do you always need that spark? is that what defines liking someone? or do people maybe idk just grow on you? you start as friends, but it can evolve into something more... maybe? who knows. but i need to figure this out.

I seriosly have the creepiest dreams down here. I dont know what it wrong, but my dreams always wake me up and make me way nervous. They are all similar dreams I have had, but with really weird twists. It is hard to explain... I try to tell people about them but they are just so effing weird. I wish I had someone in life I could just talk to, who ( Read more... )

so its at the point where one of us would break the silence and say something, just a little something, but no budge from either end. its really weird. you getting in my face about what i have been doing to myself throughout this whole breakup really helped. you were the only honest person to me and i cant thank you enough for it. i know you kind ( Read more... )

I finally did it. I can't believe it took me nine months, or however long this has been going on and ruining my life, but I did it.

I am watching the clouds roll in and I sit here in my towel after a nice long shower in the good ol' La Paz. College life suits me well. I like it a lot, but I still feel there is a lot of down time and I need to get better at motivating myself to study. Lauren is gone this weekend and I never realized how much I LOVE having her around until she is ( Read more... )

I just read my past 80 livejournals. Some of them are so funny, and some of them are so gay and emo haha. I just want one thing, to be more appreciative of the life I have. I always complain. Even when I look back on when I thought I was the happiest, there are journals of me sounding so upset. Honestly I want to be a happier person. I know I ( Read more... )

Running clears my mind. There is nothing like getting on the treadmil, blasting music, and just letting everything out. For some reason, I feel running opens my up and sets my mind straight ( Read more... )

It is weird not giong to DV today. Not going through the crazy parking lot in the moring, running up and seeing people you missed all summer, and diving into new classes. I know we have a bigger and better school coming up but I can't deny that I miss it. High school brought so much into my life. So many friends, and experiences, and memories. And ( Read more... )

I love the rain. lovelovelovelove the rain.

I just want one good friend. One friend who doesn't bail, or backstab, or change around other people. One friend to sit and do nothing with and just be gay and dumbbb. Just one person, please god just one.