Fanfic: Never Meant to be Part 2
Just for one moment….
“Why are you smiling like an idiot Lee Donghae?”
A sudden intervention from Eunhyuk popped his day dreaming.
“Oh wait! Don’t tell me…”
Donghae turned around, giving Eunhyuk a weird stare. And his look clearly told Eunhyuk to explain what was on the mind of the so-called Anchovy of Asia.
“I remember this look Lee Donghae. You look like this before, during our trainee days, when you confessed to a girl and she accepted it and started dating and all and did I tell you look like sh!t when you guys broke up?”
“Yes you did. More than ten times if I could recall.”
“Good cause you are wearing that expression of when the girl accepted you. But this look is even creepier than back then. Like you accomplished something good. What is it?”
“It feels like I’m debuting again Hyukjae. That is what I feel right now”
“If you make it that way, then you have debuted three times already. One with Super Junior, and then with SJ-M and now, debuting moment over no reason… cheh!”
“You are not much less. With Super Junior, SJ-T and SH-H.”
And Eunhuk totally forgot on why he asked Donghae’s stupid look in the first place cause in the end, they were bickering. And Donghae glad he was not forced to answer cause he doesn’t want to share it.
It’s weird.
He always shares his thought with his member. But when it comes to Yoona’s matter, he prefers to keep it to himself. And whenever he showers, the thought of her would come to him. Her smile when she is happy, her tears when she is touched, her eyes when she is working hard, it came back to him naturally.
Donghae used to have girlfriends. He confessed to plenty of girls. Some accepted him but most of the time he got rejected. The reason?
“I am not sure if you really love me cause even when you look sincere, and even when I am happy you confessed, I have the feeling that I am being used, like I am escape goat.”
At first he doesn’t understand why. But now he could see. The girls could see his feelings for them are not sincere. And it’s true he has been using them as his escape goat cause he wants to forget Yoona. But he was stupid. He never knew girls have that much of (scary) instinct.
And today he went through his schedule with much happiness in his heart. Because she said she likes it when he message her.
No Lee Donghae no! Stop being delusional! She just said she likes it, not anything to like love.
Loving her so secretly like this, day by day, it’s killing him….
‘Oppa, do you want to practice tonight’
A message came in later that day. He wants to jump in joy. Although he schedule finishes at 12am today, he still replied to her ‘I would love to’, even that meant he had to wait for two hours or more for her.
My heart… what are you afraid of?
Super Show is Seoul was a huge success. Each was a worth to wacth. But it’s a pity that Yoona only manage to go on the second day. And for that, the manager had to clear up their schedule earlier so the girls able to go to the concert.
And surprisingly, Gee parody made by her sunbae received an overwhelming response. The fans are enjoying it, SNSD members are enjoying it.
Yoona enjoyed it.
She had a butterfly in her stomach when she saw what was on Donghae shirt.
It was YoonHae.
She didn’t know that the shirt was supposed to look like that. When Leeteuk said they will be wearing special costume during Gee, she expected something shiny, something bling bling and Super Junior will do their hair prettily.
But that… she really didn’t expect that.
Later after the concert before going to the back stage. Yoona nudged Hyoyeon.
“Unnie, did you know Oppa-duel will be wearing that shirt?”
“Of course I know. Hyukjae oppa came and asked my opinion what our couple name should be. So we both came with that. He even jokingly said wants to named our baby with that name… wait Yoona, Donghae didn’t tell you?”
Yoona shook her head.
“Hyukjae oppa told me that each of them would go to each of us to ask for the name except Siwon oppa whom the name Ma Yuri had been on him since the first day he was assigned to be Yuri. And because the name was given by Heechul oppa, he is more than happy to… Annyeong oppa! Congratulation!”
The conversation died there as the girls reached Super Junior’s changing room and the first person they saw was Hyukjae oppa, that is why Hyoyeon greet him like that.
In a moment, Hyoyeon was gone to Hyukjae’s side. Her other unnies has gone scattered to greet and congratulate Super Junior members. Only she stayed near the door with Seohyun.
“Unnie, should you go and congratulate Donghae oppa?”
“And should you go and congratulate Ryeowook oppa instead of hanging around me?”
“But then what should I say? He made fun of the long hair”
“Yah, that is called entertaining! He wasn’t making fun of you”
“What are you two doing here whispering to yourself? Go and congratulate your sunbae!” Minjuk Oppa, their manager suddenly scolded them.
