A Simple Kind of Therapy {Zelo/YongGuk - NC-17}
Title: A Simple Kind of Therapy
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Zelo/YongGuk
Warning: After-Rape + Underage
Type: One Shot
W/C: 6097
Summary: Sequel to Cherry Tomatoes from Sunny Hill
Rape was one of those things that some people just find it hard to move on from.
YongGuk was one of those people.
In the short days after Zelo had come back home to him, YongGuk had spent most of his time caring for the boy. He would bandage his forehead, he would (very awkwardly) help the boy shower (with much opposition from Zelo and always with a pair of shorts on), and YongGuk had even made sure that the boy slept in his room for the first few nights.
He had never known what a sleeping Zelo was like, but he soon found out.
The first night, he had Zelo bandaged and showered and on the couch with him, a little bowl of ice cream in Zelo's hands. Zelo ate slowly but he seemed content. His gaze was focused on the TV and he would even smile every so often at something YongGuk had no knowledge of, for he was too focused on the boy. YongGuk would gently rub Zelo's knee every couple of minutes, just a simple and quick touch. Zelo didn't flinch. YongGuk wondered why.
After a little while, Zelo had finished his ice cream but he kept the bowl cradled in his lap, his focus still on the TV. Zelo's eyelids started to droop and he leaned back just an inch more into the couch. YongGuk's hawk-like watch caught it all.
"Zelo, we should get you to bed. You're falling asleep." YongGuk mumbled in his deep voice, the tone of it almost inaudible.
Zelo sat instantly back upright, his eyes newly alert and focused. He quickly shook his head and with a weak arm, pointed to the TV. YongGuk couldn't help but stare at the large bruise on his upper arm in the shape of fingers.
"I'm watching.. he's something important hyung.. Don't you like it?" Zelo could barely speak properly and YongGuk bit his lip. He didn't know what to do. He was scared to touch Zelo, but he wanted the boy to sleep.
"Come on.. I'll record it for you and you can watch it in the morning, alright?" He tried to persuade the boy.
Zelo didn't answer this time. He looked down at his bowl as he nudged the spoon with his thumb and then slowly he tried to lift himself from the couch. YongGuk was up within seconds, gently holding the boy's waist and trying to hold his bowl for him. Zelo did flinch this time, making YongGuk quickly retract his hand... but Zelo didn't say a word.
Eventually, YongGuk led the boy down the hall, and Zelo just knew, when YongGuk didn't acknowledge his door, where he was sleeping that night.
"If you need anything, I'll be right beside you this way, okay? You won't have to worry about getting up.." YongGuk hurriedly explained his actions as he nudged his door open. Zelo's eyes were wide and he seemed fully awake by now as he tried to take everything in. Zelo had never seen YongGuk's room before, and it was dark. Zelo didn't like it, but he said nothing. He kept his little mouth closed.
YongGuk went over to the bed to pull back the sheets and Zelo peeked at his hyung's backside after he'd decided he would explore more in the morning when there was sunlight. Zelo took a step closer as he reached up and tiredly rubbed at his swollen and blackened eyes, not even caring to hold back his wide, obvious yawn. Zelo was tired. He was calm. He just wanted to curl up and sleep. He didn't expect his hyung to be like this. He'd expected him to give him his space and Zelo didn't expect for YongGuk to seem so concerned. Zelo didn't know what to think, because no one before had ever cared when Zico had raped him. They all just told him "Such is life. If you can't avoid it, might as well just enjoy it." as they sneered and shoved the back of his head.
But Zelo was too tired to think too much into this, and he let his hyung help him to lie down. It hurt. It hurt a lot, but he didn't let the pain show on his face. He didn't like his hyung see that his touch was hurting, because YongGuk thought he was helping. Zelo sucked it up and gave him a small, tired smile.
YongGuk believed it was real because he needed to believe to get them both through this together.
YongGuk stayed up a little longer than Zelo, letting him alone for a little while to fall asleep so that he wouldn't be disturbed. He locked both his doors, and he slid all the shades shut; something he would only do once he knew Zelo was put away for the night. In the morning he knew Zelo would go around and open every single shade back up again. It was like clockwork.
He quietly padded into the kitchen to wash up the night's dishes, taking his time and setting them on the rack to dry. The little pile of dirt and the forgotten glass still remained on the counter. YongGuk, just letting his fingers drift over the dirt as his thoughts ran free. He had so many thoughts, so many emotions, so many questions, so much anger. He closed his eyes and took in a slow breath, holding it for a couple seconds before letting it go again. He needed to be strong. He needed to keep a calm mind.
By the time he was ready for bed he was sure Zelo would be asleep. He'd stayed up to record the show Zelo had been watching just in case before heading back to his bedroom.
YongGuk made his way quietly to the other side of his bed, silently slipping off his t-shirt and sat at the edge for a second, elbows on his knees as he rubbed his palms over his face and massaged his eyes. A soft sigh fell from his lips.
"Hyung...." YongGuk turned to look behind him, his hands falling from his face as he tried to see Zelo through the darkness. He could barely see the blonde from Zelo's soft curls and the moonlight caused a soft sheen to light Zelo's eyes. He was watching him.
"Yah.. why haven't you gone to sleep yet? It's late.. You'll be tired in the morning.." YongGuk spoke softly, reaching over to pull the blankets up higher over Zelo's shoulders.
"I can't sleep... it's too dark, hyung.." The soft whisper had YongGuk straining his ears to hear but he heard it. It finally dawned on YongGuk that it was likely Zelo had always slept with a light on in his room. Suddenly, the affection towards the sunlight made a whole lot more sense to YongGuk. This had happened to Zelo before. He finally got his answer.
"Oh...." YongGuk wondered what to do. His thoughts consumed him as this fact dawned on him and he sat there for a minute as he raged war inside his head, wanting to ask Zelo every new question popping up in his head; How did this happen? How long has this gone on? How come nobody stopped it? .... How are you okay? But a soft movement of Zelo lifting his head and whispering his name questioningly had his attention brought back to Zelo. He considered turning on his light but that would be too bright for him. He didn't have a lamp.
YongGuk quickly got up and made his way through the kitchen. He slid open a drawer, pushing a few things out of his way before he found what he wanted, gathering them up in his arms and then made his way back to Zelo. Zelo was sitting upright in bed. YongGuk just barely caught sight of him with his hands behind his neck, his arms loosely dangling in front of him as Zelo watched his hyung, slouched and his body obviously tired.
"Here. I hope this is enough.." YongGuk dropped the candles, lighter, and the flashlight onto the bed and slowly Zelo crawled over closer, his lips in a tiny smile.
"I love candles... It's like they make their own sunshine.." Zelo whispered, the comment catching YongGuk off guard as he tried to light one and he ended up burning the tip of his thumb. He dropped the candle. Zelo's eyes caught it as he kneeled by the little pile, picking the candle up again with a shaky hand and handing it back to YongGuk. YongGuk took it after a second of staring. Zelo was grateful his hyung couldn't see his blush.
