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[00kiwi]

So things have gotten really bad with my dad. I hate being in the house. God, I'm so angry - which is something I have no idea what to do with. So - when I hang around with Donny and he says something to slightly piss me - I freak - completely irrationally. I think just because I can't take it out on anyone else. Then I'll push his buttons to fight with him , or he'll be drunk and say something that will hurt my feelings - and I loose it. Then, when I calm down , I feel so so horrible. Like, I guess this is why I wanted to take time away from him. But, God, I'm so scared if I do - he'll forget about me and end up being with someone else. He deserves so much though. He slept over last night - and was so nice to me ( before we got kind of intoxicated and I flipped. )

I need to get out of my house - anyone looking for a room mate! haha ( but for serious though) - Oh idk - someone give me some advice!