Black Saint - Arc 2 - Chapitre 8
Title : Black Saint
Arc 2 - The Meaning Of That Happiness
Chapitre 8 - Of Trust And Fear
Author :
zeon_avalanthe
Rating : PG-13 (For languanges in some chapters)
Genre : AU ; Angst
Pairing : YamaJima ; NakaChii ; OkaYama ; more will come as the story evolves..
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that I don't own any of those boys, sadly..
Summary for Arc 2 : Another meeting, another parting.. When the heart was on the verge of breaking down completely, could he still find the true meaning of happiness ?
Author's Note : Please ignore my sucky summary like usual~ The second arc's name and main plot was actually inspired by Honey L Days' song, The Meaning Of That Happiness, which then I used as the title of this arc.. There will be new characters appearing and some revealing of the old characters as well~ Hope you'll like it~
~~~Arc 2 - Chapitre 8 - Of Trust And Fear~~~
When Ryosuke opened his eyes once again, the same unfamiliar ceiling greeted him. But unlike his previous encounter, the dim light from the bed lamp felt rather calming this time. But as he turned his head to the side, Ryosuke groaned as he regretted the act. The slight move he did had caused his vision doubled before he scrunched his eyes shut to rid of the dizzy attack. And as he raised his hand to touch his head, he felt somehow weak and sluggish. His chest felt heavy and his whole body just felt too hot. It's as if he was suffering from a bad case of cold.
"That would be because you 'are' suffering from a bad cold, Yamada-kun."
Ryosuke opened one eye to glanced at the source of the voice. There stood a man in his twenties wearing an oversized sky blue shirt and baggy pants under his rainbow-coloured apron with a tray on top of his hands.
The man smiled brightly as he set the tray down on top the drawer beside the bed and proceeded to took the towel from on top of his head. He then took something from the tray, which happened to be a thermometer, before striking another bright smile toward Ryosuke as he took a seat on a vacant chair just beside the bed.
"Now Yamada-kun, if you would please open your mouth for a bit and let me take your temperature, it would be nice of you."
Ryosuke frown instead, while staring at the other man sharply. Well, as sharp as he could in his weakened condition.
"Who are you ?" He snarled rudely.
The man just shook his head as he beamed happily at him. "Worry not, Yamada-kun. I won't do anything at you. I'm here to help to take care of you. A request made by a friend of mine."
"Ha ?" Ryosuke inquired dumbly.
"You may call me Junichi anyway." The man continued as he proceeded to took the chance and slip the thermometer inside Ryosuke's opened mouth.
Ryosuke was left dumbfounded, but he stayed still until the device made a 'beep' sound which almost made him jump in surprise.
Junichi chuckled a bit as he pulled the thermometer back in his hand.
"Hmm.. 101.. You still have quite the temperature, Yamada-kun, but it wasn't as bad as last night. After a night or two, you'll be fine." The man explained kindly. "Anyway, I brought you some breakfast here. I actually planned on having you some late dinner last night, but you seemed unable to wake up and I didn't have the heart to force you to."
Junichi helped Ryosuke up and comfortable in a sitting position before taking the bowl from the tray he brought with him.
"It's just a simple chicken porridge with light seasoning. It might tasted bland but enough to fill your empty stomach. After that and the medicine, I suggest you to go back to sleep."
Ryosuke just stared at Junichi and the food skeptically without giving any kind of response.
"What's wrong, Yamada-kun ?"
"Are you someone Yuto knew ?" He asked suddenly.
Junichi was taken aback slightly by the bluntness of the boy before breaking into a small chuckle.
"What's so funny ?" Ryosuke frowned.
"Nothing." The man smiled. "But no, I know no one by the name of Yuto. Though it's not impossible that someone named Yuto knows me."
"What is that supposed to mean ?" Ryosuke arched an eyebrow.
"Well, for the fact that I ran a small Cafe downstairs might be the reason. Who knows that one of my customers actually named Yuto ?" Junichi smiled as he spooned the porridge and bring it to his mouth. "And see ? Nothing suspicious had been put inside the food. Now take a bite." He then took another spoon and bring it to Ryosuke's mouth.
Ryosuke frowned for a bit, before deciding that the dish is not harmful and took the spoon to his mouth.
"But then, how did I ended here ?" Ryosuke said after gulping the warm porridge down his throat. "I might be half-conscious and weak, but I was sure it was Yuto's face I saw before I fainted completely."
Junichi raised his head and stared at Ryosuke's own eyes for a moment, as if contemplating something, before he bring another spoonful of porridge toward Ryosuke's mouth.
