Black Saint - Arc 2 - Chapitre 17
Title : Black Saint
Arc 2 - The Meaning Of That Happiness
Chapitre 17 - What's Inside You
Author :
zeon_avalanthe
Rating : PG-13 (For languanges in some chapters)
Genre : AU ; Angst
Pairing : YamaJima ; NakaChii ; OkaYama ; more will come as the story evolves..
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that I don't own any of those boys, sadly..
Summary for Arc 2 : Another meeting, another parting.. When the heart was on the verge of breaking down completely, could he still find the true meaning of happiness ?
Author's Note : Please ignore my sucky summary like usual~ The second arc's name and main plot was actually inspired by Honey L Days' song, The Meaning Of That Happiness, which then I used as the title of this arc.. Hope you'll like it~
And oh, Happy birthday our goofy Leader Ko-chan~ >,<
~~~Arc 2 - Chapitre 17 - What's Inside You~~~
Ryosuke opened his eyes and found himself staring at an unfamiliar ceiling above his head. Sitting up, he glanced to his right and left and came to a realization that he's at Keito's place. Thinking at how he could ended up in bed, he shook his head as he recalled nothing. Shrugging, he concluded that he might just was too exhausted that he fell asleep somehow.
Getting off of the bed, Ryosuke then walked out of the room and into the bathroom at the end of the hallway. He looked around the house but see no sign of any person around. Thinking that Keito might be out for grocery or something, he then proceeded to enter the bathroom. Not bothering to lock the door, he then walked into the shower and washed himself. Cladding himself with a towel, he throw his dirty clothes to the laundry basket and walked out of the bathroom and into the bedroom he was in before. Keito once told him to think of this place as his own, and even once insisted that Ryosuke just left his laundry there instead of taking it home. That's why it had somehow became a habit for him to act so casually like he's at his own home whenever he visits Keito's place.
Ryosuke had been into Keito's apartment for so many times before. And not once he had a sleepover there. So just in case an emergency occurred, he had prepared some spare clothes at his house, and even claimed the empty bedroom Keito had as his second bedroom. Scanning through the clothes, he picked a simple grey tee and a navy blue pants to wear. Glancing at the bandage on his arm, he sighed since it has to be changed already.
"I might as well undo the bandage already anyway." He shrugged as he pulled the tee over his head.
"That won't do, Ryosuke. Or else you might get an infection."
Almost jumping in surprise, Ryosuke turned his body fast -even too fast that he felt the world swaying for a second- and found his brother standing by the door with a first aid kit on his hands and a smile on his face.
"Yuya !"
"Come on. I'll change your bandage." The older boy ushered him to sat back on the bed and start peeling off the used bandage on his hand. Then, he dipped a cotton to the alcohol and gently tap it around his wound. "Does it still hurt ?"
Shaking his head slowly, Ryosuke then let his brother re-applied a new bandage over it.
"Keito-san went out early in the morning, saying that he has something important to do. He told me to feel free to use anything in the house, so I went and help myself with the kitchen to make some omurice." Yuya told him gently as he packed the kit. "Would you like to eat together with me ? I was a useless cook back then, but I practiced a lot. I dare to say that I'm capable of making a quite delicious meal now." A goofy grin was plastered on his tanned face as he reach a hand for Ryosuke to take.
Hesitantly, Ryosuke raised his own hand and grab Yuya's and let the older boy pulled him up and lead him to the diningroom. Almost immediately, the smell of food wafted through the air and Ryosuke automatically seated himself on one of the chair while Yuya served the food.
"Ittadakimasu !" Yuya cheered as he picked a spoon and start eating the dish, followed soon by the younger boy.
For a moment, both of them ate in silence. Ryosuke has to admit that Yuya could cook a decent food now, compared to the past when everything he made ended up in a trashbin. It's not perfect, but edible nevertheless.
"Ryosuke ?"
"Hn." Ryosuke grunted under his breath, signing the older boy that he's listening.
"Do you mind if I ask you about what had happened since I left ?"
Ryosuke tensed at the question before he placed the spoon back down and gulped down his water. All appetite forgotten, Ryosuke stood from his seat and excused himself.
"Ryosuke, wait !"
Yuya caught up with him before he managed to leave the dining room area and grabbed his wrist. Turning around, he's ready to pull his hand off by force, but stopped himself at the sight of Yuya staring at him pleadingly.
"Please, I need to know what I had missed."
