My reflection - chapter 22, Ruki/Kai, Reita/Uruha
Author: yukigafuru
Title: My reflection
Chapters:23?
Pairing: Ruki/Kai, Uruha/Reita, Aoi/OC, Aoi/Sakito
Warnings: lots of angst, manxman love
Rating: PG-15
Genre: Angst, Romance
Disclaimer: I am not connected to the real persons. This is just a figment of my imagination and I don't make any money nor profit in any way out of this (well, except gathering your love that is).
Summary: They are successful but are they really happy? Are there shadows lurking in the dark, just waiting for a chance to come out? What is happening with Ruki and how can Kai help? And what will this challenge for the two of them bring?
Chapter 22
By the time they got to the bed both their shirts had gotten lost along the way. It was a bit awkward trying to not bump into walls and different furniture while clinging to the other and refusing to separate but they managed to get safely to their destination. The bed was there and they were supposed to be on it but call it inertia or just being blinded by the other, but the two of them kept standing there, preying on each other’s mouths and skin.
One good thing about wearing suits is the simplicity to take the pants off, which explains how come the two of them found themselves only in their boxers only minutes later.
Suddenly, Kai stopped kissing Ruki and became tense, which in turn made Ruki cease his administrations, gaze up at Kai and ask what was wrong.
“Aoi-kun… He’s gonna kill us if we’re any later than we already are.”
Ruki groaned.
“Kai-chan, I love you, but should you really be thinking about our guitarist right now?”
Kai chuckled and placed a soft kiss on the vocalist’s lips.
“Sorry, baby, you have no idea how I want you on that bed but it is his wedding party…”
Ruki silenced him with a fiery kiss and while busy exploring for the nth time the drummer’s mouth, secretly took a picture with his cell phone. Kai heard the ring.
“Ruki, what was that?”
“Oh, just getting Aoi’s approval. No need to worry about it now.”
The message was sent; the cell phone closed and dropped over their pants and Ruki let himself fall on the soft bed.
“If you want me on this bed, Kai-chan, then come and get me.” Ruki said, a brilliant smile lighting his face. It was funny how that triggered a blush to appear on Kai’s cheeks. “Now why are you the one blushing when I’m the one about to be ravaged?” Ruki chuckled.
Kai climbed on top of his lover, tracing with his hands the soft skin underneath him, triggering a sigh to escape Ruki’s lips. It was moments later that he answered, gazing into Ruki’s deep eyes.
“You’re so beautiful.”
Just minutes before, Ruki would have cringed a bit when hearing those words but now they only caused a furious blush. There was really no way he could not believe Kai when he was looking at him in that way, as if he was the most beautiful and precious thing in the world; there was nothing but admiration, love and lust in the drummer’s gaze and Ruki allowed himself to open up completely, forget about all his previous fears because just then it was him and Kai and their love in between and nothing else mattered.
Ruki loved the way Kai’s lips felt on his skin, his lips so soft it felt as if butterflies were caressing him and he could only shiver in anticipation when Kai’s cold hands wondered over his chest, abdomen, thighs… He gasped when Kai went lower and lower until he was kissing his still clothed manhood, making Ruki grasp the sheets.
“Kai, stop teasing me.” Ruki whispered.
“I’m the one being teased, love.” And then Kai’s mouth was on his again. Ruki loved Kai exploring his body but he also wanted to do a little exploring for himself so while fighting Kai over controlling the kiss, his hands wondered from Kai’s neck, to his tensed deltoids and protruding clavicles, his spine. He could feel the muscles tensing and untensing under his touches, the way Kai’s skin seemed to grow just a little bit warmer under his fingertips. So he was the one being teased, wasn’t he? Then Ruki had to make sure he’d tease his lover some more. So he flexed his leg and pressed his knee against Kai’s clothed hardened member. Kai gasped at the touch which made Ruki take control of the kiss and keep it, seeing as Kai’s mind and body were a little overwhelmed by Ruki’s actions.
