[FANFIC] The Last Love Letter
rain, rain, rain heal my heart that is broken apart
rain, rain, rain up above from the skies
rain, rain, rain pour here and clean my soul
rain, rain, rain there will be rain here, there will be rain there
rain, rain, rain wash away my pain
rain, rain i will do anything for you to cover my tears of twinge
Shameka Jones
“My dear YoonA
How are you doing without me? Are you okay so far? Though my heart aching so much for leaving you earlier when I promise in front of the God to be with you forever, but it just happened that God needed to see me first. It’s urgent I suppose.”
Yoona turns her head away from the letter and look up on the sky “this is soo not funny oppa!” she said before continuing with the letter.
“I know it’s not funny but just don’t make the flatfish face of yours. Even when you are pretty doing it, for once just laugh at my unfunny joke”
Yoona smiles at that. He knows her like no other.
“How was life without me around you?”
“It’s hard” she answers it like he was in front of her, pouting her lips.
“Even if it’s hard, you have to smile, go through each day with a smile. It’s okay to cry but don’t do it too often. I know my buin is strong and will not cry when there are people watching you. I know you did not cry in front of me when you first know I was…unwell but I heard you cried in your sleep when you thought I was sleeping”
Her heart aches when she reached that sentence. She did cried when she thought he wasn’t looking, when she though the rest of the world are sleeping. She knows he would leave her soon. This thought that carried her cry to sleep.
“Never lie to me my love, I know you, everything about you. Don’t cry now my love for what happen to you now is not as bad as people who suffer in war. At least we got to be with each other till the end of my life. Right?
My beloved,
I am sorry for not giving you kid to be with you and to accompany you. We talked about it already but I guess this is fate. Even when I am not with you now, you should now I am watching you from up above, even as you read this letter now.(ah~ suddenly the thought of you reading this letter when I was watching somewhat embarrassed me)”
Yoona looked around her, somehow reading this, made her felt his presence that she knew he is still around her, watching over her.
“I am gone now but I will remain in your heart for as long as you want me to. I’ll be there for as long as you remember me. Will you ever forget me my dear love?”
“Never!” she said. “What do you take me for?” Looking at the sky again before continuing with the letter. Even to the last bit of his life, he loves to tease her.
“Well, you are faithful right?
My dear,
I’m gone, it’s a fact. I will not come back but I’ll be here, waiting for you in heaven. I’ll protect you against the hardship in of life, I will be there to hug in your sleep like I used to do until you find yourself someone…
And my dear, this chapter of your life with me has end but there are many more chapters of life for you to discover. So, never be afraid to continue walking without me holding your hand.
This not goodbye, this not an over, I’ll be waiting for you up above.
From your beloved (died^_^) husband and best friend, Lee-Handsome-Loving ImYoona-Donghae
P/s: more than life itself, I love you”
Her heart ache as her eyes lays at his last sentence. Yoona could never find someone better than Donghae, she knows that…
“Yoona…”
“Shhh, just eat” Yoona said as she shove to his face another spoonful of porridge.
“Oppa, I don’t know what I should give you. No matter how much I give you, you are still losing your weight” She said while wiping the side of his lips that get messed with the porridge.
Donghae’s heart ache, knowing that he will leave her soon but he needed to stay strong, for he cannot bear the thought that he would leave her so soon.
He looked at her carefully.
The oval face of her that makes perfect with her big eyes, her tall nose, her kissable lips and his favorite spot on her face, her beautiful forehead. He looks at her carefully knowing what might have been his now will no longer be his later.
“Do I have something on my face oppa?”
He smiled, almost laughs but was too weak to do that and she knew.
She smiled at him as she walked away with the tray of food to place it on top of the table next to the bed. And quickly came back to his side, returning in his arm like she will never let him go.
For the past three months, since what he thought was a mere headache was actually a tumor that continuously made home beneath his brain, she has never leave his side for too long. She would be there next to him all the time.
The doctor has given up, saying it’s too dangerous for it to be removed and that the chances for the operation to fail is highly possible. The doctor had given his best regard and closed the door of his office after so many treatments.
But not Yoona.
She has never given up for him. she would go, spent a long hour in front of the computer, surfing, trying to find the best doctor to cure her husband, been in and out of so many private hospital carrying Donghae’s brain x-ray, treating it like it’s her handbag, driving around just to any possible hospital that dare to take Donghae in, to give his life back.
