No Longer a Game chapter 4~
Title: No Longer a Game (Chapter 4/6)
Author: yukinonamida
Pairing: Nishikato
Rating: PG-13 overall
Genre: Drama/Romance/Angst
Summary: (bear with me..sucky summary) Ryo is stuck in an engagement with a woman picked out by his controlling father. He is bored with her and wants to have some fun playing a "game" with someone he can control easily, Shige. It was the perfect plan, but what happens when Shige turns against him, and Ryo realizes that for him it's no longer a game?
Previous Chapters:
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4: Punishment
Ryo rushed down the hallway, desperate to catch up with Shige, but instead ran into an impatient Manami.
"Oh my gosh, what happened to you??? Ryo-kins???" Mana ran up to him and threw her arms around him.
"Get off me!" Ryo threw her aside, like discarding a used candy wrapper. I don't have time to deal with you...I need to find Shige..
Mana could not take it anymore.
"Oi! I was just trying to be nice...I'm worried about you..."
"Well don't! I don't fucking need you to worry about me. And I don't need you either. Just leave me alone!" Ryo snapped as he ran off.
Mana's eyes narrowed as she pulled out her cell phone. I'll show you that you need me...
Mana smiled as the person on the other end picked up. "Ah, Nishikido-otousan. You won't believe what my Ryo-kins just said to me..." Mana said in a pouty voice while grinning an evil smile.
~~~
The search for Shige ended up in failure. Ryo looked high and low, and no luck. He eventually gave up, got in his car and drove home. He stared at the road ahead of him with a stare that was void of emotion. His mind was empty throughout the ride, almost as if his mind wanted to blank it all out...to forget everything...that way the pain might lessen.
He pulled into the parking garage and got out of the car. He took two steps before looking up, eyes widening.
"O-O-Otou-san..." Ryo froze in fear, worried about why his father was there standing before him. No...no...it couldn't be....God no..
"Hello, son." His father began to close the distance between them with each angry step. "I received a very interesting call from Manami-chan tonight...you see...she said you haven't been treating her well. She says you yell at her and push her around...now...that wouldn't happen to be true, would it?"
Ryo stepped back cautiously, with each step his father took, the fear increased, his heart beat even faster...."I-I...I-'m sorry...it's just...I need some space...I have been going through some things.." Ryo's body began to tremble.
"Oh, is that so...you're sorry...you have some things going on...'boo hoo...I need some space'. Is that it? I thought I made this clear. I don't care what you're dealing with or what is going on in your life. Face it, it doesn't matter, no one cares! What matters is your realationship with Manami-chan. And, what a surprise, you're screwing that up too!" His father's tone was harsh and threatening, still walking slowly, with each step, each word, trying to intimidate his son like scaring a dog into a corner.
"I..I can't...I can't be nice to her if I don't even like her..." Ryo mumbled quietly, afraid that any higher volume would provoke him even further.
"What's that? You don't like her? Aww, that's too bad. Don't tell me little Ryo has someone else he likes?" His father mocked him heartlessly, only emphasizing the fact that he had no interest in what Ryo was feeling.
"...Y-y-yes..." Ryo looked down, the image of Shige flashing before his eyes.
His father laughed. "Haha, that's funny." He continued laughing before changing his face completely. "Lose it. Lose that feeling, it's meaningless. You hear me?" His father closed the gap between him, and hit him, hard, in every place that Shige had a few hours before and more. Ryo winced, and doubled over, not even daring to fight back. His father was big, much bigger than he was. His father hit him until he was on the ground.
"Lose it, it's worthless! It means nothing! You do what I say, and that's final!" He kicked him, and Ryo cried for mercy, writhing in pain.
