spolarium+/one shot/ part 1/2/ toraxsaga
Title: spolarium
Bands(s): alice nine.
Pairings: ToraxSaga
Warnings:* character death *made by an amateur!
Summary: Saga, who had an incurable respiratory failure and blood-related disease just got informed that he has only less 5 hours to live at this cruel world. Will he finally fulfill his dream with in the shortest time or will he just simply perish, like every one in this world, not telling the one h loves what he really feels..
Tag line: "Life is way too short to hesitate."
Synopsis: " I'm gonna sure miss everything"
Genre: drama, hint of fluff, randomness
Disclaimer: I gave Nao a jar of honey and he said: "Take me! I'm yours!" i don't own them. but soon enough, i will.
Credits to:charlotte8888uk... for being so amicable and beta -reading this fic.. thank you very much Lottie chan~~
http://yellow-shuffle.livejournal.com/2107.html"> part 2
...present time....
...hospital..
"Come on! Darn it!" Tora exclaimed as he shook Saga's body which was lying in the hospital bed. He looked so pale, weak and lifeless. "Takashi... Come on!"
"Saga..Please.. just wake up..." Hiroto muttered as he buried his face more into Shou's chest, sobbing more than before.
"Takashi!" Tora started screaming and throwing the lamp and other items on the bed side table. Then violently shaking the lifeless brown-haired, ex bassist's body.
"Tora.." Nao mentioned as he placed his hand on Tora's shoulder and made the taller man turn to him. "I think.." He then, grabbed the other's wrist and open his hand and placed a key on his palm. "He would have wanted you to have this."
In a matter of seconds, Nao came to the aid of Haruka, who broke down on the floor, crying her eyes out, as well as her emotions, heart and soul.
Tora clenched his fist in a very hard manner, making the key bruise his palm, as he too, broke down on the floor, with both hands lingering still on Saga's body.
It's so different now. Yes, they know that this would happen, they expected this. But what they felt a few hours ago is very different from now. Expecting and grieving because you can't do anything to prevent it is very different from crying your heart out, knowing that even if you can prevent it, it can never be because it's already gone.
As Tora's finally withdrew his hands completely from the bassist's body, he lowered himself more, as if he still could.
Out of the blue, a woman came rushing in the room, with red puffy eyes and an equally red nose.
Tora immediately stood up as the woman hugged Saga's body.
His mother. Tora thought
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Saga P.O.V.
..almost 5 hours ago..
"Saga..?" I heard Nao's voice ringing in my ears. It brought me back to reality. The cruel reality. "What is he saying?"
He gave one of his signature looks again. Gawd~ I'm gonna miss that.
I'm gonna miss everything.
The way Chiko would lick my face in the morning to wake me up, the way the summer sunlight touches my face, the way Hiroto pounces on me when he greets me with his sunshine smile and tells me how long my hair is getting, the way Nao and I would fight about the most stupid things like: who knows Gundam more or what is better: his fave, caramel massiachato or mine, milk chocolate mocha, the way that Shou would take me shopping with him in crowds of fan girls in Center Gai*, the taste of that milk chocolate mocha from Starbucks that me and Nao always bought, the lights of Tokyo at night time, the sound of squealing fan girls when I lick my bass. But if there is something I'm really gonna miss the most, it has got to be that ineffable feeling of knowing him, even if it was just for a short amount of time.
I sighed and crumpled the paper in my hands as I look around at their faces. Disturbed, questioning and grimaced faces of my band mates and one of the staff members. But, why isn't he here?
"Well..?" one of my closest friends asked who is part of the staff. I'm gonna miss her laugh and her cooking. "Mind if you tell us, Saga kun?"
Darn.. do i really have to?! I mean come on! I'm a freakin' anemic and has a severe problem with my respiratory system, who has only a few hours to live! And telling them what my status right now is like knowing that I'm gonna be hit by a bus, but just decided to stay on the road and see if it's really gonna hit me.
I let out a faint smile. I heard them gasp. I looked at her as she twitched and placed her hand over her mouth as tears started to form in her eyes. They must have known what my answer is with just that forced smile.
Hiroto gasped as his eyes widened in terror and in shock. He immediately approched me and hugged me. I felt his warmth colliding with my cold body temperature. He sobbed there, on my chest, wetting my favourite shirt that Shou bought for me.
"Saga.. please..." I heard Haruka mumble. I dropped the crumpled paper to the ground. "Tell me it's not true.."
I wryly glanced at Nao, who looks like his in another dimension. "Pon... take care of my basses.."
The bunny-teethed guy looked up to me with his blood shot eyes.
"You'll have them in about a few hours from now.." I said as coldly as I prevented the pools of tears that were building up at my eyes, thinking that if I did, the pain would cease down a bit. But no, instead,the pain just increased more and more. Within just a split second, I felt Hiroto's warm tears soak my grey shirt.
I hate tears. I really do. I glanced at Haruka and saw her crying as Shou and Nao comforted her, with tears also streaming down their faces, like rain. I just can't believe how much I wanted to cry right now. Not because I'm gonna die in 5 hours or less, but because I hurt the ones that are the most special to me.
Gawd~ how I wish I could have done more for them, more for the fans, more for the world, more for society, more for myself, more for him.
"I.. I hate you.." I heard Hiroto sobbed his vibrating words on my soaked and aching chest. Then, I felt him almost pounding my chest with his fist. "I really hate.. you..a lot.."
Yeah, I know you do, Pon. I know they all do. For the past 5 years that I've spent my life with them, all the happy memories, the unforgetable ones, the embarassing ones. Hell! even the our most darkest secrets, they'll all be put to waste in 5 hours. 5 frggin' hours and counting...
"I...I.. wish I never met you.." Hiroto told me as he pounded my chest in a more forceful manner. I held him, my arms wrapped around his pale body. I tried to calm him down as I felt a heavy hand tap my shoulder blade.
It's Shou. He looked at me with his puffy eyes. Then, he produced a frail smile at me.
I can't take it anymore.. this to much for me to take. I unconsciously let go of Hiroto as Shou took him and guided him to the couch.
"...5 hours and counting, Sagacchi.." I heard Shou as he rubbed Hiroto's arms. "Tell him?.. For your sake and mine.."
He's right.. I have to.. I have to tell him everything.
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*center gai is a very famous shopping place in Shibuya where young trends come to debut..
Notes: Okay.. so this is, even if it's not, my first decent one shot..
so.. yeah. as you can here.. Saga chi's gonna die *bricked... sorry about that..
so... what will finally happen when he tells the infamous him about what he feels..
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criticism and comments are equal to my fave pistachio and cashew flavored ice cream and a cup of Starbuck's milk chocolate mocha! Ü
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