*if this is how we break - ill say goodbye with open arms*
hmm...i havent updated in so long. im sorry to all who acctualy care if i post. im not going to lie and say i havent had time to, i have, i just never really felt like it. to be honest, i know exactly why i havent. looking back on all my entries i see that i wrote in here when i was unhappy and lately ive been very happy (most of the time) and i just kinda let myself go.
but anyway. to update for myself as something to remember as well as entertainment for all, im going to go into great detail about the most puzzling night ive ever had.
well, as most kow, me and mike were hooking up for like 3 months, then out of nowhere the entire month of november we stopped because he was with some other girl. but as of the last week of november were back together. weve hung out the first two weeks of december n things were going smoothly. then he got sick so we didnt hangout last week, but wed night i asked him to hang out on thursday n he said sure. next morning i wake up n his away message (which had been on all night) read "yo jess im getting you fucked up tomorrow night because im fucked up right now, lol". ok, maybe hes not shakespeare, but i was thrilled that my name was in his away message, meaning all his friends could see, meaning im not a secret. so hes asleep all day, and i went out with claire and jeannine for the day waiting for him to call me at 9 when he got out of work. i finished a few pics on my camera, then i decided to take it to eckerd to have them developed. when we got there, mike friend kyle (who looks, acts, talks, and everythings like mike) was there working. so i give him my camera and he takes my last name, not my first name at all, just B-a-l-d-a-s-a-r-e. so as me n claire n jeannine are leaving he stops n turns around n syas "hey, you know goy right?" n i shook my head and hes like "yea last night he was at this kids party and he had an epiphany, he was like "tomorrow night im bringing jess here, im gonna get her wasted with me"" so now im like oh my god he talked about me with his friends, and they know me from my last name meaning im not just jess, but hes taken the time to explain things about me. so then he proceeds to tell me how mike talked about me that night n how he was "tanked" (extreamly drunk) and he wanted me to be there too. then he told me that there was a party at the same kids house that night n that i should go n how he thinks mikes planning on taking me anyway. so im like "ill find out" n what not n then i left for the hour it takes to develope the pics. now, i find this amazing that he talked about me when he was drunk because 1.) its said that when your drunk your true feelings come out and 2.) when i was piss drunk all i did was talk about him n call him. so we go back in later n i pick up my piuctures n me n kyle talk a little more. i saw some 311 sticker thing he made on the counter n hes like "oh yea, you like 311 right" so i guess mike told him about the concert. so then when hes giving me my pics back he goes "ill give you the goy discount" n he only charged me $5! i asked for singles n he gave me doubles!! for $5 !!! thats awsome. so im like thank you, and i couldnt belive it. so then later that night mike calls n is like "wanna go to a party tonight" n im like yea so he picks me up from claires n we go to this party. now, let me tell you what this party was like.
every hot guy from north that ever was, was at this party. we walked in and kyle and a few others were playing beer pong n mike introduced me to them all n kyle was like "hey i know you" like were all of a sudden good friends n stuff. then me n mike sat outsdie with kyle, justin, this really hot guy who looked like nick hexum and 2 other guys who went to north and this girl lisa whos sooo nice. we were just all talking about random stuff and it was really funny. i was included in all conversation between them all and i really felt like i belonged there. then alex was there n thats cool so me n him talked a little then he left and then mike was like "wanna play beer pong?" n im like "uhh" n hes like "have you ever played before?" n im like no so hes like "ok its cool, you and me will be a team dont worry". so i felt really good cause now me n him are a team. so all his friends start getting there, like mike n rich whittemore n pete mcgrath and eckerd pat n bill and tristan n them. so me n mike played n then hes like "afterwards do you wanna smoke?" so im like "yaaa" so we play n i sucked but it was me n him against tristan n lisa n i got one in n lisa was like thats awsome for your first time (plus i was 2 beers gone already, lol)so me n him lost big time n people kept trying to give him more beers n stuff but he kept saying "no ill drink more later i have to take her home at 1 and im not driving like that" n even thou justin made fun of him he kept to it. i admire him for that so much. so after we loose miserably he started going outside, n i thought he was going to get a beer so i just stood in the door way, but he turned around when i stopped walking n motioned for me to go out with him so i did n me, him, kyle n justin smoked together n it was really fun. AND when he was on the phone the guy on the other line was like "whois there?" n mikes like "tristan, justin, kyle, jess the girl im with".
