Even fools can fall in love
Title: Even Fools Can Fell in Love
Rating: NC-17
Genre: fluff, fail crack, romance, smut
Length: two-shot
Beta: SoYun (shupashta )
A/N: just like the first part, this also is a gift to be_ddelusionall .
and i wont say how much i suck at writing, because i know that annoys you.
Part one - Muffin Love
Even Fools Can Fall in Love
I doubt that anything in this world could be better than that feeling, when you wake up, try to stretch out and something warm clenches in your shirt, trying to pull you closer, not letting you go.
Yes, that definitely is the best feeling.
I have to admit that it was rather strange to start living together with JunSu that soon, if I may say. One month ain’t a long time, right?
Couples spend years living separately, but we… I guess we were different…
And how could I resist his raindrop shaped eyes looking at me with that puppy-like gaze?
Besides, his angelic smile and warm hug was a good enough reward for me.
JunSu shifted next to me again.
He was so cute when he was asleep.
I placed a kiss on his forehead and got out of the bed, although he hated when I did that.
Once or twice every week he had a free day, so he didn’t have to wake up early for work, yet I still had to go to university.
He demanded that I wake him up in those mornings, so we could shower together, because that was unfair that I woke up earlier all the other mornings.
I ignored this request from him, because I needed those mornings to settle some things.
And up until now it had worked pretty well… if I bit my lower lip and did things as fast as possible.
Yet this morning I had to skip.
I overslept. For the first time in my life.
I got dressed, took my bag and quietly left the apartment, skipping my morning coffee at JaeJoong’s café.
I got a new coffee machine, yet it was too noisy, and I didn’t want to wake JunSu up. Besides, it would be harder to leave when he was awake, pouting and mumbling about his stupid work and school.
He was cuter and more lovable than anything I had ever seen.
~*~*~*~*~*~
- Have I said that I like the way you solved the hot water problem? - JaeJoong slightly laughed and placed a second cup of coffee in front of me.
As every evening after uni I was at the café waiting for JunSu.
- That is not funny. - I scoffed and took a big sip from the cup, almost burning my tongue.
- You should be more careful. JunSu may like that tongue of yours. - YunHo joined in our conversation, resting on the counter on his elbows.
- This ain’t funny. - I scoffed again and almost did the same mistake again.
- If you had done that again, that would have been funny. - He stood up and swirled his hands around JaeJoong’s waist, who was making coffee for the other customers.
- Please, take it somewhere else. - I frowned making the two lovebirds look at me.
- Well someone’s not in the right mood today. - YunHo muttered and placed a kiss on JaeJoong's cheek, before he went to serve the rest of the customers.
- Why so grumpy Minnie? - Jae leaned on the counter in front of me.
I kept silent and reached for the muffin in front of me, yet a hand snapped it away.
- No muffins before you speak. - He said in a mother-like voice and held the muffin away from me.
- I’m just frustrated. - I muttered, making the other lean even closer.
- Sexually frustrated? - He said quietly.
- Hyung! - I gasped and avoided eye contact with JaeJoong. He knew how to read a person, perhaps that’s why his business was so successful.
- And I thought that a tall, brave guy like you would pull someone like JunSu in bed on the first night, maybe the second. - He grinned and leaned even closer, leaving only a few inches between our faces.
- This is really not funny. - I muttered and reached to snatch my lunch from his hand.
- No, no, no! More details on this situation before you get this. - Jae lifted his arm cutting my reach.
- Oh, Minnie, JaeJoong… -
Both our heads turned toward the door.
JunSu was standing in there with a confused look in his eyes.
- SuSu! - I stood up with a cheer and went to hug him.
He hugged me back shyly and we went back to sit.
JaeJoong pouted and place the muffin back where it was supposed to be.
- Coffee, JunSu? - He smiled at Su kindly, like he always did.
I think he was grateful to Su for luring me away from him.
- No, nothing. Thanks. - He smiled a little oddly.
- You fine? - I glanced at Su, who had actually been acting weird for the last few days.
- Yeah, I just want to go home. - He smiled a little again.
- But you just got here. - Jae popped in.
- Stay out hyung. - I uttered trough clenched teeth .
For a second I didn’t believe I did that, but I snapped out quickly and turned to JunSu.
- Ok, then, let’s go. - I placed a few bills on the counter and took JunSu’s hand, before we both left the café and headed home.
~*~*~*~*~*~
-I will be in the shower. - I said loudly and closed the bathroom doors behind me.
I turned on the shower and let the hot water wash away all my worries.
This was far more than frustrating and I hated it.