"You hear me? Don't fucking screw up anymore! If you do..it'll be much worse than this, boy, believe me.." His father gave him one last kick, and turned around to leave. Ryo was trembling, lost in fear and pain. He shook, and spit out the blood in his mouth. Love is meaningless, love is worthless...it means nothing... Ryo repeated his father's words in his mind, as if having been brainwashed with each blow to his already injured body. As he trembled, the images of a few hours before flooded his mind. Tears ran down his bleeding face as he erased them. Love is meaningless, love is worthless...it means nothing... it might exist...but it's not meant for me...
~~~
8:30AM, Shige's alarm sounded.
"nngh.." Shige rolled over to face the clock and winced, having leaned on one of his bruises. He hit the alarm clock to turn it off and opened his eyes slowly, adjusting to the brightness of the room.
It had been the worst night of his life. He took pain medication, which took away most of the pain...except for one....it did not erase the pain in his heart...he couldn't get Ryo out of his head. And each time he remembered his face, his voice, his touch, anything...another slit would be opened in his heart. All night, he tossed and turned in pain...trying to forget...trying to supress the urge to call Ryo...to confess everything he was feeling... But he knew he couldn't...he knew that no matter what...it would never work out. Ryo was engaged, he was the son of a very powerful man...no...it would never happen. It took every bit of strength he had to force himself to agree to not have anything to do with Ryo again unless it was work-related. He knew he had to..he knew it was the right thing to do...but if it was...why did it feel so wrong? Why did pain envelop his entire body whenever he thought of not being able to embrace him ever again? Even though he knew it was wrong..he could not deny it...he was falling in love with Ryo...but the thing is..it didn't matter.
~~~
"Shige! You too?! What happened?" Koyama ran up to him, worried at the bruises on Shige's face.
"Ah..eeto...I fell.." Shige knew it wasn't a very good excuse, but what was he going to say? I got in a fight with Nishikido-kun..and we ended up making out. What's your schedule like today? No. He couldn't.
"You...fell." Koyama didn't look very convinced, but knew Shige wasn't the type to get into fights, so he let it go.
Shige looked at Koyama, confused..."What do you mean by 'you too'?" Could he mean Nishikido-kun? No..he's never here earlier than I am..
Koyama wore a painful expression. "Saa...Ryo-chan..." Shige's heart stopped at the mention of his name. "Ryo-chan came in early this morning, he looks beat up too. He said he got in a fight."
"A-a-a-a-no....d-did he s-say w-who with?" Shige felt his heart beat faster. He couldn't have...he wouldn't say it...
"Ah, yeah, he said somebody on the street provoked him." Koyama was slightly suspicious of why Shige wouldn't look him in the eye, and why he stuttered saying that last sentence. "Is everything okay?"
"Uh..yeah..let's go~" Shige forced a smile as they walked to the NewS room, avoiding the stares of other people, wondering what happened to Shige.
They stopped as Tegoshi and Massu walked out of the room, looking frightened.
"I fell." Shige responded to the confused looks on their faces, anticipating their next question.
"Ah...you don't want to go in there..." Massu pointed to the closed door.
"Why not?" Koyama questioned.
"Nishikido-kun is especially mean today.." Tegoshi said, nodding.
They both shivered as they walked away down the hallway.
I guess he's mad that I left...just ignore it, I have to...Shige thought as Koyama opened the door.
"Ryo-chan!~ I can't ice it if you keep moving." Pi said, frustrated with Ryo's unwillinness to cooperate.
"I never asked you to fucking ice it!" Ryo pushed Pi away again. "Just go away, it'll hurt even more if you keep fucking touching me! You're not even doing it right!"
"Oh, there's a right way to ice things? Just sit still!" Pi persisted, trying to put the ice pack on his face again.
"...Ano.." Koyama said awkwardly as they walked into the room.
Ryo&Pi looked up at them.
Shige's heart dropped when he saw Ryo's face. All those bruises..that black eye...those cuts...I didn't hit him that much...I couldn't have caused all of those...He wanted to go over and hug him, care for him and take the pain away..but he knew that was impossible.
Ryo glared at Shige with a death stare that contained more hate and pain then Shige had ever seen before. The glare sent needles into Shige's chest as he stared back.
