if I did... would you love me?

[xsweet_slumberx]

i'm lame anyone that knows me would be able to tell you that. i am never me, i'm an actress, i have a thousand different faces. i never use my own voice, someone elses always sounds better and more real to me. i cuss like a sailor, i smoke like a chimney, i drink like a fish, i walk hell of pigeon toed... i'm a fuck up and a liar. no one in their

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[kwailo]

all our lives are filled with contradictions, you're not the only one. why agonise over this guy when he doesn't even know how you feel... sorry, i don't know you.. but have you tried showing interest? if its an unrequited love situation, then yeah that sucks... i think there's many of us that have been through that at some point and trust me, it ALWAYS seems worse than it is at the time, even though you don't see how thats possible.
and don't ever insult yourself like that: you're not a fuck up and a liar... if you ask me, you seem like you're being pretty honest right now. unforuntately to know love is to know pain, thats the way it works but at least you're feeling it and you've experienced it. let us know what happens...

[xsweet_slumberx]

he knows that i love him, and i think that he loves me, but not even close to as much as i love him. i am a fuck up and i am a liar, i lie to eveyone. i lie to my best friends so that they won't be mad at me, but i shouldnt be doing things that are going to get them mad at me to begin with. i fuck up so often that eveyone pretty much just expects it now. i know that i just expect it now. i know you don't know me but you did really just make me feel a lot better. love is pain... i'll let you know.

[kwailo]

thanks, and no need to be so hard on yourself ok?
take care...

[hopelesromantc]

i cuss more than you do, i smoke more than you do, i drink more than you do, and i cant spell.

[anonymous]

It's about time you actually figured this out. I mean, it took you long enough. And if i remember correctly, you were in love with a guy before this Jason guy. Have you figured out that you don't match because you want attention? or that you constantly act because you want attention? or all the other bull shit things that you do, you do for attention? You are old enough to stop acting, so grow up and figure out who you really are, and stop lying, liars go to hell.

[bikini_killer]

Ok I don't know Char that well or anything but this is her journal and she can post whatever the fuck she wants in it. It's her journal. It's also really sad when you are too afraid to say who you are. Anonymous commentors go to hell too. Didn't you know?

[hopelesromantc]

haha tara, you go girl!
anonymous commentors are scared bastards, and apparently if they know her they should say that shit to her face.
but we all know that scared bastards wont do that.

[xsweet_slumberx]

thank you tara.
and to you fucking anonymous bast
find me and say all that shit you just
said to my fucking face. then we'll
see who has the upper hand. =]

fricken a

[sexy_eyes88]

so b-ach what you been up to i haven't seen you in like forever its been days, or acctually months call me i like how you have updated your web site it is great make sure to let seth know that i am coming down for christmas and thanksgiving love ya kacey how you been big-a-bubble-butta or cherrelle-a-kiss or what ever your name is love you kacey...

[midnightwaltz]

You're listening to Hawthorne Heights too? That's weird. As am I. Same song, actually. I called you on Saturday because I was in town and wondering how to get to The Slaughterhouse. Hope all is well with you and your new boy. Take care of yourself.

BXD