"I told you before, that I'm doing a friend of mine a favor. And that is, to take care of you. But this friend of mine, is not named Yuto." Junichi stated calmly. "His name is Rai. He was the one who found you collapsing in the middle of a desserted alley. He said he was sorry that he could not wait until you wake up to at least greet you. He's a busy man, you see."
And for an unknown reason, Ryosuke felt a sense of disappointment filled his system. But Ryosuke was too tired and weak to care for the time being, so he just nodded and let Junichi fed him. After some more spoonful of porridge, the meal was all done. The man then offered Ryosuke a couple of pills which he said would help to reduce his fever and headache, which Ryosuke took gratefully. After a little shuffling, Ryosuke found himself laying back on top of the soft bed with the warm blanket covering his still hot body. It was far too uncomfortable, but Ryosuke knew better than to kick the blanket off of his body.
"Well then. It's almost time to open the Cafe. I'll check you out once in a while, okay. And I'll bring you your lunch in a couple of hours. Now you sleep well and rest, Yamada-kun." Junichi stood from his seat and put the glass on the tray before proceeding to leave.
"Junichi-san ?" Ryosuke called out as he felt his eyes getting heavy.
"Yeah ?"
"Thank you." Ryosuke muttered quietly. "And thank your friend Rai as well."
And before the other man could say anything, Ryosuke closed his eyes and into the dreamland. For an unknown reason, feeling safe under the care of this stranger he barely knew.
Chuckling, Junichi shook his head a bit before closing the door behind him.
"Really. What an interesting fellow you had there, Rai-kun." He whispered to himself as he walked down the stairways at the end of the hallway.
"And you're welcome, Yamada-kun."
***
"Yamada residence. May I help you ?"
"Kota ?" Ryosuke called out.
For a moment, silence fell on both the caller and receiver.
"B-Bocchan ?"
Ryosuke chuckled weakly at the incredulous tone his butler was using.
"Yeah. It's me."
"Bocchan ! Where are you now ? Where have you been ? What are you doing ? Dear God, you have no idea how worried I was when you never came back last night ! I was contemplating to call a searching group to look for you !"
"Kota, relax !" Ryosuke half-shouted from the phone. "Take a deep breath and calm down." He could hear the other boy was taking a deep yet shaky breath from the other line. "Now I'm fine. Many things happened last night so I could only contact you now. And I'm sorry. But I'm fine, and will be fine by my own. I'll return home in a couple of days. And if I find myself unable to walk home by myself, I'll call you again to pick me up, okay ?"
His butler sounded ready to protest, but in the end, he managed to hold himself and sighed deeply. "I understand, Bocchan. And I am terribly sorry for my outburst just now. It was rude of me."
"It's okay. I understand." Ryosuke sighed as well. "It was partly my fault too."
Even without seeing him, Ryosuke was almost sure that Kota is smiling by now.
"It's good that you can understand." Kota said in a teasing manner.
"Shut up." Ryosuke growled as he stifled a cough.
"Bocchan ? Are you alright ?" Kota asked concernedly from the other line.
"Yeah. I'm good." Ryosuke assured his butler half-heartedly.
"Are you sure ?"
Ryosuke groaned at Kota's insistence. Normally, he would immediately snapped at his butler for his constant fussing, but now, he was just feeling too tired to even raise his tone.
"Yeah. No need to be worried." He spoke weakly.
"If you said so." It was clear that Kota was nowhere near convinced. But it seemed like the older boy could read his Young Master's unwillingness to talk about that matter further, so he didn't pry.
"Ne, Kota." Ryosuke started hesitantly.
"What is the matter, Bocchan ?"
"You see, a couple of days ago, I saw him." Ryosuke closed his eyes as he rolled on the bed.
"Pardon me ?" Kota asked in confusion.
"It's Yuya. I saw him."
Ryosuke could hear faintly how Kota gasped as he tried to process his words.
"By Yuya, you mean, Yuya-sama ?" Kota inquired softly.
"Yeah. That Yuya. My stupid older brother Yuya." Ryosuke sighed.
"I see." Kota sounded he's contemplating his words. "What- what happened ?"
"He wanted to talk. I didn't want to listen." Ryosuke answered matter-of-factly.
"And may I ask you why ?"
Ryosuke shook his head as he rolled again on the bed. "I don't know. I just didn't want to hear anything from him. Not yet. I guess- I guess I'm not ready." He sighed tiredly while placing his palm to cover his eyes. "I guess I'm just, afraid. To hear what he needed to say."
