Black Saint - Arc 3 - Chapitre 18
Title : Black Saint
Arc 3 - Thunderbird
Chapitre 18 - View Of The Future
Author :
zeon_avalanthe
Rating : PG-13 (For languanges in some chapters)
Genre : AU ; Angst
Pairing : YutoYama ; NakaChii ; OkaYama ; more will come as the story evolves..
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that I don't own any of those boys, sadly..
Summary for Arc 3 : Threads are severed, trusts are wavered.. Through all the cold storms and the raging inferno, wrapped inside the unending cries of pain, a tiny part of his heart still waiting for that love he longed..
Author's Note : Uhm.. Long time no see ? *nervous laugh*
~~~Arc 3 - Chapitre 18 - View Of The Future~~~
"Ryosuke."
The called boy turned his head only to be met by a warm hug he recognized belonged to his Mother's.
"I was so worried when I heard from Tomo-kun. If only I was home yesterday, I would be here since Tomo-kun called me last night."
The boy was then released from the hug and finally took a proper look on his Mother's figure. Awful was an understatement. Her mother was known for her neatness no matter the circumstances. And now, looking all flustered, with her wrinkled clothes and disheveled hair, he knew that she was too worried she even forgot about her appearances. He then took a glance to the tall boy standing by the corner, who then gave him a knowing look. Remembering their conversation last night, he sighed before flashing the woman a smile.
"I'm okay, Mother. No need to be worried." He assured his mother.
"I'm glad then." Her mother released a relieved sigh before it changed into that of a concern. "What had happened, dear ?"
Ryosuke's face hardened at this. "Can we- can we not talk about it ? If you wanted to know, I think you should ask Tomohisa-san instead. I'm not sure if I can explain everything to you, so-"
"Ryosuke," His mother called him and stopped him from talking any further. "It's okay, baby. You don't have to say anything. I understand."
The boy gave him a nod, and just let his mother caressing his hair comfortingly.
"I will go and talk to Tomo-kun for a bit okay ? You wait here while we're taking care of the administration." She stood up, and proceeded to the door when Ryosuke called him.
"Mother ? Can I do something while you're at it ?"
"What is it, dear ?" Her mother sent him a curious look.
"I, I heard that uncle Akihiko is already awake. If possible, I, I'd like to speak with him. You know, since I haven't had the chance to thank him properly and all." Ryosuke averted his gaze, seemingly too shy to look at her in the eyes.
Yamada Karin was surprised more than anything. But after digesting her son's words, she smiled.
"Of course you can, dear. If you're feeling okay enough for it, you can go and meet him. I was about to greet him myself after this." She said warmly.
"Thank you." Was the only thing Ryosuke could say as her mother left the room.
***
"We have some good and bad news for you, Karin-san." Tomohisa told the woman in a grim look. The way he said it, it sounded so cliche that Karin almost laughed at it. Almost.
"What is it ?" She asked instead.
"Well," Tomohisa started. "The good news is, your son seemed to be okay aside from the small bump on his head. We've done a CT-scan and found nothing unnatural from it. And we also managed to remove the bullet from Akihiko-san's chest. He was in a critical situation, but we managed to keep him stable for the time being."
"And the bad news is ?" She pried.
"We're afraid that he doesn't have long. The wound had hit his vital vessel and it was broken beyond repair. We just barely stopped the bleeding and stopped it from spreading, but the damage has been done. And beside-" The man was hesitant, but then he took a deep breath and proceeded. "The wounds from his past, I think it left him some permanent damage. From the tests we've done on him, we found out that he has an incomplete spinal cord injury. Whereas it doesn't seemed to affect his daily lives, it does affected his respiratory system. And from where he received his recent injury, I'm afraid it'd just worsened his current condition."
"Can't you do anything to help him ?" Karin paled, knowing that her son's saviour is dying.
Tomohisa shook his head, looking dejected himself. It's as if, he was disappointed at himself for having no solution to this crisis.
"I'm afraid that it was too late already to attend to his spinal cord injury. Whether he was aware about this or not beforehand, I have no idea. It's just, if only the injury was treated earlier, perhaps, we can still buy him more times."
"No way..." Karin gasped on her seat.
"And another thing," Tomohisa continued. "I called some psychiatrist I could put my faith on, and we took some check on Haruhiko-san this prior morning."
"And ?" Karin looked at him, anticipating.