"Sorry, Yuya." Ryosuke lowered his head, unable to look into Yuya's eyes properly.
"Please, Ryosuke. Just tell me anything. About your school or your friends or your daily life. Please." Yuya placed his two arms on Ryosuke's shoulders and beg.
"I..." Ryosuke hesitated for a moment before sighing in defeat. "Let's just return to the dining table. It would be a waste to throw away the leftovers." He then walked back to his seat and resume his meal.
"Well," He started off. "I'm doing well, I guess. I returned to school this year, but I hid my real identity from anyone though. I don't want people to know me and then use me for their own benefit. Kota had went from bad to worse for his mother-henning habit, it's annoying really."
"Well, he was just doing his job." Yuya smiled, glad to at least hear his brother speaking casually.
"Well..." Ryosuke shrugged before he spooned the rice to his mouth, with Yuya doing the same with his meal. His brother was trying to tell him things, and he'll just make the situation worse if he were to pry.
"Cookie died not too long after you left." Ryosuke suddenly spoke softly.
Yuya was clearly taken aback by the news. Cookie was Ryosuke's chihuahua pet dog which his brother really loved. It was a gift their parents gave him for his third birthday and Yuya remembered how he held the puppy happily for the first time. The pet dog had always been his sanctuary whenever Yuya was not around, and he always caught his brother sneakily got out to the backyards to play with his puppy. To know that it had died not too long after his leave, Yuya could only imagined how hurt his brother felt.
"Kota got me another pet dog not too long after. A toy poodle I named Kuu." His brother then added in a lighter tone. "I have to admit that it was hard at first. I was always crying after you left, and I could only cry more when Cookie died. But it taught me the other side of life, I think. And perhaps, it was the best for Cookie too." Ryosuke smiled sadly at the thought.
"Ryosuke, I'm so sorry." Yuya sighed deeply, eyes unable to look into his brother's. "I know you didn't want to listen to this, but you have to know that the reasone I left was-"
"Don't !" Ryosuke shouted as he shook his head frantically. "Please don't !"
"No, Ryosuke. You have to hear me." Yuya said in a firm voice. "I left because I was sick of our parents." He said finally. "I was sick of them who was never home. I was sick of them who could only told me things. I was sick of them who never looked at me properly. I-"
"If so, then why you left me behind ? You knew that I was feeling the same about our parents. Then why did you left me behind ?" Ryosuke demanded angrily, tears brimming on the corner of his eyes.
"Because I did not want you to have a hard life and suffer !" Yuya yelled. When his brother could only stared at him agape, he then continue, softer this time. "By leaving home, there are huge consequences that I have to pay. For one, I lost my rights as a part of Yamada family when our parents disinherited me. By losing my rights, I also lost all access to money and any other things which could make my life easier. And to add things up, there is a possibility that our parents would send people to search for me. I will have to go through a life filled with struggles. It wouldn't be an easy life, but I was ready for that."
Yuya then looked up and staring straight at his brother's eyes.
"But you were just a boy back then. A small and fragile boy that I used to hold tight. If I were to ask you of whether you wanted to come with me or not, I'm afraid you'll say yes. Because if you did come with me, you will have a hard life and I didn't want that."
"And you'd think I had a better life if I stayed ?" Ryosuke asked quietly, voice trembling from suppressed feelings.
"Not entirely better, but at least you'd have a decent life." Yuya spoke sadly.
"Then you didn't knew me enough." Ryosuke commented bitterly. "Or you were actually thinking that I'll just be a burden for you if you took me with you."
"No, never." Yuya sais sternly. "Never in my life I ever thought of you as a burden. Trust me, if I could, I would took you with me. But I couldn't. Aside from the fact that you were just a child back then, I also wasn't qualified as an adult myself. If something were to happened to you while you were in my custody, I wouldn't know what to do."
Ryosuke lowered his head down as Yuya took a deep breath.
"I know I had made a huge mistake, but I was just afraid back then. Afraid to see you suffer. Afraid to see you hurt. Without knowing that I would cause you those pains after I leave." He then smiled bitterly. "I was such a fool."
"You still is." Ryosuke mouthed under his breath.
"I know." A gentle smile spreaded across the older Yamada's face as the two brothers continue their breakfast in silence.
***
Walking in a high speed, the man in his hurry found himself bumping into people often to whom he hastily apologized. Looking at the picture on his phone display, he glanced his head to his left and right before finding the place he was searching for. Fastening his steps, he then quickly pushed the door open as he reached the place. And almost immediately, a smell of freshly baked pastry wafted through the air.
