One shot Tadaiki
Title: I love your lies the most
Author: yeyell15
Pair: Tadaiki, TakaYama
Genre: angst
Summary: even if it is a lie I want to believe that it is true...
Yuya POV I'm sorry
He is timid and a little bit frank.
He always smile yet he looks very lonely. He has many friends at school but he prefers to be alone. That's why whenever I see him, I feel my heart quench in agony. Because even if he always look strong, I know deep inside he's not...
"Yuya I love you..." he uttered to my
ars as he hugged me from behind. I can feel that he truly loves me. I feel weak every time he smile at me but I can't love him back. We are together but my heart belongs to someone else. I felt guilty for accepting your love, even though I love someone else. I should have known, I'm sorry for being selfish...
Daiki's POV
I know that you love someone else, yet I want to be with you. Do you know how happy I am when you accepted me? Someone like me who is a mere commoner in your world. I know it clearly that your heart will never be mine as long as that person is here, and I think even if he will be gone, your feelings won't change a bit, what ever happens you will never look at me not like the same look you are giving to that person.
"Yuya I love you" I said to him as I embrace him from the back, I know I wouldn't get any reply but I want you to feel how much I love you but I'm still hoping that you will say those three words I always want to hear, even if it is just a lie I want to hear it, can I be selfish just for this time? I promise this will be the first and last, I'm sorry for being selfless...
Yuya's POV
How could you smile like this? You know that it's a lie are you really that happy being with me? I can't understand you at all. "née Yuya please say that you love me too..." he asked and I was a bit shocked, he never asked that before, he was contented with just hugs and smiles but why now? Do you know that I can't say those precious words to you? Because I know myself, I can only say those words to him... "Yuya, is it really hard for you to say those words to me?" he asked me with those innocent brown orbs of his which I really like. And without answering his question I just smiled and hugged him tight. I'm sorry but how can I say those if the one I love is not you? Will you ever forgive me if you knew this secret which I kept from you for these past three years?
He did not cry, he will just talk big and will throw tantrums on me whenever we have a fight. I admire this side of him. Unlike me, you are very true to yourself. I'm sorry for not telling you the truth.
Daiki's POV
I love how you smile at me, I love the way you care for me but when did those actions of yours became this painful? You're here yet you're not. At first, I can still reach you, but as time passes by the you that I can reach is slowly fading away. I know I have a sharp tongue and I always throw tantrums to you whenever we have a fight but do you know that it's just my way to hide how hurt I am? I'm not strong like you think me to be...
I'm afraid, if I tell you that I know the truth you will leave me right ? I don't want it. That's why even if this is painful I will just keep it. I don't want you to leave me because i can't live without you...
Yuya's POV
He suddenly became distant, does he know it already? Now I could only look at him from afar it's not like we are living in one roof anymore.
Will I really be able to let him know the truth?
Daiki's POV
I accidentally heard you and him talking, and I heard the most fearsome statement from you "I have to end this relationship with him..."
I tried to be strong, I did my best to avoid talking to you because I was afraid that by talking to you we will come up to that...
I hate the fact that you want to leave me this much...
Yuya's POV
He was placing food on our table as usual but he was avoiding me, he didn't want our eyes to meet. I tried to touch him but he evaded and I was frozen when I saw his eyes then he got back to the kitchen.
I heard a loud crash at the kitchen and hurriedly check on it, and what I saw was Daiki kneeling on the floor picking up the shattered glass. I ran towards him kneeled down to help him pick the shattered glass but what took my attention was his bleeding hands. " you're hurt!" I pulled him up to the kitchen sink poured water to his cut and took the first aid kit. I dragged him to the living room and started to mend his cut. A lone drop of water fell on my hands, yes he was crying and I know clearly the reason why. "don't cry, it doesn't suit you.." I wiped his tears but it still flows continuously. "don't leave me please..." that sentence pierced my heart deeply. It hurts seeing him like that.
"I'm sorry..." was the only thing I could say to the one who loves me so much.
I watched him cry to his sleep, I carried him to our room. I scanned his face, the face that I have been looking at for the past years, it's lovely and innocent yet I stained it with tears. The next thing I knew is that years were rolling down his face again. "Did I really hurt you this badly and even in your sleep you're still crying?". Again I wiped his tears and pulled up the blanket to cover him. "I'm sorry..."
Daiki's POV
I woke up realizing I was in our bed, I looked around and didn't saw any trace of you. I opened the door silently and found you at the sofa across the TV looking at a picture on you phone, I immediately closed the door knowing that you were looking at his picture again uttering the words I love you while tears were rolling down your face.
I hate this, this is too much... It hurts... Did I do something bad to deserve this? I only wanted for you to love me but it seems that it is really impossible.
I saw you like this before, but this time you were crying. I realized it now... You will never look at me... I will just hurt you if I stay here... If I go you will be happy right? If I leave you can now go to him right? He loves you too right? I'm sorry for being selfish for so long, I will end it here now so that you can be happy. I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry...
Yuya's POV
When I got home there were no sign
of you in the house. I noticed an envelope in the table when I got to the kitchen. The letter was addressed to me. I opened it...
" Yuya, thank you for staying with me for these past years. I'm sorry for making you stay with me. I know I've hurt you a lot because of my stubbornness I'll end this selfish act of mine now, Yuya you're free. Yes I'm breaking up with you. Go to him. I won't bother you anymore just promise me that you will stay healthy and happy. I was very happy when you accepted my love even though I know it was just a lie. I was happy living together with you...
Yuya I love you and I always will, take care of yourself and be happy...
Daiki Arioka"
"Dai-chan..." I dropped the thing on the envelope, it was the necklace I gave him on his 20th birthday. I looked at it blankly and before I knew it tears we're already rolling down my face.
"Go and look for him.." Yamada said. He was with me on my way home and until now. "You should be with him, you love him right? You even dumped me because of him."
I looked at Yamada, I had an unrequited love for him since we were young, and yes today I dumped him because I realized that the one I love is not him but Daiki. "I'm sorry.." I said. "Go now before it's too late" he said that then I dashed out the house and drive as fast as I can to reach the station. I desperately looked for him and luckily I found him waiting at a bench. "Oi Arioka Daiki!!"
---owari---
A/N whew another tadaiki for you! Haha enjoy reading it! Comments are love!!
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