In Love With An Angel (2)
Young Bae POV)
Young Bae sat directly across Bom as they dinner quietly. He secretly took glimpse of Bom while they casually chatted about random things. He smiles to himself as he studies her features, she hasn’t changed a bit he thinks Instantly recalling the first he saw her training at YG building .
First time Young Bae saw her in YG was in the mirror of his gym locker. He’d pushed his training gear into the bottom shelf and was reaching the top shelf or his music player and cap when she opened her locker across the hallway. She had streaked blond ponytail dangling out the back of her baseball cap.
They slammed their lockers in unison and turned. Her eyes met Young Bae.
“Hi,” she said, smiling.
Young Bae’s stomach fluttered.
“hi,” He answered automatically almost stuttering . Acting as if we were strangers. I had known her since my childhood years and she had grown into a perfect woman.
She walked away, but not before Young Bae could memorize the shape of her lips and the curve of her body.
She glance back over her shoulder, the way you do when you know someone’s watching. That’s when it registered - he was still attracted to her even after all those years . He kept her in sight even after she disappeared into the corner.
Young Bae reached over to wipe some food of Bom’s chin as if it was the most natural thing to do. He smiled at her and she just smiled back.
For years even when she went to the US he was able to be really good friends with her , but he had decided that it was already time to try and take it to the next level.
(end of YB POV)
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(Jiyong’s Point of view)
Jiyong left Young Bae’s apartment, not even bothering to properly bid his goodbyes to Young Bae and Bom.
He pokes the sleeping pup a couple of times but failed. He tried nudging the pup alittle harder while calling it’s name. Finally the pup, Gaho stirred only to move farther away from him and curl up in a ball and continued sleeping.
Jiyong sighed in frustration and annoyance. He would have found Gaho’s actions cute and lovable in normal circumstances but he really needed him to be awake now. He knew it was selfish but he needed to get out of here and Gaho was his only available excuse. He had just gone shopping this morning.
A few more minutes of trying to wake Gaho up and another 10 minutes of struggling to get the collar on and get out of the door,which reminded him of how hard it was to wake TOP-hyung up. They were finally on their way to the park.
Jiyong runs along with Gaho for a couple of rounds looking or the perfect place to play. Jiyong settles for the open field not on the main pathway. He didn’t need any distractions now.
He throws the Frisbee up into the air, his eyes focusing on the disk as it spins. A couple more throws and his focus wavers. The cool breeze, quite surrounding takes him. He tosses the Frisbee with so force this time before sitting on the newly cut grass.
He randomly picks on the green grass as thoughts of Young Bae floods his mind. He was confused right now. He had known ages ago that he loved Young Bae more just a friend or a brother. He had already to decided to keep it a secret. But now that just doesn't seem to be working very well.
“so I’m gay only for Young Bae? And he likes BOM? How am I supposed to act normal?” He asks Gaho who just retrieved the disk for him.
Gaho drops the disk on his feet and cocks his head to the side looking at him. As if to mock him. He was getting worked up on all the wrong things. Everything about fantasizing about Young Bae was so wrong in all levels. 1. They are both guys!(okay he already accepted that ages ago. Add the fact that they are cousins, makes it everything 100x wrong!. That's like taboo!2. like what would happen to his career if he was actually found out to be gay? 3. Young Bae’s reaction and especially rejection would be the death of him.
Jiyong breaks eye contact with Gaho.
“there’s no need to look at me like that, I haven’t even done anything yet!” Jiyong tells Gaho. He throws the Frisbee again unable to stand the penetrating innocent eyes of his pup.
Jiyong takes a deep breath. He was back to square one. He still didn’t have a clue on his sexuality really, he had no idea what to do. But the pain of seeing Young Bae with others was becoming unbearable and he had to atleast pacify things before they got worst. Until he figures out what the hell to do. He was going to keep a safe distance away from Young Bae. He was going to try and avoid him as much as possible. It pained him to admit it but hopefully the fact the Bom was back would make it easier for him.
He calls out or Gaho and walks home with his head down. He missed him already.
On his way home he promised himself he would avoid ever making his feelings for Young Bae a problem. It was impossible to avoid Young Bae and I was also impossible to stop loving him. But he knew he could bury his feeling and hide it from the world.
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Four years had passed after that promise he made on his way home from the park. Jiyong had been able to keep his feeling hidden. He learned how to put on the perfect mask of him. No flaw in every angle.
They did not debut as GDYB like it was originally planned. But instead 3 other trainees joined them. TOP, who was jiyong’s middles school friend. Seungri and Daesung. They had their debut last year and was now planning on coming back with the next album.
The week had been busy for everyone and Jiyong was thankful for it. They were in the office, called them for a meeting.
Jiyong had left the studio , entered the office and picked one of the chairs arranged haphazardly. He had no idea why there was a general meeting now and it bothered him not knowing things. He took out his notebook and started writing random lines. But his Uneasiness wouldn’t disappear, he didn’t know why but he felt weird as if something bad was going to happen soon.