Pi continued to put ice on his face. It hurt...but what hurt Ryo more was the sight of Shige. You're the one who is causing this to happen....you're the one who is causing me this pain...it's all your fault, Shige.
The rest of the day went by slowly...it was the last day of solo activities, and Shige didn't see Ryo the rest of the day.The thoughts Is he okay? What's happening to him? continued to cross his mind.
At the end of the day, Shige returned to the NewS room to pack up. He had hoped to see Ryo there, just to see how he was doing...but with no luck. Koyama was the only one in the room.
"Na, do you know where Nishikido-kun went? I wanted to see how he was doing..."
"Ah, he left with Yamapi about 3 hours ago. Ryo-chan kept telling him 'I want to drink! I want to drink' and finally he gave in, even though he knew it was a bad idea."
Drinking? When you're injured like that? Don't you know how to take care of yourself at all?
They turned towards the hallway when they heard drunken laughter.
Ryo attatched himself to the doorframe and Pi stumbled in. "~Yo...hahaha" Pi laughed and fell onto the floor, rolling over and still laughing.
Koyama and Shige backed up in surprise.
Ryo slunk to the floor and leaned against the other side of the frame. "Haha..Pi..fucking idiot..hahah" Ryo was laughing as well.
"What are you two doing here?" Shige asked. Why would they come to work like this..are they trying to get themselves into trouble?
"Ah...Shige..Shishishigegege! hahahaha...Mr. Takshi man dropped us off here." He continued laughing and began to imitate the poor taxi driver, driving with an invisible steering wheel "vrrooom! hahahaha".
"Oh my God..we need to get these two out of here..." Koyama said to Shige. Shige nodded.
"Ano...I'd rather take Yamapi...his apartment is on the way to my house..it would be easier for me...but will you be okay with Ryo-chan?" Koyama asked, worried because of the situation between the two.
"Go ahead, take Yamapi, it's fine...I'll be okay." Shige nodded assuringly.
Koyama nodded and helped Pi up. Pi threw his arms around Koyama and started laughing in his ear. "Ko-ya-ma ke-ii-chi-roooooohhhh~~~~~ hahahah rororo your boat! haha.." Koyama backed his head away at the smell of liquor on his breath. They stepped over Ryo and walked down the hallway and left.
Shige looked at Ryo, who was lying on the floor, coughing. Oh my God, what did you do to yourself...Shige felt a pain in his heart as he walked over to Ryo. Close up, Ryo looked even worse. Shige kneeled down next to him and helped him up, and walked to his car. Ryo didn't say a word the whole time, and neither did Shige. Baka...everytime I make up my mind to not be involved with you, you make it so I can't bear to ignore you...
In the car, Shige turned the radio off because Ryo had fallen asleep. Everything was silent, not a sound could be heard but the sound of Ryo's harsh breaths. He must be in so much pain...Shige thought looking over to him. Why do you do this to yourself?
They arrived at Ryo's apartment and Shige managed to get him up the stairs with minimal injury. Ryo gave him the keys and they walked in the apartment.
So cold..Shige thought. Not only the temperature, but there were no pictures, no books, no magazines, everything was empty. How do you live like this?
Shige walked him to his bedroom. Shige looked inside. No pictures or anything here, either. Just a bed, one lamp, an endtable, a dresser and a mirror. Nothing else.
He walked Ryo to his bed, and laid him down. Ryo flopped onto the bed exhaustedly, but a little too roughly, as he winced and cried out in pain.
I at least have to make him comfortable... "Nishikido-kun...you should change out of these clothes.."
Ryo grunted and pointed to the dresser.
Shige walked over to the dresser and picked out the most comfortable sweatpants and t-shirt he could find and threw them on the bed.
"Get dressed, I'll get you a glass of water.."
Shige got the water and returned to the room to see the clothes untouched and Ryo in the same position as before. Shige sighed and set the glass down on the table.
