[Private to Lockon Stratos, Kurosaki Hisoka, Yoite, and Badou Nails]

[you_are_unfit]

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[nicotine_patch]

Ohhh christ.

Hi, Tieria.

[you_are_unfit]

I know you do not like being involved in matters like this, but I felt your expertise would come in handy.

Hello, Badou Nails.

[nicotine_patch]

It's what I get for getting invested. I guess we're almost like. Friends. Or something. I dunno. Whatever. Don't worry about it.

You holding up okay? I... think the problem is, that the only sexual experience you've ever had was shitty and fucking rape, and the only people hitting on you are fucking asshole perverts. Being a ..."sexual being" ain't a bad thing, these fuckers you keep meeting just keep twisting it like that.

[you_are_unfit]

I would not mind if we were friends.

I do not think I am OK. Over the weeks it has gotten harder to ignore what happened, and I have developed an irrational fear of Mikhail Trinity. I should not be afraid of him. He is worthless and a failure, a fake Gundam Meister.

So sex is not supposed to be like that? How do I prevent drawing the attention of the wrong people?

[you_are_unfit]

I have never had this reaction before. It is not normal for me.

Re: [screened to Tieria]

[you_are_unfit]

I was trained to withstand torture. This is very similar, but I find all the techniques fail me in this situation. Is it because it was him, or because of what he chose to do?

I am aware of how sexual intercourse works, but there was no mention of joy or feeling good beyond the nervous system's response to an orgasm. It did not seem like such an important event.

[deathglove]

Mikhail, the pictures........it's all disgusting.

I find you perfectly likable.

[you_are_unfit]

.. Am I the one you're disgusted with?

I find you very tolerable, as well.

[deathglove]

I have no reason to be disgusted with you. You haven't done anything wrong.

[you_are_unfit]

The way you worded it, I was unsure who your were disgusted with.

[smexysniper]

Tieria its ok to feel this way really. Like I said before I'm so sorry that your first experience had to be that way. There's so much for you to learn, and you should learn all this from the one you actually want to share these things with, not some evil perverted idiot.

That being said, I hope you allow me to protect you more from now on.

[you_are_unfit]

So you think this is normal, the way I am feeling? It's new, and I do not like it. Hisoka-san and Badou said this wasn't what sex was like, so I will not have learned about it from Mikhail Trinity. But I don't think I will be concerning myself with sex in the near future, or if ever. It is too complicated.

Please do not protect me, Lockon. I don't want to see you hurt anymore, especially not for my sake, and I will become stronger.

[smexysniper]

They're right, its nothing of the sort.

I'm sorry Tieria, but I can't keep that promise. I will try my best to stay out of trouble though. ;) I know you will become stronger, you are capable of anything don't forget.

[you_are_unfit]

Then I will become so strong that nothing will be able to hurt me, and you will not have to protect me. You will never become injured because of my mistakes again.