"I'm afraid that your husband's mentality is unstable. Especially after what had happened last night, he might be a bit harmful to the society, so we suggest that it was best for him to be put in a facility or something." Explained Tomohisa. "Of course, to avoid any unnecessary attention, it would be best to put him far away from those prying people, and with some psychiatrist and caretaker that we can trust to keep quiet about this matter to watch over him. It's just, I believe it was safest if he stay away from his family and daily activities for a while. At least, until he's stable again."
"Can you make any rough calculation of how long until he's stable again ?" Asked Karin.
"It depends on the patient's will and attitude, so I don't really have a say in this. It's just that I'd like to warn you, that in the worst case, the patient will never regain his sanity back. Of course, there will be cases in which the patient will be able to return to the society and normal daily lives too. But on the safe side, let's just say that your husband will never be the same again."
Yamada Karin sighed. She leaned back on her seat and rest her back on the chair.
"I guess, it can't be helped." She then closed her eyes. "To be frank, I think this is for the best. I mean, I do care for him for he is a man that I've promised to spend my lifetime with, but, I'm not naive. I know how he treated people and the way he looked at others- He could be the worst of the worst at times. I've noticed this since a long time ago, but I decided to put a blind eyes on this. But having someone else spitting the truth right at my face, I guess this is finally the time for me to properly open my eyes. For my sons' sake as well, I think this is the best."
"Karin-san.."
"That's why, Tomo-kun, I will trust my husband's case in your hands. I believe in you to take care of everything." She took a deep breath. "And about Akihiko-san, please, give him whatever you thought is best. I, I know it's too late to say this but, I can only hope for his happiness, and perhaps, his forgiveness as well."
Her eyes shone as she smiled at him. She has to be strong, she thought. She can't be shaken by this kind of news, especially in this situation. She had promised to take care of her two sons properly this time, and she won't back out now that an unpredictable event arose. Because she is their mother.
***
Ryosuke took a deep breath as he stared at the door before him. On his side, he caught a sight of Yuto sending him an encouraging look.
"Are you ready ?" He heard Yuto said.
Nodding his head firmly, Ryosuke then raised a hand and knock on the door. Asking for a permission under his breath, he slowly, yet surely opened the door and scanned the room behind it. There, on the middle of the room, lied a middle-aged man on the white-sheeted bed. The man looked at them expectantly, before smiling as he ushered the two of them to enter the room.
Taking step by step closer to the bed, Ryosuke then stood awkwardly beside the bed. Behind him, he felt Yuto closing the door before walking to the other side of the bed. None of them spoke, and Ryosuke was not ready to break the silence. He was too nervous to say anything. Not that he will ever admit it though.
"Are you alright ?"
Unexpectedly, the man on the bed was the first to say something. Ryosuke frowned, thinking of a reason of why he asked such question, when he should be the one getting asked instead. But as his hand reached the white fabric on his head, he finally understood.
"This is nothing. Just a little bump which will be healed soon enough." He answered in a rush, feeling his cheeks flushed at realizing how awkward he sounded. "How about you ? Are you okay already ?" It was his turn to ask this time.
"I'm old." The man told him, earning him a confused look from the boy. "I don't expect to live long, young man. This-" He pointed to his chest where the wound might be located behind those hospital robe. "Is just a little surprise at the end of my life."
"Why are you saying that ?" Ryosuke frowned again. "It's almost as if, as if you're about to-"
"Die ?" The man finished his sentence. "But I am, boy. I am going to die. We all will. That's just what's being a human means. We are bound to die someday. And knowing that, I've decided not to have regret in this short life of mine."
Ryosuke shot him a look, waiting for him to continue speaking.
"You are the future of this world, boy. I know it." The man spoke again, softer this time. "That's what I thought when I jumped in front of you last night. And that's why I didn't hesitate to give up my life for you."
"What are you-"
"I knew that I don't have long. I don't need some smart-ass of a doctor or those high-tech machines to tell me that. Ever since sometimes ago, I knew that I'm running out of time. It's probably my guts, but I just knew it. And when last night's incident happened, I finally realized that 'Oh, this is it. This is my end.'. I'm the one to decide my fate, and not once I regretted it. If there's something I wish to undone in my life, that would be those times I went mad and used you kids for my revenge. But I can never change the past, so the only thing I can do right now is to apologize. I really am sorry. I never meant to harm you kids back then. I was in the wrong, and I hope you can find a place in your heart to forgive me."
"Uncle, I-"
"It's okay, son. You don't have to say a thing." The man shook his head. "It's a shame that I don't have that much time to see you grow, but knowing that you will do great in the future, I am satisfied."
Ryosuke was at lost for words, unable to say a word after the man's speech. There are a lot of things he needed to tell him, but not a word came past his lips. On the other hand, the man said nothing and just smiled before turning his gaze toward the other boy.