Until one day Donghae put stop to all of her effort, walking to her as she just got back from another failed attempt, admitting that he was weak and asking Yoona to stop it.
Yoona fell down on her knees, crying, sobbing and mouthing something incoherent saying she knows she could find it, somewhere she knows but why is it hard for them to take him in.
Weakly, he walked towards her, taking her in his arm and she cried. Slowly he kissed her forehead, to give the strength that she needs, to give himself the energy that he wants. He held her, telling her its okay. He knew she had tried her best but tough luck was on his side and hers too.
“Hey…” he finally said breaking the silence.
“emm…” her voice was nasally, he knew she cried.
“Do you still remember our first meeting?”
“It was raining”
“Like today” he continues her. “But it wasn’t the first day I saw…” he said.
“What? You never tell me that part” she said straightening her body and faced him. Her eyes were swollen and she looks beautiful even when she cried.
“Yeah, I never told you that. But that day you shared with me your umbrella. But in the end we both drenched because your umbrella was too small”
“Yeah and you caught cold the next day”
“But you were all healthy and you made me soup, strong Him Yoona.”
He remembers, vividly clear, where he first saw her.
Donghae first saw Yoona at the bus stop. He noticed the tire of his car was flat the night before but wasn’t too bothered to change it until that morning he was late and a curse flying around, cursing himself why he did not take the initiative to change it last night.
But thinking about that now, he should never regret having to walk to the bus stop just to meet an angel early in the morning waiting for the bus.
Clearly he remembered her white chiffon dress, with her hair tied in pony, and her tote bag hanging in her arm. She is simple, yet beautiful.
Her face,
And he knew he never felt that way before.
The attraction was strong that he suddenly forgot that he had to go to work and that his father was waiting for him for the meeting in the board room, he forgets everything all together just to see where this girl was heading too.
He followed her, boarding the bus she was boarding and get down just to find out she works at his place. But not in the office. She works in the bakery next to the tall skyscraper.
And from that day onwards, he never bothers to use car which made his parents stared at him weirdly cause all he wants ever since he graduated from high school was a luxurious car and suddenly not using it because “we have to save the environment” was a bit alien to them, especially when it comes from Lee Donghae. It’s not like he cares. He might mean that reasoning but that was not the only reason. He has this need of having to see her every morning. Seeing her face in the morning is like a good breakfast for his soul.
Until one day of after-hours of working where it rained and rain was supposed to make things romantic but in the end it did not.
The rain poured heavily. He might need to wait to walk home or to run through the rain and get himself wet and to have cold the next morning. His body, after all, was never good with diseases.
But the girl saw him. She never looks at him before because she was always with her earphone on and reading but not today. She looked at him. And for the first time their eyes met, he saw that big, pretty eyes, his heart stop beating for a second or two.
She came closer to him with a very concern look.
Intact and in control Lee Donghae
“Do you have umbrella?” She said.
Is that what she wanted to ask?
“No I don’t” he answered, rather reluctantly. There was a dissapoinment in his voice but she might never notice that.
“The rain looks like it won’t be stopping anytime soon. Where do you live?” another prompt question by her.
And like a kindergarten kid who was lost in the way, he pointed to her where his house was located, up on the hill.
“Perhaps, if, you don’t mind you could use my umbrella”
OF COURSE HE DOES’T MIND! Who mind to share an umbrella with a pretty lady in the rain?
“What about you?” asking in care, being the gentleman that he is.
“Oh, it’s okay my…”
THUMP!
She jumped a little in surprise and closes her eyes. He could see the lips movement but the sound of the thunder makes it hard to decipher what she was saying.
“I’m sorry but what did you say just now?”
It was cold. It was raining cats and dog, accompanied by thunder and lighting, it looks like the rain won’t be stopping anytime soon.
“I’m sorry but what did you say just now miss?”
“I live down the road…” she said pointing to the other side of the road “… it’s not that far, I think I could just run there” and following her words was another loud thunder.
“I don’t think the weather agrees with you Miss” as he looked around. She did the same too; maybe she was thinking it was impossible to walk under this circumstance.
“Here, why don’t we walk together to my house and I’ll send you back with my car”
She looked hesitant, biting her lower lips while trying to lock her long hair behind her ears as the wind blew strongly that makes her hair looks messy in a very beautiful way.
