Black Saint - Arc 2 - Chapitre 13
Title : Black Saint
Arc 2 - The Meaning Of That Happiness
Chapitre 13 - Karma
Author :
zeon_avalanthe
Rating : PG-13 (For languanges in some chapters)
Genre : AU ; Angst
Pairing : YamaJima ; NakaChii ; OkaYama ; more will come as the story evolves..
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that I don't own any of those boys, sadly..
Summary for Arc 2 : Another meeting, another parting.. When the heart was on the verge of breaking down completely, could he still find the true meaning of happiness ?
Author's Note : Please ignore my sucky summary like usual~ The second arc's name and main plot was actually inspired by Honey L Days' song, The Meaning Of That Happiness, which then I used as the title of this arc.. Hope you'll like it~
Author's Note II : This time, it's Taka- I mean Yamada Yuya-centered chapter.. And I do realized that Chinen's character had been rather, forgotten.. But worry not, I did not abandon the squirrel boy.. He'll come around sooner or later, and played his role on this arc..
~~~Arc 2 - Chapitre 13 - Karma~~~
Ever since he was a little kid, Yuya had always believed that karma exist, and that it would someday rewards him for his good deeds. And so when a chance came, Yuya did not have to think twice to grab it and released himself from the chain that had bounded him tight. He thought that his was his payment of all the goods he had done so he couldn't take a risk to waste it and let the chance went by. After all, it would be close to impossible that the same chance would ever occur ever again.
But by taking this chance offered to him, Yuya also knew that he would hurt the one he ever cared about deeply. That he might leave a permanent scar which neither time nor anything else could ever erase. His little brother was just a small and fragile kid who is in desperate need of love. And Yuya was the only one who could provide him the love he seek for. But then again, when Yuya was in his dilemma, he coincidentally overheard his brother's midnight chat with his butler.
And as he heard wise words came in a whisper from his brother's mouth, Yuya realized that his little brother was no longer the weak boy he used to protect. That Ryosuke had grow into a fine young man who could stand on his own. Knowing that his little brother would be fine even without him around, Yuya felt relief seeped into his system, relaxing his strained features.
Truth to be told, even after knowing his brother's maturity beyond his age, Yuya still found it hard to leave. But he no longer could bear the hatred and pain of living under the roof where all he could remember was shouts and cold backs. Neither one of his parents ever bothered to come and ask him what he really wanted, no. Of the rare moments he ever saw any of his parents, it was for them to tell him that he wasn't doing good enough, even after all the trophies and medals he had managed to achieved just to pleased them. His teachers all told him that he was a blessed kid. His schoolmates admired and envied him at the same times. The people from other schools thought of him as a tough rival. Even Sho-kun was proud of him and told Kota, his own son, to learn from him and set him as a good example. But no, his parents would not buy it all and instead telling him that he was not doing good enough. And he was sick of it all.
And so Yuya left. Without telling a word to anyone. Even to Kota whom he rendered a best friend. Even to Ryosuke, the one who could make his darkest day bright, the one who could turned his tears into laughters, the one he truly cared and loved, his sunshine, his precious little brother...
Bidding the boy one last kiss on the head, Yuya then sneaked out from the house ground. With only one small backpack behind his back, Yuya drew a deep breath and try to held his tears from falling as he ran toward the meeting point he had agreed with his helper, a young boy around his age who called himself Hongo Yuuki. At first, Yuya was reluctant to believe this guy. He didn't mean to be rude, but the huge scar which covered half of the boy's face was quite terrifying and it made the boy has this image of being a dangerous boy. But once he learnt more about this Hongo guy, Yuya found himself comfortable being around him and his laid-back personality. Hongo's tendency to crack a joke at the most unbelievable time had caused Yuya to be able to opened up a bit.
As he saw Hongo waving his hand from across the road, Yuya once again took a deep breath to assured his faltered mind. Nodding his head once, Yuya then followed the other boy to a journey only future knew.