When they finally had to pull apart and catch their breaths, Kai leaned his forehead against Ruki’s and said:
“You know, you’re a devil.” It was all he could say since not only did Ruki not stop, but also instead of his knee, he brought his hands to Kai’s hips, pulled down the underwear and then wrapped his fingers around Kai.
“And I thought you loved me.” He answered playfully.
“Oh, I do, but if you don’t stop right now I might just get angry.”
“But doesn’t it feel good?” Ruki purred.
Kai decided to take matters into his own hands.
“It feels too good but I want to ravage you tonight. I don’t want to feel your fingers around me; I want to be buried inside you, making you scream.”
“Kinky.”
They both had to giggle. Being together felt comfortable. There was no shyness or fear, just acceptance and understanding. It didn’t matter that it was their first time together, they weren’t thinking about making it perfect or romantic or that kind of stuff because it was all just about feeling the other, being together after waiting for so long and it would definitely be unforgettable no matter how good it felt or how it hurt or how clumsy they’d be.
Kai got rid of the shorts that had pooled around his ankles and soon after, in one swift mood, grinning devilishly while at it, got rid of Ruki’s underwear too. Ruki let out a loud hiss at his action, seeing as he was painfully hard and the movement had excited him to the point it hurt.
“Why you…”
“Shh, love, you don’t want to say something you’ll regret.” Kai said still grinning.
“Oh, you’ll be the one regretting it if…” Ruki had started his threat but he had to stop mid sentence seeing as his whole body convulsed suddenly and he was reduced to screaming Kai’s name out loud. The cause was Kai’s mouth doing a hell of a good job…
“Fuck!”
Ruki was the vocals of their band for a reason, it occurred to Kai, for the sounds the man was creating brought so many feelings with them... However, Kai was a man too and with the way Ruki felt and sounded it took a lot of restraint to keep pleasuring his lover, forgetting about his own little problem. There’s so much a man can handle, and given the circumstances, Kai had made outstanding efforts, but he was still human after all. He needed Ruki…
Kai increased the suction, bobbed his head up and down faster, occasionally grazing it with his teeth, feeling Ruki coming closer and closer to completion, until…
A low growl flew part Ruki’s lips. If it was supposed to be Kai’s name or some sort of prayer towards the gods or quite the opposite, Kai couldn’t figure out, not that Ruki knew better either.
Ruki saw the purest white in front of his eyes and his body all of a sudden went from overwhelming sensations to peace and tranquility and then back to an acute perception of every touch and every breath made and of Kai’s loving gaze. He should have been at least a little embarrassed that Kai was looking at him like that, as if he wanted to devour him (oh wait, he had just did that) but surprisingly, Ruki could only feel bliss at the moment. There was just not enough room in his heart or mind for anything either than love and happiness and the tingly feeling he got when he thought that the night was still young…
Kai was over him again, sucking the air out of him and he could feel his taste on Kai and it only made everything so much more erotic and it also made him want to taste Kai the same way. However, the drummer seemed to have other plans.
“Ru-chan, do you have any lube?”
Now this was the cue for him to start blushing, Ruki thought. He wasn’t sure if he was or not, but hell, he hadn’t expected such a straight question from his drummer.
“Now, Kai-chan, since when are you so direct?”
“Since my patience has reached its peak. Do you have any idea what you’re doing to me? If I don’t have you soon, it feels as if I’m going to explode.”
Ruki was definitely blushing. He didn’t mind it though because that cute reaction only triggered Kai to place feathery kisses all over his face and neck and then lower… Oh God, here we go again!
“Ru, you still haven’t answered my question.” Kai managed to say between kissing and nipping and licking Ruki’s collarbone. It seemed that Ruki was particularly sensitive since in only a couple of moments and with just feathery kisses, he had managed to excite his vocalist again.
“No. There is some hand cream though.”