“It’s too dangerous for you to run or walk now. Plus my house is not that far, just up the hill”
She finally agreed.
It was a nice walk ( or run) and because the umbrella was, not too big for two people to fit in, he held her shoulder close to his chest so she’ll be inside the umbrella despite his suit was wet on one side.
well, rain does makes thing to be romantic
She smiled and he caught her smiling. But he can’t possibly ask her anything now, the earsplitting sound of the rain drop hitting the roof causing any conversation to be a dead-end conversation.
And they finally reached in front of his house. The stranger looks surprise as Donghae thinks, the girl might not expect him to be living in a luxurious mansion.
He unlocked the gate and he took this chance to hold her hand and led her in.
Donghae took out the his car key out form his pocket (he always carry the key with him, in case of any emergency like today) and the car beep twice.
“Please get in to the car Miss”
Somewhat it feels wrong, as if she was abducted because she was looking around in curiosity but she listened to him and hop in the car.
“Don’t worry, leather seat will dry fast” He assured him when he saw he try to not to touch the seat because her white dress is wet.
“Or will not absorb the water” she said wittily.
He smiled at her remarks.
“Sure it won’t” he answered as he started the engine.
“oh!” suddenly she voiced out, full of surprise in her tone.
“Is it okay that I don’t greet your parents? I think it’s rude for me not too”
Beautiful and well brought up
“No, it’s okay Miss. Plus, my mother is not around now. She had some invitation for tea”
She nodded her head a few times, buckled the seatblet . And with that he drove away. The atmosphere quiet down in the car. The only audible sounds were the rain outside and thunder. The silence was killing him deep inside.
“What’s your name Miss?” he finally break the ice.
“oh, I am so sorry. It’s rude of me not to introduce myself. I am YoonaA, Im YoonA”
“Donghae… me. Lee Donghae” She smiled “Nice to meet you Lee Donghae-ssi”
“Nice to meet you yoo YoonA-ssi. I am so sorry that it might be rude to ask but may I know what year were you born?”
“Oh no, it’s okay. I was 1991”
“I see! So I’m your oppa” She turned to him, like to say how true was that statement. Of course he did not get to see how big her eyes were but she could tell, after so many days stalking her.
“What year were you born Donghae-ssi?”
“1986” he answered short, with smile on his face.
The little, personal chat dies there as Yoona pointed out the turn to her house. The direction was easy and it’s not that far from his house but if YoonA, the name that he learned just now, to walk or run, she will sure be drenched wet by the time she reached the doorstep of her house.
The house was small, located next to the restaurant. Yoona smiled as she unbuckled the seatbelt. Without being asked she told him that the little restaurant was owns and runs by her mum.
“Would you like to come down for awhile? I’m afraid that’s the only way I could repay you for your kindness. I think you could do some hot soup in cold weather like this” and with that statement, a pure smile followed.
It’s not like he had anything to do if he were to go back now. Most likely he would crawl to his bed, thinking about the girl name Im YoonA. Hence he gladly accepted the offer.
And they had a wonderful chat over the hot soup.
And he managed to be introduced to YoonA’s mother.
And that was how Donghae fell deeper for YoonA.
So he said goodbye but not farewell.
They met again the next day, with Donghae drove the car and invited YoonA for a lift and that was how the love story begun…
Rain…
Rain was everything to Yoona and Donghae.
Rain was everything in their relationship.
Yoona first met Donghae when it was raining and they ended up chatting in her mum’s little restaurant.
The rain poured heavily during their first date and they ended up in a coffee house, canceling their picnic plan where Donghae shyly reached for Yoona’s hand under the table and by a simple touch, Yoona’s face flushed seven colors of scarlet.
It was raining on the day they exchange vows in front of the priest, observed by hundreds of guests but it was almost sunny when they kissed.
Yoona looked across the room, wiping the tears that fell down as she recalls the memories with him, the love of her life, the only love of her life. Her eyes are fixicated on the umbrella. The umbrella that started it all. It was still there. Broken, but still there.
It was Donghae who insisted on keeping it and now she was glad she agreed to it.
Yoona held the letter close to her chest, close to her heart where the sender of the letter belongs to.
She walked slowly towards the window, overlooking the wirls outside. It’s raining heavily.
Just like the first time they met.
She knows she’ll find hope, even as small as the rain drop.
“P/s: more than life itself, I love you”
She knows she will.