***
It'd been years since Yuya had left his hometown, and never once had he heard from his family ever again. But when he walked back toward the apartment he and Yuuki had rent for the month after his little trip to the convenience store, a news suddenly appeared on the big screen and halted his steps. And when the news announcer spoke, Yuya almost dropped the plastic bag he was holding out of shock.
He hadn't seen him for the longest time ever, but there was no way Yuya could not recognized the figure. There it was a video which showed his younger brother's unconscious figure being wheeled into a hospital's emergency unit with the reporters trying to buy some informations about the incident. A grown-up man Yuya vaguely remember as the son of his late uncle who is a respectable doctor at the best university hospital in Tokyo, appeared on the screen and 'threatened' the reporters to back off or the police report would be sent for the assault and commotion the reporters had caused.
But Yuya didn't care about it nor about the reports the news announcer spoke. It was his brother's face which took his attention. His unconscious and pain-filled face of his brother which caused a pang pierced his heart. Watching as his brother looked so weak and vulnerable, with a breathing mask covered his mouth and nose to help him breath, while he stood there without being able to do anything. Helpless.
As soon as the news changes, Yuya ran as fast as he could to his shared apartment. Once he's in, ignoring Yuuki's question as to why he seemed to be in a rush, Yuya quickly shoved a few of his belonging into his backpack. Only when Yuuki's strong arms pulled him rather harshly away that he stopped.
"Yuya ! What the hell are you doing ?!"
Still panting from the run, Yuya shook his head as he tried to get off of Yuuki's grip.
"No ! You don't understand ! Please let me go !" Yuya almost wailed in his desperation to get away.
"No, I don't. That's why you tell me what's wrong or else I'll tie you up until you spill." A dangerous glint flashed from Yuuki's eyes and it was enough to brought Yuya back from his panic.
"I..." Yuya stepped back as his eyes wandered, before his knees failed him and he fell on the floor. "It's my brother." He then buried his face on his face, hands curling protectively around him as Yuuki released them. "My brother is sick. I saw it on the news just now. And here I am. Useless."
A tired sigh could be heard as Yuya felt Yuuki walking away before returning a few seconds later and seated himself beside him.
"So, what do you want to do ?" Yuuki asked softly, his voice barely a whisper.
"I, I don't know." Yuya shook his head. "I wanted to see him, I guess ? To make sure that he's really alright by my own eyes."
"You know, I do understand your wish to see you brother right away. But I have to say that what you were about to do was ruthless. You do realized that you're still on the run from your parents, don't you ? And with you coming in a rush like that, you'll just give yourself away." Yuuki said with a strained voice. "I know you are worried, but you have to be rational."
"What am I supposed to do then ?" Yuya almost screamed as he looked up and stared at his best friend.
"Give it time. Wait for a couple of weeks, and then you're free to go. I'll come for you after two weeks. To make sure that you will have an escape after meeting your brother and making sure that he's alright." Yuuki stated calmly as he pulled his cellphone from inside his jeans' pocket. "What do you think ?"
Sighing, Yuya knew that he had no other choice. No matter how badly he wanted to go and see his brother, he just couldn't or he'll ruined all of his and Yuuki's hard works all along. And so, he closed his eyes and nodded.
***
Putting back his phone inside his pocket after his brief conversation with Yuuki about their plan, Yuya then resumed his aimless walk around the town. He had wanted to come to the Yamada residence and see Ryosuke, but that would mean the whole household to know his whereabout. He just had to find another way.
And as he walked aimlessly in his reverie, Yuya failed to see a figure walking his way in a rush and caused them to bumped each other pretty hard.
"I'm so sorry ! I didn't see you !" Yuya apologize frantically to the other man, bowing his head repeatedly. He had expected the other man to scold him, but was surprised when the other man smiled instead.
"No, no, it's okay. I was at fault myself for not looking around properly." He spoke gently.
"Ah, really ? Well then, I am still sorry." Yuya scratched the back of his head while giving a sheepish smile. "It's just, I'm not used with the area, so, I was kinda lost, I suppose."
Hearing no response coming from the other man, Yuya frowned at the surprised expression the man was giving.