“And move away from the door, the two of you are blocking the way” he said before went out.
Yoona saw Donghae. He was doing an interview. It’s impossible to suddenly go and greet him. With camera around him. and her. and them. All of them. The number of camera inside the room were a scary numbers.
“My Yoona!!!” Henry suddenly came screaming her name.
Yoona just smiled. Even they kind of new to each other, they were already close. Maybe because Henry has such a charm the other members don’t possess (if Leeteuk heard her though, he would be upset. Luckily he is not a mind reader)
Yoona bowed down to him. “Congratulation on your concert oppa”
Henry tapped her back a few times and smiled. He seems satisfied. And she is glad for him. The first Super Show was hard on him, she saw him all quiet after the concert, isolating himself. But fans have slowly begun to accept him and she is happy seeing all smiles from him today.
“Was it that good oppa?”
“Emm” Henry nodded with a broad smile on his face, a smile that made his eyes almost lost and seeing him smiling like that, it is so cute.
“Aiiiyuu oppa, how old are you?”
“Henry, what are you doing there stealing Yoona? Make her come here and greet her husband to- be”
And just listening to the voice, Yoona knew straight away it was Leeteuk. Yoona shot him a glare. But Leeteuk with usual I-don’t-care look and just use his eyes to command Yoona to come to where he stood.
Yoona looked back at Henry. The Canada man just raised his shoulder and Yoona mouthed something to him that made him laugh
“Prince disease” she said before following Henry’s lead to go to Leeteuk’s place.
And on her way there (the room is not that big to begin with), she passed by Donghae who was busy talking to the other members. She did not dare to look at him, afraid the unnecessary jealousy would creep in without being asked for. So she just looked at him through the reflection of a mirror.
And to her horror she saw… or her eyes were playing trick on her.
Him… looking at her.
Through the reflection of the mirror.
Yeah, Yoona, as if!
And she saw Seohyun talking to Ryeowook with the help of Siwon.
My heart… be strong please…
It hurts him seeing her laughing and talking to Leeteuk and Kangin and Eunhyuk. and slowly, she was being surrounded by 1/3 of Super Junior members. She is loved. Even among Super Junior members only she is loved.
Just a few days before the concert he heard Zhoumi sighing and complaining
“You are so lucky, got to practice with Yoona. I wish I could practice with Yoona too. Yesterday I heard her practicing her singing, it was good. And I greeted her, and she was so nice. Do you want switch?”
And a few days back before Zhoumi sighing, he heard Leeteuk brought Yoona and Sica out for coffee and talk about many things.
“Yoona told me about her next drama. She still reading scripts and if permits, her next drama might pair her up with Lee Minho and by lee Minho I mean the F4 Lee Minho, not Boom Hyung” (and that sent him to the cursing side, wishing he was an actor)
And a few days before he heard Heechul hyung on phone conversation with Yoona
“Saebyuk-ah… what? Now is night? of course I know that. You think I am an idiot? Yah, I am not calling you to talk to you, go call Hankyung, I know he is in the dancing room with you. WHAT??? VICTORIA??? Okay, just tell him to sleep outside tonight. I’m locking the door. Bye Saebyuk-ah. Saebyong!”
Yeah, everyone loves her. And if he dares to lay his finger on her, or hurt her, his fate would be worse than dead.
He is jealous of every guy that looks at her. Cause he can’t look at her more than a nano second. Otherwise it would give away his feelings.
He is jealous of every guy that talks to her. Cause he can’t even talk to her and make her laugh. Otherwise he would make the situation awkward.
But at this rate, there is nothing really he could do but only to watch her from afar.
Later he got back feeling restless. Luckily Kibum was there. Though Donghae was the one who cheered for him because he was so sad for not being able to attend the concert as his flight from America was delayed, seeing Kibum made him happy again because it has been long since they last talk to each other.
Donghae lay down on his back after a refreshing bath. Most of the members went out for second celebration while some prefer to sleep (Leeteuk, Eunhyuk, Sungmin, Henry, Siwon and Ryeowook were among those who returned after the celebration with SM staff). Leeteuk who shared room with him has snored.