"Ah... yeh, they are nice, aren't they..?" YongGuk smiled a little. He lit it, and then another as he arranged them all in a little line on the nightstand closest Zelo. Zelo watched with curious eyes as the room slowly got brighter. YongGuk set the flashlight by the candles just in case Zelo needed to get up and go to the restroom, since YongGuk's room was a bit further than Zelo's. This all made Zelo seem happy again and YongGuk crawled into bed after Zelo had lied down, facing the boy to watch him as he got comfortable again.
The light shone off Zelo's pale skin making it seem even paler and his skinny but toned arms were covered in dark spots and small cuts around a small circle of rugburn. His neck had somewhat of a brownish tinge to it and when Zelo reached over to quickly snatch up the flashlight, YongGuk caught sight of the large gash in Zelo's shoulder that he'd assumed had come from a crumpled coke or beer can. Zelo hadn't answered in the shower when he'd asked. Zelo quickly snuck a peek at his hyung as he grabbed the flashlight and blushed hard when he realized his hyung had been watching him but he quickly scootched lower under the blankets, flipping them up over his head until only his little mop of curls stuck out, and he turned the light on. YongGuk couldn't help but let out a soft chuckle as a tiny, muffled "Goodnight hyung~" was murmured from under the blankets. YongGuk closed his eyes and turned away, trying as hard as he could not to picture in his head how those marks had gotten on Zelo's innocent body. He didn't get far and he drifted off to nightmares in his head.
He awoke during the night to something he wasn't sure had even happened. He sat up and let the blankets fall from his shoulders to expose his bare chest and he instantly looked towards Zelo. Zelo looked to be sleeping peacefully, his arms outstretched towards the candles for their warmth and the flashlight shining against his cheek. His chest rose and fell softly with his breath and YongGuk let out a soft groan as he rubbed his face. He laid back down on his pillow and stared at the ceiling after taking a deep breath. He wondered what had awoken him. A couple seconds later and he found out.
A soft whine sounded from beside him and he turned his head towards Zelo. The boy seemed entirely different than he had just a minute before. His face was scrunched up and his black eyes seemed to swell as he squeezed his eyes shut tight. Zelo whined again and YongGuk rolled over to his side as he hesitantly reached out, scared to touch the dreaming boy.
"Zelo, wake up." YongGuk whispered as moved to lay on his stomach, leaning up on his elbows. "Zelo. Wake up." He said a bit louder but still the boy squirmed and whimpered, the sounds strangled like he was trying to stop them in his dream. YongGuk bit his lip so hard that it bust open, the sudden thought of the rape entering his mind again. He wondered if Zelo had screamed. He flinched.
"Zelo. Wake. Up." YongGuk said sternly, reaching to slide his hand up Zelo's arm. As soon as his skin met Zelo's, and the touch stayed soft, sliding his fingers up and down the unmarked area, Zelo's face instantly relaxed again. His breathing went back to as it had been, soft even breaths and YongGuk stared at him, somewhat shocked. He let his hand drop back to the sheets and he watched Zelo a little longer before he grabbed his pillow and pulled it a little closer to the boy. He laid back down and kept his gaze on Zelo's backside, yawning again before letting his eyelids droop.
It wasn't yet another minute before Zelo was whining again, and YongGuk quickly reached out to gently rub his palm up Zelo's arm, watching as Zelo calmed instantly. YongGuk sighed softly as he slid up right behind Zelo, rubbing up and down the boy's arm until he slowly drifted back to sleep. He didn't wake up to another whine, but he wasn't sure if Zelo didn't whine or not.
When Zelo awoke the next morning, he felt extremely calm. He blinked his eyes open and sat up, but as he did, he felt a hand slide down his arm before resting at his elbow. Zelo peeked at it and saw it was his hyung's hand. He didn't know why the hand was there, and he didn't know how long it had been there but Zelo didn't mind. He gently moved the hand as he turned around, leaning to watch as he very gently laid YongGuk's hand on the pillow. Zelo also took the time to examine his sleeping hyung's face, having never seen it before. His eyes flitted from his slightly parted lips to his mussed hair, and then down to his bare chest. Zelo blushed when he noticed it and then he sat back. He quickly lifted his own shirt and pouted at his lack of abs compared to YongGuk. Zelo huffed before quickly climbing out of bed, ignoring the ache in his whole body and only winced when he accidentally spread his legs a bit too far. He snapped them back together and swung both legs together off the bed to get up.
Zelo went about his normal routine, silently making his way around the house and pushing the shades open, standing in the brightest places for a little longer before moving on to the next room. He saved the hallway for last, liking it's sunlight the most and then he made his way to the kitchen. He spotted his little pile of dirt and smiled as he padded over the wooden floor until he reached it. He bit his lip as he grazed his fingers over the dirt and then he smiled as he quickly scooped it into the cup. He stuck the little seed in the top and then ran it under the faucet for a moment. Then he stuck the cup in the window above the sink. He hummed to himself at the sight as he rocked back and forth on his heels until his feet got chilled. Then he made his way back to his fluffy white carpet.
Zelo bit at his fingers as he wandered from room to room. He didn't bother with turning the TV on that morning and he just slid his feet slowly across the warm carpet. He would pass by the hallway time and time again, glancing at YongGuk's door and then looking back down again. After a good half an hour of this Zelo decided he would go back to his hyung. He quietly slipped past the door and turned the doorknob, one hand pressing to the door as he soundlessly closed it shut.
Zelo smiled as his hyung snored softly in his sleep, gently crawling back into bed with his back to YongGuk and pulled the covers over his legs, turning a little to reach behind him and slipped his fingers under YongGuk's hand to lift it back to his arm. He laid back down, his curls flopping to the pillow and he bit his lip in a bigger smile when YongGuk seemed to wake just enough to gently rub Zelo's arm again, making Zelo close his eyes to the simple comfort. He'd never felt such a thing, and he soon learned to crave it.
When YongGuk finally woke up the next morning his room was bathed in sunlight, but he wasn't alone like he'd thought he would be. Usually when YongGuk woke up, Zelo was already in the living room curled up on the couch watching cartoons and waiting for his hyung to make him breakfast. Then he realized his hand was still resting on Zelo's arm and he quickly retracted it, alerting Zelo to his awoken state. Zelo sat up, reaching to ruffle his hair with one hand and bite his thumb nail on the other, quickly getting up and leaving the room silently without a single glance. YongGuk blushed hard at the thought that Zelo had laid in bed, waiting for him to wake so he could move again. YongGuk groaned and flopped forward in bed, his face hitting the pillow with a soft thwak.
