why?

[yacoba]

I've recently been struggling with a brain--whose first response is to say 'What's the point?'--when faced with any question. As un-fun as that has been, that question quickly spirals into the thought of 'What's the point of anything?' which is really kind of depressing

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[dhrachth]

I realize your rant is probably rhetorical but...

I too am antisocial. I generally only want to deal with other people in small doses because I've got zero tolerance for other people's bullshit.

I've noticed when I'm in a good mood and fairly happy with my life, can cheerfully report my evening plans of something done all by myself, then people don't pester me about getting out more. But when I'm going through a bad patch and looking kinda down, even though it has nothing to do with loneliness and dealing with other people's crap would only make things worse, that's when my family starts pushing me to make friends.

Not exactly a solution. Pasting on a fake smile to avoid the nagging is trading one irritation for another, but still food for thought.

[yacoba]

I know what you mean, and I can apparently put on a very good front--as the past 6+ years have been a bad patch--but it seems the people I've run into don't seem willing to take 'I'm beyond happy staying home and stitching' they remain convinced that I can't possibly be ^_~ *le sigh*

I know they mean well and I'm sure if they actually realized how much their 'concern' frustrated me that they'd back off...but I guess I'm just going to have to be more convincing ^_^ its definitely worth a try.

[yacoba]

yeah, that's not what I was talking about, I wasn't frustrated that he was introducing me to people, that'd be silly. No what got be frustrated was other things I didn't go into, the introductions just made me uncomfortable but I'd dealt with that before

[yacoba]

yeah I realized it might not be as clear as I intended ^_~

[shuffles]

I hope you'll continue to keep in touch with me so I still know more or less what's going on in the life of Jes! ^^

People have a hard time imagining people can be happy with something that doesn't make them happy themselves, I expect. My family used to try to push me to get out more, meet more people, socialize more, date more (or at all), but they've since stopped. I can only imagine that eventually whoever was trying to push you into socializing will realize you're happiest without all that and back off. I certainly hope so, at any rate, as I know your frustration very well. ;P

*huggles*