"Nishikido-kun! Get dressed!" Shige yelled. Ryo didn't respond.
Damnit...I can't just leave him here like this..he can't sleep in these clothes. I guess...I guess I have no choice....
Shige rolled Ryo onto his back as gently as possible, but Ryo still winced in pain.
"ah..gomen.." Shige apologized.
Shige eyed the figure in front of him, chest moving up and down with each breath...pants tight..No no no...just get this overwith and leave. Just do it as fast as possible.
Shige reached his hands toward Ryo's belt, hands immobilizing halfway down. His breaths began to quicken, his blood rushing through his body. He shut his eyes tight, trying to calm himself down. He reached his hands further down and...he missed. His hands shot back to his chest and he opened his eyes as his heart was racing. That wasn't his belt..definately was not the belt.. Shige reached down again, this time, eyes opened, and he laid his hands on the belt, unbuckling it. His face was becoming hot as he moved onto the button. He unbuttoned it, and unzipped the zipper, heart pounding and chest throbbing. He could barely breathe. Shige, calm down, keep going...it's almost over. He eyed Ryo's face, and he was still out cold. His eyes reverted back to his mission, and he placed his hands at both hips as images of the cold water running over them flashed in his mind. He gulped, and slowly pulled off his pants, revealing his all-too-tight boxers. Shige turned away, panting to regain normal breathing as his body urged him to just crawl on top of Ryo right then and there, and continue where they had left off the day before. Shige shook his head at the thought. He put on the sweatpants, and looked away. There...temptation is now gone...He moved onto the shirt. He unbuttoned it one by one and opened it, and was horrified at the sight. Ryo's chest was badly bruised all over. Shige's heart filled with pain, to the point where he could no longer bear it. A tear escaped his eye as he saw the markings of obvious abuse. I didn't do this...
He shook Ryo in an attempt to wake him. "Nishikido-kun! Wake up! Wake up!"
Ryo groaned and pushed Shige away before opening his eyes halfway. "nnghh...Shige...what the hell are you doing here..." He mumbled in a raspy voice.
"Who did this to you?!" Shige yelled, worried and confused.
"Did what?..." Ryo looked down to see his wounds exposed and he shot up, wincing at the sudden movement, and looked at Shige. "Y-You did, remember? We g-got in a fight..." Ryo reached for the t-shirt and put it on quickly, trying to cover the bruises in an attempt to get Shige to stop wondering about them.
"I didn't do all this...this was done by someone else...who was it?" Shige moved his arm to Ryo's shoulder but Ryo pushed it away like it was something sinful, something vile.
"Don't touch me! Why are you here anyway, just fucking leave! Leave me alone! I don't want to see you..." Ryo brought his knees up to his chin and rocked back and forth slowly. "It doesn't exist...it's meaningless.." Ryo mumbled.
Shige's tears continued to fall as knives pierced his chest. "Nishikido-kun...what happened to yo-"
Ryo lifted his head and glared at Shige. "I SAID TO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!" Ryo screamed, with such anger that Shige backed away and couldn't seem to run out of the apartment quickly enough.
Once Ryo heard the door slam, he collapsed on his bed, sobbing, knees still at his chin, rocking back and forth as tears streamed down his bruised face. "Shige...come back...please...don't leave me..."
They both began to realize that...despite how badly they both wanted it...they were torn apart in two different worlds, seperated by distances neither of them could run in this lifetime...maybe...just maybe the point they so desperately wanted to get to was too far out of reach...
A/N: Not as good as chapter 3 was, but this is the best I could do. I'm on cold meds so I can't really think XD. I hoped you liked it....*hugs Ryo* poor Ryo-chan~. I was re-watching Nobuta wo Produce today and I just HAD to insert drunken Pi acting like Akira. xD Hopefully that provided a bit of comic relief~. Comments are love ^_^ I always love to know who is reading =)
BTW, I added too many scenes as I went along so it was originally going to be a total of 5 chapters, but now I'm extending it to 6 chapters total. ^^ Chapter 5 will be out tomorrow~
Author: yukinonamida
Pairing: Nishikato
Rating: PG-13 overall
Genre: Drama/Romance/Angst
Summary: (bear with me..sucky summary) Ryo is stuck in an engagement with a woman picked out by his controlling father. He is bored with her and wants to have some fun playing a "game" with someone he can control easily, Shige. It was the perfect plan, but what happens when Shige turns against him, and Ryo realizes that for him it's no longer a game?