I liked JunSu. Dear God, I liked him more than I ever liked anyone in my entire life, even JaeJoong, who I found to be the most gorgeous creature on earth… before I met JunSu.
And not because he was good looking, well built, had a fine ass or smelled like blueberries, but because he was… him.
He smiled just because he wanted, laughed at even quite silly things, was utterly cute and his presence made me somehow complete.
I rested my forehead against the cold tile wall in front of me.
I wanted him… All of him…
It was almost painful to lie next to him every night and feel his skin against mine, knowing that I haven’t felt him completely.
And who was I to force things?
I was almost 100% sure that I liked him more than he liked me, and it would force things…
He seemed so delicate, so fragile in some ways, that I was even afraid to touch him.
I knew he wasn’t weak, I had seen he wasn’t made from glass, but I just couldn’t get it through my thick head.
The doors of the shower opened and then closed.
- You ok Minnie? - JunSu wrapped his arms around my waist and rested his head on my back.
- Yeah, I’m fine. - I tried to force out a smile, though the fact that he was naked and so damn close to me didn’t make things easier for me.
- You don’t sound like you’re fine. - His body pressed more against mine and even this somehow small contact of skin made me get harder.
- I’m really fine SuSu. - I turned around and locked him inside my embrace.
It wasn’t like we hadn’t stroked each other off or just played around for hours, but I still missed some ‘things’ and feelings.
- You are lying. - He pouted and reached up to caress my cheeks and kiss me.
- Why would I lie to you? - I smiled at the shorter male in front of me and let my fingers run through his wet hair.
- Because you don’t want to hurt me. - He smiled a little and ran his hands down my chest, back around my waist.
- True that. - I leaned down and kissed him once again, no rush, juts feeling his soft lips, his sweet tongue, his touch.
- Do you like me Minnie? - He broke away from our kiss and looked at me with his perfect rain-drop shaped eyes.
- That’s a stupid question… Sure I do. - I kissed his lips briefly.
- I love you Minnie. Not only like you. - JunSu lowered his head, his bottom lip shaking a little.
- SuSu… - I cupped his cheeks and lifted his face up, forcing him to look at me.
- I know that this may seem too soon to assume things like this, but I think I fell in love the first time I saw you at my door and I know you loved JaeJoong hyung. Perhaps you still do. - He avoided my eyes.
- And today at the café you both looked so happy just joking around… - he said with a sniff.
Water was still pouring on on us so I couldn’t tell whether there were tears flowing from his eyes, or if it was just water.
- SuSu… You really think I still like JaeJoong? - I felt something breaking in my chest.
How could I be so ignorant?
- I know you do… I’m not dumb. - He swallowed loudly and tried to avoid my gaze.
- No I don’t. Not like I like you. - I entwined my arms around him and pulled him close.
How could I make him think things like this?
- Then prove it. - He shifted away from me.
- How? -
- For a smart person you are stupid. - He pouted and pushed me against the tile wall, hands sliding over my abdomen and hips, ending up on my half hard cock.
- Su? - I rose an eyebrow when he started to stroke me and attacked my nipples with his skillful tongue.
Loud gasps escaped my mouth and I thrust back in his arms, back arching from wall, encouraging him to skim his tongue over my chest, licking up every single drop of water.
His lips locked around a patch of skin on my neck, sucking and biting, hand moving faster and faster, his hips brushing against mine, his obviously hard member rubbing against my thigh.
Yet something in the back of my mind screamed a loud “no” to this situation.
I gently pushed a confused JunSu away from me, right under the stream of water and took a deep breath.
- You don’t want me? - He looked at me, hands lowering by his sides.
- I do… but… - I sighed.
I had no reasonable explanation why I didn’t want it, because I wanted it. At that moment even more than anything.
- But what? - Su looked at me, fingers clutching in fists.
- Nothing. - I smiled and ignoring the panic in my head, I pulled him back for a kiss.
- Just… No foreplay. - He gasped against my lips, when my hands slid around his back to cup his perfect ass.
- But with no foreplay it will hurt… and we have no lu…. - he shut me up with his lips, fingers entwining in my hair.
- I don’t care… - He whispered and all I could do now was obey.
Heat in my body rose and clouded the reasonable part of ym mind. It was almost like when I was drunk.
This probably was the reason why I wanted to say “no”.
I pushed JunSu against the opposite wall and attacked his neck, hands tracing over the perfect curves of his body.
- Please. - He gasped and one thing I hated was to hear him pleading. He didn’t have to do that.
I lifted him up, strongly gripping his hips and his legs entwined around my waist.
