ymf

never-ending questions

Jan 01, 2006 13:08

I've always been a sit-on-the-fence kind of person. I can't seem to assign black and whites confidently, and my answers have always been an "it depends" reply. I know it's bad, and sometimes I try to make myself come to a decision cuz I wouldn't want myself flustered in an emergency. You know, the typical "if both your husband and grandmother (okay, so I modified it) were drowning, who would you save first?" At least I've sussed out the answer to that one... but that's only one down among many.

But I really go through a lot of my life unable to make up my mind, and seeking opinions. The problem with me is that, both are right in their own way. See, this was what I meant to write about when I ranted here. My thoughts just somehow get stuck when I've the luxury of writing, but better that I try anyway.

When you cohabit, does that mean you're completely confident in your love and have no need for marriage? Or is it simply an escape from your previous living arrangements?
Or if you choose to marry, does that make you a couple who wants to acknowledge and declare your committment to each other? Or are you simply two insecure people looking for guarantees in a world without guarantees?

If you entrust your life in your God, are you a believer? Or someone who's too lazy/cowardly/indecisive to take responsibility for your life?

I couldn't make up my mind either, as to what sort of person I want to be. Someone who's get up and go, makes herself heard and is very very blunt? Or someone whose silence inspires trust, and diplomacy makes for tact? Goth, punk, comfy or snazzy?

I caught an episode of South Park the other day. I think it's a pretty good show. It can ease up on the vulgarities a little though. d= I think both South Park and Family Guy are about making statements to current affairs, but I much prefer South Park's style. Family Guy is too whacked out and unrealistic for me. Maybe I'm just against the graphics, or that I hate the irritating kid. o_O

Anyway, the episode I caught was about this family of Mormoms who've moved into town. Okay, you can read the whole episode here. But the part that struck me most was when Gary (the new kid) said this to Stan: "The truth is, I don't care if Joseph Smith made it all up, because what the church teaches now is loving your family, being nice and helping people. And even though people in this town might think that's stupid, I still choose to believe in it. All I ever did was try to be your friend, Stan, but you're so high and mighty you couldn't look past my religion and just be my friend back." It made me hope that I haven't, and wouldn't overlook someone's good on account of what I disagree with.

But questions still exist. I have a good friend whom I respect and admire very much, but it perplexes me that he can be so conservative when it comes to religion. He can accept people from a different religious background, but the religion itself, for all its good, is nil to him because of worshiping a wrong and fictional (on the argument that there's only one God) God. And why is that people in love can allow religious differences to set them apart?

I wasn't looking for a debate with any of those questions, but opinions are welcome. And another question to round things off: when I choose not to debate further because I feel that both the other person and I wouldn't budge in our respective stands, does that mean I'm steadfast to my opinion? Or too stubborn to hear more?

questions, zyfie, amis, esprit inquiet, l'amour, marriage, tv, religion

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