Previous Chapters:
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4: Punishment
Ryo rushed down the hallway, desperate to catch up with Shige, but instead ran into an impatient Manami.
"Oh my gosh, what happened to you??? Ryo-kins???" Mana ran up to him and threw her arms around him.
"Get off me!" Ryo threw her aside, like discarding a used candy wrapper. I don't have time to deal with you...I need to find Shige..
Mana could not take it anymore.
"Oi! I was just trying to be nice...I'm worried about you..."
"Well don't! I don't fucking need you to worry about me. And I don't need you either. Just leave me alone!" Ryo snapped as he ran off.
Mana's eyes narrowed as she pulled out her cell phone. I'll show you that you need me...
Mana smiled as the person on the other end picked up. "Ah, Nishikido-otousan. You won't believe what my Ryo-kins just said to me..." Mana said in a pouty voice while grinning an evil smile.
~~~
The search for Shige ended up in failure. Ryo looked high and low, and no luck. He eventually gave up, got in his car and drove home. He stared at the road ahead of him with a stare that was void of emotion. His mind was empty throughout the ride, almost as if his mind wanted to blank it all out...to forget everything...that way the pain might lessen.
He pulled into the parking garage and got out of the car. He took two steps before looking up, eyes widening.
"O-O-Otou-san..." Ryo froze in fear, worried about why his father was there standing before him. No...no...it couldn't be....God no..
"Hello, son." His father began to close the distance between them with each angry step. "I received a very interesting call from Manami-chan tonight...you see...she said you haven't been treating her well. She says you yell at her and push her around...now...that wouldn't happen to be true, would it?"
Ryo stepped back cautiously, with each step his father took, the fear increased, his heart beat even faster...."I-I...I-'m sorry...it's just...I need some space...I have been going through some things.." Ryo's body began to tremble.
"Oh, is that so...you're sorry...you have some things going on...'boo hoo...I need some space'. Is that it? I thought I made this clear. I don't care what you're dealing with or what is going on in your life. Face it, it doesn't matter, no one cares! What matters is your realationship with Manami-chan. And, what a surprise, you're screwing that up too!" His father's tone was harsh and threatening, still walking slowly, with each step, each word, trying to intimidate his son like scaring a dog into a corner.
"I..I can't...I can't be nice to her if I don't even like her..." Ryo mumbled quietly, afraid that any higher volume would provoke him even further.
"What's that? You don't like her? Aww, that's too bad. Don't tell me little Ryo has someone else he likes?" His father mocked him heartlessly, only emphasizing the fact that he had no interest in what Ryo was feeling.
"...Y-y-yes..." Ryo looked down, the image of Shige flashing before his eyes.
His father laughed. "Haha, that's funny." He continued laughing before changing his face completely. "Lose it. Lose that feeling, it's meaningless. You hear me?" His father closed the gap between him, and hit him, hard, in every place that Shige had a few hours before and more. Ryo winced, and doubled over, not even daring to fight back. His father was big, much bigger than he was. His father hit him until he was on the ground.
"Lose it, it's worthless! It means nothing! You do what I say, and that's final!" He kicked him, and Ryo cried for mercy, writhing in pain.
"You hear me? Don't fucking screw up anymore! If you do..it'll be much worse than this, boy, believe me.." His father gave him one last kick, and turned around to leave. Ryo was trembling, lost in fear and pain. He shook, and spit out the blood in his mouth. Love is meaningless, love is worthless...it means nothing... Ryo repeated his father's words in his mind, as if having been brainwashed with each blow to his already injured body. As he trembled, the images of a few hours before flooded his mind. Tears ran down his bleeding face as he erased them. Love is meaningless, love is worthless...it means nothing... it might exist...but it's not meant for me...
