mean, or sarcastic, and she just has a very good grateful heart. i hope they make it!
Afterwards we had a nite cap at the bar across the street from his place. It was so popping. He danced with me, and kissed me lots. It's so nice that he only ever has his attention on me!
He always just stops all of a sudden to tell me how beautiful or pretty i look, how nice i am, how spoiled he is, he articulates what he appreciates and is thankful for. I hope i am all these things! He is too generous not only to me but everyone.