this morning i was straightening my hair just kind of letting my mind wander, and i remembered a dream i had last night. the dream itself is meaningless. the point is, my dad was in it and i hugged him and told him i loved him. and he said "i love you so much". for those of you who dont know, in all the dreams ive had about my dad since he passed ( Read more... )

i love gym class heroes

ive decided i dont want to go to school anymore. im saying im gonna go drop out or anything, but what i am saying is school isnt for me anymore. i dont learn by sitting in a classroom. i learn by doing, im not going to learn how to manage anything by sitting in a classroom talking about corporate management. i hate corporate management. i want to ( Read more... )

some days i feel like shit. some days i want to quit, and just be normal for a bit.

i wont make promises, you taught me that. and you think this time, that i'd be blaming myself for this one. but i changed my mind, i can carry on. i'd trade the truth for lies sometimes. im tired of being bored, im through with the headaches, and hiding my hands that tremble like earthquakes. under the table, under the day time sky. i dont hear ( Read more... )

it's 8 billion fuck degrees in my room.
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRR!!!!

so my first figure skating lesson went really well. i mean, i kind of suck [not gonna lie.] but im going to stick with it because although its not the profound thing im looking for...it makes me happy. gives me something to do by myself. i like that ( Read more... )

my dad died today. i dont really know what else to say. im crushed, devistated, baffled, hurt...i want to die. i dont know what to do.

to everyone who has called and i havent called back...thank you, im sorry but i cant talk to anyone yet.

went to camp. it was awesome, but im glad billy rushed me to the car so i didnt attempt to stay. i am however going back up for another week...maybe more ;o ( Read more... )

um. so yvonnes mom spent the night here last night. and shes spending the night here again tonight. weird. also not how i planned spending my last nights here. oh well ( Read more... )