"And you, I heard of you from Yuu-san."
"You know Yuu ?" Yuto was genuinely surprised at this.
"Yes, I know him." The man said with a chuckle. "You're a great man. Or else Yuu-san wouldn't ever put an eye on you. So you should believe in yourself more, son. You are bigger than what you think you are."
"I, I'm honored." Yuto thanked him, a blush slowly creeping up his cheeks.
"Now, boys. After that long talk, I hope you can give me space for a bit. I am a little tired, and I wish to get some times to rest. If you don't mind." The man yawned, as if emphasizing the point.
"Ah ! Uhm, yeah, of course !" Ryosuke stuttered as he looked around the place one last time. "We will leave you for now."
The two boys then gave the man a bow, before taking their respective leaves. But then, just as Yuto opened the door for the two of them, Ryosuke halted his steps and turned back to face the man. Taking a deep breath, he bowed as deep as he can, giving the man his respect.
"I thank you from the deepest part of my heart for saving my life yesterday. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be standing here now. And I also wanted to say sorry for incoveniencing you with this matter, and for everything my father had done for you."
At last, he said those words he meant to say before.
"It's my pleasure." The man said as he lifted his head. "And don't worry about those unnecessary things. You have nothing to be sorry for."
Ryosuke averted his eyes again.
"I, We will be taking our leave then." He gave the man one last bow before leaving for real this time.
"Welldone." Whispered Yuto as he gave his hair an affectionate ruffle.
"Yeah." Ryosuke smiled to himself, relieved that everything went accordingly.
Neither ever imagine that it would be their last time seeing Yamada Akihiko.
~~~End Of Arc 3 - Chapitre 18 - View Of The Future~~~
Yeah.. I noticed.. It was exactly half a year ago since I last updated this fic.. Anyone still remember me anyway ?
I was supposed to post this on Christmas Eve though, but somehow got delayed in an unexpected event (or not)..
Well anyway.. To redeem for my lack of updates, I'm going to post a new fic right after this~ It's a one-shot, but is too long to be posted in one post, so I decided to cut it into a few parts.. But I'll just post the first part this time to test the waters.. *grins*
For you who are still remembering me, I send you my greatest gratitudes~ You're the awesomest guys~ >,<
Arc 3 - Thunderbird
Chapitre 18 - View Of The Future
Author :
zeon_avalanthe
Rating : PG-13 (For languanges in some chapters)
Genre : AU ; Angst
Pairing : YutoYama ; NakaChii ; OkaYama ; more will come as the story evolves..
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that I don't own any of those boys, sadly..
Summary for Arc 3 : Threads are severed, trusts are wavered.. Through all the cold storms and the raging inferno, wrapped inside the unending cries of pain, a tiny part of his heart still waiting for that love he longed..
Author's Note : Uhm.. Long time no see ? *nervous laugh*
~~~Arc 3 - Chapitre 18 - View Of The Future~~~
"Ryosuke."
The called boy turned his head only to be met by a warm hug he recognized belonged to his Mother's.
"I was so worried when I heard from Tomo-kun. If only I was home yesterday, I would be here since Tomo-kun called me last night."
The boy was then released from the hug and finally took a proper look on his Mother's figure. Awful was an understatement. Her mother was known for her neatness no matter the circumstances. And now, looking all flustered, with her wrinkled clothes and disheveled hair, he knew that she was too worried she even forgot about her appearances. He then took a glance to the tall boy standing by the corner, who then gave him a knowing look. Remembering their conversation last night, he sighed before flashing the woman a smile.
"I'm okay, Mother. No need to be worried." He assured his mother.
"I'm glad then." Her mother released a relieved sigh before it changed into that of a concern. "What had happened, dear ?"
Ryosuke's face hardened at this. "Can we- can we not talk about it ? If you wanted to know, I think you should ask Tomohisa-san instead. I'm not sure if I can explain everything to you, so-"
"Ryosuke," His mother called him and stopped him from talking any further. "It's okay, baby. You don't have to say anything. I understand."
The boy gave him a nod, and just let his mother caressing his hair comfortingly.
"I will go and talk to Tomo-kun for a bit okay ? You wait here while we're taking care of the administration." She stood up, and proceeded to the door when Ryosuke called him.
"Mother ? Can I do something while you're at it ?"
"What is it, dear ?" Her mother sent him a curious look.
"I, I heard that uncle Akihiko is already awake. If possible, I, I'd like to speak with him. You know, since I haven't had the chance to thank him properly and all." Ryosuke averted his gaze, seemingly too shy to look at her in the eyes.
