Made dinner tonight for Lauren, Dawn and Parker. Potato casserole, shake n bake chicken, caesar salad, brown sugar brownies ( Read more... )

Jenni asked me what my big plans for 2009 are. I realized that I don't have any. In 2008 I graduated and had a lot going on. Is 2009 destined to be a dead end? I never want to be at the point where I'm not working towards something. With the way it started I'm not terribly hopeful ( Read more... )

It's Christmas and I'm sitting alone in my apartment watching the rain. There are pumpkin cookies baking in the oven. I feel kind of nostalgic for all the other normal Christmases I've had because this year is the first year I'm not with my family on Christmas morning. No presents this year I guess, which is ok, but I wish I was with my family!

Because there is only one tiny heater vent in my apartment and it resides on the WORST place on the wall, I'm fucking freezing. It's literally way below freezing outside and I'm wrapped up in a blanket and heating pad ( Read more... )

The first time I saw my dad cry I was 13 years old and sitting on the toilet seat in our old house. I remember that I only had one shoe on and my glasses were on the rim of the sink. My eyes were red and I looked down and stared at my naked foot. Chipped orange nail polish left over from the warm August air. The shower was running but my body ( Read more... )

There is so much pressure in my head that I feel like it's about to explode. I haven't felt good in months. This week I actually got my health insurance through work. I haven't had insurance in several years! I'm not sure that I've ever been so excited to go to the doctor. There are so many medications that I need it's fucking ridiculous. If ( Read more... )

One of the best feelings in the world is reading a book that you can't put down. Sometimes I wish that all I ever did all day long was read good books.

I got a flu shot at work this morning. I was scared at first of doing it but then I didn't even feel the needle. Now my arm is sooo sore I can't even lift it above my head. Stupid flu.

I'm so glad that some Wasilla bitch isn't going to take away my right to kill fetuses. Which really, is my main goal in life.

It's lonely when you realize that you're the only person you really know. I live in a city with thousands of other people. I can even see into some of their living rooms across the street but they will never know me. They will never know that I've been sitting in the same place all day or that I've been watching the flowers my client gave me ( Read more... )

Uneventful week. Dressed up like Sandra Dee. Started freaking out more about the shitty economy because now I'm paid only on commission at work and it's slow as fuck. If I have to get a part time job at this point in time I'm going to kill somebody ( Read more... )