"Hyung.... I want some bacon today.." Zelo mumbled from the doorway, his eyes on his hyung as the sunlight shined directly on the bare skin. YongGuk lifted his head from the pillow and squinted his eyes as he looked over to Zelo, nodding at the boy half hidden by the door until Zelo slipped out again.
YongGuk got up after a minute, getting up to find a shirt, and then made his way to the kitchen to make them breakfast.
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The next couple of weeks ended up the same way, with YongGuk gently rubbing the younger's arm as he slept and Zelo learning to dote on it. It was a simple touch that Zelo had never grown accustomed to and so it was comforting, calming, slightly confusing but most of all, addicting. He grew to need it. There was a point where he couldn't stay asleep without it. If YongGuk's hand slipped from his arm in the night, Zelo would awaken, turn around and proceed to lift his hand back to his arm before he could relax and calm himself again.
He tried not to let YongGuk notice his subtle little need for the attention, but sometimes it was hard. Zelo grew to need it so much that he thought about it all day once. It was all he had on his mind. When he was watering his little flowers that were just starting to blossom, he would have his own hand on his arm, stroking his smooth skin just so he wouldn't think more about it, but it wasn't enough.
One night, as his hyung was checking him over and putting the last couple of bandages over Zelo's mainly healed skin Zelo did something he knew he would regret for weeks to come, but he couldn't stop himself. He'd been twitchy all morning, planning and thinking about how to ask. He'd sat in his room in his chair and chewed his thumbs raw, which his hyung had lightly scolded him for at lunch, as he stared out the window while a light breeze wafted over his cheeks.
YongGuk seemed focused on his work with the small bandage, taping it over the tiny little slit that had once been 2 inches long. His light touch made Zelo want to shiver and lean into it but he kept his muscles taut and his mind focused on a small hole in the wall caused by Zelo earlier in the week when he was playing around. All his bruises had faded and it didn't hurt to move or to walk anymore. Zelo was sitting quietly on the edge of the sink with YongGuk now focused on his face, tending to a small cut that had once been on his forehead and making sure it hadn't been infected. YongGuk was close enough that if Zelo had wanted to look, he could have seen every pore on his face, every small wrinkle and the size of the dark circles under his hyung's eyes. Zelo didn't look when he finally moved. He just leaned forward and without thinking anything through, he reached up to cup his hyung's cheeks and kissed him. He kissed him hard.
The feeling of another man's lips on his was odd. It was warm, but it wasn't familiar. It was something else he'd never had the chance to experience and if Zelo's mind wasn't going haywire and his heart wasn't trying to jump out of his chest when YongGuk jerked back, he might have considered it enjoyable.
"Yah! Zelo!" Zelo looked to his hyung with eyes wide and scared, not having any idea what kind of reaction this would bring. He slunk back against the sink, his hands gripping for the edge and knocking over a bottle of hand soap and sending a comb clattering to the floor as his back pressed awkwardly against the mirror cabinet and he felt the cold porcelian of the toilet lid against his rib.
YongGuk couldn't believe what had just happened. Nothing had prepared him for something as such. He had no idea Zelo even knew what a kiss was, let alone that he would ever want it from him. He quickly covered his mouth as he jerked back, his eyes just as wide as he looked over Zelo. "Y-you...." He couldn't find the right thing to say. They just stared at each other, their hearts beating and their adrenaline rushing, waiting for the other to fix this. Nothing of the sort happened. After a minute or so of just staring, YongGuk blindly reached behind him for the door handle but the second his fingertips made contact with the cool steel, Zelo was scrambling off the counter and grabbing at his hyung's arm. Zelo's taller but skinnier frame pushed YongGuk up against the door as it forced it back shut with a loud slam."I'm so sorry, Hyung, I don't know what came over me!" Zelo cried out softly as his actions defied his words. YongGuk struggled to realize what was happening as Zelo tried to kiss him again, his lips meeting the corner of his as Zelo's hands forcefully touched him in places he couldn't quite catch. There was a tangled mess of hands grabbing for hands, of hips forcing themselves against hips and of a frenzied Zelo wild with a misplaced sort of passion that he couldn't help but sob his apologies out for. It was pure desperation by now.
"Zelo, .. Z-ZELO!" YongGuk struggled to get the name to leave his lips as one of Zelo's hands slipped it's way boldly under the waistband of his hyung's loose sweats to palm him but it was a painful sort of grab, and too quick to serve it's purpose as YongGuk grabbed the wrist and yanked the hand out, quickly flipping and pinning him to the wall, his face mere inches from Zelo's as he held Zelo in place.
"Zelo, stop..You don't want this.." Zelo struggled more as his eyes turned from needy to terrified while he stared into YongGuk's and it wasn't long before the boy was sobbing hysterically, turning his face from his hyung's in his ultimate shame, knowing there was nothing he could say to fix this. YongGuk left him be in the bathroom, this time too scared of doing anything to help in fear it would only upset the boy more.
That night he slept alone.
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Neither of the boys would talk about that night. They both pretended like it had never happened, and that it had just been one of their bad dreams. Zelo could barely live with the shame of what he'd tried to do to his hyung, and so he spent a good portion of his time in his room after that, playing by himself. YongGuk thought it was better this way, and that Zelo would eventually come back to being the way he used to be. He was right.
Every morning the shades were still open. Every morning they boy was still curled up on the couch with his cartoons, ready for breakfast. Every day was just like it had been, with the only addition being newly aquired locks on their windows and doors.
YongGuk had thought everything had been going fine again, until one morning, Zelo woke up with a different plan in mind.
Zelo was pacing back and forth across his bedroom, feeling the fluffy white carpet as it tickled his toes and he smiled a little as the sun warmed his cheeks. He was happy this morning. He had a little handful of blueberries in his hand as he just mindlessly looked about his room. It was too early for his hyung to be up.
He stopped.
Blueberries dropped to the carpet.
It was like a jolt of electricity as it ran through his body and he winced at the suddenness of it, whining to himself as he stepped on a blueberry. It smushed into the carpet. Zelo bit his lip.
He didn't know what it was that drove him to quietly open the door to his room and peek out. He didn't know why he silently crept down the hallway to his hyung's door. He told himself he was going to ask his hyung about the stain on the carpet. He knew, though, that he wasn't going to ask about the stain in the carpet.
YongGuk was still sleeping when Zelo made his way over to the bed. Zelo noticed that the candles were still aligned perfectly along the edge of the bedside table, just like he'd had them last and the flashlight was laying on the floor. Zelo's feet slid over the smooth carpet to the edge of the bed. He bit at his thumb as he stared at the familiar sleeping face, having watched it before while he innocently waited for YongGuk to wake up. Zelo quickly looked to the window before going over and slowly pushing the shades shut. He didn't want his sun to see what he was about to do.
After the room was shrowded in the dim lighting, Zelo made his way back over to the bed where he crawled over the sheets and where he, as carefully as he could, pulled the blankets from YongGuk's body and let him roll to his back. YongGuk stirred but he didn't awaken. Zelo felt his body stiffen but he just couldn't stop. He was mentally broken, and he needed this. He needed it so he could finally just... move on.