The snoring seems to accompany his thought. And his sleepiness follows the leader’s snore. He was about to fall to the dream land before he could feel his phone vibrated under his pillow. Too lazy to even open his eyes, he just pressed the key of his phone as he remembers the keys of his phone by heart.
It was a message.
‘Oppa, I am sorry to greet you like this but congratulation on your concert’s success. You were great up there^__^’
From Yoona
Suddenly the sleepiness went away and replaced by happiness that made him all awake. He hit the reply button. He was not thinking straight.
‘Are you busy now?’
‘No. just resting in the dorm^^’
‘Mind if I give you a call?><’
He waited nervously for her reply. She took longer to reply this one message.
‘Okay’
He got up to a sitting position, dialed her number nervously, waiting for her to answer. Donghae peeked a look at Leeteuk who sleep with his mouth slightly open. He must be too tired. The leader was so energetic during the concert.
“Yobseyo?” he heard her voice on the other line.
“Yobseyo”
“Annyeo Haseyo oppa”
“Drop the formal speech for once”
“I can’t oppa. It’s hard”
Donghae smiled.
“So you think I can be the second Yoona?” Donghae shifted the topic.
“Emm depends… do you want to replace me?”
“Well, if you want to replace me, then for one day, let’s change”
Yoona laughed at Donghae’s suggestion.
“Oppa… why are you whispering?”
Maybe Yoona noticed how low his voice was to the point he sounded like he whispers.
“Oh…” he clears his throat “Leetuek hyung is sleeping”
“Oh… then why are you not sleeping?”
“Cause I want to talk with you”
He heard her chuckles at his words. He doesn’t know if he said anything funny but he likes it when she is happy with him.
They talk for an hour. About the funny moments during the concert, about his There were an awkward moments where suddenly silence took over. He doesn’t realize how time flies. But he felt happy talking to her. And he can be sure at least 65% sure that she was also enjoying their conversation.
“Oh, do you like my solo?” he suddenly asks.
“Yeah, I like it a lot. Heechul oppa said you have been working on it secretly. I think it was good.”
“You think so?”
“Yeah. It must have been hard to compose the song but you made it easy. I like the beat of the song.”
“How about the lyrics?”
“emmm… Because of the screaming, I can’t really listen to it but I bet it was good. But the dance….”
“What about the dance?”
“It was too…. I don’t know. Maybe it’s just me…”
“What Yoona?”
“Too… sexy. And you even knelt down”
“But I didn’t knelt down on the first day”
“aiii~ Oppa, don’t lie, I saw the fancam.”
“What fancam?”
Has she been watching him secretly like he did? Watching her fancam and monitoring her performances? Did she happen to do the same?
“Eh?” and now she pretended like she doesn’t said anything. But inside he was so happy to learn that she had been watching him. He can die happy now.
Give my heart the chance…
She never had a boyfriend. She guesses it was her stupid crush that made her reject every guy that comes in her way, afraid that maybe one day Donghae would confesses to her. But after five years had passed, nothing really happened. And she was stupid for waiting on him like this.
“Yah, if young girl like you dazing too much, it’ll make you older faster”
Yoona turned to face the owner of the voice, smiling at her unnie, her real life blood related unnie.
“Something bothering you Yoona?” she asked, worrying about her like any other big sister that would spoilt her baby sister. She managed to get a day rest so she run to her home, just to escape from the world of being a celebrity for awhile.
“Nothing really…”
“Hey, I saw the whole YoonHae thing at Super Junior concert. Is he progressing on something?”
Of course her unnie knows every single thing.
She shook her head.
“Yah Yoona, it’s been long already. Should you just give up on him?”
“Unnie, I am happy whoever he is with. I have seen him dating girls. I am okay with it. I am not… obsessed”
“Yes but each time you told me, your eyes will be watery. You are hurting yourself like this Yoona”
“Oh unnie, have you heard our new song? I have been meaning to let you hear it first…” Yoona said as she went through her i-pod “we just recorded it yesterday”
The older one sighed and shook her head. Yoona wants to run away each time Donghae’s subject came up. But Yoona knows her unnie understand her more than any other people out there. That was why talking to her is more comforting. She knows what to do and what to say to make Yoona feels better. And she knows when to talk and not to talk about thins, makes Yoona feels she well again.
As she is, pretending to be, busy looking the song, her phone rang. The ringtones gives away who was the caller. The butterfly in her stomach flies crazily. She knows who the caller is. But she didn’t even raised her head or make any movement.
