today
i walk a very familiar path
looking down, a hundred paths like the one i'm on
but today, i'm floating above the old way
watching it from on high
as i also walk
upward

(also spiral absorbs the shocks
like a slinky)

the inner life out of which everything unfolds
the darkness
the stillness
under the words
and the actions
something deep, mysterious
powerful

allow me to inhabit this stillness
to return to the source
that i may again spring forth into the world

overheard in our sacred circle
"so much of what i see is just wallpaper.
surrounding me
so many of our interactions
full of useless words
wallpaper.
even my saying this
is wallpaper.
and i wonder...  what's underneath?"

overheard in my head (and repeated aloud)
"more wallpaper."

and then a bout of uncontrollable laughter
as well as some tears

waking up with an overwhelming sense of peace, gratitude, love, and fullness for my life ( Read more... )

soaking in the hot tub
the courage to ask if i could come over
to hear no
and then the reward of yes..

the steam lifting to the sky
the heat of being surrounded by water
the pressure of the jets on my back
the glow of the moon ensconced in clouds
and the tall trees keeping me company

and all i had to do was ask

possibility
rainbows refracted
through crystal
they move as the sun passes through the sky
you could paint them on the wall where they dance
capture some version of them
so when night comes
you can point to where the sun was

or

so when another day comes
you'll simply have more rainbows

one egg
one handkerchief
one chainsaw
one apple
one cell phone
one elephant

keeping them all in the air
which one to bite
which one to answer
which one to never forget

lest i forget why i'm juggling...
i think it's for the fun of it.

god show me a way to remember what's important
without thinking i'm so important

show me a way to work through the day
without it feeling like work

show me the abundance of each moment
without it being too much to handle

show me a way to be there for others
without leaving myself

and remind me why i'm doing this
without taking away the mystery.

takes the fun away
lodges me up in my head
numbs my body
deadens my spirit

release me from judgement 
from the bondage of these illusions
show me what's real
show me what's true

thank you for letting me work it
tonight you were totally with me
i was so on
so unflappable
so free

and i never have any idea when it'll happen
i can prepare
(or not)
i can fret
(or not)
it's totally unpredictable to me

thanks for getting my back.