"Uhm, sir ? Are you alright ?" Yuya asked carefully as he leaned toward the man.
But the word being spoken next was the least thing Yuya ever expected to be directed his way.
"Taichou ?"
And so after the man spoke, Yuya could only gave a response every man most certainly would also do in this kind of condition.
"Ha ?!"
***
After seemingly realizing his mistake, the other man then apologized for mistaking him with someone else, which is answered by a nod by Yuya. The man who introduced himself as Okamoto Keito even went as far as offering him a place to stay while he stayed in the town, to which Yuya accepted gratefully.
And what a surprise it was when he was invited in, only to be faced with his very own brother, who seemed to be as surprised as he was. But before he managed to speak more, Ryosuke had fled, and the Okamoto boy prevent him from following his little brother. And as much as he disagree to the idea, he knew that it was best for now. Ryosuke needs time of his own.
But when another coincidence brought them to meet again the second time, Ryosuke still wouldn't listened to him, claiming that he's not ready. No matter how much Yuya begged and pleaded, his brother just won't listen to him.
"Ryosuke, we need to talk." Yuya placed his finger on his little brother's chin to lifted his face to make him look into his eyes, an act he often did whenever Ryosuke was in a bad mood and refused to talk to him in the past. "Please."
Yuya watched how his brother bite his lower lip, as if contemplating Yuya's words. He was hoping that his brother would finally listen to him. To finally forgive him. But-
"I can't." Ryosuke whispered in a strained voice. "I'm not ready." And with that, he pulled his hand away from Yuya's grasp with strength he never knew his brother posessed. "I'm sorry."
And so Ryosuke ran.
"Ryosuke, wait !" He shouted and went after his brother's running figure. But he certainly didn't expected his brother to be that fast, so a couple of minutes later, Yuya could only leaned against a wall, panting heavily. Tears brimming on the corner of his eyes as he realized something that might have been his karma for ever leaving his precious little brother behind without a word.
"Ryosuke hates me."
~~~End of Arc 2 - Chapitre 13 - Karma~~~
Arc 2 - The Meaning Of That Happiness
Chapitre 13 - Karma
Author :
zeon_avalanthe
Rating : PG-13 (For languanges in some chapters)
Genre : AU ; Angst
Pairing : YamaJima ; NakaChii ; OkaYama ; more will come as the story evolves..
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that I don't own any of those boys, sadly..
Summary for Arc 2 : Another meeting, another parting.. When the heart was on the verge of breaking down completely, could he still find the true meaning of happiness ?
Author's Note : Please ignore my sucky summary like usual~ The second arc's name and main plot was actually inspired by Honey L Days' song, The Meaning Of That Happiness, which then I used as the title of this arc.. Hope you'll like it~
Author's Note II : This time, it's Taka- I mean Yamada Yuya-centered chapter.. And I do realized that Chinen's character had been rather, forgotten.. But worry not, I did not abandon the squirrel boy.. He'll come around sooner or later, and played his role on this arc..
~~~Arc 2 - Chapitre 13 - Karma~~~
Ever since he was a little kid, Yuya had always believed that karma exist, and that it would someday rewards him for his good deeds. And so when a chance came, Yuya did not have to think twice to grab it and released himself from the chain that had bounded him tight. He thought that his was his payment of all the goods he had done so he couldn't take a risk to waste it and let the chance went by. After all, it would be close to impossible that the same chance would ever occur ever again.
But by taking this chance offered to him, Yuya also knew that he would hurt the one he ever cared about deeply. That he might leave a permanent scar which neither time nor anything else could ever erase. His little brother was just a small and fragile kid who is in desperate need of love. And Yuya was the only one who could provide him the love he seek for. But then again, when Yuya was in his dilemma, he coincidentally overheard his brother's midnight chat with his butler.
And as he heard wise words came in a whisper from his brother's mouth, Yuya realized that his little brother was no longer the weak boy he used to protect. That Ryosuke had grow into a fine young man who could stand on his own. Knowing that his little brother would be fine even without him around, Yuya felt relief seeped into his system, relaxing his strained features.