Yamada Karin was surprised more than anything. But after digesting her son's words, she smiled.
"Of course you can, dear. If you're feeling okay enough for it, you can go and meet him. I was about to greet him myself after this." She said warmly.
"Thank you." Was the only thing Ryosuke could say as her mother left the room.
***
"We have some good and bad news for you, Karin-san." Tomohisa told the woman in a grim look. The way he said it, it sounded so cliche that Karin almost laughed at it. Almost.
"What is it ?" She asked instead.
"Well," Tomohisa started. "The good news is, your son seemed to be okay aside from the small bump on his head. We've done a CT-scan and found nothing unnatural from it. And we also managed to remove the bullet from Akihiko-san's chest. He was in a critical situation, but we managed to keep him stable for the time being."
"And the bad news is ?" She pried.
"We're afraid that he doesn't have long. The wound had hit his vital vessel and it was broken beyond repair. We just barely stopped the bleeding and stopped it from spreading, but the damage has been done. And beside-" The man was hesitant, but then he took a deep breath and proceeded. "The wounds from his past, I think it left him some permanent damage. From the tests we've done on him, we found out that he has an incomplete spinal cord injury. Whereas it doesn't seemed to affect his daily lives, it does affected his respiratory system. And from where he received his recent injury, I'm afraid it'd just worsened his current condition."
"Can't you do anything to help him ?" Karin paled, knowing that her son's saviour is dying.
Tomohisa shook his head, looking dejected himself. It's as if, he was disappointed at himself for having no solution to this crisis.
"I'm afraid that it was too late already to attend to his spinal cord injury. Whether he was aware about this or not beforehand, I have no idea. It's just, if only the injury was treated earlier, perhaps, we can still buy him more times."
"No way..." Karin gasped on her seat.
"And another thing," Tomohisa continued. "I called some psychiatrist I could put my faith on, and we took some check on Haruhiko-san this prior morning."
"And ?" Karin looked at him, anticipating.
"I'm afraid that your husband's mentality is unstable. Especially after what had happened last night, he might be a bit harmful to the society, so we suggest that it was best for him to be put in a facility or something." Explained Tomohisa. "Of course, to avoid any unnecessary attention, it would be best to put him far away from those prying people, and with some psychiatrist and caretaker that we can trust to keep quiet about this matter to watch over him. It's just, I believe it was safest if he stay away from his family and daily activities for a while. At least, until he's stable again."
"Can you make any rough calculation of how long until he's stable again ?" Asked Karin.
"It depends on the patient's will and attitude, so I don't really have a say in this. It's just that I'd like to warn you, that in the worst case, the patient will never regain his sanity back. Of course, there will be cases in which the patient will be able to return to the society and normal daily lives too. But on the safe side, let's just say that your husband will never be the same again."
Yamada Karin sighed. She leaned back on her seat and rest her back on the chair.
"I guess, it can't be helped." She then closed her eyes. "To be frank, I think this is for the best. I mean, I do care for him for he is a man that I've promised to spend my lifetime with, but, I'm not naive. I know how he treated people and the way he looked at others- He could be the worst of the worst at times. I've noticed this since a long time ago, but I decided to put a blind eyes on this. But having someone else spitting the truth right at my face, I guess this is finally the time for me to properly open my eyes. For my sons' sake as well, I think this is the best."
"Karin-san.."
"That's why, Tomo-kun, I will trust my husband's case in your hands. I believe in you to take care of everything." She took a deep breath. "And about Akihiko-san, please, give him whatever you thought is best. I, I know it's too late to say this but, I can only hope for his happiness, and perhaps, his forgiveness as well."
Her eyes shone as she smiled at him. She has to be strong, she thought. She can't be shaken by this kind of news, especially in this situation. She had promised to take care of her two sons properly this time, and she won't back out now that an unpredictable event arose. Because she is their mother.
***
Ryosuke took a deep breath as he stared at the door before him. On his side, he caught a sight of Yuto sending him an encouraging look.
"Are you ready ?" He heard Yuto said.
Nodding his head firmly, Ryosuke then raised a hand and knock on the door. Asking for a permission under his breath, he slowly, yet surely opened the door and scanned the room behind it. There, on the middle of the room, lied a middle-aged man on the white-sheeted bed. The man looked at them expectantly, before smiling as he ushered the two of them to enter the room.