- Last chance to back up. - I murmured against his lips.
- No backing up. - He muttered and rocked his hips, his erection rubbing against my abs.
- I am sorry. - I whispered before I guided my length in his merely prepared hole.
He shut his eyes with a small scream and started to impale himself, not even waiting till his body adjusted.
Water was still running and I still couldn’t tell whether there were tears on the corners of his eyes, or if it was just my imagination combined with water.
The position was awkward and tiring for both of us, thrusts were un-rhythmical and erratic, which reminded me more of simple mating, not what I wanted to do with JunSu.
I wanted to make love to him, I wanted him to scream my name from pleasure, I wanted to send him to 7th heaven.
With a whimper breaking through his lips I pulled out of his warm body, which refused to let me go.
- Min…Minnie. - JunSu gasped for air as I lowered his feet back on floor.
- Turn around. - I gently bit his neck, not leaving any marks, before he turned around, hands settling on the wall, legs spread.
I slid my hands over his sides, leaving kisses on both of his perfect globes and up his spine.
- N… No teasing. - He whimpered and pushed his hips back.
- As you wish. - I settled behind him and entered his warm cavern again. His body clenched around me, pulling me deeper, not letting go, his hips thrust back, gasps escaping his half shut mouth.
My hands gripped his hips, holding him steady; as I started to thrust in and out of his warmth, speeding up and losing control on what I was doing.
I traced one of my hands around his hip, grabbing on his cock, stroking it, pumping more precum out of it, along with more moans from his lips.
I had to shift a little to get a better access to his leaking and wanting member and that almost drew a scream from him.
- There! - He screamed out, hips thrusting back, making me hit the same spot.
My mind fogged with lust, his warmth, the scent of his skin, his heavy breathing, his cock twitching in my hand. My hips started to move in and out of him as fast as it was possible with no lube, hand flying over his erection.
Something like a scream broke from his throat as he came, his body tightening around me, draining my release.
His hands slipped from the wet wall, knees buckled and he would have collapsed if I hadn’t tighten my grip around his waist.
I pulled out of his body and brought both of us under the now already quite cold stream of water.
A brook of white mixed with red leaked down his inner thigh.
I knew this was a bad idea.
- I’m sorry. - I whispered in his ear as I held him close.
- Could… Could… Could you please leave? - He breathed out and his body started to shake.
- Why? - I loosened my embrace.
- I… I just… just need to think. - He sniffed.
- Should I go now? - I removed my hands from him.
- Please. - He whispered quietly.
I passed around him and left the shower, dried myself, found some clothes, grabbed my jacket and left the apartment.
I was an idiot. A total moron. An unworthy brat.
~*~*~*~*~*~
- Oh, ChangMin. We are already closing, but I guess you’re an exception. - YunHo smiled and opened the door of the café.
It was already closing time, but somehow this was the only place I imagined going now.
I entered the warm room and froze near the place I usually sit.
- Shouldn’t you be at home cuddling with JunSu? - JaeJoong appeared from the kitchen bringing a cup for him and one for YunHo, placing them on one of the tables.
- He asked me to leave. - I muttered and stared at the floor.
- Oh my. - Jae gasped and came closer, locking me into his warm embrace, followed by YunHo’s angry glare.
- Don’t you start YunHo! Minnie has a problem! - Jae turned to YunHo, who just winced and sat behind the table, where JaeJoong had placed both cups.
He took me by my hand and made me sit down in front of YunHo, while he settled in YunHo’s lap.
There were plenty of chairs for him, but I knew he preferred to sit this way and who was I to object?
- So, what’s wrong Minnie-yah? - JaeJoong said in his motherly voice.
- I don’t know… - I sighed and stared at the table in front of me.
- Did you molest Su? Did something he didn’t want to just because I said you could?- He asked with concern.
- No. He… He asked me to… well… to fuck him. - I uttered the words. I was somehow disgusted to say that.
- And what’s bad about that? -
- After that he asked me to leave. - I sighed again.
- After he asked you to fuck him? - Jae sounded confused.
- No. After we had… sex…- I ignored Jae’s hand reaching for a cup and snatched it away from him, taking a big sip of black coffee.
- Wow… So you’re that bad? - YunHo said with a sarcastic shock in his voice.
- Oh would you shut up cry baby! - Jae smacked his shoulder.
- Don’t you dare bring that up! - He almost hissed and sipped from his cup.
- Don’t bring what up? - Knowing something “interesting” about Mr. oh-so-perfect-Jung was more than tempting. And that would distract me from my own problems at least for a moment.