Truth to be told, even after knowing his brother's maturity beyond his age, Yuya still found it hard to leave. But he no longer could bear the hatred and pain of living under the roof where all he could remember was shouts and cold backs. Neither one of his parents ever bothered to come and ask him what he really wanted, no. Of the rare moments he ever saw any of his parents, it was for them to tell him that he wasn't doing good enough, even after all the trophies and medals he had managed to achieved just to pleased them. His teachers all told him that he was a blessed kid. His schoolmates admired and envied him at the same times. The people from other schools thought of him as a tough rival. Even Sho-kun was proud of him and told Kota, his own son, to learn from him and set him as a good example. But no, his parents would not buy it all and instead telling him that he was not doing good enough. And he was sick of it all.
And so Yuya left. Without telling a word to anyone. Even to Kota whom he rendered a best friend. Even to Ryosuke, the one who could make his darkest day bright, the one who could turned his tears into laughters, the one he truly cared and loved, his sunshine, his precious little brother...
Bidding the boy one last kiss on the head, Yuya then sneaked out from the house ground. With only one small backpack behind his back, Yuya drew a deep breath and try to held his tears from falling as he ran toward the meeting point he had agreed with his helper, a young boy around his age who called himself Hongo Yuuki. At first, Yuya was reluctant to believe this guy. He didn't mean to be rude, but the huge scar which covered half of the boy's face was quite terrifying and it made the boy has this image of being a dangerous boy. But once he learnt more about this Hongo guy, Yuya found himself comfortable being around him and his laid-back personality. Hongo's tendency to crack a joke at the most unbelievable time had caused Yuya to be able to opened up a bit.
As he saw Hongo waving his hand from across the road, Yuya once again took a deep breath to assured his faltered mind. Nodding his head once, Yuya then followed the other boy to a journey only future knew.
***
It'd been years since Yuya had left his hometown, and never once had he heard from his family ever again. But when he walked back toward the apartment he and Yuuki had rent for the month after his little trip to the convenience store, a news suddenly appeared on the big screen and halted his steps. And when the news announcer spoke, Yuya almost dropped the plastic bag he was holding out of shock.
He hadn't seen him for the longest time ever, but there was no way Yuya could not recognized the figure. There it was a video which showed his younger brother's unconscious figure being wheeled into a hospital's emergency unit with the reporters trying to buy some informations about the incident. A grown-up man Yuya vaguely remember as the son of his late uncle who is a respectable doctor at the best university hospital in Tokyo, appeared on the screen and 'threatened' the reporters to back off or the police report would be sent for the assault and commotion the reporters had caused.
But Yuya didn't care about it nor about the reports the news announcer spoke. It was his brother's face which took his attention. His unconscious and pain-filled face of his brother which caused a pang pierced his heart. Watching as his brother looked so weak and vulnerable, with a breathing mask covered his mouth and nose to help him breath, while he stood there without being able to do anything. Helpless.
As soon as the news changes, Yuya ran as fast as he could to his shared apartment. Once he's in, ignoring Yuuki's question as to why he seemed to be in a rush, Yuya quickly shoved a few of his belonging into his backpack. Only when Yuuki's strong arms pulled him rather harshly away that he stopped.
"Yuya ! What the hell are you doing ?!"
Still panting from the run, Yuya shook his head as he tried to get off of Yuuki's grip.
"No ! You don't understand ! Please let me go !" Yuya almost wailed in his desperation to get away.
"No, I don't. That's why you tell me what's wrong or else I'll tie you up until you spill." A dangerous glint flashed from Yuuki's eyes and it was enough to brought Yuya back from his panic.
"I..." Yuya stepped back as his eyes wandered, before his knees failed him and he fell on the floor. "It's my brother." He then buried his face on his face, hands curling protectively around him as Yuuki released them. "My brother is sick. I saw it on the news just now. And here I am. Useless."
A tired sigh could be heard as Yuya felt Yuuki walking away before returning a few seconds later and seated himself beside him.