~~~
8:30AM, Shige's alarm sounded.
"nngh.." Shige rolled over to face the clock and winced, having leaned on one of his bruises. He hit the alarm clock to turn it off and opened his eyes slowly, adjusting to the brightness of the room.
It had been the worst night of his life. He took pain medication, which took away most of the pain...except for one....it did not erase the pain in his heart...he couldn't get Ryo out of his head. And each time he remembered his face, his voice, his touch, anything...another slit would be opened in his heart. All night, he tossed and turned in pain...trying to forget...trying to supress the urge to call Ryo...to confess everything he was feeling... But he knew he couldn't...he knew that no matter what...it would never work out. Ryo was engaged, he was the son of a very powerful man...no...it would never happen. It took every bit of strength he had to force himself to agree to not have anything to do with Ryo again unless it was work-related. He knew he had to..he knew it was the right thing to do...but if it was...why did it feel so wrong? Why did pain envelop his entire body whenever he thought of not being able to embrace him ever again? Even though he knew it was wrong..he could not deny it...he was falling in love with Ryo...but the thing is..it didn't matter.
~~~
"Shige! You too?! What happened?" Koyama ran up to him, worried at the bruises on Shige's face.
"Ah..eeto...I fell.." Shige knew it wasn't a very good excuse, but what was he going to say? I got in a fight with Nishikido-kun..and we ended up making out. What's your schedule like today? No. He couldn't.
"You...fell." Koyama didn't look very convinced, but knew Shige wasn't the type to get into fights, so he let it go.
Shige looked at Koyama, confused..."What do you mean by 'you too'?" Could he mean Nishikido-kun? No..he's never here earlier than I am..
Koyama wore a painful expression. "Saa...Ryo-chan..." Shige's heart stopped at the mention of his name. "Ryo-chan came in early this morning, he looks beat up too. He said he got in a fight."
"A-a-a-a-no....d-did he s-say w-who with?" Shige felt his heart beat faster. He couldn't have...he wouldn't say it...
"Ah, yeah, he said somebody on the street provoked him." Koyama was slightly suspicious of why Shige wouldn't look him in the eye, and why he stuttered saying that last sentence. "Is everything okay?"
"Uh..yeah..let's go~" Shige forced a smile as they walked to the NewS room, avoiding the stares of other people, wondering what happened to Shige.
They stopped as Tegoshi and Massu walked out of the room, looking frightened.
"I fell." Shige responded to the confused looks on their faces, anticipating their next question.
"Ah...you don't want to go in there..." Massu pointed to the closed door.
"Why not?" Koyama questioned.
"Nishikido-kun is especially mean today.." Tegoshi said, nodding.
They both shivered as they walked away down the hallway.
I guess he's mad that I left...just ignore it, I have to...Shige thought as Koyama opened the door.
"Ryo-chan!~ I can't ice it if you keep moving." Pi said, frustrated with Ryo's unwillinness to cooperate.
"I never asked you to fucking ice it!" Ryo pushed Pi away again. "Just go away, it'll hurt even more if you keep fucking touching me! You're not even doing it right!"
"Oh, there's a right way to ice things? Just sit still!" Pi persisted, trying to put the ice pack on his face again.
"...Ano.." Koyama said awkwardly as they walked into the room.
Ryo&Pi looked up at them.
Shige's heart dropped when he saw Ryo's face. All those bruises..that black eye...those cuts...I didn't hit him that much...I couldn't have caused all of those...He wanted to go over and hug him, care for him and take the pain away..but he knew that was impossible.
Ryo glared at Shige with a death stare that contained more hate and pain then Shige had ever seen before. The glare sent needles into Shige's chest as he stared back.