Zelo slowly trailed his fingers down YongGuk's abs, aware that his hyung liked to sleep shirtless and Zelo leaned down to press a soft kiss to his bellybutton and then a series of soft, open-mouthed kisses up to his chest. Zelo didn't know what he was doing but he tried to keep his touch as light as possible, almost scared of his hyung waking up.
Zelo's fingers ghosted up YongGuk's arms and he felt the small goosebumps raise under the touch. His gaze was flitting and quick as his mind took in all the details of the sleeping man below him and then Zelo sat back. He kneeled by his waist as he bit at his thumb again, planning and thinking more until he just quickly slid his basketball shorts down his hips. He blushed hard in the absent presence of being exposed in front of someone he cared about and he hurried as he crawled over to kneel on the sheets, one of YongGuk's legs between his. Zelo slid his hands over his hyung's hips and trailed his fingertips over his inner thighs, watching with newly mild curiosity as YongGuk's cock began to become obviously hardened in his sleep. Zelo blushed harder and felt a sort of guilt of taking advantage of someone like this, against their will, but he thought it would be okay since Zelo wasn't hurting him. That's exactly what Zelo told himself. It would be okay. This could work.
Zelo slowly slipped his fingers under YongGuk's waistband as he watched his face closely, every small whine and every twitch of YongGuk's body making Zelo freeze until he was still again. Zelo didn't know what to expect when he finally lifted the sweats over the man's cock, but he felt a shiver run down his spine as his own cock twitched at the sight of it. It looked like Zelo's, and when Zelo leaned down to nuzzle his nose along the base of it until it twitched and bumped his cheek, it even smelled sort of like Zelo. He slowly sat back again, taking a deep breath before his thumb returned to his mouth. His hyung was hard.... and it was his fault... He finally saw how this could go not so well. He thought of YongGuk waking up and finding them like this, confused and Zelo knew he would feel betrayed. He thought his hyung might even hit him. This thought suddenly dominated his head. Pain. Would YongGuk be that kind of person? Would he backhand Zelo and send his head flying in the opposite direction? Would he kick him out of the house? Would he just knee him in the groin and boot him out of his room, throwing his shorts with, then jerk himself off and act like nothing happened? ... Zelo had to know now. His body was racked with suddenly more curiosity than need.
He slowly straddled his hyung's hips, his thighs quivering and his hands splayed out on YongGuk's abs. He was biting his lip so hard and it felt like his heart was going to jump out of his throat.
YongGuk woke up.
When YongGuk woke up, he instantly knew something was happening and that something was wrong. He blushed a deep red when he felt his cock throbbing as it lay against his abs but he didn't know how he got in this state. In the back of his mind, he sensed a presence but he didn't want to open his eyes. He just laid there for a second before bringing an arm up to lay over his forehead. He was just about to reach down to get rid of his morning problem when he felt the bed shift. His eyes shot open and he dropped his arm as Zelo straddled his hips. He blinked repeatedly as he stared at what was happening, thinking in the back of his sleep-hazy mind that this was a very perverse dream he was having, and that there was no way Zelo would do this to him in his sleep. Zelo's head was dropped and his blonde curls covered his face and in the dim lighting YongGuk couldn't even be sure that Zelo was awake either. The second Zelo's long fingers curled around his aching cock and lifted it from his abs to position at his entrance was the point where he realized this was not a dream and Zelo was really doing this.
YongGuk reached out to grab at Zelo's wrists firmly and he knew when Zelo yanked them from his grasp that Zelo was highly aware of what he was doing. Zelo reached down to grab his hyung's cock and once again positioned his tip at his puckered entrance before quickly forcing it inside of himself dry. YongGuk felt a deep groan rumble from his throat as he arched against the sheets and threw his head back. His eyes squeezed shut and his toes curled as Zelo sunk all the way down his thick shaft. YongGuk was still half awake and he didn't know what to do until he heard Zelo's soft whine. He blindly reached down to push as Zelo's thighs to try and push him off but Zelo wasn't having that and grabbed his hands, pinning them to his sides as he slowly lifted his hips. Zelo's tight muscles clenched around the head and he whined a little louder as his fingers gripped his hyung's wrists hard and used the for a sort of leverage.
"Z-zelo.. stop, you can't do this.." YongGuk groaned out as he tried to free his wrists but he didn't put much effort into it.
"Hyung shhh, just let me do this.. I promise never again.." Zelo whispered as he slowly sank back down on YongGuk's cock and he firmly rolled his hips as he tried to stretch himself. Zelo shuddered and let out a slow, shaky breath as he stayed seated for a moment, trying to wait for the pain to fade.
"I-I'm serious Zelo, stop.. You.. this isn't right.." YongGuk finally lifted his head again, his eyes glazed over as he tried a little harder to free his hands. Zelo panicked, thinking his hyung would push him off and so he lifted his hips before quickly dropping them again, whining softly as he did it again and again, realizing after a second of eyes squeezed shut that his hyung hadn't stopped him and he wasn't going to stop him. His hyung was humoring him. Zelo let out a shaky sigh of relief as he let his hands slide from YongGuk's and his hyung instantly moved his palms to Zelo's tensed thighs, caressing them slowly as Zelo started slowly riding his cock. It still hurt and it didn't feel good, but it was the best sex Zelo had ever had. There was no tight grips, no strangling, no bruises and no threats. No rugburn and no beer cans and no cigarettes burning holes into his flesh. Zelo's lips twitched into a smile and YongGuk knew what was running through the boy's head. This was therapy. This wasn't love, this wasn't lust. It was just.. moving on. Maybe that's what made them both think this was okay for now.
Zelo had rode his hyung's thick cock until he felt it start to swell inside him and he'd expected YongGuk to release deep in his tight entrance and fill him so he rode him harder. He rocked his hips and bounced on his lap, shallowly lifting his hips and dropping them as his hyung moaned and writhed beneath him, his hips occassionally bucking up to meet his as his fingers pressed deeper into Zelo's hips. Zelo's focus was on YongGuk's face as his lips stayed parted while he breathed heavily, and his upper lip would curl into a slight snarl when Zelo would rock his hips just the right way so his hyung's tip would brush a spot inside him that made him gasp and clench harder. Zelo quickened his pace as he splayed his hands over YongGuk's abs again and he missed it when YongGuk mumbled something about being close, whining loudly and fighting back when YongGuk tries to pull him off his lap.