"So, what do you want to do ?" Yuuki asked softly, his voice barely a whisper.
"I, I don't know." Yuya shook his head. "I wanted to see him, I guess ? To make sure that he's really alright by my own eyes."
"You know, I do understand your wish to see you brother right away. But I have to say that what you were about to do was ruthless. You do realized that you're still on the run from your parents, don't you ? And with you coming in a rush like that, you'll just give yourself away." Yuuki said with a strained voice. "I know you are worried, but you have to be rational."
"What am I supposed to do then ?" Yuya almost screamed as he looked up and stared at his best friend.
"Give it time. Wait for a couple of weeks, and then you're free to go. I'll come for you after two weeks. To make sure that you will have an escape after meeting your brother and making sure that he's alright." Yuuki stated calmly as he pulled his cellphone from inside his jeans' pocket. "What do you think ?"
Sighing, Yuya knew that he had no other choice. No matter how badly he wanted to go and see his brother, he just couldn't or he'll ruined all of his and Yuuki's hard works all along. And so, he closed his eyes and nodded.
***
Putting back his phone inside his pocket after his brief conversation with Yuuki about their plan, Yuya then resumed his aimless walk around the town. He had wanted to come to the Yamada residence and see Ryosuke, but that would mean the whole household to know his whereabout. He just had to find another way.
And as he walked aimlessly in his reverie, Yuya failed to see a figure walking his way in a rush and caused them to bumped each other pretty hard.
"I'm so sorry ! I didn't see you !" Yuya apologize frantically to the other man, bowing his head repeatedly. He had expected the other man to scold him, but was surprised when the other man smiled instead.
"No, no, it's okay. I was at fault myself for not looking around properly." He spoke gently.
"Ah, really ? Well then, I am still sorry." Yuya scratched the back of his head while giving a sheepish smile. "It's just, I'm not used with the area, so, I was kinda lost, I suppose."
Hearing no response coming from the other man, Yuya frowned at the surprised expression the man was giving.
"Uhm, sir ? Are you alright ?" Yuya asked carefully as he leaned toward the man.
But the word being spoken next was the least thing Yuya ever expected to be directed his way.
"Taichou ?"
And so after the man spoke, Yuya could only gave a response every man most certainly would also do in this kind of condition.
"Ha ?!"
***
After seemingly realizing his mistake, the other man then apologized for mistaking him with someone else, which is answered by a nod by Yuya. The man who introduced himself as Okamoto Keito even went as far as offering him a place to stay while he stayed in the town, to which Yuya accepted gratefully.
And what a surprise it was when he was invited in, only to be faced with his very own brother, who seemed to be as surprised as he was. But before he managed to speak more, Ryosuke had fled, and the Okamoto boy prevent him from following his little brother. And as much as he disagree to the idea, he knew that it was best for now. Ryosuke needs time of his own.
But when another coincidence brought them to meet again the second time, Ryosuke still wouldn't listened to him, claiming that he's not ready. No matter how much Yuya begged and pleaded, his brother just won't listen to him.
"Ryosuke, we need to talk." Yuya placed his finger on his little brother's chin to lifted his face to make him look into his eyes, an act he often did whenever Ryosuke was in a bad mood and refused to talk to him in the past. "Please."
Yuya watched how his brother bite his lower lip, as if contemplating Yuya's words. He was hoping that his brother would finally listen to him. To finally forgive him. But-
"I can't." Ryosuke whispered in a strained voice. "I'm not ready." And with that, he pulled his hand away from Yuya's grasp with strength he never knew his brother posessed. "I'm sorry."
And so Ryosuke ran.
"Ryosuke, wait !" He shouted and went after his brother's running figure. But he certainly didn't expected his brother to be that fast, so a couple of minutes later, Yuya could only leaned against a wall, panting heavily. Tears brimming on the corner of his eyes as he realized something that might have been his karma for ever leaving his precious little brother behind without a word.
"Ryosuke hates me."
~~~End of Arc 2 - Chapitre 13 - Karma~~~