Approaching the man behind the counter, he then hesitantly asked, "Uhm, I'm here for Yuu-san. Is he here ?"
The man looked up at him before giving him a gentle smile.
"Of course. Please take that stairs and take a left. Head over to the end of the hallway. He's inside the room on your right."
"Thanks." He mumbled incoherently before speeding his way to the stairs and the appointed room. As he reached the door, he battled himself of whether he should knock the door or not. Deciding that it would be rude otherwise, the man raised a hand but was beaten when the door suddenly being opened from the inside.
He looked up and found a tall and good-looking young man stood before him, showing him a smile though he could read behind the smile that the young lad was tense and anxious.
"You must have been Yuuki-kun." The young man started. "We've been waiting. Please come in."
Nodding his head, he then proceeded to enter the room and immediately, his eyes wandered through it. He saw several other people already seated all across the room. Two men seated on the couch near the window, seemingly involved in a heated conversation. A young woman stood by the book shelf, an opened book upon her arms. A middle-aged woman seated on one corner, sipping into her tea as she seemed to ignore the approach another middle-aged man was making to her. Glancing to another corner of the room, he found one young man with a pale complexion sat by himself, a troubled expression on his face. If he didn't look carefully, he must have mistaken this guy for a woman, for his delicate features and complexion are traits usually had by a girl. But he knew better to know that it was a boy he is looking.
He then continue his scan through the room until his gazed finally fell on a young man seated across him, right in the middle of the room. With shining platinum hair, a contrast to his all black outfit with a serious expression that he had never saw before.
"Yuu. I guess this would be all."
As the young man who just opened the door for him spoke, all individual activities stopped and all eyes focused on the lone figure in black as he stood.
"Very well then." Yuu started to spoke. "Ladies and gentlemen, I thank you for coming all the way here. Especially after a very short notice. But we have this urgent matter ahead of us which needed to be solved to avoid a chaos from happening. And that was why, I summoned you all here. I'm about to ask you to do me a favour. And perhaps, this would be my very last favour to you all. Before I resigned from my throne and hand it over to this pupil of mine I called Rai."
~~~End of Arc 2 - Chapitre 17 - What's Inside You~~~
Arc 2 - The Meaning Of That Happiness
Chapitre 17 - What's Inside You
Author :
zeon_avalanthe
Rating : PG-13 (For languanges in some chapters)
Genre : AU ; Angst
Pairing : YamaJima ; NakaChii ; OkaYama ; more will come as the story evolves..
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that I don't own any of those boys, sadly..
Summary for Arc 2 : Another meeting, another parting.. When the heart was on the verge of breaking down completely, could he still find the true meaning of happiness ?
Author's Note : Please ignore my sucky summary like usual~ The second arc's name and main plot was actually inspired by Honey L Days' song, The Meaning Of That Happiness, which then I used as the title of this arc.. Hope you'll like it~
And oh, Happy birthday our goofy Leader Ko-chan~ >,<
~~~Arc 2 - Chapitre 17 - What's Inside You~~~
Ryosuke opened his eyes and found himself staring at an unfamiliar ceiling above his head. Sitting up, he glanced to his right and left and came to a realization that he's at Keito's place. Thinking at how he could ended up in bed, he shook his head as he recalled nothing. Shrugging, he concluded that he might just was too exhausted that he fell asleep somehow.
Getting off of the bed, Ryosuke then walked out of the room and into the bathroom at the end of the hallway. He looked around the house but see no sign of any person around. Thinking that Keito might be out for grocery or something, he then proceeded to enter the bathroom. Not bothering to lock the door, he then walked into the shower and washed himself. Cladding himself with a towel, he throw his dirty clothes to the laundry basket and walked out of the bathroom and into the bedroom he was in before. Keito once told him to think of this place as his own, and even once insisted that Ryosuke just left his laundry there instead of taking it home. That's why it had somehow became a habit for him to act so casually like he's at his own home whenever he visits Keito's place.
Ryosuke had been into Keito's apartment for so many times before. And not once he had a sleepover there. So just in case an emergency occurred, he had prepared some spare clothes at his house, and even claimed the empty bedroom Keito had as his second bedroom. Scanning through the clothes, he picked a simple grey tee and a navy blue pants to wear. Glancing at the bandage on his arm, he sighed since it has to be changed already.