"Z-zelo, shit, s-stop, I'm gonna cum." He growled out and this time Zelo caught it and he let his hyung lift him from his lap, licking his lips as he settled on YongGuk's thighs, eyes focused on his hyung's hand as he wrapped his fingers around his cock. YongGuk stroked himself quickly as his breathing increased until he was shuddering and his cum was spilling over his hand. It fascinated Zelo and he refused to look away as the milky substance dripped over YongGuk's fingers. Zelo leaned down before he thought about it too much and he flicked his tongue out to lap at some of it. His face contorted instantly at the bitter taste and he hurriedly crawled out of bed to go run to the bathroom for water. He heard YongGuk chuckling as he went.
"Yah, you're not supposed to do that, good God.." There was amusement in his voice though but Zelo decided he was going to avoid his hyung after that, coming back to the room only to grab his shorts and then left. YongGuk didn't go after him and that night they ate supper together. They had Zelo's favorite. Macaroni and cheese with green beans and a little bowl of ice cream.
YongGuk didn't know why but it seemed like his morning was just a dream and that somehow Zelo would never bring it up again. Zelo never did.
Zelo was where he needed to be. He sprawled out in the last remaining rays of sunlight on the living room floor while he ate. His hands mindlessly played with the strings on the carpet below him and YongGuk was letting him watch his favorite cartoon. Everything was perfect. It was sloppily done, but still perfect.
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Zelo/YongGuk
Warning: After-Rape + Underage
Type: One Shot
W/C: 6097
Summary: Sequel to Cherry Tomatoes from Sunny Hill
Rape was one of those things that some people just find it hard to move on from.
YongGuk was one of those people.
In the short days after Zelo had come back home to him, YongGuk had spent most of his time caring for the boy. He would bandage his forehead, he would (very awkwardly) help the boy shower (with much opposition from Zelo and always with a pair of shorts on), and YongGuk had even made sure that the boy slept in his room for the first few nights.
He had never known what a sleeping Zelo was like, but he soon found out.
The first night, he had Zelo bandaged and showered and on the couch with him, a little bowl of ice cream in Zelo's hands. Zelo ate slowly but he seemed content. His gaze was focused on the TV and he would even smile every so often at something YongGuk had no knowledge of, for he was too focused on the boy. YongGuk would gently rub Zelo's knee every couple of minutes, just a simple and quick touch. Zelo didn't flinch. YongGuk wondered why.
After a little while, Zelo had finished his ice cream but he kept the bowl cradled in his lap, his focus still on the TV. Zelo's eyelids started to droop and he leaned back just an inch more into the couch. YongGuk's hawk-like watch caught it all.
"Zelo, we should get you to bed. You're falling asleep." YongGuk mumbled in his deep voice, the tone of it almost inaudible.
Zelo sat instantly back upright, his eyes newly alert and focused. He quickly shook his head and with a weak arm, pointed to the TV. YongGuk couldn't help but stare at the large bruise on his upper arm in the shape of fingers.
"I'm watching.. he's something important hyung.. Don't you like it?" Zelo could barely speak properly and YongGuk bit his lip. He didn't know what to do. He was scared to touch Zelo, but he wanted the boy to sleep.
"Come on.. I'll record it for you and you can watch it in the morning, alright?" He tried to persuade the boy.
Zelo didn't answer this time. He looked down at his bowl as he nudged the spoon with his thumb and then slowly he tried to lift himself from the couch. YongGuk was up within seconds, gently holding the boy's waist and trying to hold his bowl for him. Zelo did flinch this time, making YongGuk quickly retract his hand... but Zelo didn't say a word.
Eventually, YongGuk led the boy down the hall, and Zelo just knew, when YongGuk didn't acknowledge his door, where he was sleeping that night.
"If you need anything, I'll be right beside you this way, okay? You won't have to worry about getting up.." YongGuk hurriedly explained his actions as he nudged his door open. Zelo's eyes were wide and he seemed fully awake by now as he tried to take everything in. Zelo had never seen YongGuk's room before, and it was dark. Zelo didn't like it, but he said nothing. He kept his little mouth closed.
YongGuk went over to the bed to pull back the sheets and Zelo peeked at his hyung's backside after he'd decided he would explore more in the morning when there was sunlight. Zelo took a step closer as he reached up and tiredly rubbed at his swollen and blackened eyes, not even caring to hold back his wide, obvious yawn. Zelo was tired. He was calm. He just wanted to curl up and sleep. He didn't expect his hyung to be like this. He'd expected him to give him his space and Zelo didn't expect for YongGuk to seem so concerned. Zelo didn't know what to think, because no one before had ever cared when Zico had raped him. They all just told him "Such is life. If you can't avoid it, might as well just enjoy it." as they sneered and shoved the back of his head.
But Zelo was too tired to think too much into this, and he let his hyung help him to lie down. It hurt. It hurt a lot, but he didn't let the pain show on his face. He didn't like his hyung see that his touch was hurting, because YongGuk thought he was helping. Zelo sucked it up and gave him a small, tired smile.
YongGuk believed it was real because he needed to believe to get them both through this together.
YongGuk stayed up a little longer than Zelo, letting him alone for a little while to fall asleep so that he wouldn't be disturbed. He locked both his doors, and he slid all the shades shut; something he would only do once he knew Zelo was put away for the night. In the morning he knew Zelo would go around and open every single shade back up again. It was like clockwork.
He quietly padded into the kitchen to wash up the night's dishes, taking his time and setting them on the rack to dry. The little pile of dirt and the forgotten glass still remained on the counter. YongGuk, just letting his fingers drift over the dirt as his thoughts ran free. He had so many thoughts, so many emotions, so many questions, so much anger. He closed his eyes and took in a slow breath, holding it for a couple seconds before letting it go again. He needed to be strong. He needed to keep a calm mind.
By the time he was ready for bed he was sure Zelo would be asleep. He'd stayed up to record the show Zelo had been watching just in case before heading back to his bedroom.
YongGuk made his way quietly to the other side of his bed, silently slipping off his t-shirt and sat at the edge for a second, elbows on his knees as he rubbed his palms over his face and massaged his eyes. A soft sigh fell from his lips.
"Hyung...." YongGuk turned to look behind him, his hands falling from his face as he tried to see Zelo through the darkness. He could barely see the blonde from Zelo's soft curls and the moonlight caused a soft sheen to light Zelo's eyes. He was watching him.
"Yah.. why haven't you gone to sleep yet? It's late.. You'll be tired in the morning.." YongGuk spoke softly, reaching over to pull the blankets up higher over Zelo's shoulders.
"I can't sleep... it's too dark, hyung.." The soft whisper had YongGuk straining his ears to hear but he heard it. It finally dawned on YongGuk that it was likely Zelo had always slept with a light on in his room. Suddenly, the affection towards the sunlight made a whole lot more sense to YongGuk. This had happened to Zelo before. He finally got his answer.
"Oh...." YongGuk wondered what to do. His thoughts consumed him as this fact dawned on him and he sat there for a minute as he raged war inside his head, wanting to ask Zelo every new question popping up in his head; How did this happen? How long has this gone on? How come nobody stopped it? .... How are you okay? But a soft movement of Zelo lifting his head and whispering his name questioningly had his attention brought back to Zelo. He considered turning on his light but that would be too bright for him. He didn't have a lamp.