“Knowing you, there’s probably a lot of brands of hand cream.” Kai said giggling, while gazing at Ruki’s beautiful face, which instantly reacted to his words and formed a waiting- to- be- kissed pout. Naturally, Kai gave in.
When their lips finally parted, Kai got up slowly, leisurely, torturing both himself and Ruki with the even longer wait. Kai really needed his vocalist but he also loved to tease the man.
In just a few moments Kai was back to kissing Ruki senseless. The vocalist was drowning in a sea of happiness so he almost missed the sensation of Kai’s finger penetrating him. ‘Almost’ would be the key word since there really is no way you could miss that unpleasant and a little painful sensation that gets more painful as more fingers are added. Ruki just grabbed the sheets and tried to ignore the discomfort, focus only on Kai’s kisses and the fact that it was Kai doing this to him. He knew it got better; he just hated the process up to that moment. And then, Kai lightly brushed something that, in Ruki’s opinion, should have been brushed a lot sooner. Ruki arched up, let out a moan and with a breathy “Kai, now” prepared himself for the other man. He really wasn’t a patient man to begin with.
Kai grinned upon seeing Ruki’s reaction. He had been studying Ruki’s face and at a point, had gotten worried about not being able to pleasure his lover properly but with Ruki’s moan and order, all those thoughts flew out the window and allowed himself to lose to the sensations surrounding him while losing himself deeper and deeper in Ruki. It was tight and it was bliss and the slight pain only served to fuel his desire more because it was proof that he was indeed there, with Ruki, being surrounded by him, becoming one with him… He had closed his eyes and only now, fully sheathed could he open them again (he hadn’t imagined that only opening your eyes could be such an effort) and gaze lovingly on Ruki, who was clutching the bed sheets tightly, his lips drawn in a thin line, his eyes tightly closed, his sweet face mirroring the pain he was in.
“Ru, are you okay?”
Kai had stopped. He couldn’t bear see his lover in so much pain and even thought that maybe they should stop. Maybe he lacked the confidence he needed in order to believe he could bring Ruki pleasure. And maybe he felt guilty for still feeling pleasure when Ruki wasn’t.
Ruki opened his beautiful eyes, saw and felt Kai’s worries. His right hand released the sheet and glided upwards, cupping Kai’s cheek, his index finger stroking tenderly the soft skin. It hurt, of course it did. Kai was in no way small and Ruki hadn’t been with anyone in months but it didn’t matter; he couldn’t give a damn even if the pain wouldn’t go away because he had seen Kai’s earlier look of pure abandonment, he could feel Kai now, trembling to control himself, to keep from moving, trembling for him and just the thought that he and Kai were joined like that, that he had reached this level where all fears and defenses had been dropped and he could give himself to Kai like that, those thoughts would have simply made all the pain worth it. And it helped to know that the pain would eventually become less and less strong and fade away into pleasure. It had already started to grow numb.
“Yes, Kai, I’m fine. Just give me a sec.” Ruki said, a beautiful smile on his lips.
He waited a couple of more seconds and then decided it was time to drive his lover mad so the little devil wiggled his hips. He was good with his hips after all, Ruki caught himself thinking mischievously. His devilish grin got even bigger when he heard Kai’s response.
“Fuck!”
Ruki’s movements had created friction, which had created a million of wonderful sensations curse through Kai. He had restrained himself for a long time already and he was human after all, and on the point of losing his mind, and seeing Ruki’s grin made his whole being tingle with happiness and love.
“That’s precisely what I expect you to do.” Ruki was saying and Kai just snapped.
With a sudden movement, he pulled out and then plunged back into the tightness, fast and deep, an action that made both of them lose their breath. He was a bit concerned for the little devil under him, he would never want to have hurt Ruki, but Ruki’s smile and bright eyes certainly didn’t show any sign of that so Kai resolved to punish Ruki with pleasure instead of pain. He just needed to find the x-marked spot, Kai thought.