"I might as well undo the bandage already anyway." He shrugged as he pulled the tee over his head.
"That won't do, Ryosuke. Or else you might get an infection."
Almost jumping in surprise, Ryosuke turned his body fast -even too fast that he felt the world swaying for a second- and found his brother standing by the door with a first aid kit on his hands and a smile on his face.
"Yuya !"
"Come on. I'll change your bandage." The older boy ushered him to sat back on the bed and start peeling off the used bandage on his hand. Then, he dipped a cotton to the alcohol and gently tap it around his wound. "Does it still hurt ?"
Shaking his head slowly, Ryosuke then let his brother re-applied a new bandage over it.
"Keito-san went out early in the morning, saying that he has something important to do. He told me to feel free to use anything in the house, so I went and help myself with the kitchen to make some omurice." Yuya told him gently as he packed the kit. "Would you like to eat together with me ? I was a useless cook back then, but I practiced a lot. I dare to say that I'm capable of making a quite delicious meal now." A goofy grin was plastered on his tanned face as he reach a hand for Ryosuke to take.
Hesitantly, Ryosuke raised his own hand and grab Yuya's and let the older boy pulled him up and lead him to the diningroom. Almost immediately, the smell of food wafted through the air and Ryosuke automatically seated himself on one of the chair while Yuya served the food.
"Ittadakimasu !" Yuya cheered as he picked a spoon and start eating the dish, followed soon by the younger boy.
For a moment, both of them ate in silence. Ryosuke has to admit that Yuya could cook a decent food now, compared to the past when everything he made ended up in a trashbin. It's not perfect, but edible nevertheless.
"Ryosuke ?"
"Hn." Ryosuke grunted under his breath, signing the older boy that he's listening.
"Do you mind if I ask you about what had happened since I left ?"
Ryosuke tensed at the question before he placed the spoon back down and gulped down his water. All appetite forgotten, Ryosuke stood from his seat and excused himself.
"Ryosuke, wait !"
Yuya caught up with him before he managed to leave the dining room area and grabbed his wrist. Turning around, he's ready to pull his hand off by force, but stopped himself at the sight of Yuya staring at him pleadingly.
"Please, I need to know what I had missed."
"Sorry, Yuya." Ryosuke lowered his head, unable to look into Yuya's eyes properly.
"Please, Ryosuke. Just tell me anything. About your school or your friends or your daily life. Please." Yuya placed his two arms on Ryosuke's shoulders and beg.
"I..." Ryosuke hesitated for a moment before sighing in defeat. "Let's just return to the dining table. It would be a waste to throw away the leftovers." He then walked back to his seat and resume his meal.
"Well," He started off. "I'm doing well, I guess. I returned to school this year, but I hid my real identity from anyone though. I don't want people to know me and then use me for their own benefit. Kota had went from bad to worse for his mother-henning habit, it's annoying really."
"Well, he was just doing his job." Yuya smiled, glad to at least hear his brother speaking casually.
"Well..." Ryosuke shrugged before he spooned the rice to his mouth, with Yuya doing the same with his meal. His brother was trying to tell him things, and he'll just make the situation worse if he were to pry.
"Cookie died not too long after you left." Ryosuke suddenly spoke softly.
Yuya was clearly taken aback by the news. Cookie was Ryosuke's chihuahua pet dog which his brother really loved. It was a gift their parents gave him for his third birthday and Yuya remembered how he held the puppy happily for the first time. The pet dog had always been his sanctuary whenever Yuya was not around, and he always caught his brother sneakily got out to the backyards to play with his puppy. To know that it had died not too long after his leave, Yuya could only imagined how hurt his brother felt.
"Kota got me another pet dog not too long after. A toy poodle I named Kuu." His brother then added in a lighter tone. "I have to admit that it was hard at first. I was always crying after you left, and I could only cry more when Cookie died. But it taught me the other side of life, I think. And perhaps, it was the best for Cookie too." Ryosuke smiled sadly at the thought.
"Ryosuke, I'm so sorry." Yuya sighed deeply, eyes unable to look into his brother's. "I know you didn't want to listen to this, but you have to know that the reasone I left was-"
"Don't !" Ryosuke shouted as he shook his head frantically. "Please don't !"
"No, Ryosuke. You have to hear me." Yuya said in a firm voice. "I left because I was sick of our parents." He said finally. "I was sick of them who was never home. I was sick of them who could only told me things. I was sick of them who never looked at me properly. I-"
"If so, then why you left me behind ? You knew that I was feeling the same about our parents. Then why did you left me behind ?" Ryosuke demanded angrily, tears brimming on the corner of his eyes.