"Bocchan..." Kota paused for a moment before continuing. "I would be lying if I were to say that I understand your feeling but, I believe it would be wise for you to face your fears instead of running away from them."
"I know !" Ryosuke exclaimed in frustation. "I know it but, I'm just not ready yet. I need time to sort things out first. I just..."
"Of course you do, Bocchan. And you have all the rights to have all the times in the world to sort things out until you are ready." Kota commented softly. "But do you really have those times ? What if it was far too late already once you finally came out with any conclusion ?"
"I..."
"Please re-think about the whole situation once again, Bocchan. I believe Yuya-sama never meant harm for you. Perhaps, all you two needed are a small talk just between yourself to have things right again." Kota's smile could almost be seen through the phone line. "But it's up to your own decision, Bocchan. And you can have my words that whatever you might be choosing later, I will always support you by your side."
"Yeah. I know." Ryosuke whispered weakly. "Anyway, I gotta go. Talk to you later." After hearing an affirmation from the other line, Ryosuke cut the line.
Ryosuke turned his head and bury it into his pillow.
"I'm not that strong, Kota. I'm not ready for another heartbreak if Yuya were to leave me again."
A soft sob was coming from his mouth as he bury his face deeper into the pillow.
"I'm scared..."
He wailed softly, still being careful that Junichi won't be able to hear him as he poured his heart out.
Unbeknownst to him, that a tall figure currently leaning behind his door, listening to him as he cry in agony, a pained look plastered on his face.
"Yama-chan..."
~~~End of Arc 2 - Chapitre 8 - Of Trust and Fear~~~
I am sick.. Like having a bad cough and suffering from a fever and all.. Dunno.. I'm feeling well in the morning, but as the day went on, I felt worse.. And this cycle had went on for days already.. Now it's almost night, I'm feeling almost horrible.. It usually took the worst at night.. Gosh, just last night I had a dream where things turned giant around me, and then suddenly, a wad of money with the size of a door suddenly appeared and crushed me down.. It was terrifying.. Honestly.. *sigh* For an unknown reason, whenever I'm having a fever, I tend to dreamt about things went giant and I would be as small as an ant..
And oh, to make things worse, I still have to come for work.. *sigh* I hate it.. My throat felt itchy, my muscles hurt all over, and the headache is killing me..
Okay, enough with the rant.. Now please comment to make me feel better.. *cries*
Arc 2 - The Meaning Of That Happiness
Chapitre 8 - Of Trust And Fear
Author :
zeon_avalanthe
Rating : PG-13 (For languanges in some chapters)
Genre : AU ; Angst
Pairing : YamaJima ; NakaChii ; OkaYama ; more will come as the story evolves..
Disclaimer : Everyone knows that I don't own any of those boys, sadly..
Summary for Arc 2 : Another meeting, another parting.. When the heart was on the verge of breaking down completely, could he still find the true meaning of happiness ?
Author's Note : Please ignore my sucky summary like usual~ The second arc's name and main plot was actually inspired by Honey L Days' song, The Meaning Of That Happiness, which then I used as the title of this arc.. There will be new characters appearing and some revealing of the old characters as well~ Hope you'll like it~
~~~Arc 2 - Chapitre 8 - Of Trust And Fear~~~
When Ryosuke opened his eyes once again, the same unfamiliar ceiling greeted him. But unlike his previous encounter, the dim light from the bed lamp felt rather calming this time. But as he turned his head to the side, Ryosuke groaned as he regretted the act. The slight move he did had caused his vision doubled before he scrunched his eyes shut to rid of the dizzy attack. And as he raised his hand to touch his head, he felt somehow weak and sluggish. His chest felt heavy and his whole body just felt too hot. It's as if he was suffering from a bad case of cold.
"That would be because you 'are' suffering from a bad cold, Yamada-kun."
Ryosuke opened one eye to glanced at the source of the voice. There stood a man in his twenties wearing an oversized sky blue shirt and baggy pants under his rainbow-coloured apron with a tray on top of his hands.
The man smiled brightly as he set the tray down on top the drawer beside the bed and proceeded to took the towel from on top of his head. He then took something from the tray, which happened to be a thermometer, before striking another bright smile toward Ryosuke as he took a seat on a vacant chair just beside the bed.
"Now Yamada-kun, if you would please open your mouth for a bit and let me take your temperature, it would be nice of you."
Ryosuke frown instead, while staring at the other man sharply. Well, as sharp as he could in his weakened condition.
"Who are you ?" He snarled rudely.
The man just shook his head as he beamed happily at him. "Worry not, Yamada-kun. I won't do anything at you. I'm here to help to take care of you. A request made by a friend of mine."
