*but im not sleeping and your not here - the thought stops my heart*
ooooooooooooooooooooooo boy. so thursday was freakin awsome, n youd think thatd be good enough right? but no, this boy makes it better.
so its new years n the ball drops so i call him to say happy new year, and we talk for a little then he says "ill call you tomorrow". now i dont think he acctually will cause, i mean, come on, hes drunk n he never acctually calls me you know unless we have prior plans. so i hang up n stuff n then the next day me, claire n justin go back to the psychic and she told me that this year is going to be a really good one for me especially in romance n that im gonna have a good relationship n that there is a girl in mikes life who knows about me and is really jealous to the point where when she hears my name she feels sick. n that in mid 2005 im gonna have conflict with a girl with blonde hair over mike. (tara or chrissy??) then she goes "are you waiting for a call from him? either tonight or yesterday?" n i figured she ment about new years so i was like yea last night n shes like "did he call? " n im like "well i called him" n she was just like oh ok, but it seemed like that wasnt it. then later i realized that he told me hed call me that night, n i was like HOLY CRAP!! it was crazy!! but so then its like 11 n i just got home from driving around town all saturday night with justin looking for some stuff for my aunt n then i go home n claire comes over n were just hanging out awhile then we go downstairs to get cheese cake n my phone was ringing n it was mike!!! so i answer it n he was like hey whats up what are you doing blah blah, then he asked me if me n claire wanted to go over kuntz' house n hangout with them. so i told my mom i was gonna sleep at claires n she told her mom she was sleeping at amandas n we ended up getting to kuntz' house at like 12 so we all hung out downstairs n we watched 50 first dates n just had fun then claire n kuntz went into the other room n me n mike started to make out n stuff n he layed me on the couch n put pillows behind me n we started having hard core dry sex n i thought he was gonna try n have real sex but we didnt we just did the usual stuff n then we layed down all snuggled together n watched "one bad trip" then claire n kuntz came out n we all joked around awhile n then we all were really tired so we started to fall asleep then chris started rubbing mikes arm n they battled a few mins n chris (kuntz) goes "dude, goy, why wont you hook up with me just cause jess is here?" n it was so funny. so then me n mike started lying down n i was rubbing the side of his face n he started to fall asleep n close his eyes n then he started caughing n had to reposition himself. so now its like 4 in the morning n claire n chris lay down n are asleep all sweet n cuddled under a blanket n mike layed down n i was behind him n we all just fell asleep. then i opened my eyes n saw him there n i smiled n almost cried cause this is something i always think about when im going to bed, i pretend im holding him, n this time i really was n this was real. so i just said "thank you god for this moment". then kuntz woke up n we had to go cause his parents were waking up at 5 30 n it was 5 15. so me n claire drove around for almost 3 hours n then we went back to her house n told her mom amanda had work early so we hadda go home. i got all of 5 hours of sleep that whole night cause i had work at 1 but it was so worth it. but now he seems like hedoesnt really wanna talk or something, i dunno w/e im just being paranoid.
well...i have a confession, i think im in like with kyle. i swaer i dont want to be but i always had a little crush on him since 7th grade n then i talked to him the other night when he did my pictures n i was like "hmm, hes really cute, and funny n cool" but then today i went to visit katie at work n he was there n hes like "JESS!" when i walked in so i turned around n he was telling me how katie was in the back getting yelled at but she old him i was comming in n to tell me that she doesnt know if shell be out soon. so im like oh ok, so i go to leave n hes like "wait do you need pictures developed? " n im like no no, not yet, but i probably will by the end of the week, then we both laughed n i left. hes really cute...like really really , n he did his hair all spiked today n it was hot...ahhhhhhhhh STOP IT STOP IT!! i cant like him, i really cant. i mean id never leave mike for him but if mike so chooses to get with some other girl again, im goin for it man haha. damn boys!
so its new years n the ball drops so i call him to say happy new year, and we talk for a little then he says "ill call you tomorrow". now i dont think he acctually will cause, i mean, come on, hes drunk n he never acctually calls me you know unless we have prior plans. so i hang up n stuff n then the next day me, claire n justin go back to the psychic and she told me that this year is going to be a really good one for me especially in romance n that im gonna have a good relationship n that there is a girl in mikes life who knows about me and is really jealous to the point where when she hears my name she feels sick. n that in mid 2005 im gonna have conflict with a girl with blonde hair over mike. (tara or chrissy??) then she goes "are you waiting for a call from him? either tonight or yesterday?" n i figured she ment about new years so i was like yea last night n shes like "did he call? " n im like "well i called him" n she was just like oh ok, but it seemed like that wasnt it. then later i realized that he told me hed call me that night, n i was like HOLY CRAP!! it was crazy!! but so then its like 11 n i just got home from driving around town all saturday night with justin looking for some stuff for my aunt n then i go home n claire comes over n were just hanging out awhile then we go downstairs to get cheese cake n my phone was ringing n it was mike!!! so i answer it n he was like hey whats up what are you doing blah blah, then he asked me if me n claire wanted to go over kuntz' house n hangout with them. so i told my mom i was gonna sleep at claires n she told her mom she was sleeping at amandas n we ended up getting to kuntz' house at like 12 so we all hung out downstairs n we watched 50 first dates n just had fun then claire n kuntz went into the other room n me n mike started to make out n stuff n he layed me on the couch n put pillows behind me n we started having hard core dry sex n i thought he was gonna try n have real sex but we didnt we just did the usual stuff n then we layed down all snuggled together n watched "one bad trip" then claire n kuntz came out n we all joked around awhile n then we all were really tired so we started to fall asleep then chris started rubbing mikes arm n they battled a few mins n chris (kuntz) goes "dude, goy, why wont you hook up with me just cause jess is here?" n it was so funny. so then me n mike started lying down n i was rubbing the side of his face n he started to fall asleep n close his eyes n then he started caughing n had to reposition himself. so now its like 4 in the morning n claire n chris lay down n are asleep all sweet n cuddled under a blanket n mike layed down n i was behind him n we all just fell asleep. then i opened my eyes n saw him there n i smiled n almost cried cause this is something i always think about when im going to bed, i pretend im holding him, n this time i really was n this was real. so i just said "thank you god for this moment". then kuntz woke up n we had to go cause his parents were waking up at 5 30 n it was 5 15. so me n claire drove around for almost 3 hours n then we went back to her house n told her mom amanda had work early so we hadda go home. i got all of 5 hours of sleep that whole night cause i had work at 1 but it was so worth it. but now he seems like hedoesnt really wanna talk or something, i dunno w/e im just being paranoid.
well...i have a confession, i think im in like with kyle. i swaer i dont want to be but i always had a little crush on him since 7th grade n then i talked to him the other night when he did my pictures n i was like "hmm, hes really cute, and funny n cool" but then today i went to visit katie at work n he was there n hes like "JESS!" when i walked in so i turned around n he was telling me how katie was in the back getting yelled at but she old him i was comming in n to tell me that she doesnt know if shell be out soon. so im like oh ok, so i go to leave n hes like "wait do you need pictures developed? " n im like no no, not yet, but i probably will by the end of the week, then we both laughed n i left. hes really cute...like really really , n he did his hair all spiked today n it was hot...ahhhhhhhhh STOP IT STOP IT!! i cant like him, i really cant. i mean id never leave mike for him but if mike so chooses to get with some other girl again, im goin for it man haha. damn boys!