"Because I did not want you to have a hard life and suffer !" Yuya yelled. When his brother could only stared at him agape, he then continue, softer this time. "By leaving home, there are huge consequences that I have to pay. For one, I lost my rights as a part of Yamada family when our parents disinherited me. By losing my rights, I also lost all access to money and any other things which could make my life easier. And to add things up, there is a possibility that our parents would send people to search for me. I will have to go through a life filled with struggles. It wouldn't be an easy life, but I was ready for that."
Yuya then looked up and staring straight at his brother's eyes.
"But you were just a boy back then. A small and fragile boy that I used to hold tight. If I were to ask you of whether you wanted to come with me or not, I'm afraid you'll say yes. Because if you did come with me, you will have a hard life and I didn't want that."
"And you'd think I had a better life if I stayed ?" Ryosuke asked quietly, voice trembling from suppressed feelings.
"Not entirely better, but at least you'd have a decent life." Yuya spoke sadly.
"Then you didn't knew me enough." Ryosuke commented bitterly. "Or you were actually thinking that I'll just be a burden for you if you took me with you."
"No, never." Yuya sais sternly. "Never in my life I ever thought of you as a burden. Trust me, if I could, I would took you with me. But I couldn't. Aside from the fact that you were just a child back then, I also wasn't qualified as an adult myself. If something were to happened to you while you were in my custody, I wouldn't know what to do."
Ryosuke lowered his head down as Yuya took a deep breath.
"I know I had made a huge mistake, but I was just afraid back then. Afraid to see you suffer. Afraid to see you hurt. Without knowing that I would cause you those pains after I leave." He then smiled bitterly. "I was such a fool."
"You still is." Ryosuke mouthed under his breath.
"I know." A gentle smile spreaded across the older Yamada's face as the two brothers continue their breakfast in silence.
***
Walking in a high speed, the man in his hurry found himself bumping into people often to whom he hastily apologized. Looking at the picture on his phone display, he glanced his head to his left and right before finding the place he was searching for. Fastening his steps, he then quickly pushed the door open as he reached the place. And almost immediately, a smell of freshly baked pastry wafted through the air.
Approaching the man behind the counter, he then hesitantly asked, "Uhm, I'm here for Yuu-san. Is he here ?"
The man looked up at him before giving him a gentle smile.
"Of course. Please take that stairs and take a left. Head over to the end of the hallway. He's inside the room on your right."
"Thanks." He mumbled incoherently before speeding his way to the stairs and the appointed room. As he reached the door, he battled himself of whether he should knock the door or not. Deciding that it would be rude otherwise, the man raised a hand but was beaten when the door suddenly being opened from the inside.
He looked up and found a tall and good-looking young man stood before him, showing him a smile though he could read behind the smile that the young lad was tense and anxious.
"You must have been Yuuki-kun." The young man started. "We've been waiting. Please come in."
Nodding his head, he then proceeded to enter the room and immediately, his eyes wandered through it. He saw several other people already seated all across the room. Two men seated on the couch near the window, seemingly involved in a heated conversation. A young woman stood by the book shelf, an opened book upon her arms. A middle-aged woman seated on one corner, sipping into her tea as she seemed to ignore the approach another middle-aged man was making to her. Glancing to another corner of the room, he found one young man with a pale complexion sat by himself, a troubled expression on his face. If he didn't look carefully, he must have mistaken this guy for a woman, for his delicate features and complexion are traits usually had by a girl. But he knew better to know that it was a boy he is looking.
He then continue his scan through the room until his gazed finally fell on a young man seated across him, right in the middle of the room. With shining platinum hair, a contrast to his all black outfit with a serious expression that he had never saw before.
"Yuu. I guess this would be all."
As the young man who just opened the door for him spoke, all individual activities stopped and all eyes focused on the lone figure in black as he stood.
"Very well then." Yuu started to spoke. "Ladies and gentlemen, I thank you for coming all the way here. Especially after a very short notice. But we have this urgent matter ahead of us which needed to be solved to avoid a chaos from happening. And that was why, I summoned you all here. I'm about to ask you to do me a favour. And perhaps, this would be my very last favour to you all. Before I resigned from my throne and hand it over to this pupil of mine I called Rai."
~~~End of Arc 2 - Chapitre 17 - What's Inside You~~~