For Ruki, with every new thrust, the pain would numb more and more, while the pleasurable sensations would grow. It wasn’t perfect nor was it comfortable but it was Kai and… and all of a sudden his thought was cut short by sheer white pleasure cursing through his every nerve. It was perfect.
Seeing Ruki’s eyes roll over his head and his body suddenly arch a good centimeters off the mattress, hearing Ruki’s probably unconscious scream could mean only one thing: bingo! And Kai’s prize was: being able to make Ruki scream some more. Their dance had just started.
And it had been a magnificent tango, leaving them completely exhausted, utterly happy and profoundly in love. Kai had drawn the covers over them, spooned Ruki in his arms, their bodies tightly pressed together, fitting perfectly, Kai’s arms circling Ruki’s waist, Ruki’s lithe fingers tapping a soft rhythm on Kai’s hands, their feet tangled together, Ruki’s soft strands of hair tickling a bit Kai’s face. They were perfect together. And they felt complete.
“Kai…”
“Yes, Ru-chan.” Kai whispered. He was on the point of drifting asleep…
“I’m hungry.”
“Ha?” The statement surprised Kai so much that all sleepiness suddenly disappeared. Ruki turned into his arms, now facing his lover, their chests touching, feeling each other’s breath and heartbeat. Any helpless romantic would have placed their head on their lover’s chest, listen to the other’s heart beating just for him, sigh contently, place a kiss on the soft still a little moist skin and probably drift to sleep. Any helpless romantic’s actions would have probably been pretty close to those but the Gazette’s vocalist wasn’t exactly a helpless romantic and his stomach certainly wasn’t and Kai suddenly realized that:
“Haven’t eaten all day so I could eat plenty at the wedding and we didn’t go at the wedding and… there’s been a lot of excitement so…” Ruki’s eyes were sparkling with amusement and love.
“God, I love you!” Kai hadn’t planned on saying it but it escaped his lips naturally. How could he not, after all? Ruki’s smile just became even brighter. “Stay here, I’ll fix you something.” His reward: an innocent kiss on the lips would have been enough to get him to cook a thanksgiving meal, probably. Fortunately, there was no need for that. He quickly made some sandwiches for them both and brought the tray with the tea and light meal to the bedroom.
Ruki was leaning on the headboard, the white sheet only draped over his legs, leaving his chest exposed to the slightly cool air of the room and… Kai’s gaze. At spotting Kai entering the room with the brunch, Ruki clapped his hands happily and then tapped the place on the bed next to him, his beautiful lips shaped into a wonderful smile, his eyes simply sparkling, the soft strands framing his face in beautiful disarray, his cheeks a bit flushed. The drummer gulped. It was past him to understand how someone could look so innocent and yet so sexy and inviting at the same time. He gulped again. Kai hadn’t been hungry but he suddenly realized he wanted to munch on a little something… He approached the bed, put the tray on the nightstand on Ruki’s side of the table and then got into bed. He turned towards his lover who was already munching on one of the sandwiches and just watched Ruki for some moments. Yes, he was growing quite famished actually. But before diving in, he wanted to hear Ruki ask him; he didn’t have to wait long. Sill chewing a smaller bite, Ruki asked his lover.
“Kai, aren’t you hungry?”
“Why actually…”
And then Kai leaned a bit and licked at the juncture between Ruki’s neck and shoulder, triggering a shudder out of Ruki’s body. He could swear the vocalist almost dropped the sandwich.
“You’re the tastiest treat I could ever ask for.”
Soon they were losing themselves in each other, reprising their dance from where it left off. Or maybe they were exploring a new one. Or maybe they weren’t even dancing at all. After all, is there a word to describe it; can you describe two butterflies dancing in the morning breeze? Or the soft petals of a lily caressed by the sun’s morning rays; the scattering of sakura petals in the wind; the nightingale’s song? How can one describe what is simple, pure beauty? Let’s just agree on this one thing: one can’t.
A half eaten sandwich had been discarded on the plate...
A/n: Is it really a surprise that I absolutely loved writing this? Shouldn't be. Waiting for your love, darlings.
