what is stopping me?

[ziiiikk]

a hunting rifle. one hollow-point round. up division. i have enough for this.

what is stopping me? not here.

i take a sip, and i feel better. i don't want this anymore.

i want to believe, that instinct, internal certainty, that i am not lying to myself.

elsewhere, i may never find a home, a family, i truly do not know anymore.

if i lose this job, i will be on the streets.

flat affect. remember.

you will not disobey.

i do not understand friendship, but only authority.

i do not understand love, but only obedience.

i will not disobey.

flat affect. remember.

this money, is your only hope.

hope, such poison, it is my new drug, no chemicals required, and it will take me to my death all the same...