- He used to be straight before he met me. - Jae said with a smile.
Had I had coffee in my mouth, I would have spat it out.
- He went gay for me. Isn’t that sweet? Anyway, he almost died from panic when I bled the first time we had sex. That was so adorable. - He nuzzled his nose in YunHo’s hair, while the other just mumbled something under his breath.
- Well at least I didn’t panic. - I scoffed and sipped more of the bitter liquid.
- Wait, Su bled? - Jae rose an eyebrow.
- Yes. He insisted on no preparing. -
- Ouch. But good you didn’t panic. Then he would have probably kicked you out because you act like that. - He laughed a little.
- Then why didn’t you kick me out? - YunHo looked at Jae’s face, pouting. And I have to admit, he looked damn cute, though he was a grown man.
- Because I love you. - Jae kissed YunHo’s forehead.
- And I loved you back then. - He kissed the tip of his nose.
- And I will love you forever. - He briefly kissed YunHo’s lips with a smile.
- Even if you snore like a steam roller once in a while. - Jae giggled a little, making YunHo frown and turn back to his cup.
- Don’t be like this. - JaeJoong entwined his hands around the other’s neck.
- Why do you always have to bring up stuff like this? - Yun continued to frown.
- Because it’s cute. And I don’t mind. That’s my lullaby and I love it. - Jae kissed the other’s cheek.
- I’m still here. - I muttered. It was nice to see them like this, still in love though they had already been dating for 3 years, but right now it only made the pain in my heart stronger.
- I’m sorry. - Jae smiled.
- But I wonder… Why he asked you to leave if you both love each other…- Jae started to stare at the ceiling and it seemed that he was thinking.
- Well… I… actually… - I stammered.
- You didn’t tell him, right? - YunHo asked, dragging Jae’s attention away from the ceiling.
- No. - I sighed.
- Then you should go and tell him. - Yun smiled a little and sipped from his cup.
- But what if I’m not sure? - I looked at him. Somehow I felt that he understood.
- Because you seem familiar. You remind me of myself. And you’re definitely as stubborn as I was. - He smiled his bright smile.
I stood up, bowed to both of them and headed to the door, yet stopped and turned back.
- But what should I say, so he believes me? -
- Just don’t lie. - YunHo smiled again.
“Good luck!” shouted by Jae, was the last thing I heard before I ran over the street to talk to JunSu.
~*~*~*~*~*~
- JunSu? - I opened the door of the apartment.
Everything was dark and quiet and it almost made me worried.
- JunSu? - I shouted again yet I got no response.
I went through the living room, tossing my jacket on the couch, and headed to the bedroom.
My heart calmed down when I saw JunSu curled under the blanket, enlightened by a dim light from the window, his frame shivering slightly.
- SuSu… - I muttered and crawled under the blanket behind him, wrapping my hands around him.
- Before you kick me out again, just listen, ok? - I whispered and waited till he nodded.
- I’m a fool. The biggest fool on this planet, ‘cause I need others to tell me what I feel, to convince me of what I feel. - JunSu turned around to face me.
Though it was dark, I could see his eyes were red.
- I love the way you smile, the way you laugh. I love the way you can be playful even when you’re tired, how you can find joy in every single thing. I love how you clench to me whenever I try to leave. I love how honest you are, that you don’t hide anything and don’t act as someone else. I love how you complete me. - I let my fingers run through his hair.
- One month is even enough time for a fool like me to fall in love with someone. I love you SuSu. - I felt how his hands gripped my shirt, his body leaned closer to mine.
- You’re a fool. - He muttered, burying his face in my chest.
- I know… I know… - I murmured, locking him in my arms.
- My fool. - He whispered and raised his head, kissing me lightly.
- Yours. - I placed a kiss on his forehead and nuzzled my nose into his hair.
- I’m sorry. - I muttered when I lied next to him again.
It was almost impossible to get out of his grip just to remove my clothes.
- For what? - He asked, as his arms settled around my waist.
- For that… thing in the shower. - I muttered, feeling how heat rose in my cheeks.
- I asked for it. So don’t be sorry. - He smiled against my bare chest, placing kisses on it.
- Was worth it anyway. - He smiled again.
- I can do better. - I pouted a little. I was 100% sure I could do better.
- You will have plenty of time to prove me that.-
I glanced down at him- his eyes glistering from joy.
- And I assure you I will. - I kissed his lips briefly and pulled him even closer.
I loved the way his body fitted next to mine. I loved how he smelled like blueberries.
And… I loved how he muttered my name while he was dreaming.