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Title: My reflection
Chapters:23?
Pairing: Ruki/Kai, Uruha/Reita, Aoi/OC, Aoi/Sakito
Warnings: lots of angst, manxman love
Rating: PG-15
Genre: Angst, Romance
Disclaimer: I am not connected to the real persons. This is just a figment of my imagination and I don't make any money nor profit in any way out of this (well, except gathering your love that is).
Summary: They are successful but are they really happy? Are there shadows lurking in the dark, just waiting for a chance to come out? What is happening with Ruki and how can Kai help? And what will this challenge for the two of them bring?
Chapter 22
By the time they got to the bed both their shirts had gotten lost along the way. It was a bit awkward trying to not bump into walls and different furniture while clinging to the other and refusing to separate but they managed to get safely to their destination. The bed was there and they were supposed to be on it but call it inertia or just being blinded by the other, but the two of them kept standing there, preying on each other’s mouths and skin.
One good thing about wearing suits is the simplicity to take the pants off, which explains how come the two of them found themselves only in their boxers only minutes later.
Suddenly, Kai stopped kissing Ruki and became tense, which in turn made Ruki cease his administrations, gaze up at Kai and ask what was wrong.
“Aoi-kun… He’s gonna kill us if we’re any later than we already are.”
Ruki groaned.
“Kai-chan, I love you, but should you really be thinking about our guitarist right now?”
Kai chuckled and placed a soft kiss on the vocalist’s lips.
“Sorry, baby, you have no idea how I want you on that bed but it is his wedding party…”
Ruki silenced him with a fiery kiss and while busy exploring for the nth time the drummer’s mouth, secretly took a picture with his cell phone. Kai heard the ring.
“Ruki, what was that?”
“Oh, just getting Aoi’s approval. No need to worry about it now.”
The message was sent; the cell phone closed and dropped over their pants and Ruki let himself fall on the soft bed.
“If you want me on this bed, Kai-chan, then come and get me.” Ruki said, a brilliant smile lighting his face. It was funny how that triggered a blush to appear on Kai’s cheeks. “Now why are you the one blushing when I’m the one about to be ravaged?” Ruki chuckled.
Kai climbed on top of his lover, tracing with his hands the soft skin underneath him, triggering a sigh to escape Ruki’s lips. It was moments later that he answered, gazing into Ruki’s deep eyes.
“You’re so beautiful.”
Just minutes before, Ruki would have cringed a bit when hearing those words but now they only caused a furious blush. There was really no way he could not believe Kai when he was looking at him in that way, as if he was the most beautiful and precious thing in the world; there was nothing but admiration, love and lust in the drummer’s gaze and Ruki allowed himself to open up completely, forget about all his previous fears because just then it was him and Kai and their love in between and nothing else mattered.
Ruki loved the way Kai’s lips felt on his skin, his lips so soft it felt as if butterflies were caressing him and he could only shiver in anticipation when Kai’s cold hands wondered over his chest, abdomen, thighs… He gasped when Kai went lower and lower until he was kissing his still clothed manhood, making Ruki grasp the sheets.
“Kai, stop teasing me.” Ruki whispered.
“I’m the one being teased, love.” And then Kai’s mouth was on his again. Ruki loved Kai exploring his body but he also wanted to do a little exploring for himself so while fighting Kai over controlling the kiss, his hands wondered from Kai’s neck, to his tensed deltoids and protruding clavicles, his spine. He could feel the muscles tensing and untensing under his touches, the way Kai’s skin seemed to grow just a little bit warmer under his fingertips. So he was the one being teased, wasn’t he? Then Ruki had to make sure he’d tease his lover some more. So he flexed his leg and pressed his knee against Kai’s clothed hardened member. Kai gasped at the touch which made Ruki take control of the kiss and keep it, seeing as Kai’s mind and body were a little overwhelmed by Ruki’s actions.