"Ha ?" Ryosuke inquired dumbly.
"You may call me Junichi anyway." The man continued as he proceeded to took the chance and slip the thermometer inside Ryosuke's opened mouth.
Ryosuke was left dumbfounded, but he stayed still until the device made a 'beep' sound which almost made him jump in surprise.
Junichi chuckled a bit as he pulled the thermometer back in his hand.
"Hmm.. 101.. You still have quite the temperature, Yamada-kun, but it wasn't as bad as last night. After a night or two, you'll be fine." The man explained kindly. "Anyway, I brought you some breakfast here. I actually planned on having you some late dinner last night, but you seemed unable to wake up and I didn't have the heart to force you to."
Junichi helped Ryosuke up and comfortable in a sitting position before taking the bowl from the tray he brought with him.
"It's just a simple chicken porridge with light seasoning. It might tasted bland but enough to fill your empty stomach. After that and the medicine, I suggest you to go back to sleep."
Ryosuke just stared at Junichi and the food skeptically without giving any kind of response.
"What's wrong, Yamada-kun ?"
"Are you someone Yuto knew ?" He asked suddenly.
Junichi was taken aback slightly by the bluntness of the boy before breaking into a small chuckle.
"What's so funny ?" Ryosuke frowned.
"Nothing." The man smiled. "But no, I know no one by the name of Yuto. Though it's not impossible that someone named Yuto knows me."
"What is that supposed to mean ?" Ryosuke arched an eyebrow.
"Well, for the fact that I ran a small Cafe downstairs might be the reason. Who knows that one of my customers actually named Yuto ?" Junichi smiled as he spooned the porridge and bring it to his mouth. "And see ? Nothing suspicious had been put inside the food. Now take a bite." He then took another spoon and bring it to Ryosuke's mouth.
Ryosuke frowned for a bit, before deciding that the dish is not harmful and took the spoon to his mouth.
"But then, how did I ended here ?" Ryosuke said after gulping the warm porridge down his throat. "I might be half-conscious and weak, but I was sure it was Yuto's face I saw before I fainted completely."
Junichi raised his head and stared at Ryosuke's own eyes for a moment, as if contemplating something, before he bring another spoonful of porridge toward Ryosuke's mouth.
"I told you before, that I'm doing a friend of mine a favor. And that is, to take care of you. But this friend of mine, is not named Yuto." Junichi stated calmly. "His name is Rai. He was the one who found you collapsing in the middle of a desserted alley. He said he was sorry that he could not wait until you wake up to at least greet you. He's a busy man, you see."
And for an unknown reason, Ryosuke felt a sense of disappointment filled his system. But Ryosuke was too tired and weak to care for the time being, so he just nodded and let Junichi fed him. After some more spoonful of porridge, the meal was all done. The man then offered Ryosuke a couple of pills which he said would help to reduce his fever and headache, which Ryosuke took gratefully. After a little shuffling, Ryosuke found himself laying back on top of the soft bed with the warm blanket covering his still hot body. It was far too uncomfortable, but Ryosuke knew better than to kick the blanket off of his body.
"Well then. It's almost time to open the Cafe. I'll check you out once in a while, okay. And I'll bring you your lunch in a couple of hours. Now you sleep well and rest, Yamada-kun." Junichi stood from his seat and put the glass on the tray before proceeding to leave.
"Junichi-san ?" Ryosuke called out as he felt his eyes getting heavy.
"Yeah ?"
"Thank you." Ryosuke muttered quietly. "And thank your friend Rai as well."
And before the other man could say anything, Ryosuke closed his eyes and into the dreamland. For an unknown reason, feeling safe under the care of this stranger he barely knew.
Chuckling, Junichi shook his head a bit before closing the door behind him.
"Really. What an interesting fellow you had there, Rai-kun." He whispered to himself as he walked down the stairways at the end of the hallway.
"And you're welcome, Yamada-kun."
***
"Yamada residence. May I help you ?"
"Kota ?" Ryosuke called out.
For a moment, silence fell on both the caller and receiver.
"B-Bocchan ?"
Ryosuke chuckled weakly at the incredulous tone his butler was using.
"Yeah. It's me."
"Bocchan ! Where are you now ? Where have you been ? What are you doing ? Dear God, you have no idea how worried I was when you never came back last night ! I was contemplating to call a searching group to look for you !"