“Oy, your phone.”
She heard. But she doesn’t move an inch.
Her unnie felt strange, kept on looking at Yoona.
“Why aren’t you answering?” her unnie get up and took the phone that was on the table besides Yoona’s bed.
“It’s Lee Donghae…”
Yoona sat still, pretending she is not listening.
“Do you want to answer it?”
Yoona just went all quiet.
“Fine then…. Hello?” Her unnie put it on the loud speaker mode.
“Hello Yoona?” Donghae’s voice could be heard clearly. Her heart thumping so fast.
“No, this is not Yoona, this is her unnie.”
“Oh Anneyeong Haseyo Hee Na ssi”
“Annyeong Haseyo Donghae ssi”
“So I heard Yoona went back today. By any chance, is she around you now?”
“She is, but she is sleeping right now” Hee Na lied to Donghae when Yoona is all wide and awake and grieving over her unanswered love.
“Oh really? She must have been tired.”
“Yeah she is” Hee Na looking over her sister, her other way to say Yoona is tired with the game Donghae plays.
“I am sorry Donghae ssi to pry on your personal life but may I ask why are calling my sister?”
“Nothing really. I just want to talk to her”
“By any chance are in any relationship with her?” Hee Na seemed mad. With all her might, Yoona knows she only wants to protect Yoona.
“No but…”
“Listen Donghae ssi, I don’t want to be rude but if you don’t like my sister, please don’t lead her on. Girls might get cheated or delusional. Now please, I’m asking you, nicely I would, if you don’t like my sister as more than a sister to you, treat her like sister, like how you treat the rest of the girls. I am sorry again. I am going to disconnect this call”
Yoona did not even dare to look at her sister.
“Since when he called you over no reason?” She sounds strict and not to mentioned mad.
“Since before the concert…”
“Yoona, wake up will you? Let him go. He is only a virus, an infection. Take a medicine and wiped him away. Find a good man or just focus on your work. Whatever but takes your mind off him. If he loves you, he will come to you. But until then stop dwelling over it”
Her sister lectures her and went out of the room.
For the first time, her sister’s words wounded her, deeply.
Part 3
“Why are you smiling like an idiot Lee Donghae?”
A sudden intervention from Eunhyuk popped his day dreaming.
“Oh wait! Don’t tell me…”
Donghae turned around, giving Eunhyuk a weird stare. And his look clearly told Eunhyuk to explain what was on the mind of the so-called Anchovy of Asia.
“I remember this look Lee Donghae. You look like this before, during our trainee days, when you confessed to a girl and she accepted it and started dating and all and did I tell you look like sh!t when you guys broke up?”
“Yes you did. More than ten times if I could recall.”
“Good cause you are wearing that expression of when the girl accepted you. But this look is even creepier than back then. Like you accomplished something good. What is it?”
“It feels like I’m debuting again Hyukjae. That is what I feel right now”
“If you make it that way, then you have debuted three times already. One with Super Junior, and then with SJ-M and now, debuting moment over no reason… cheh!”
“You are not much less. With Super Junior, SJ-T and SH-H.”
And Eunhuk totally forgot on why he asked Donghae’s stupid look in the first place cause in the end, they were bickering. And Donghae glad he was not forced to answer cause he doesn’t want to share it.
It’s weird.
He always shares his thought with his member. But when it comes to Yoona’s matter, he prefers to keep it to himself. And whenever he showers, the thought of her would come to him. Her smile when she is happy, her tears when she is touched, her eyes when she is working hard, it came back to him naturally.
Donghae used to have girlfriends. He confessed to plenty of girls. Some accepted him but most of the time he got rejected. The reason?
“I am not sure if you really love me cause even when you look sincere, and even when I am happy you confessed, I have the feeling that I am being used, like I am escape goat.”
At first he doesn’t understand why. But now he could see. The girls could see his feelings for them are not sincere. And it’s true he has been using them as his escape goat cause he wants to forget Yoona. But he was stupid. He never knew girls have that much of (scary) instinct.
And today he went through his schedule with much happiness in his heart. Because she said she likes it when he message her.
No Lee Donghae no! Stop being delusional! She just said she likes it, not anything to like love.
Loving her so secretly like this, day by day, it’s killing him….