Pi continued to put ice on his face. It hurt...but what hurt Ryo more was the sight of Shige. You're the one who is causing this to happen....you're the one who is causing me this pain...it's all your fault, Shige.
The rest of the day went by slowly...it was the last day of solo activities, and Shige didn't see Ryo the rest of the day.The thoughts Is he okay? What's happening to him? continued to cross his mind.
At the end of the day, Shige returned to the NewS room to pack up. He had hoped to see Ryo there, just to see how he was doing...but with no luck. Koyama was the only one in the room.
"Na, do you know where Nishikido-kun went? I wanted to see how he was doing..."
"Ah, he left with Yamapi about 3 hours ago. Ryo-chan kept telling him 'I want to drink! I want to drink' and finally he gave in, even though he knew it was a bad idea."
Drinking? When you're injured like that? Don't you know how to take care of yourself at all?
They turned towards the hallway when they heard drunken laughter.
Ryo attatched himself to the doorframe and Pi stumbled in. "~Yo...hahaha" Pi laughed and fell onto the floor, rolling over and still laughing.
Koyama and Shige backed up in surprise.
Ryo slunk to the floor and leaned against the other side of the frame. "Haha..Pi..fucking idiot..hahah" Ryo was laughing as well.
"What are you two doing here?" Shige asked. Why would they come to work like this..are they trying to get themselves into trouble?
"Ah...Shige..Shishishigegege! hahahaha...Mr. Takshi man dropped us off here." He continued laughing and began to imitate the poor taxi driver, driving with an invisible steering wheel "vrrooom! hahahaha".
"Oh my God..we need to get these two out of here..." Koyama said to Shige. Shige nodded.
"Ano...I'd rather take Yamapi...his apartment is on the way to my house..it would be easier for me...but will you be okay with Ryo-chan?" Koyama asked, worried because of the situation between the two.
"Go ahead, take Yamapi, it's fine...I'll be okay." Shige nodded assuringly.
Koyama nodded and helped Pi up. Pi threw his arms around Koyama and started laughing in his ear. "Ko-ya-ma ke-ii-chi-roooooohhhh~~~~~ hahahah rororo your boat! haha.." Koyama backed his head away at the smell of liquor on his breath. They stepped over Ryo and walked down the hallway and left.
Shige looked at Ryo, who was lying on the floor, coughing. Oh my God, what did you do to yourself...Shige felt a pain in his heart as he walked over to Ryo. Close up, Ryo looked even worse. Shige kneeled down next to him and helped him up, and walked to his car. Ryo didn't say a word the whole time, and neither did Shige. Baka...everytime I make up my mind to not be involved with you, you make it so I can't bear to ignore you...
In the car, Shige turned the radio off because Ryo had fallen asleep. Everything was silent, not a sound could be heard but the sound of Ryo's harsh breaths. He must be in so much pain...Shige thought looking over to him. Why do you do this to yourself?
They arrived at Ryo's apartment and Shige managed to get him up the stairs with minimal injury. Ryo gave him the keys and they walked in the apartment.
So cold..Shige thought. Not only the temperature, but there were no pictures, no books, no magazines, everything was empty. How do you live like this?
Shige walked him to his bedroom. Shige looked inside. No pictures or anything here, either. Just a bed, one lamp, an endtable, a dresser and a mirror. Nothing else.
He walked Ryo to his bed, and laid him down. Ryo flopped onto the bed exhaustedly, but a little too roughly, as he winced and cried out in pain.
I at least have to make him comfortable... "Nishikido-kun...you should change out of these clothes.."
Ryo grunted and pointed to the dresser.
Shige walked over to the dresser and picked out the most comfortable sweatpants and t-shirt he could find and threw them on the bed.
"Get dressed, I'll get you a glass of water.."
Shige got the water and returned to the room to see the clothes untouched and Ryo in the same position as before. Shige sighed and set the glass down on the table.
"Nishikido-kun! Get dressed!" Shige yelled. Ryo didn't respond.
