At the moment, I've been reading more than watching anything, but I do try to keep up with The Big Bang Theory and Elementary. Also, I've been trying to finish my Korra rewatch but the timing is always bad.
Why can't I remember who Gyousou is? Oh wait, NOW I recall. it's been a WHILE. Thinking on it, I don't recall a single thing about his fate, though we do find out what happened with Taiki. It does make sense, actually, the idea that he would follow Taiki. And now, with how Taiki is, will there be a way to even find Gyousou?
But yes, I agree with you about Gekkei, oddly. It makes sense to me to hear it that way. One question comes to mind, though: who would he have expected to punish him? Shoukei? The Mandate of Heaven?
You may have answered this already, but have you read the novels? They're gorgeous, and the novels are what got me so deeply into the series - and that was the TokyoPop translation, even after they left so much out. Online you can find maybe a third of them, and the translations are actually quite good, but not all of them are done yet.
Simple - because I am not awesome. I am barely hanging on by the skin of my teeth. I have been having panic attacks, anxiety attacks, relationship confusions, diet fuck-ups, and money troubles. I sometimes find myself unable to move when trying to sleep, and sometimes I have to remind myself to breathe. I keep hurting myself and I lack the care to stop, though luckily it is a method that has no lasting damage. I keep fucking up things with people. I am almost 30 and feel like a teenager. I am worried that there is somehow an adult onset of retardation and I have it. I am terrified of my drug use, but terrified of being without my drugs. There are days in which I want to kill myself. My hair is ugly. My skin keeps breaking out. My eyes are bad and I have not been able to make the time for an eye exam. I suck at writing and will never be published. I am crying while typing this.
But even though I know all this and know I am not awesome, your kindness helps. I do genuinely think you think I am that way, and I am grateful for your
Relationship: Mostly one-sided on my side. I'm working through it, but it does add to my anxiety.
Hurting: No, not cutting =3. My foot has been blistering lately, so I just pick and poke and peel at them. It's strangely satisfying, which tells me that something is very, very wrong. I haven't cut myself in a long, long time.
Meds: Prescription. I haven't bothered with recreational since I found out that pot is useless for my pain. And you know alcohol makes me sick.
Suicide: I'm not on the brink of ODing, but in my moments of true woe, that make me feel like I'm crazy, I wonder if it would be the easier way out. But I never would. *hug* I'm sorry, so sorry, that you're feeling that way. That's not fair.
Writing: I'm to the point in which I just want to give up on it. And yet I can't. But I probably should...
*huuuugs* I know. Out of everything that has happened, for some reason I feel comforted by the very fact that despite my intense fuck-ups you still find me interesting.
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Personally I'm all about the 2012 TMNT series right now. Also MLP- but more turtles than pony right now at least inside my head.
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There's a new TMNT? I did not know this.
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I have yet to check out the new TMNT though I started watching the new Littlest Pet Shop.
Now I have to add the new Pound Puppies to the list.
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I know your Shoukei/Gekkei thoughts, but what else have you got =D?
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But yes, I agree with you about Gekkei, oddly. It makes sense to me to hear it that way. One question comes to mind, though: who would he have expected to punish him? Shoukei? The Mandate of Heaven?
You may have answered this already, but have you read the novels? They're gorgeous, and the novels are what got me so deeply into the series - and that was the TokyoPop translation, even after they left so much out. Online you can find maybe a third of them, and the translations are actually quite good, but not all of them are done yet.
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But even though I know all this and know I am not awesome, your kindness helps. I do genuinely think you think I am that way, and I am grateful for your
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Wait, relationship confusions? *worries*
How are you hurting yourself? Cutting??
Are you talking about prescription or recreational drugs?
*hugs you in sympathy with the suicidal ideation*
You are a good writer!
Awwwwwwwwwwwww *hugs*
You will always be awesome to me.
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Hurting: No, not cutting =3. My foot has been blistering lately, so I just pick and poke and peel at them. It's strangely satisfying, which tells me that something is very, very wrong. I haven't cut myself in a long, long time.
Meds: Prescription. I haven't bothered with recreational since I found out that pot is useless for my pain. And you know alcohol makes me sick.
Suicide: I'm not on the brink of ODing, but in my moments of true woe, that make me feel like I'm crazy, I wonder if it would be the easier way out. But I never would. *hug* I'm sorry, so sorry, that you're feeling that way. That's not fair.
Writing: I'm to the point in which I just want to give up on it. And yet I can't. But I probably should...
*huuuugs* I know. Out of everything that has happened, for some reason I feel comforted by the very fact that despite my intense fuck-ups you still find me interesting.
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