The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone...

[youronlybelle]

I hate Florida. And not just in a "This isn't my home and I just want to go back to Oklahoma" way but in a "I would never tell people to live here" way. I hate the weather, I hate the lack of culture, I hate the fucking tourists, I hate the bugs, I hate the drivers...I haven't found a single thing to like about this hell hole. And I realize the

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[mcmeggers23]

I don't know you but would you mind if I posted a comment on your entry?

[youronlybelle]

Not at all. Feel free.

[mcmeggers23]

My heart goes out to you and I send you hugs. Feeling the way you feel, so incredibly lonely and lost, has to be one of the worst feelings a person can have. I know, I've been there. This will pass though. I can promise you that. *I apologize in advance if it seems that I'm trying to write a book, impose or say anything that may offend you, etc. I just hate seeing people said and would love to contribute in making others happier the best way I know how

[youronlybelle]

No, you definitely didn't weird me out. In fact, if anything, you did help. On some level. Because it definitely sounds like we've been through a lot of the same experiences (I took a year off college, but instead of going back because I desperately wanted to, I'm basically back so that my very loud family will leave me alone), and it helped to know that someone moved past it. That sooner or later, it does fade. That there's hope in the distance.

I'm working on getting my grades back up due to a nervous break down that started this whole mess, and then I'll see about transferring back home. Because I really think a lot of this wouldn't seem so hopeless if I could get back to a safe place.

Thanks for you comment, and really, it wasn't creepy at all. I completely appreciated it. And I hope things are better for you!

Katie

To Katie and Margaret

[tri_blog]

Hi Katie and Margaret

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[youronlybelle]

Thanks very much for your comment. This was one of those posts written in complete despair and I am pretty happy to report it's gotten better. Mostly. I'd still rather live anywhere but in Florida but meh...there's not a lot I can do about that right now.

I can only hope Grey's Anatomy returns to what it was. Or better. 5000 signatures seemed to have made a small indentation and there have been clues that the studios/writers saw it and have listened. We'll see though.

And I definitely still miss the cold. Though now my friends and family in Chicago and Canada threaten to kick my ass when I complain!

[liljan98]

Even though you don't me (and more important I really don't know you) I just felt the need to send you some virtual hugs too. You're one of my favorite Grey's fanfic writers and your and Alicia's stories mean so much to me and provided some wonderful distraction in my times of trouble.
Just like mcmeggers23 I've been there (haven't we all at some point?) and just like her I'd like to tell you: It will pass. I never thought it would, when I was 22, overweighed, single, and writing really really depressing poems. But it did. mcmeggers23 is right with everything she says about self-esteem and I know it may sound presumptuous to tell you "You just have to love yourself first and the rest will work itself out". But from my own experience that's still the key. And the other key in my case were the friends I met online and who didn't judge me on looks or anything, they just got to know me. The real me. And just being able to talk to them and ask for their advice or have their input helped me find my way and be (more or less) comfortable with me and the way my

hey!

[cutiecc1233]

um hi! i really dont kno how to start this seein that i one, never do this and two, we dnt kno each other or hav talked. well, i hav only left one comment one yours and alicia's fanfics (actually it may hav just been hers but it was meant for the both of you) but after reading this i actually felt compelled to finally leave a comment. I am a HUGE fan of ur writing. u and alicia's writing has really affected me. I'm not just saying this, i swear. I'm live in CA and it's 3am here and I just finished reading your "The heart wants what it wants"(which btw im sad u nvr finished...), so ya i think "affected me" may not be a strong enough phrase. I am pretty much obsessed. I feel like i kno u guys, which sounds completely crazy i kno. (im not crazy i swear!) your writing has helped me through so much and i wish i could do the same but i dnt hav ur talent when it comes to writing. moving is a big change, and well u moved to a completely different state which is a huge change. id like to say i understand what you are going through, but i

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[youronlybelle]

I have a serious headache so I can't respond as much as I'd like to. But thank you very much. This feeling started around the time I started college...and I think that time is hard for everyone. Of course, I took a year off college to figure everything out because it was just soooo big.

So good luck with that.

And yes...when/if I find the answer to not having to be a grown up anymore...I will let you know.

Have you read our fics on the board or elsewhere? We have 13 fics together.

xo
Katie

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[cutiecc1233]

ive read them on all different boards... trying to find them everywhere is more like it... ive read 11 of them, well 12 if u count that one-shot... i really dnt kno what im missing.. and ive decided to hold off on reading ur newest one until it's finished so i can read it all the way through... im still workin on both of ur individual fics but those are hard to find, but most are left unfinished...

it's really hard to keep track of all of them but ive been managing...

quick ques. what site do u guys normally use/update on most? cuz switching back and forth b/t sites is starting to get kinda rough...

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[youronlybelle]

we update here: http://z3.invisionfree.com/GreysMcboard/index.php?showforum=1

My one (and only) finished fic: http://z3.invisionfree.com/GreysMcboard/index.php?showtopic=523 Carnival Ride

Thanks for reading!

xo
Katie

[heartbreaker99]

Hey Katie,

I don't really know you either, except I read your fanfiction on various Grey's boards.

I wanted to let you know that things will get better. I have sort of been through whats happening to you now, and I made it. My family moved from NY to Arizona when I was 19 and freshman in college. I had to leave all friends that I had since I was a little kid and it sucked. Big time.

But eventually, things really did get better and looking back now, I realize that moving was the best thing that happened to me because if I hadn't I probably wouldn't be where I am today.

I know its hard to see it now, but things will get better. There is nothing wrong with you, its just hard starting over.

I didn't like my college in Arizona either at first, but even that got better.

Try to keep up hope, and if you ever want to chat I'm here for you.

Mandy