When they finally had to pull apart and catch their breaths, Kai leaned his forehead against Ruki’s and said:
“You know, you’re a devil.” It was all he could say since not only did Ruki not stop, but also instead of his knee, he brought his hands to Kai’s hips, pulled down the underwear and then wrapped his fingers around Kai.
“And I thought you loved me.” He answered playfully.
“Oh, I do, but if you don’t stop right now I might just get angry.”
“But doesn’t it feel good?” Ruki purred.
Kai decided to take matters into his own hands.
“It feels too good but I want to ravage you tonight. I don’t want to feel your fingers around me; I want to be buried inside you, making you scream.”
“Kinky.”
They both had to giggle. Being together felt comfortable. There was no shyness or fear, just acceptance and understanding. It didn’t matter that it was their first time together, they weren’t thinking about making it perfect or romantic or that kind of stuff because it was all just about feeling the other, being together after waiting for so long and it would definitely be unforgettable no matter how good it felt or how it hurt or how clumsy they’d be.
Kai got rid of the shorts that had pooled around his ankles and soon after, in one swift mood, grinning devilishly while at it, got rid of Ruki’s underwear too. Ruki let out a loud hiss at his action, seeing as he was painfully hard and the movement had excited him to the point it hurt.
“Why you…”
“Shh, love, you don’t want to say something you’ll regret.” Kai said still grinning.
“Oh, you’ll be the one regretting it if…” Ruki had started his threat but he had to stop mid sentence seeing as his whole body convulsed suddenly and he was reduced to screaming Kai’s name out loud. The cause was Kai’s mouth doing a hell of a good job…
“Fuck!”
Ruki was the vocals of their band for a reason, it occurred to Kai, for the sounds the man was creating brought so many feelings with them... However, Kai was a man too and with the way Ruki felt and sounded it took a lot of restraint to keep pleasuring his lover, forgetting about his own little problem. There’s so much a man can handle, and given the circumstances, Kai had made outstanding efforts, but he was still human after all. He needed Ruki…
Kai increased the suction, bobbed his head up and down faster, occasionally grazing it with his teeth, feeling Ruki coming closer and closer to completion, until…
A low growl flew part Ruki’s lips. If it was supposed to be Kai’s name or some sort of prayer towards the gods or quite the opposite, Kai couldn’t figure out, not that Ruki knew better either.
Ruki saw the purest white in front of his eyes and his body all of a sudden went from overwhelming sensations to peace and tranquility and then back to an acute perception of every touch and every breath made and of Kai’s loving gaze. He should have been at least a little embarrassed that Kai was looking at him like that, as if he wanted to devour him (oh wait, he had just did that) but surprisingly, Ruki could only feel bliss at the moment. There was just not enough room in his heart or mind for anything either than love and happiness and the tingly feeling he got when he thought that the night was still young…
Kai was over him again, sucking the air out of him and he could feel his taste on Kai and it only made everything so much more erotic and it also made him want to taste Kai the same way. However, the drummer seemed to have other plans.
“Ru-chan, do you have any lube?”
Now this was the cue for him to start blushing, Ruki thought. He wasn’t sure if he was or not, but hell, he hadn’t expected such a straight question from his drummer.
“Now, Kai-chan, since when are you so direct?”
“Since my patience has reached its peak. Do you have any idea what you’re doing to me? If I don’t have you soon, it feels as if I’m going to explode.”
Ruki was definitely blushing. He didn’t mind it though because that cute reaction only triggered Kai to place feathery kisses all over his face and neck and then lower… Oh God, here we go again!
“Ru, you still haven’t answered my question.” Kai managed to say between kissing and nipping and licking Ruki’s collarbone. It seemed that Ruki was particularly sensitive since in only a couple of moments and with just feathery kisses, he had managed to excite his vocalist again.
“No. There is some hand cream though.”
“Knowing you, there’s probably a lot of brands of hand cream.” Kai said giggling, while gazing at Ruki’s beautiful face, which instantly reacted to his words and formed a waiting- to- be- kissed pout. Naturally, Kai gave in.