"Kota, relax !" Ryosuke half-shouted from the phone. "Take a deep breath and calm down." He could hear the other boy was taking a deep yet shaky breath from the other line. "Now I'm fine. Many things happened last night so I could only contact you now. And I'm sorry. But I'm fine, and will be fine by my own. I'll return home in a couple of days. And if I find myself unable to walk home by myself, I'll call you again to pick me up, okay ?"
His butler sounded ready to protest, but in the end, he managed to hold himself and sighed deeply. "I understand, Bocchan. And I am terribly sorry for my outburst just now. It was rude of me."
"It's okay. I understand." Ryosuke sighed as well. "It was partly my fault too."
Even without seeing him, Ryosuke was almost sure that Kota is smiling by now.
"It's good that you can understand." Kota said in a teasing manner.
"Shut up." Ryosuke growled as he stifled a cough.
"Bocchan ? Are you alright ?" Kota asked concernedly from the other line.
"Yeah. I'm good." Ryosuke assured his butler half-heartedly.
"Are you sure ?"
Ryosuke groaned at Kota's insistence. Normally, he would immediately snapped at his butler for his constant fussing, but now, he was just feeling too tired to even raise his tone.
"Yeah. No need to be worried." He spoke weakly.
"If you said so." It was clear that Kota was nowhere near convinced. But it seemed like the older boy could read his Young Master's unwillingness to talk about that matter further, so he didn't pry.
"Ne, Kota." Ryosuke started hesitantly.
"What is the matter, Bocchan ?"
"You see, a couple of days ago, I saw him." Ryosuke closed his eyes as he rolled on the bed.
"Pardon me ?" Kota asked in confusion.
"It's Yuya. I saw him."
Ryosuke could hear faintly how Kota gasped as he tried to process his words.
"By Yuya, you mean, Yuya-sama ?" Kota inquired softly.
"Yeah. That Yuya. My stupid older brother Yuya." Ryosuke sighed.
"I see." Kota sounded he's contemplating his words. "What- what happened ?"
"He wanted to talk. I didn't want to listen." Ryosuke answered matter-of-factly.
"And may I ask you why ?"
Ryosuke shook his head as he rolled again on the bed. "I don't know. I just didn't want to hear anything from him. Not yet. I guess- I guess I'm not ready." He sighed tiredly while placing his palm to cover his eyes. "I guess I'm just, afraid. To hear what he needed to say."
"Bocchan..." Kota paused for a moment before continuing. "I would be lying if I were to say that I understand your feeling but, I believe it would be wise for you to face your fears instead of running away from them."
"I know !" Ryosuke exclaimed in frustation. "I know it but, I'm just not ready yet. I need time to sort things out first. I just..."
"Of course you do, Bocchan. And you have all the rights to have all the times in the world to sort things out until you are ready." Kota commented softly. "But do you really have those times ? What if it was far too late already once you finally came out with any conclusion ?"
"I..."
"Please re-think about the whole situation once again, Bocchan. I believe Yuya-sama never meant harm for you. Perhaps, all you two needed are a small talk just between yourself to have things right again." Kota's smile could almost be seen through the phone line. "But it's up to your own decision, Bocchan. And you can have my words that whatever you might be choosing later, I will always support you by your side."
"Yeah. I know." Ryosuke whispered weakly. "Anyway, I gotta go. Talk to you later." After hearing an affirmation from the other line, Ryosuke cut the line.
Ryosuke turned his head and bury it into his pillow.
"I'm not that strong, Kota. I'm not ready for another heartbreak if Yuya were to leave me again."
A soft sob was coming from his mouth as he bury his face deeper into the pillow.
"I'm scared..."
He wailed softly, still being careful that Junichi won't be able to hear him as he poured his heart out.
Unbeknownst to him, that a tall figure currently leaning behind his door, listening to him as he cry in agony, a pained look plastered on his face.
"Yama-chan..."
~~~End of Arc 2 - Chapitre 8 - Of Trust and Fear~~~
I am sick.. Like having a bad cough and suffering from a fever and all.. Dunno.. I'm feeling well in the morning, but as the day went on, I felt worse.. And this cycle had went on for days already.. Now it's almost night, I'm feeling almost horrible.. It usually took the worst at night.. Gosh, just last night I had a dream where things turned giant around me, and then suddenly, a wad of money with the size of a door suddenly appeared and crushed me down.. It was terrifying.. Honestly.. *sigh* For an unknown reason, whenever I'm having a fever, I tend to dreamt about things went giant and I would be as small as an ant..
And oh, to make things worse, I still have to come for work.. *sigh* I hate it.. My throat felt itchy, my muscles hurt all over, and the headache is killing me..
Okay, enough with the rant.. Now please comment to make me feel better.. *cries*