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Sorry this is so late ;_;
Rating: NC-17
Genre: fluff, fail crack, romance, smut
Length: two-shot
Beta: SoYun (shupashta )
A/N: just like the first part, this also is a gift to be_ddelusionall .
and i wont say how much i suck at writing, because i know that annoys you.
Part one - Muffin Love
Even Fools Can Fall in Love
I doubt that anything in this world could be better than that feeling, when you wake up, try to stretch out and something warm clenches in your shirt, trying to pull you closer, not letting you go.
Yes, that definitely is the best feeling.
I have to admit that it was rather strange to start living together with JunSu that soon, if I may say. One month ain’t a long time, right?
Couples spend years living separately, but we… I guess we were different…
And how could I resist his raindrop shaped eyes looking at me with that puppy-like gaze?
Besides, his angelic smile and warm hug was a good enough reward for me.
JunSu shifted next to me again.
He was so cute when he was asleep.
I placed a kiss on his forehead and got out of the bed, although he hated when I did that.
Once or twice every week he had a free day, so he didn’t have to wake up early for work, yet I still had to go to university.
He demanded that I wake him up in those mornings, so we could shower together, because that was unfair that I woke up earlier all the other mornings.
I ignored this request from him, because I needed those mornings to settle some things.
And up until now it had worked pretty well… if I bit my lower lip and did things as fast as possible.
Yet this morning I had to skip.
I overslept. For the first time in my life.
I got dressed, took my bag and quietly left the apartment, skipping my morning coffee at JaeJoong’s café.
I got a new coffee machine, yet it was too noisy, and I didn’t want to wake JunSu up. Besides, it would be harder to leave when he was awake, pouting and mumbling about his stupid work and school.
He was cuter and more lovable than anything I had ever seen.
~*~*~*~*~*~
- Have I said that I like the way you solved the hot water problem? - JaeJoong slightly laughed and placed a second cup of coffee in front of me.
As every evening after uni I was at the café waiting for JunSu.
- That is not funny. - I scoffed and took a big sip from the cup, almost burning my tongue.
- You should be more careful. JunSu may like that tongue of yours. - YunHo joined in our conversation, resting on the counter on his elbows.
- This ain’t funny. - I scoffed again and almost did the same mistake again.
- If you had done that again, that would have been funny. - He stood up and swirled his hands around JaeJoong’s waist, who was making coffee for the other customers.
- Please, take it somewhere else. - I frowned making the two lovebirds look at me.
- Well someone’s not in the right mood today. - YunHo muttered and placed a kiss on JaeJoong's cheek, before he went to serve the rest of the customers.
- Why so grumpy Minnie? - Jae leaned on the counter in front of me.
I kept silent and reached for the muffin in front of me, yet a hand snapped it away.
- No muffins before you speak. - He said in a mother-like voice and held the muffin away from me.
- I’m just frustrated. - I muttered, making the other lean even closer.
- Sexually frustrated? - He said quietly.
- Hyung! - I gasped and avoided eye contact with JaeJoong. He knew how to read a person, perhaps that’s why his business was so successful.
- And I thought that a tall, brave guy like you would pull someone like JunSu in bed on the first night, maybe the second. - He grinned and leaned even closer, leaving only a few inches between our faces.
- This is really not funny. - I muttered and reached to snatch my lunch from his hand.
- No, no, no! More details on this situation before you get this. - Jae lifted his arm cutting my reach.
- Oh, Minnie, JaeJoong… -
Both our heads turned toward the door.
JunSu was standing in there with a confused look in his eyes.
- SuSu! - I stood up with a cheer and went to hug him.
He hugged me back shyly and we went back to sit.
JaeJoong pouted and place the muffin back where it was supposed to be.
- Coffee, JunSu? - He smiled at Su kindly, like he always did.
I think he was grateful to Su for luring me away from him.
- No, nothing. Thanks. - He smiled a little oddly.
- You fine? - I glanced at Su, who had actually been acting weird for the last few days.
- Yeah, I just want to go home. - He smiled a little again.
- But you just got here. - Jae popped in.
- Stay out hyung. - I uttered trough clenched teeth .
For a second I didn’t believe I did that, but I snapped out quickly and turned to JunSu.
- Ok, then, let’s go. - I placed a few bills on the counter and took JunSu’s hand, before we both left the café and headed home.
~*~*~*~*~*~
-I will be in the shower. - I said loudly and closed the bathroom doors behind me.
I turned on the shower and let the hot water wash away all my worries.
This was far more than frustrating and I hated it.