‘Oppa, do you want to practice tonight’
A message came in later that day. He wants to jump in joy. Although he schedule finishes at 12am today, he still replied to her ‘I would love to’, even that meant he had to wait for two hours or more for her.
My heart… what are you afraid of?
Super Show is Seoul was a huge success. Each was a worth to wacth. But it’s a pity that Yoona only manage to go on the second day. And for that, the manager had to clear up their schedule earlier so the girls able to go to the concert.
And surprisingly, Gee parody made by her sunbae received an overwhelming response. The fans are enjoying it, SNSD members are enjoying it.
Yoona enjoyed it.
She had a butterfly in her stomach when she saw what was on Donghae shirt.
It was YoonHae.
She didn’t know that the shirt was supposed to look like that. When Leeteuk said they will be wearing special costume during Gee, she expected something shiny, something bling bling and Super Junior will do their hair prettily.
But that… she really didn’t expect that.
Later after the concert before going to the back stage. Yoona nudged Hyoyeon.
“Unnie, did you know Oppa-duel will be wearing that shirt?”
“Of course I know. Hyukjae oppa came and asked my opinion what our couple name should be. So we both came with that. He even jokingly said wants to named our baby with that name… wait Yoona, Donghae didn’t tell you?”
Yoona shook her head.
“Hyukjae oppa told me that each of them would go to each of us to ask for the name except Siwon oppa whom the name Ma Yuri had been on him since the first day he was assigned to be Yuri. And because the name was given by Heechul oppa, he is more than happy to… Annyeong oppa! Congratulation!”
The conversation died there as the girls reached Super Junior’s changing room and the first person they saw was Hyukjae oppa, that is why Hyoyeon greet him like that.
In a moment, Hyoyeon was gone to Hyukjae’s side. Her other unnies has gone scattered to greet and congratulate Super Junior members. Only she stayed near the door with Seohyun.
“Unnie, should you go and congratulate Donghae oppa?”
“And should you go and congratulate Ryeowook oppa instead of hanging around me?”
“But then what should I say? He made fun of the long hair”
“Yah, that is called entertaining! He wasn’t making fun of you”
“What are you two doing here whispering to yourself? Go and congratulate your sunbae!” Minjuk Oppa, their manager suddenly scolded them.
“And move away from the door, the two of you are blocking the way” he said before went out.
Yoona saw Donghae. He was doing an interview. It’s impossible to suddenly go and greet him. With camera around him. and her. and them. All of them. The number of camera inside the room were a scary numbers.
“My Yoona!!!” Henry suddenly came screaming her name.
Yoona just smiled. Even they kind of new to each other, they were already close. Maybe because Henry has such a charm the other members don’t possess (if Leeteuk heard her though, he would be upset. Luckily he is not a mind reader)
Yoona bowed down to him. “Congratulation on your concert oppa”
Henry tapped her back a few times and smiled. He seems satisfied. And she is glad for him. The first Super Show was hard on him, she saw him all quiet after the concert, isolating himself. But fans have slowly begun to accept him and she is happy seeing all smiles from him today.
“Was it that good oppa?”
“Emm” Henry nodded with a broad smile on his face, a smile that made his eyes almost lost and seeing him smiling like that, it is so cute.
“Aiiiyuu oppa, how old are you?”
“Henry, what are you doing there stealing Yoona? Make her come here and greet her husband to- be”
And just listening to the voice, Yoona knew straight away it was Leeteuk. Yoona shot him a glare. But Leeteuk with usual I-don’t-care look and just use his eyes to command Yoona to come to where he stood.
Yoona looked back at Henry. The Canada man just raised his shoulder and Yoona mouthed something to him that made him laugh
“Prince disease” she said before following Henry’s lead to go to Leeteuk’s place.
And on her way there (the room is not that big to begin with), she passed by Donghae who was busy talking to the other members. She did not dare to look at him, afraid the unnecessary jealousy would creep in without being asked for. So she just looked at him through the reflection of a mirror.
And to her horror she saw… or her eyes were playing trick on her.
Him… looking at her.
Through the reflection of the mirror.
Yeah, Yoona, as if!
And she saw Seohyun talking to Ryeowook with the help of Siwon.
My heart… be strong please…
It hurts him seeing her laughing and talking to Leeteuk and Kangin and Eunhyuk. and slowly, she was being surrounded by 1/3 of Super Junior members. She is loved. Even among Super Junior members only she is loved.