YongGuk quickly got up and made his way through the kitchen. He slid open a drawer, pushing a few things out of his way before he found what he wanted, gathering them up in his arms and then made his way back to Zelo. Zelo was sitting upright in bed. YongGuk just barely caught sight of him with his hands behind his neck, his arms loosely dangling in front of him as Zelo watched his hyung, slouched and his body obviously tired.
"Here. I hope this is enough.." YongGuk dropped the candles, lighter, and the flashlight onto the bed and slowly Zelo crawled over closer, his lips in a tiny smile.
"I love candles... It's like they make their own sunshine.." Zelo whispered, the comment catching YongGuk off guard as he tried to light one and he ended up burning the tip of his thumb. He dropped the candle. Zelo's eyes caught it as he kneeled by the little pile, picking the candle up again with a shaky hand and handing it back to YongGuk. YongGuk took it after a second of staring. Zelo was grateful his hyung couldn't see his blush.
"Ah... yeh, they are nice, aren't they..?" YongGuk smiled a little. He lit it, and then another as he arranged them all in a little line on the nightstand closest Zelo. Zelo watched with curious eyes as the room slowly got brighter. YongGuk set the flashlight by the candles just in case Zelo needed to get up and go to the restroom, since YongGuk's room was a bit further than Zelo's. This all made Zelo seem happy again and YongGuk crawled into bed after Zelo had lied down, facing the boy to watch him as he got comfortable again.
The light shone off Zelo's pale skin making it seem even paler and his skinny but toned arms were covered in dark spots and small cuts around a small circle of rugburn. His neck had somewhat of a brownish tinge to it and when Zelo reached over to quickly snatch up the flashlight, YongGuk caught sight of the large gash in Zelo's shoulder that he'd assumed had come from a crumpled coke or beer can. Zelo hadn't answered in the shower when he'd asked. Zelo quickly snuck a peek at his hyung as he grabbed the flashlight and blushed hard when he realized his hyung had been watching him but he quickly scootched lower under the blankets, flipping them up over his head until only his little mop of curls stuck out, and he turned the light on. YongGuk couldn't help but let out a soft chuckle as a tiny, muffled "Goodnight hyung~" was murmured from under the blankets. YongGuk closed his eyes and turned away, trying as hard as he could not to picture in his head how those marks had gotten on Zelo's innocent body. He didn't get far and he drifted off to nightmares in his head.
He awoke during the night to something he wasn't sure had even happened. He sat up and let the blankets fall from his shoulders to expose his bare chest and he instantly looked towards Zelo. Zelo looked to be sleeping peacefully, his arms outstretched towards the candles for their warmth and the flashlight shining against his cheek. His chest rose and fell softly with his breath and YongGuk let out a soft groan as he rubbed his face. He laid back down on his pillow and stared at the ceiling after taking a deep breath. He wondered what had awoken him. A couple seconds later and he found out.
A soft whine sounded from beside him and he turned his head towards Zelo. The boy seemed entirely different than he had just a minute before. His face was scrunched up and his black eyes seemed to swell as he squeezed his eyes shut tight. Zelo whined again and YongGuk rolled over to his side as he hesitantly reached out, scared to touch the dreaming boy.
"Zelo, wake up." YongGuk whispered as moved to lay on his stomach, leaning up on his elbows. "Zelo. Wake up." He said a bit louder but still the boy squirmed and whimpered, the sounds strangled like he was trying to stop them in his dream. YongGuk bit his lip so hard that it bust open, the sudden thought of the rape entering his mind again. He wondered if Zelo had screamed. He flinched.
"Zelo. Wake. Up." YongGuk said sternly, reaching to slide his hand up Zelo's arm. As soon as his skin met Zelo's, and the touch stayed soft, sliding his fingers up and down the unmarked area, Zelo's face instantly relaxed again. His breathing went back to as it had been, soft even breaths and YongGuk stared at him, somewhat shocked. He let his hand drop back to the sheets and he watched Zelo a little longer before he grabbed his pillow and pulled it a little closer to the boy. He laid back down and kept his gaze on Zelo's backside, yawning again before letting his eyelids droop.
It wasn't yet another minute before Zelo was whining again, and YongGuk quickly reached out to gently rub his palm up Zelo's arm, watching as Zelo calmed instantly. YongGuk sighed softly as he slid up right behind Zelo, rubbing up and down the boy's arm until he slowly drifted back to sleep. He didn't wake up to another whine, but he wasn't sure if Zelo didn't whine or not.
When Zelo awoke the next morning, he felt extremely calm. He blinked his eyes open and sat up, but as he did, he felt a hand slide down his arm before resting at his elbow. Zelo peeked at it and saw it was his hyung's hand. He didn't know why the hand was there, and he didn't know how long it had been there but Zelo didn't mind. He gently moved the hand as he turned around, leaning to watch as he very gently laid YongGuk's hand on the pillow. Zelo also took the time to examine his sleeping hyung's face, having never seen it before. His eyes flitted from his slightly parted lips to his mussed hair, and then down to his bare chest. Zelo blushed when he noticed it and then he sat back. He quickly lifted his own shirt and pouted at his lack of abs compared to YongGuk. Zelo huffed before quickly climbing out of bed, ignoring the ache in his whole body and only winced when he accidentally spread his legs a bit too far. He snapped them back together and swung both legs together off the bed to get up.
Zelo went about his normal routine, silently making his way around the house and pushing the shades open, standing in the brightest places for a little longer before moving on to the next room. He saved the hallway for last, liking it's sunlight the most and then he made his way to the kitchen. He spotted his little pile of dirt and smiled as he padded over the wooden floor until he reached it. He bit his lip as he grazed his fingers over the dirt and then he smiled as he quickly scooped it into the cup. He stuck the little seed in the top and then ran it under the faucet for a moment. Then he stuck the cup in the window above the sink. He hummed to himself at the sight as he rocked back and forth on his heels until his feet got chilled. Then he made his way back to his fluffy white carpet.
Zelo bit at his fingers as he wandered from room to room. He didn't bother with turning the TV on that morning and he just slid his feet slowly across the warm carpet. He would pass by the hallway time and time again, glancing at YongGuk's door and then looking back down again. After a good half an hour of this Zelo decided he would go back to his hyung. He quietly slipped past the door and turned the doorknob, one hand pressing to the door as he soundlessly closed it shut.
Zelo smiled as his hyung snored softly in his sleep, gently crawling back into bed with his back to YongGuk and pulled the covers over his legs, turning a little to reach behind him and slipped his fingers under YongGuk's hand to lift it back to his arm. He laid back down, his curls flopping to the pillow and he bit his lip in a bigger smile when YongGuk seemed to wake just enough to gently rub Zelo's arm again, making Zelo close his eyes to the simple comfort. He'd never felt such a thing, and he soon learned to crave it.