I liked JunSu. Dear God, I liked him more than I ever liked anyone in my entire life, even JaeJoong, who I found to be the most gorgeous creature on earth… before I met JunSu.
And not because he was good looking, well built, had a fine ass or smelled like blueberries, but because he was… him.
He smiled just because he wanted, laughed at even quite silly things, was utterly cute and his presence made me somehow complete.
I rested my forehead against the cold tile wall in front of me.
I wanted him… All of him…
It was almost painful to lie next to him every night and feel his skin against mine, knowing that I haven’t felt him completely.
And who was I to force things?
I was almost 100% sure that I liked him more than he liked me, and it would force things…
He seemed so delicate, so fragile in some ways, that I was even afraid to touch him.
I knew he wasn’t weak, I had seen he wasn’t made from glass, but I just couldn’t get it through my thick head.
The doors of the shower opened and then closed.
- You ok Minnie? - JunSu wrapped his arms around my waist and rested his head on my back.
- Yeah, I’m fine. - I tried to force out a smile, though the fact that he was naked and so damn close to me didn’t make things easier for me.
- You don’t sound like you’re fine. - His body pressed more against mine and even this somehow small contact of skin made me get harder.
- I’m really fine SuSu. - I turned around and locked him inside my embrace.
It wasn’t like we hadn’t stroked each other off or just played around for hours, but I still missed some ‘things’ and feelings.
- You are lying. - He pouted and reached up to caress my cheeks and kiss me.
- Why would I lie to you? - I smiled at the shorter male in front of me and let my fingers run through his wet hair.
- Because you don’t want to hurt me. - He smiled a little and ran his hands down my chest, back around my waist.
- True that. - I leaned down and kissed him once again, no rush, juts feeling his soft lips, his sweet tongue, his touch.
- Do you like me Minnie? - He broke away from our kiss and looked at me with his perfect rain-drop shaped eyes.
- That’s a stupid question… Sure I do. - I kissed his lips briefly.
- I love you Minnie. Not only like you. - JunSu lowered his head, his bottom lip shaking a little.
- SuSu… - I cupped his cheeks and lifted his face up, forcing him to look at me.
- I know that this may seem too soon to assume things like this, but I think I fell in love the first time I saw you at my door and I know you loved JaeJoong hyung. Perhaps you still do. - He avoided my eyes.
- And today at the café you both looked so happy just joking around… - he said with a sniff.
Water was still pouring on on us so I couldn’t tell whether there were tears flowing from his eyes, or if it was just water.
- SuSu… You really think I still like JaeJoong? - I felt something breaking in my chest.
How could I be so ignorant?
- I know you do… I’m not dumb. - He swallowed loudly and tried to avoid my gaze.
- No I don’t. Not like I like you. - I entwined my arms around him and pulled him close.
How could I make him think things like this?
- Then prove it. - He shifted away from me.
- How? -
- For a smart person you are stupid. - He pouted and pushed me against the tile wall, hands sliding over my abdomen and hips, ending up on my half hard cock.
- Su? - I rose an eyebrow when he started to stroke me and attacked my nipples with his skillful tongue.
Loud gasps escaped my mouth and I thrust back in his arms, back arching from wall, encouraging him to skim his tongue over my chest, licking up every single drop of water.
His lips locked around a patch of skin on my neck, sucking and biting, hand moving faster and faster, his hips brushing against mine, his obviously hard member rubbing against my thigh.
Yet something in the back of my mind screamed a loud “no” to this situation.
I gently pushed a confused JunSu away from me, right under the stream of water and took a deep breath.
- You don’t want me? - He looked at me, hands lowering by his sides.
- I do… but… - I sighed.
I had no reasonable explanation why I didn’t want it, because I wanted it. At that moment even more than anything.
- But what? - Su looked at me, fingers clutching in fists.
- Nothing. - I smiled and ignoring the panic in my head, I pulled him back for a kiss.
- Just… No foreplay. - He gasped against my lips, when my hands slid around his back to cup his perfect ass.
- But with no foreplay it will hurt… and we have no lu…. - he shut me up with his lips, fingers entwining in my hair.
- I don’t care… - He whispered and all I could do now was obey.
Heat in my body rose and clouded the reasonable part of ym mind. It was almost like when I was drunk.
This probably was the reason why I wanted to say “no”.
I pushed JunSu against the opposite wall and attacked his neck, hands tracing over the perfect curves of his body.
- Please. - He gasped and one thing I hated was to hear him pleading. He didn’t have to do that.
I lifted him up, strongly gripping his hips and his legs entwined around my waist.
