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yep, so not sure how long its been since ive written here. But i'm sad. my computer died and i lost everything. i thought i saved all my shit but i guess i didnt. my dad was semi rushing me and i didnt ask him for his help, only the thingy to put myshit onto so i lost it all. no more pictures, no more poetry no more anything. I'm really sad. I'm crying about it actually. I put so much time nad effor tinto organizing my pictures nad now all that hard work, all those hours of tediouse labor are gone. No more pictures of the Not here dog. theres no point in having him without the damn pictures. wild bills is gone. graduation. everything. I cant beleive i lost my graduation pictures. No more christmas. everything from the last 3 years is gone. just about anyway. I have all the fucking music i think.. thats about it. I dont even need any of that, none of it was mine to begin with. i lost all the pictures of vacation with rob. all my favorite pictures from the castle in the clouds... theyre all gone. i'm so sad about it. i mean i have some regular photots from that vacation and shit but nothing as awesome as those ones, and alllllllll my gettysburge ones are gone. we used the digital camera for all the best photos. But mainly i lost all my scenery shots from new hampshire. the butterfly one was so pretty. that was my fav picture ever taken. it was awesome. i was going to submit it for a postcard or something. it was that awesome. on top of that i have no pictures of my mohawk, or of me and rob anymore. theres a few here and there, but nothing like there should be. I lost all my north adams photos. the cascades were so pretty. I'm so upset. I lost christmas from this year. and it hasnt even been a month. But more than that i cant beleive i lost my poems. I had just read a page with like 5 of them on it, and i thought they were amazing, since i havnt read them in a long time, and now i cant even remember what they were about but i loved them so much they were fucking great. and i cant write for shit anymore. I want my stuff back. I need money, i need to get out of this place. I need pictures. I need poems. i need my writings from school, my recipies. Ineed it all. I want it all. I cant beleive i was that fucking dumb. fucking 3 years of my life gone in 2 minutes. All my pictures of auntie. I cant afford to lose those. But I did. The pugs are gone. Fortunitly i have rockys baby pictures saved on a disk from last year when josh did something to my computer. but other than that everything is gone. there were so many awesome fucking pictures. i'm so fucking mad!!@!!!! I need to go to bed and now i wont be able to sleep sicnce im so fucking pissed off. I need osme fucking money and lots of it. I want to get out of this place. I want to get away from these people. i need a change, i need a new life, i need new friends. I think i might go to college someplace far from here just for the hell of it. nad not really go to study anything other than the poeple that go there. it would be amazing. I love to look at people. I lost all my art photos. i'm so sad. my ceiling tile, everything. its all gone. thank god for myspace.. at least a few pictures of my life live on. i need to go to bed now.