New journal! : ) -- Beyondtheselies.

Feeling so hopeless. I hate how I was accused of going onto Donny's screen name. I wouldn't do that to him. He spoke such horrible words. He never wants to speak to me again. I guess in a way that's okay. But, I feel so hurt, so betrayed. I feel as if apart of my heart has been torn out. I miss ... him. I don't understand him. I tried , I ( Read more... )

So things have gotten really bad with my dad. I hate being in the house. God, I'm so angry - which is something I have no idea what to do with. So - when I hang around with Donny and he says something to slightly piss me - I freak - completely irrationally. I think just because I can't take it out on anyone else. Then I'll push his buttons to fight ( Read more... )

Really , really weird day. After all the bullshit that happened this weekend, I started throwing up last night and all that good stuff. So my momma took me to the doctor and I so have mono. Of all things, really wasn't excepting for that to be it. haha Good news they said it wasn't contagious after you start to show symptoms, and I feel pretty okay ( Read more... )

Woah, so I stayed up till like 5 AM cause I thought Donny and his roommates were in jail. Good lord, so I went down to my daddy's work and like sat around to see if they needed to be like bailed out or what the fuck happened. lol Okay , so I'm a loser, because nothing happened. The police just came and I guess they just weren't answering my calls ( Read more... )

I woke up today struggling with myself. I tried so hard to let Donny leave me. I thought that is what he wanted to be free, I thought he wanted someone else. All the emotions I poured on him in the last week , I didn't think it was fair. I honestly was prepared for him to go running. So I called telling him that I couldn't do this anymore and it ( Read more... )

Went to the hospital last night at like 3 am ... it hurts to move. I'm taking a break from everyone, except for a select few - ie lauren meg and amanda. The constant state of numb is starting to wear . The arguments and animosity are too much. I find myself still pierced by the words of ones who mean nothing to me. Yet, those same people seem ( Read more... )

1. What is your name? Kaitlyn ( Read more... )

In Vero Beach - um it's really sad that I paid to go online. ha ... trying to forget about everything - not going so well. Love all of you. call me !! Cecile Suzanne get your butt home from Spain - Mwah mwah.

xoxoxo, Kaitlyn

Um, this is stupid. Wow, I can't believe I just got in an arguement and it was not with a girlfriend who I would be laughing with two seconds later. I guess my assumptions were wrong? I don't know ... I don't even know what I assumed...I didn't think it was wrong for me to stick around if we were still having fun. Idk , I guess this is really ( Read more... )