When their lips finally parted, Kai got up slowly, leisurely, torturing both himself and Ruki with the even longer wait. Kai really needed his vocalist but he also loved to tease the man.
In just a few moments Kai was back to kissing Ruki senseless. The vocalist was drowning in a sea of happiness so he almost missed the sensation of Kai’s finger penetrating him. ‘Almost’ would be the key word since there really is no way you could miss that unpleasant and a little painful sensation that gets more painful as more fingers are added. Ruki just grabbed the sheets and tried to ignore the discomfort, focus only on Kai’s kisses and the fact that it was Kai doing this to him. He knew it got better; he just hated the process up to that moment. And then, Kai lightly brushed something that, in Ruki’s opinion, should have been brushed a lot sooner. Ruki arched up, let out a moan and with a breathy “Kai, now” prepared himself for the other man. He really wasn’t a patient man to begin with.
Kai grinned upon seeing Ruki’s reaction. He had been studying Ruki’s face and at a point, had gotten worried about not being able to pleasure his lover properly but with Ruki’s moan and order, all those thoughts flew out the window and allowed himself to lose to the sensations surrounding him while losing himself deeper and deeper in Ruki. It was tight and it was bliss and the slight pain only served to fuel his desire more because it was proof that he was indeed there, with Ruki, being surrounded by him, becoming one with him… He had closed his eyes and only now, fully sheathed could he open them again (he hadn’t imagined that only opening your eyes could be such an effort) and gaze lovingly on Ruki, who was clutching the bed sheets tightly, his lips drawn in a thin line, his eyes tightly closed, his sweet face mirroring the pain he was in.
“Ru, are you okay?”
Kai had stopped. He couldn’t bear see his lover in so much pain and even thought that maybe they should stop. Maybe he lacked the confidence he needed in order to believe he could bring Ruki pleasure. And maybe he felt guilty for still feeling pleasure when Ruki wasn’t.
Ruki opened his beautiful eyes, saw and felt Kai’s worries. His right hand released the sheet and glided upwards, cupping Kai’s cheek, his index finger stroking tenderly the soft skin. It hurt, of course it did. Kai was in no way small and Ruki hadn’t been with anyone in months but it didn’t matter; he couldn’t give a damn even if the pain wouldn’t go away because he had seen Kai’s earlier look of pure abandonment, he could feel Kai now, trembling to control himself, to keep from moving, trembling for him and just the thought that he and Kai were joined like that, that he had reached this level where all fears and defenses had been dropped and he could give himself to Kai like that, those thoughts would have simply made all the pain worth it. And it helped to know that the pain would eventually become less and less strong and fade away into pleasure. It had already started to grow numb.
“Yes, Kai, I’m fine. Just give me a sec.” Ruki said, a beautiful smile on his lips.
He waited a couple of more seconds and then decided it was time to drive his lover mad so the little devil wiggled his hips. He was good with his hips after all, Ruki caught himself thinking mischievously. His devilish grin got even bigger when he heard Kai’s response.
“Fuck!”
Ruki’s movements had created friction, which had created a million of wonderful sensations curse through Kai. He had restrained himself for a long time already and he was human after all, and on the point of losing his mind, and seeing Ruki’s grin made his whole being tingle with happiness and love.
“That’s precisely what I expect you to do.” Ruki was saying and Kai just snapped.
With a sudden movement, he pulled out and then plunged back into the tightness, fast and deep, an action that made both of them lose their breath. He was a bit concerned for the little devil under him, he would never want to have hurt Ruki, but Ruki’s smile and bright eyes certainly didn’t show any sign of that so Kai resolved to punish Ruki with pleasure instead of pain. He just needed to find the x-marked spot, Kai thought.
For Ruki, with every new thrust, the pain would numb more and more, while the pleasurable sensations would grow. It wasn’t perfect nor was it comfortable but it was Kai and… and all of a sudden his thought was cut short by sheer white pleasure cursing through his every nerve. It was perfect.