Damnit...I can't just leave him here like this..he can't sleep in these clothes. I guess...I guess I have no choice....
Shige rolled Ryo onto his back as gently as possible, but Ryo still winced in pain.
"ah..gomen.." Shige apologized.
Shige eyed the figure in front of him, chest moving up and down with each breath...pants tight..No no no...just get this overwith and leave. Just do it as fast as possible.
Shige reached his hands toward Ryo's belt, hands immobilizing halfway down. His breaths began to quicken, his blood rushing through his body. He shut his eyes tight, trying to calm himself down. He reached his hands further down and...he missed. His hands shot back to his chest and he opened his eyes as his heart was racing. That wasn't his belt..definately was not the belt.. Shige reached down again, this time, eyes opened, and he laid his hands on the belt, unbuckling it. His face was becoming hot as he moved onto the button. He unbuttoned it, and unzipped the zipper, heart pounding and chest throbbing. He could barely breathe. Shige, calm down, keep going...it's almost over. He eyed Ryo's face, and he was still out cold. His eyes reverted back to his mission, and he placed his hands at both hips as images of the cold water running over them flashed in his mind. He gulped, and slowly pulled off his pants, revealing his all-too-tight boxers. Shige turned away, panting to regain normal breathing as his body urged him to just crawl on top of Ryo right then and there, and continue where they had left off the day before. Shige shook his head at the thought. He put on the sweatpants, and looked away. There...temptation is now gone...He moved onto the shirt. He unbuttoned it one by one and opened it, and was horrified at the sight. Ryo's chest was badly bruised all over. Shige's heart filled with pain, to the point where he could no longer bear it. A tear escaped his eye as he saw the markings of obvious abuse. I didn't do this...
He shook Ryo in an attempt to wake him. "Nishikido-kun! Wake up! Wake up!"
Ryo groaned and pushed Shige away before opening his eyes halfway. "nnghh...Shige...what the hell are you doing here..." He mumbled in a raspy voice.
"Who did this to you?!" Shige yelled, worried and confused.
"Did what?..." Ryo looked down to see his wounds exposed and he shot up, wincing at the sudden movement, and looked at Shige. "Y-You did, remember? We g-got in a fight..." Ryo reached for the t-shirt and put it on quickly, trying to cover the bruises in an attempt to get Shige to stop wondering about them.
"I didn't do all this...this was done by someone else...who was it?" Shige moved his arm to Ryo's shoulder but Ryo pushed it away like it was something sinful, something vile.
"Don't touch me! Why are you here anyway, just fucking leave! Leave me alone! I don't want to see you..." Ryo brought his knees up to his chin and rocked back and forth slowly. "It doesn't exist...it's meaningless.." Ryo mumbled.
Shige's tears continued to fall as knives pierced his chest. "Nishikido-kun...what happened to yo-"
Ryo lifted his head and glared at Shige. "I SAID TO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!" Ryo screamed, with such anger that Shige backed away and couldn't seem to run out of the apartment quickly enough.
Once Ryo heard the door slam, he collapsed on his bed, sobbing, knees still at his chin, rocking back and forth as tears streamed down his bruised face. "Shige...come back...please...don't leave me..."
They both began to realize that...despite how badly they both wanted it...they were torn apart in two different worlds, seperated by distances neither of them could run in this lifetime...maybe...just maybe the point they so desperately wanted to get to was too far out of reach...
A/N: Not as good as chapter 3 was, but this is the best I could do. I'm on cold meds so I can't really think XD. I hoped you liked it....*hugs Ryo* poor Ryo-chan~. I was re-watching Nobuta wo Produce today and I just HAD to insert drunken Pi acting like Akira. xD Hopefully that provided a bit of comic relief~. Comments are love ^_^ I always love to know who is reading =)
BTW, I added too many scenes as I went along so it was originally going to be a total of 5 chapters, but now I'm extending it to 6 chapters total. ^^ Chapter 5 will be out tomorrow~