Just a few days before the concert he heard Zhoumi sighing and complaining
“You are so lucky, got to practice with Yoona. I wish I could practice with Yoona too. Yesterday I heard her practicing her singing, it was good. And I greeted her, and she was so nice. Do you want switch?”
And a few days back before Zhoumi sighing, he heard Leeteuk brought Yoona and Sica out for coffee and talk about many things.
“Yoona told me about her next drama. She still reading scripts and if permits, her next drama might pair her up with Lee Minho and by lee Minho I mean the F4 Lee Minho, not Boom Hyung” (and that sent him to the cursing side, wishing he was an actor)
And a few days before he heard Heechul hyung on phone conversation with Yoona
“Saebyuk-ah… what? Now is night? of course I know that. You think I am an idiot? Yah, I am not calling you to talk to you, go call Hankyung, I know he is in the dancing room with you. WHAT??? VICTORIA??? Okay, just tell him to sleep outside tonight. I’m locking the door. Bye Saebyuk-ah. Saebyong!”
Yeah, everyone loves her. And if he dares to lay his finger on her, or hurt her, his fate would be worse than dead.
He is jealous of every guy that looks at her. Cause he can’t look at her more than a nano second. Otherwise it would give away his feelings.
He is jealous of every guy that talks to her. Cause he can’t even talk to her and make her laugh. Otherwise he would make the situation awkward.
But at this rate, there is nothing really he could do but only to watch her from afar.
Later he got back feeling restless. Luckily Kibum was there. Though Donghae was the one who cheered for him because he was so sad for not being able to attend the concert as his flight from America was delayed, seeing Kibum made him happy again because it has been long since they last talk to each other.
Donghae lay down on his back after a refreshing bath. Most of the members went out for second celebration while some prefer to sleep (Leeteuk, Eunhyuk, Sungmin, Henry, Siwon and Ryeowook were among those who returned after the celebration with SM staff). Leeteuk who shared room with him has snored.
The snoring seems to accompany his thought. And his sleepiness follows the leader’s snore. He was about to fall to the dream land before he could feel his phone vibrated under his pillow. Too lazy to even open his eyes, he just pressed the key of his phone as he remembers the keys of his phone by heart.
It was a message.
‘Oppa, I am sorry to greet you like this but congratulation on your concert’s success. You were great up there^__^’
From Yoona
Suddenly the sleepiness went away and replaced by happiness that made him all awake. He hit the reply button. He was not thinking straight.
‘Are you busy now?’
‘No. just resting in the dorm^^’
‘Mind if I give you a call?><’
He waited nervously for her reply. She took longer to reply this one message.
‘Okay’
He got up to a sitting position, dialed her number nervously, waiting for her to answer. Donghae peeked a look at Leeteuk who sleep with his mouth slightly open. He must be too tired. The leader was so energetic during the concert.
“Yobseyo?” he heard her voice on the other line.
“Yobseyo”
“Annyeo Haseyo oppa”
“Drop the formal speech for once”
“I can’t oppa. It’s hard”
Donghae smiled.
“So you think I can be the second Yoona?” Donghae shifted the topic.
“Emm depends… do you want to replace me?”
“Well, if you want to replace me, then for one day, let’s change”
Yoona laughed at Donghae’s suggestion.
“Oppa… why are you whispering?”
Maybe Yoona noticed how low his voice was to the point he sounded like he whispers.
“Oh…” he clears his throat “Leetuek hyung is sleeping”
“Oh… then why are you not sleeping?”
“Cause I want to talk with you”
He heard her chuckles at his words. He doesn’t know if he said anything funny but he likes it when she is happy with him.
They talk for an hour. About the funny moments during the concert, about his There were an awkward moments where suddenly silence took over. He doesn’t realize how time flies. But he felt happy talking to her. And he can be sure at least 65% sure that she was also enjoying their conversation.
“Oh, do you like my solo?” he suddenly asks.
“Yeah, I like it a lot. Heechul oppa said you have been working on it secretly. I think it was good.”
“You think so?”
“Yeah. It must have been hard to compose the song but you made it easy. I like the beat of the song.”
“How about the lyrics?”
“emmm… Because of the screaming, I can’t really listen to it but I bet it was good. But the dance….”