"Jess the girl im with" eh hem. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! whats that about? he said it 3 times when he introduced me to people. i was like whoa, am i more then i think i am to him now?
anyway. so were there n i was so cold n i started shivering n he looked at me n hes like "yea its pretty cold out" so i grabbed his arm n held it close to me n he took his other arm n started rubbing my arms n back like trying to warm me up. i thought it was so sweet. so i grabbed him n sideways hugged him n we were like that for awhile n he kept rubbing my back n hes like "is this helping you at all?" n im like"yea" (ok come on hes being adorable n im gonna stop him haha) so then tristan n pat come n theyre talking to us n we had a really funny conversation. then me n mike went inside n we talked a little bit and then i told him he could just take me home cause t was like 12 30 and i had to go home so i couldnt drink anymore or anything n he was waiting till i went home to drink. so he fought with me about it n hes like "are you sure? your not holding me back" n im like "no its ok dont worry about it" n so we went back n forth a little n then hes like ok well just stay like 5 more mins n im like ok, so when we finally left we were walking to his car n he was like "im sorry you didnt get wasted, next time youll stay the whole time with me n well figure something out" so im like its ok, and when we got in his car i was cold n tired n stoned haha so i leande over n held his arm close to me again n i had my head on his shoulder n alex was outside in the street n he was waving but i didnt notice n mike waved at him but then he goes "wait who did i just wave to?" n im like oh i think that was my friend alex" n hes like "alex who" so i just gave him a little summary of who alex is and then he drove me home (the longest way he knew) and when we pulled up we sat in the car n madeout for almost a half an hour and he was like "not good" n im like whats wrong n then he looked down n hes like "well, uh" n im like OHHHHHH, haha n hes like "i mean its not bad or anything except you have to go home n i have to go back there" so i laughed n i was like " oh, ok, well, im sorry but i have to kiss yu cause i held it back all night" n he laughed n we kissed a little more n then he was like "is there any way to sneak out later?" n im like i dunno n hes like "nah nevermind i dont want you to get in trouble" so i told him to call me when he got home from tristans at some point to hang out n he said ok. then i went home n talked to claire a little while n then i fell asleep at like 2 30 n i woke up at 5 ish to pee n i saw i had a text message, n it was from mike n it said "u awake?". thats so cute, he wanted to come get me. then yesterday he was like did you have fun last night?" n im like "yeaaaaa" n we talked about it awhile n he told me tristan liked me n wanted me to go to his new years eve party n stuff. but i hadda go to work n cut the convo short so i dontknow what the rest of them though of me. but so i called him last night n he was all excited to talk to me n we said happy new year and we talked a little while and he was so drunk but it was awsome cause i finally had someone to say happy new year to. and kuntz kept telling mike to switch phones with him cause claire was on the phone with kuntz but mikes like "no, get out of here" it was sooo funny. n then he told me hed call me today or tomorrow cause hes having a family party tonight at his house or something. i dunno.
so thats all, that big long thing. buti just wanted to remember it n stuff so i had to write it in here. thanks for listening.
but anyway. to update for myself as something to remember as well as entertainment for all, im going to go into great detail about the most puzzling night ive ever had.
well, as most kow, me and mike were hooking up for like 3 months, then out of nowhere the entire month of november we stopped because he was with some other girl. but as of the last week of november were back together. weve hung out the first two weeks of december n things were going smoothly. then he got sick so we didnt hangout last week, but wed night i asked him to hang out on thursday n he said sure. next morning i wake up n his away message (which had been on all night) read "yo jess im getting you fucked up tomorrow night because im fucked up right now, lol". ok, maybe hes not shakespeare, but i was thrilled that my name was in his away message, meaning all his friends could see, meaning im not a secret. so hes asleep all day, and i went out with claire and jeannine for the day waiting for him to call me at 9 when he got out of work. i finished a few pics on my camera, then i decided to take it to eckerd to have them developed. when we got there, mike friend kyle (who looks, acts, talks, and everythings like mike) was there working. so i give him my camera and he takes my last name, not my first name at all, just B-a-l-d-a-s-a-r-e. so as me n claire n jeannine are leaving he stops n turns around n syas "hey, you know goy right?" n i shook my head and hes like "yea last night he was at this kids party and he had an epiphany, he was like "tomorrow night im bringing jess here, im gonna get her wasted with me"" so now im like oh my god he talked about me with his friends, and they know me from my last name meaning im not just jess, but hes taken the time to explain things about me. so then he proceeds to tell me how mike talked about me that night n how he was "tanked" (extreamly drunk) and he wanted me to be there too. then he told me that there was a party at the same kids house that night n that i should go n how he thinks mikes planning on taking me anyway. so im like "ill find out" n what not n then i left for the hour it takes to develope the pics. now, i find this amazing that he talked about me when he was drunk because 1.) its said that when your drunk your true feelings come out and 2.) when i was piss drunk all i did was talk about him n call him. so we go back in later n i pick up my piuctures n me n kyle talk a little more. i saw some 311 sticker thing he made on the counter n hes like "oh yea, you like 311 right" so i guess mike told him about the concert. so then when hes giving me my pics back he goes "ill give you the goy discount" n he only charged me $5! i asked for singles n he gave me doubles!! for $5 !!! thats awsome. so im like thank you, and i couldnt belive it. so then later that night mike calls n is like "wanna go to a party tonight" n im like yea so he picks me up from claires n we go to this party. now, let me tell you what this party was like.