Taking step by step closer to the bed, Ryosuke then stood awkwardly beside the bed. Behind him, he felt Yuto closing the door before walking to the other side of the bed. None of them spoke, and Ryosuke was not ready to break the silence. He was too nervous to say anything. Not that he will ever admit it though.
"Are you alright ?"
Unexpectedly, the man on the bed was the first to say something. Ryosuke frowned, thinking of a reason of why he asked such question, when he should be the one getting asked instead. But as his hand reached the white fabric on his head, he finally understood.
"This is nothing. Just a little bump which will be healed soon enough." He answered in a rush, feeling his cheeks flushed at realizing how awkward he sounded. "How about you ? Are you okay already ?" It was his turn to ask this time.
"I'm old." The man told him, earning him a confused look from the boy. "I don't expect to live long, young man. This-" He pointed to his chest where the wound might be located behind those hospital robe. "Is just a little surprise at the end of my life."
"Why are you saying that ?" Ryosuke frowned again. "It's almost as if, as if you're about to-"
"Die ?" The man finished his sentence. "But I am, boy. I am going to die. We all will. That's just what's being a human means. We are bound to die someday. And knowing that, I've decided not to have regret in this short life of mine."
Ryosuke shot him a look, waiting for him to continue speaking.
"You are the future of this world, boy. I know it." The man spoke again, softer this time. "That's what I thought when I jumped in front of you last night. And that's why I didn't hesitate to give up my life for you."
"What are you-"
"I knew that I don't have long. I don't need some smart-ass of a doctor or those high-tech machines to tell me that. Ever since sometimes ago, I knew that I'm running out of time. It's probably my guts, but I just knew it. And when last night's incident happened, I finally realized that 'Oh, this is it. This is my end.'. I'm the one to decide my fate, and not once I regretted it. If there's something I wish to undone in my life, that would be those times I went mad and used you kids for my revenge. But I can never change the past, so the only thing I can do right now is to apologize. I really am sorry. I never meant to harm you kids back then. I was in the wrong, and I hope you can find a place in your heart to forgive me."
"Uncle, I-"
"It's okay, son. You don't have to say a thing." The man shook his head. "It's a shame that I don't have that much time to see you grow, but knowing that you will do great in the future, I am satisfied."
Ryosuke was at lost for words, unable to say a word after the man's speech. There are a lot of things he needed to tell him, but not a word came past his lips. On the other hand, the man said nothing and just smiled before turning his gaze toward the other boy.
"And you, I heard of you from Yuu-san."
"You know Yuu ?" Yuto was genuinely surprised at this.
"Yes, I know him." The man said with a chuckle. "You're a great man. Or else Yuu-san wouldn't ever put an eye on you. So you should believe in yourself more, son. You are bigger than what you think you are."
"I, I'm honored." Yuto thanked him, a blush slowly creeping up his cheeks.
"Now, boys. After that long talk, I hope you can give me space for a bit. I am a little tired, and I wish to get some times to rest. If you don't mind." The man yawned, as if emphasizing the point.
"Ah ! Uhm, yeah, of course !" Ryosuke stuttered as he looked around the place one last time. "We will leave you for now."
The two boys then gave the man a bow, before taking their respective leaves. But then, just as Yuto opened the door for the two of them, Ryosuke halted his steps and turned back to face the man. Taking a deep breath, he bowed as deep as he can, giving the man his respect.
"I thank you from the deepest part of my heart for saving my life yesterday. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be standing here now. And I also wanted to say sorry for incoveniencing you with this matter, and for everything my father had done for you."
At last, he said those words he meant to say before.
"It's my pleasure." The man said as he lifted his head. "And don't worry about those unnecessary things. You have nothing to be sorry for."
Ryosuke averted his eyes again.
"I, We will be taking our leave then." He gave the man one last bow before leaving for real this time.
"Welldone." Whispered Yuto as he gave his hair an affectionate ruffle.
"Yeah." Ryosuke smiled to himself, relieved that everything went accordingly.
Neither ever imagine that it would be their last time seeing Yamada Akihiko.
~~~End Of Arc 3 - Chapitre 18 - View Of The Future~~~
Yeah.. I noticed.. It was exactly half a year ago since I last updated this fic.. Anyone still remember me anyway ?
I was supposed to post this on Christmas Eve though, but somehow got delayed in an unexpected event (or not)..
Well anyway.. To redeem for my lack of updates, I'm going to post a new fic right after this~ It's a one-shot, but is too long to be posted in one post, so I decided to cut it into a few parts.. But I'll just post the first part this time to test the waters.. *grins*
For you who are still remembering me, I send you my greatest gratitudes~ You're the awesomest guys~ >,<