Seeing Ruki’s eyes roll over his head and his body suddenly arch a good centimeters off the mattress, hearing Ruki’s probably unconscious scream could mean only one thing: bingo! And Kai’s prize was: being able to make Ruki scream some more. Their dance had just started.
And it had been a magnificent tango, leaving them completely exhausted, utterly happy and profoundly in love. Kai had drawn the covers over them, spooned Ruki in his arms, their bodies tightly pressed together, fitting perfectly, Kai’s arms circling Ruki’s waist, Ruki’s lithe fingers tapping a soft rhythm on Kai’s hands, their feet tangled together, Ruki’s soft strands of hair tickling a bit Kai’s face. They were perfect together. And they felt complete.
“Kai…”
“Yes, Ru-chan.” Kai whispered. He was on the point of drifting asleep…
“I’m hungry.”
“Ha?” The statement surprised Kai so much that all sleepiness suddenly disappeared. Ruki turned into his arms, now facing his lover, their chests touching, feeling each other’s breath and heartbeat. Any helpless romantic would have placed their head on their lover’s chest, listen to the other’s heart beating just for him, sigh contently, place a kiss on the soft still a little moist skin and probably drift to sleep. Any helpless romantic’s actions would have probably been pretty close to those but the Gazette’s vocalist wasn’t exactly a helpless romantic and his stomach certainly wasn’t and Kai suddenly realized that:
“Haven’t eaten all day so I could eat plenty at the wedding and we didn’t go at the wedding and… there’s been a lot of excitement so…” Ruki’s eyes were sparkling with amusement and love.
“God, I love you!” Kai hadn’t planned on saying it but it escaped his lips naturally. How could he not, after all? Ruki’s smile just became even brighter. “Stay here, I’ll fix you something.” His reward: an innocent kiss on the lips would have been enough to get him to cook a thanksgiving meal, probably. Fortunately, there was no need for that. He quickly made some sandwiches for them both and brought the tray with the tea and light meal to the bedroom.
Ruki was leaning on the headboard, the white sheet only draped over his legs, leaving his chest exposed to the slightly cool air of the room and… Kai’s gaze. At spotting Kai entering the room with the brunch, Ruki clapped his hands happily and then tapped the place on the bed next to him, his beautiful lips shaped into a wonderful smile, his eyes simply sparkling, the soft strands framing his face in beautiful disarray, his cheeks a bit flushed. The drummer gulped. It was past him to understand how someone could look so innocent and yet so sexy and inviting at the same time. He gulped again. Kai hadn’t been hungry but he suddenly realized he wanted to munch on a little something… He approached the bed, put the tray on the nightstand on Ruki’s side of the table and then got into bed. He turned towards his lover who was already munching on one of the sandwiches and just watched Ruki for some moments. Yes, he was growing quite famished actually. But before diving in, he wanted to hear Ruki ask him; he didn’t have to wait long. Sill chewing a smaller bite, Ruki asked his lover.
“Kai, aren’t you hungry?”
“Why actually…”
And then Kai leaned a bit and licked at the juncture between Ruki’s neck and shoulder, triggering a shudder out of Ruki’s body. He could swear the vocalist almost dropped the sandwich.
“You’re the tastiest treat I could ever ask for.”
Soon they were losing themselves in each other, reprising their dance from where it left off. Or maybe they were exploring a new one. Or maybe they weren’t even dancing at all. After all, is there a word to describe it; can you describe two butterflies dancing in the morning breeze? Or the soft petals of a lily caressed by the sun’s morning rays; the scattering of sakura petals in the wind; the nightingale’s song? How can one describe what is simple, pure beauty? Let’s just agree on this one thing: one can’t.
A half eaten sandwich had been discarded on the plate...
A/n: Is it really a surprise that I absolutely loved writing this? Shouldn't be. Waiting for your love, darlings.
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