When YongGuk finally woke up the next morning his room was bathed in sunlight, but he wasn't alone like he'd thought he would be. Usually when YongGuk woke up, Zelo was already in the living room curled up on the couch watching cartoons and waiting for his hyung to make him breakfast. Then he realized his hand was still resting on Zelo's arm and he quickly retracted it, alerting Zelo to his awoken state. Zelo sat up, reaching to ruffle his hair with one hand and bite his thumb nail on the other, quickly getting up and leaving the room silently without a single glance. YongGuk blushed hard at the thought that Zelo had laid in bed, waiting for him to wake so he could move again. YongGuk groaned and flopped forward in bed, his face hitting the pillow with a soft thwak.
"Hyung.... I want some bacon today.." Zelo mumbled from the doorway, his eyes on his hyung as the sunlight shined directly on the bare skin. YongGuk lifted his head from the pillow and squinted his eyes as he looked over to Zelo, nodding at the boy half hidden by the door until Zelo slipped out again.
YongGuk got up after a minute, getting up to find a shirt, and then made his way to the kitchen to make them breakfast.
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The next couple of weeks ended up the same way, with YongGuk gently rubbing the younger's arm as he slept and Zelo learning to dote on it. It was a simple touch that Zelo had never grown accustomed to and so it was comforting, calming, slightly confusing but most of all, addicting. He grew to need it. There was a point where he couldn't stay asleep without it. If YongGuk's hand slipped from his arm in the night, Zelo would awaken, turn around and proceed to lift his hand back to his arm before he could relax and calm himself again.
He tried not to let YongGuk notice his subtle little need for the attention, but sometimes it was hard. Zelo grew to need it so much that he thought about it all day once. It was all he had on his mind. When he was watering his little flowers that were just starting to blossom, he would have his own hand on his arm, stroking his smooth skin just so he wouldn't think more about it, but it wasn't enough.
One night, as his hyung was checking him over and putting the last couple of bandages over Zelo's mainly healed skin Zelo did something he knew he would regret for weeks to come, but he couldn't stop himself. He'd been twitchy all morning, planning and thinking about how to ask. He'd sat in his room in his chair and chewed his thumbs raw, which his hyung had lightly scolded him for at lunch, as he stared out the window while a light breeze wafted over his cheeks.
YongGuk seemed focused on his work with the small bandage, taping it over the tiny little slit that had once been 2 inches long. His light touch made Zelo want to shiver and lean into it but he kept his muscles taut and his mind focused on a small hole in the wall caused by Zelo earlier in the week when he was playing around. All his bruises had faded and it didn't hurt to move or to walk anymore. Zelo was sitting quietly on the edge of the sink with YongGuk now focused on his face, tending to a small cut that had once been on his forehead and making sure it hadn't been infected. YongGuk was close enough that if Zelo had wanted to look, he could have seen every pore on his face, every small wrinkle and the size of the dark circles under his hyung's eyes. Zelo didn't look when he finally moved. He just leaned forward and without thinking anything through, he reached up to cup his hyung's cheeks and kissed him. He kissed him hard.
The feeling of another man's lips on his was odd. It was warm, but it wasn't familiar. It was something else he'd never had the chance to experience and if Zelo's mind wasn't going haywire and his heart wasn't trying to jump out of his chest when YongGuk jerked back, he might have considered it enjoyable.
"Yah! Zelo!" Zelo looked to his hyung with eyes wide and scared, not having any idea what kind of reaction this would bring. He slunk back against the sink, his hands gripping for the edge and knocking over a bottle of hand soap and sending a comb clattering to the floor as his back pressed awkwardly against the mirror cabinet and he felt the cold porcelian of the toilet lid against his rib.
YongGuk couldn't believe what had just happened. Nothing had prepared him for something as such. He had no idea Zelo even knew what a kiss was, let alone that he would ever want it from him. He quickly covered his mouth as he jerked back, his eyes just as wide as he looked over Zelo. "Y-you...." He couldn't find the right thing to say. They just stared at each other, their hearts beating and their adrenaline rushing, waiting for the other to fix this. Nothing of the sort happened. After a minute or so of just staring, YongGuk blindly reached behind him for the door handle but the second his fingertips made contact with the cool steel, Zelo was scrambling off the counter and grabbing at his hyung's arm. Zelo's taller but skinnier frame pushed YongGuk up against the door as it forced it back shut with a loud slam."I'm so sorry, Hyung, I don't know what came over me!" Zelo cried out softly as his actions defied his words. YongGuk struggled to realize what was happening as Zelo tried to kiss him again, his lips meeting the corner of his as Zelo's hands forcefully touched him in places he couldn't quite catch. There was a tangled mess of hands grabbing for hands, of hips forcing themselves against hips and of a frenzied Zelo wild with a misplaced sort of passion that he couldn't help but sob his apologies out for. It was pure desperation by now.
"Zelo, .. Z-ZELO!" YongGuk struggled to get the name to leave his lips as one of Zelo's hands slipped it's way boldly under the waistband of his hyung's loose sweats to palm him but it was a painful sort of grab, and too quick to serve it's purpose as YongGuk grabbed the wrist and yanked the hand out, quickly flipping and pinning him to the wall, his face mere inches from Zelo's as he held Zelo in place.
"Zelo, stop..You don't want this.." Zelo struggled more as his eyes turned from needy to terrified while he stared into YongGuk's and it wasn't long before the boy was sobbing hysterically, turning his face from his hyung's in his ultimate shame, knowing there was nothing he could say to fix this. YongGuk left him be in the bathroom, this time too scared of doing anything to help in fear it would only upset the boy more.
That night he slept alone.
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Neither of the boys would talk about that night. They both pretended like it had never happened, and that it had just been one of their bad dreams. Zelo could barely live with the shame of what he'd tried to do to his hyung, and so he spent a good portion of his time in his room after that, playing by himself. YongGuk thought it was better this way, and that Zelo would eventually come back to being the way he used to be. He was right.
Every morning the shades were still open. Every morning they boy was still curled up on the couch with his cartoons, ready for breakfast. Every day was just like it had been, with the only addition being newly aquired locks on their windows and doors.
YongGuk had thought everything had been going fine again, until one morning, Zelo woke up with a different plan in mind.
Zelo was pacing back and forth across his bedroom, feeling the fluffy white carpet as it tickled his toes and he smiled a little as the sun warmed his cheeks. He was happy this morning. He had a little handful of blueberries in his hand as he just mindlessly looked about his room. It was too early for his hyung to be up.
He stopped.
Blueberries dropped to the carpet.
It was like a jolt of electricity as it ran through his body and he winced at the suddenness of it, whining to himself as he stepped on a blueberry. It smushed into the carpet. Zelo bit his lip.