- Last chance to back up. - I murmured against his lips.
- No backing up. - He muttered and rocked his hips, his erection rubbing against my abs.
- I am sorry. - I whispered before I guided my length in his merely prepared hole.
He shut his eyes with a small scream and started to impale himself, not even waiting till his body adjusted.
Water was still running and I still couldn’t tell whether there were tears on the corners of his eyes, or if it was just my imagination combined with water.
The position was awkward and tiring for both of us, thrusts were un-rhythmical and erratic, which reminded me more of simple mating, not what I wanted to do with JunSu.
I wanted to make love to him, I wanted him to scream my name from pleasure, I wanted to send him to 7th heaven.
With a whimper breaking through his lips I pulled out of his warm body, which refused to let me go.
- Min…Minnie. - JunSu gasped for air as I lowered his feet back on floor.
- Turn around. - I gently bit his neck, not leaving any marks, before he turned around, hands settling on the wall, legs spread.
I slid my hands over his sides, leaving kisses on both of his perfect globes and up his spine.
- N… No teasing. - He whimpered and pushed his hips back.
- As you wish. - I settled behind him and entered his warm cavern again. His body clenched around me, pulling me deeper, not letting go, his hips thrust back, gasps escaping his half shut mouth.
My hands gripped his hips, holding him steady; as I started to thrust in and out of his warmth, speeding up and losing control on what I was doing.
I traced one of my hands around his hip, grabbing on his cock, stroking it, pumping more precum out of it, along with more moans from his lips.
I had to shift a little to get a better access to his leaking and wanting member and that almost drew a scream from him.
- There! - He screamed out, hips thrusting back, making me hit the same spot.
My mind fogged with lust, his warmth, the scent of his skin, his heavy breathing, his cock twitching in my hand. My hips started to move in and out of him as fast as it was possible with no lube, hand flying over his erection.
Something like a scream broke from his throat as he came, his body tightening around me, draining my release.
His hands slipped from the wet wall, knees buckled and he would have collapsed if I hadn’t tighten my grip around his waist.
I pulled out of his body and brought both of us under the now already quite cold stream of water.
A brook of white mixed with red leaked down his inner thigh.
I knew this was a bad idea.
- I’m sorry. - I whispered in his ear as I held him close.
- Could… Could… Could you please leave? - He breathed out and his body started to shake.
- Why? - I loosened my embrace.
- I… I just… just need to think. - He sniffed.
- Should I go now? - I removed my hands from him.
- Please. - He whispered quietly.
I passed around him and left the shower, dried myself, found some clothes, grabbed my jacket and left the apartment.
I was an idiot. A total moron. An unworthy brat.
~*~*~*~*~*~
- Oh, ChangMin. We are already closing, but I guess you’re an exception. - YunHo smiled and opened the door of the café.
It was already closing time, but somehow this was the only place I imagined going now.
I entered the warm room and froze near the place I usually sit.
- Shouldn’t you be at home cuddling with JunSu? - JaeJoong appeared from the kitchen bringing a cup for him and one for YunHo, placing them on one of the tables.
- He asked me to leave. - I muttered and stared at the floor.
- Oh my. - Jae gasped and came closer, locking me into his warm embrace, followed by YunHo’s angry glare.
- Don’t you start YunHo! Minnie has a problem! - Jae turned to YunHo, who just winced and sat behind the table, where JaeJoong had placed both cups.
He took me by my hand and made me sit down in front of YunHo, while he settled in YunHo’s lap.
There were plenty of chairs for him, but I knew he preferred to sit this way and who was I to object?
- So, what’s wrong Minnie-yah? - JaeJoong said in his motherly voice.
- I don’t know… - I sighed and stared at the table in front of me.
- Did you molest Su? Did something he didn’t want to just because I said you could?- He asked with concern.
- No. He… He asked me to… well… to fuck him. - I uttered the words. I was somehow disgusted to say that.
- And what’s bad about that? -
- After that he asked me to leave. - I sighed again.
- After he asked you to fuck him? - Jae sounded confused.
- No. After we had… sex…- I ignored Jae’s hand reaching for a cup and snatched it away from him, taking a big sip of black coffee.
- Wow… So you’re that bad? - YunHo said with a sarcastic shock in his voice.
- Oh would you shut up cry baby! - Jae smacked his shoulder.
- Don’t you dare bring that up! - He almost hissed and sipped from his cup.
- Don’t bring what up? - Knowing something “interesting” about Mr. oh-so-perfect-Jung was more than tempting. And that would distract me from my own problems at least for a moment.