A man’s voice could be heard outside the room . As the other family members entered. I caught sight of Young Bae. His baseball cap gone; his Mohawk hair standing up .
Young Bae’s eyes darted across the room and stopped on Jiyong.
Jiyong wanted to look away, but couldn’t. Young Bae held him spellbound.
YG, the CEO came in and broke the connection. Jiyong flipped my notebook to the next page took a glance of Young Bae he’d slipped into a seat up front as he saw Bom slip into the chair beside him. Young Bae had finnaly decided to confess after their debut and they have been going out for 3 months now. He felt pangs of pain but decided to ignore them and just doodle or write things on his notebook.
YG took his time to introduce the members of the girl group they were training now.
For some reason Jiyong had focused his attention to the back of a girl’s head, only half listening to the meeting. He had to get his attention off Young Bae.
“Sandara Park!” YG said. And the girl Jiyong had focused on stood up and bowed to them.
Jiyong wrote it down. Sandara park? San? Dara? Dara, he decided as San reminded him too much of Taeyang (SUN) he drew a box around it.
It was followed by Chaerin, Bom, and Minzy.. they were going to be the new girl group of YG.
Everyone in the room clapped and welcomed them. But Jiyong just kept his focus on the skinny girl.
YG went to explain about some CF they had to work on together in preparation for the girls debut.
“Jiyong” YG called out
A couple of heads swiveled to face him. “what?” Jiyong blinked up.
“Jiyong?” YG asks again with a tone of concern this time.
“Oh, I’m here” Jiyong answers lightly blushing at his loss of attention.
Young Bae eyes him cautiously from the corner of his eyes. Wondering what had Jiyong so distracted. But Bom nudged him taking his attention.
Sandara Park turned around and smiled at Jiyong.
Jiyong’s stomach lurched. He shielded his face with his hand and pretended to write things down in his notebook.
YG introduced them to the director of the CF they would be doing. He had a long talk on what the concept is and other things.
But to Jiyong everything was a blur. He headed to towards the studio to work on a song for the CF.
“JI!” Young Bae called across the hall. He ran towards Jiyong “we’re grabbing a bite” he says as he snakes an arm around Jiyong’s waist and drags him towards the other members. They were at the nearest fast food center in no time.
“Ji, did you see YG? He was looking for you after the meeting,” Young Bae said as he cleared a place beside Jiyong to sit.
“oh I’ll talk to him later” Jiyong replied popping the top of the can of soda Young Bae had set infront of him.
“the girls are pretty hot right?!” Seungri enthusiastically baits the other guys. The other guys started giving their comments them and started comparing notes with each other.
Young Bae split his fries with Jiyong. And Jiyong zoned out.
Young bae asked Jiyong if he wanted ketchup. Jiyong thought he must have nodded because Young Bae got up.
The guys continued to talk about the girls- again. Normally Jiyong would be in discussion to but lately he just wanted to make through the day without having to talk about them and hear Young Bae praise Bom.
Jiyong blanked out again his thoughts going to Young Bae and just ate the fries once Young Bae came back with the ketchup along with the members of 2NE1 who they were just talking about. They continued eating and chatting.
“You okay?” Young Bae asks Jiyong as he nudged him.
Jiyong looked up to see all the other members were starting at him. “I was arranging a song in my head” he lied.
They all went “ohhhhh” they were used to Jiyong spacing out when he was composing something.
Jiyong looked away and ate his fried in peace. He could see from the corner of his eyes how Young Bae gave Bom attention while offering her food.
Jiyong sighed questions barging his exhausted mind. He couldn’t deal with it right now. He had to avoid it all cost.
Young Bae dragged Jiyong up to the rooftop of their apartment building. After the snack He didn’t allow Jiyong to go back and work today. He could sense that Jiyong was getting stressed again.
“We need some air and relaxation” Young Bae said as he just leaned up against the wall, one shoe of his shoe against the wall to balance himself. His head titled back and his eyes closed.
Jiyong watched Young Bae for a minute.
Then It happened. An electric current surged through Jiyong and it tugged his insides. The pull was so fierce, Jiyong had been avoiding close contact with Young Bae for the past years . Now he couldn’t fight. He leaned beside Young Bae. He was so close, his head was next to his. Jiyong could hear him breathing, feel his heart beating. It was cold outside but that wasn’t what was making Jiyong tremble.
Jiyong glanced at Young Bae his nails digging on the palm of his hands as a wave of realization hits him .
“Bae” Jiyong asks his voice raspy and weak
“hmmm?” Young bae mumbles
“is it worth falling in love if you have to keep it a secret?” Jiyong whispers “inlove with your own cousin” he silently adds.
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A/N wahh I know it sucks it completely has nothing to do with the first chapter but ahhh.. really really im so sorry…. I’ve been forcing myself to write lately writers block is so hard to deal with .. even for my other stories I can’t focus. Vacation mode has taken over… I’m so sorry.
>>> Malva sorry If I made the next part hard for you.