“What about the dance?”
“It was too…. I don’t know. Maybe it’s just me…”
“What Yoona?”
“Too… sexy. And you even knelt down”
“But I didn’t knelt down on the first day”
“aiii~ Oppa, don’t lie, I saw the fancam.”
“What fancam?”
Has she been watching him secretly like he did? Watching her fancam and monitoring her performances? Did she happen to do the same?
“Eh?” and now she pretended like she doesn’t said anything. But inside he was so happy to learn that she had been watching him. He can die happy now.
Give my heart the chance…
She never had a boyfriend. She guesses it was her stupid crush that made her reject every guy that comes in her way, afraid that maybe one day Donghae would confesses to her. But after five years had passed, nothing really happened. And she was stupid for waiting on him like this.
“Yah, if young girl like you dazing too much, it’ll make you older faster”
Yoona turned to face the owner of the voice, smiling at her unnie, her real life blood related unnie.
“Something bothering you Yoona?” she asked, worrying about her like any other big sister that would spoilt her baby sister. She managed to get a day rest so she run to her home, just to escape from the world of being a celebrity for awhile.
“Nothing really…”
“Hey, I saw the whole YoonHae thing at Super Junior concert. Is he progressing on something?”
Of course her unnie knows every single thing.
She shook her head.
“Yah Yoona, it’s been long already. Should you just give up on him?”
“Unnie, I am happy whoever he is with. I have seen him dating girls. I am okay with it. I am not… obsessed”
“Yes but each time you told me, your eyes will be watery. You are hurting yourself like this Yoona”
“Oh unnie, have you heard our new song? I have been meaning to let you hear it first…” Yoona said as she went through her i-pod “we just recorded it yesterday”
The older one sighed and shook her head. Yoona wants to run away each time Donghae’s subject came up. But Yoona knows her unnie understand her more than any other people out there. That was why talking to her is more comforting. She knows what to do and what to say to make Yoona feels better. And she knows when to talk and not to talk about thins, makes Yoona feels she well again.
As she is, pretending to be, busy looking the song, her phone rang. The ringtones gives away who was the caller. The butterfly in her stomach flies crazily. She knows who the caller is. But she didn’t even raised her head or make any movement.
“Oy, your phone.”
She heard. But she doesn’t move an inch.
Her unnie felt strange, kept on looking at Yoona.
“Why aren’t you answering?” her unnie get up and took the phone that was on the table besides Yoona’s bed.
“It’s Lee Donghae…”
Yoona sat still, pretending she is not listening.
“Do you want to answer it?”
Yoona just went all quiet.
“Fine then…. Hello?” Her unnie put it on the loud speaker mode.
“Hello Yoona?” Donghae’s voice could be heard clearly. Her heart thumping so fast.
“No, this is not Yoona, this is her unnie.”
“Oh Anneyeong Haseyo Hee Na ssi”
“Annyeong Haseyo Donghae ssi”
“So I heard Yoona went back today. By any chance, is she around you now?”
“She is, but she is sleeping right now” Hee Na lied to Donghae when Yoona is all wide and awake and grieving over her unanswered love.
“Oh really? She must have been tired.”
“Yeah she is” Hee Na looking over her sister, her other way to say Yoona is tired with the game Donghae plays.
“I am sorry Donghae ssi to pry on your personal life but may I ask why are calling my sister?”
“Nothing really. I just want to talk to her”
“By any chance are in any relationship with her?” Hee Na seemed mad. With all her might, Yoona knows she only wants to protect Yoona.
“No but…”
“Listen Donghae ssi, I don’t want to be rude but if you don’t like my sister, please don’t lead her on. Girls might get cheated or delusional. Now please, I’m asking you, nicely I would, if you don’t like my sister as more than a sister to you, treat her like sister, like how you treat the rest of the girls. I am sorry again. I am going to disconnect this call”
Yoona did not even dare to look at her sister.
“Since when he called you over no reason?” She sounds strict and not to mentioned mad.
“Since before the concert…”
“Yoona, wake up will you? Let him go. He is only a virus, an infection. Take a medicine and wiped him away. Find a good man or just focus on your work. Whatever but takes your mind off him. If he loves you, he will come to you. But until then stop dwelling over it”
Her sister lectures her and went out of the room.
For the first time, her sister’s words wounded her, deeply.
Part 3