- He used to be straight before he met me. - Jae said with a smile.
Had I had coffee in my mouth, I would have spat it out.
- He went gay for me. Isn’t that sweet? Anyway, he almost died from panic when I bled the first time we had sex. That was so adorable. - He nuzzled his nose in YunHo’s hair, while the other just mumbled something under his breath.
- Well at least I didn’t panic. - I scoffed and sipped more of the bitter liquid.
- Wait, Su bled? - Jae rose an eyebrow.
- Yes. He insisted on no preparing. -
- Ouch. But good you didn’t panic. Then he would have probably kicked you out because you act like that. - He laughed a little.
- Then why didn’t you kick me out? - YunHo looked at Jae’s face, pouting. And I have to admit, he looked damn cute, though he was a grown man.
- Because I love you. - Jae kissed YunHo’s forehead.
- And I loved you back then. - He kissed the tip of his nose.
- And I will love you forever. - He briefly kissed YunHo’s lips with a smile.
- Even if you snore like a steam roller once in a while. - Jae giggled a little, making YunHo frown and turn back to his cup.
- Don’t be like this. - JaeJoong entwined his hands around the other’s neck.
- Why do you always have to bring up stuff like this? - Yun continued to frown.
- Because it’s cute. And I don’t mind. That’s my lullaby and I love it. - Jae kissed the other’s cheek.
- I’m still here. - I muttered. It was nice to see them like this, still in love though they had already been dating for 3 years, but right now it only made the pain in my heart stronger.
- I’m sorry. - Jae smiled.
- But I wonder… Why he asked you to leave if you both love each other…- Jae started to stare at the ceiling and it seemed that he was thinking.
- Well… I… actually… - I stammered.
- You didn’t tell him, right? - YunHo asked, dragging Jae’s attention away from the ceiling.
- No. - I sighed.
- Then you should go and tell him. - Yun smiled a little and sipped from his cup.
- But what if I’m not sure? - I looked at him. Somehow I felt that he understood.
- Because you seem familiar. You remind me of myself. And you’re definitely as stubborn as I was. - He smiled his bright smile.
I stood up, bowed to both of them and headed to the door, yet stopped and turned back.
- But what should I say, so he believes me? -
- Just don’t lie. - YunHo smiled again.
“Good luck!” shouted by Jae, was the last thing I heard before I ran over the street to talk to JunSu.
~*~*~*~*~*~
- JunSu? - I opened the door of the apartment.
Everything was dark and quiet and it almost made me worried.
- JunSu? - I shouted again yet I got no response.
I went through the living room, tossing my jacket on the couch, and headed to the bedroom.
My heart calmed down when I saw JunSu curled under the blanket, enlightened by a dim light from the window, his frame shivering slightly.
- SuSu… - I muttered and crawled under the blanket behind him, wrapping my hands around him.
- Before you kick me out again, just listen, ok? - I whispered and waited till he nodded.
- I’m a fool. The biggest fool on this planet, ‘cause I need others to tell me what I feel, to convince me of what I feel. - JunSu turned around to face me.
Though it was dark, I could see his eyes were red.
- I love the way you smile, the way you laugh. I love the way you can be playful even when you’re tired, how you can find joy in every single thing. I love how you clench to me whenever I try to leave. I love how honest you are, that you don’t hide anything and don’t act as someone else. I love how you complete me. - I let my fingers run through his hair.
- One month is even enough time for a fool like me to fall in love with someone. I love you SuSu. - I felt how his hands gripped my shirt, his body leaned closer to mine.
- You’re a fool. - He muttered, burying his face in my chest.
- I know… I know… - I murmured, locking him in my arms.
- My fool. - He whispered and raised his head, kissing me lightly.
- Yours. - I placed a kiss on his forehead and nuzzled my nose into his hair.
- I’m sorry. - I muttered when I lied next to him again.
It was almost impossible to get out of his grip just to remove my clothes.
- For what? - He asked, as his arms settled around my waist.
- For that… thing in the shower. - I muttered, feeling how heat rose in my cheeks.
- I asked for it. So don’t be sorry. - He smiled against my bare chest, placing kisses on it.
- Was worth it anyway. - He smiled again.
- I can do better. - I pouted a little. I was 100% sure I could do better.
- You will have plenty of time to prove me that.-
I glanced down at him- his eyes glistering from joy.
- And I assure you I will. - I kissed his lips briefly and pulled him even closer.
I loved the way his body fitted next to mine. I loved how he smelled like blueberries.
And… I loved how he muttered my name while he was dreaming.
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Sorry this is so late ;_;