every hot guy from north that ever was, was at this party. we walked in and kyle and a few others were playing beer pong n mike introduced me to them all n kyle was like "hey i know you" like were all of a sudden good friends n stuff. then me n mike sat outsdie with kyle, justin, this really hot guy who looked like nick hexum and 2 other guys who went to north and this girl lisa whos sooo nice. we were just all talking about random stuff and it was really funny. i was included in all conversation between them all and i really felt like i belonged there. then alex was there n thats cool so me n him talked a little then he left and then mike was like "wanna play beer pong?" n im like "uhh" n hes like "have you ever played before?" n im like no so hes like "ok its cool, you and me will be a team dont worry". so i felt really good cause now me n him are a team. so all his friends start getting there, like mike n rich whittemore n pete mcgrath and eckerd pat n bill and tristan n them. so me n mike played n then hes like "afterwards do you wanna smoke?" so im like "yaaa" so we play n i sucked but it was me n him against tristan n lisa n i got one in n lisa was like thats awsome for your first time (plus i was 2 beers gone already, lol)so me n him lost big time n people kept trying to give him more beers n stuff but he kept saying "no ill drink more later i have to take her home at 1 and im not driving like that" n even thou justin made fun of him he kept to it. i admire him for that so much. so after we loose miserably he started going outside, n i thought he was going to get a beer so i just stood in the door way, but he turned around when i stopped walking n motioned for me to go out with him so i did n me, him, kyle n justin smoked together n it was really fun. AND when he was on the phone the guy on the other line was like "whois there?" n mikes like "tristan, justin, kyle, jess the girl im with".
"Jess the girl im with" eh hem. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! whats that about? he said it 3 times when he introduced me to people. i was like whoa, am i more then i think i am to him now?
anyway. so were there n i was so cold n i started shivering n he looked at me n hes like "yea its pretty cold out" so i grabbed his arm n held it close to me n he took his other arm n started rubbing my arms n back like trying to warm me up. i thought it was so sweet. so i grabbed him n sideways hugged him n we were like that for awhile n he kept rubbing my back n hes like "is this helping you at all?" n im like"yea" (ok come on hes being adorable n im gonna stop him haha) so then tristan n pat come n theyre talking to us n we had a really funny conversation. then me n mike went inside n we talked a little bit and then i told him he could just take me home cause t was like 12 30 and i had to go home so i couldnt drink anymore or anything n he was waiting till i went home to drink. so he fought with me about it n hes like "are you sure? your not holding me back" n im like "no its ok dont worry about it" n so we went back n forth a little n then hes like ok well just stay like 5 more mins n im like ok, so when we finally left we were walking to his car n he was like "im sorry you didnt get wasted, next time youll stay the whole time with me n well figure something out" so im like its ok, and when we got in his car i was cold n tired n stoned haha so i leande over n held his arm close to me again n i had my head on his shoulder n alex was outside in the street n he was waving but i didnt notice n mike waved at him but then he goes "wait who did i just wave to?" n im like oh i think that was my friend alex" n hes like "alex who" so i just gave him a little summary of who alex is and then he drove me home (the longest way he knew) and when we pulled up we sat in the car n madeout for almost a half an hour and he was like "not good" n im like whats wrong n then he looked down n hes like "well, uh" n im like OHHHHHH, haha n hes like "i mean its not bad or anything except you have to go home n i have to go back there" so i laughed n i was like " oh, ok, well, im sorry but i have to kiss yu cause i held it back all night" n he laughed n we kissed a little more n then he was like "is there any way to sneak out later?" n im like i dunno n hes like "nah nevermind i dont want you to get in trouble" so i told him to call me when he got home from tristans at some point to hang out n he said ok. then i went home n talked to claire a little while n then i fell asleep at like 2 30 n i woke up at 5 ish to pee n i saw i had a text message, n it was from mike n it said "u awake?". thats so cute, he wanted to come get me. then yesterday he was like did you have fun last night?" n im like "yeaaaaa" n we talked about it awhile n he told me tristan liked me n wanted me to go to his new years eve party n stuff. but i hadda go to work n cut the convo short so i dontknow what the rest of them though of me. but so i called him last night n he was all excited to talk to me n we said happy new year and we talked a little while and he was so drunk but it was awsome cause i finally had someone to say happy new year to. and kuntz kept telling mike to switch phones with him cause claire was on the phone with kuntz but mikes like "no, get out of here" it was sooo funny. n then he told me hed call me today or tomorrow cause hes having a family party tonight at his house or something. i dunno.
so thats all, that big long thing. buti just wanted to remember it n stuff so i had to write it in here. thanks for listening.