He didn't know what it was that drove him to quietly open the door to his room and peek out. He didn't know why he silently crept down the hallway to his hyung's door. He told himself he was going to ask his hyung about the stain on the carpet. He knew, though, that he wasn't going to ask about the stain in the carpet.
YongGuk was still sleeping when Zelo made his way over to the bed. Zelo noticed that the candles were still aligned perfectly along the edge of the bedside table, just like he'd had them last and the flashlight was laying on the floor. Zelo's feet slid over the smooth carpet to the edge of the bed. He bit at his thumb as he stared at the familiar sleeping face, having watched it before while he innocently waited for YongGuk to wake up. Zelo quickly looked to the window before going over and slowly pushing the shades shut. He didn't want his sun to see what he was about to do.
After the room was shrowded in the dim lighting, Zelo made his way back over to the bed where he crawled over the sheets and where he, as carefully as he could, pulled the blankets from YongGuk's body and let him roll to his back. YongGuk stirred but he didn't awaken. Zelo felt his body stiffen but he just couldn't stop. He was mentally broken, and he needed this. He needed it so he could finally just... move on.
Zelo slowly trailed his fingers down YongGuk's abs, aware that his hyung liked to sleep shirtless and Zelo leaned down to press a soft kiss to his bellybutton and then a series of soft, open-mouthed kisses up to his chest. Zelo didn't know what he was doing but he tried to keep his touch as light as possible, almost scared of his hyung waking up.
Zelo's fingers ghosted up YongGuk's arms and he felt the small goosebumps raise under the touch. His gaze was flitting and quick as his mind took in all the details of the sleeping man below him and then Zelo sat back. He kneeled by his waist as he bit at his thumb again, planning and thinking more until he just quickly slid his basketball shorts down his hips. He blushed hard in the absent presence of being exposed in front of someone he cared about and he hurried as he crawled over to kneel on the sheets, one of YongGuk's legs between his. Zelo slid his hands over his hyung's hips and trailed his fingertips over his inner thighs, watching with newly mild curiosity as YongGuk's cock began to become obviously hardened in his sleep. Zelo blushed harder and felt a sort of guilt of taking advantage of someone like this, against their will, but he thought it would be okay since Zelo wasn't hurting him. That's exactly what Zelo told himself. It would be okay. This could work.
Zelo slowly slipped his fingers under YongGuk's waistband as he watched his face closely, every small whine and every twitch of YongGuk's body making Zelo freeze until he was still again. Zelo didn't know what to expect when he finally lifted the sweats over the man's cock, but he felt a shiver run down his spine as his own cock twitched at the sight of it. It looked like Zelo's, and when Zelo leaned down to nuzzle his nose along the base of it until it twitched and bumped his cheek, it even smelled sort of like Zelo. He slowly sat back again, taking a deep breath before his thumb returned to his mouth. His hyung was hard.... and it was his fault... He finally saw how this could go not so well. He thought of YongGuk waking up and finding them like this, confused and Zelo knew he would feel betrayed. He thought his hyung might even hit him. This thought suddenly dominated his head. Pain. Would YongGuk be that kind of person? Would he backhand Zelo and send his head flying in the opposite direction? Would he kick him out of the house? Would he just knee him in the groin and boot him out of his room, throwing his shorts with, then jerk himself off and act like nothing happened? ... Zelo had to know now. His body was racked with suddenly more curiosity than need.
He slowly straddled his hyung's hips, his thighs quivering and his hands splayed out on YongGuk's abs. He was biting his lip so hard and it felt like his heart was going to jump out of his throat.
YongGuk woke up.
When YongGuk woke up, he instantly knew something was happening and that something was wrong. He blushed a deep red when he felt his cock throbbing as it lay against his abs but he didn't know how he got in this state. In the back of his mind, he sensed a presence but he didn't want to open his eyes. He just laid there for a second before bringing an arm up to lay over his forehead. He was just about to reach down to get rid of his morning problem when he felt the bed shift. His eyes shot open and he dropped his arm as Zelo straddled his hips. He blinked repeatedly as he stared at what was happening, thinking in the back of his sleep-hazy mind that this was a very perverse dream he was having, and that there was no way Zelo would do this to him in his sleep. Zelo's head was dropped and his blonde curls covered his face and in the dim lighting YongGuk couldn't even be sure that Zelo was awake either. The second Zelo's long fingers curled around his aching cock and lifted it from his abs to position at his entrance was the point where he realized this was not a dream and Zelo was really doing this.
YongGuk reached out to grab at Zelo's wrists firmly and he knew when Zelo yanked them from his grasp that Zelo was highly aware of what he was doing. Zelo reached down to grab his hyung's cock and once again positioned his tip at his puckered entrance before quickly forcing it inside of himself dry. YongGuk felt a deep groan rumble from his throat as he arched against the sheets and threw his head back. His eyes squeezed shut and his toes curled as Zelo sunk all the way down his thick shaft. YongGuk was still half awake and he didn't know what to do until he heard Zelo's soft whine. He blindly reached down to push as Zelo's thighs to try and push him off but Zelo wasn't having that and grabbed his hands, pinning them to his sides as he slowly lifted his hips. Zelo's tight muscles clenched around the head and he whined a little louder as his fingers gripped his hyung's wrists hard and used the for a sort of leverage.
"Z-zelo.. stop, you can't do this.." YongGuk groaned out as he tried to free his wrists but he didn't put much effort into it.
"Hyung shhh, just let me do this.. I promise never again.." Zelo whispered as he slowly sank back down on YongGuk's cock and he firmly rolled his hips as he tried to stretch himself. Zelo shuddered and let out a slow, shaky breath as he stayed seated for a moment, trying to wait for the pain to fade.
"I-I'm serious Zelo, stop.. You.. this isn't right.." YongGuk finally lifted his head again, his eyes glazed over as he tried a little harder to free his hands. Zelo panicked, thinking his hyung would push him off and so he lifted his hips before quickly dropping them again, whining softly as he did it again and again, realizing after a second of eyes squeezed shut that his hyung hadn't stopped him and he wasn't going to stop him. His hyung was humoring him. Zelo let out a shaky sigh of relief as he let his hands slide from YongGuk's and his hyung instantly moved his palms to Zelo's tensed thighs, caressing them slowly as Zelo started slowly riding his cock. It still hurt and it didn't feel good, but it was the best sex Zelo had ever had. There was no tight grips, no strangling, no bruises and no threats. No rugburn and no beer cans and no cigarettes burning holes into his flesh. Zelo's lips twitched into a smile and YongGuk knew what was running through the boy's head. This was therapy. This wasn't love, this wasn't lust. It was just.. moving on. Maybe that's what made them both think this was okay for now.
Zelo had rode his hyung's thick cock until he felt it start to swell inside him and he'd expected YongGuk to release deep in his tight entrance and fill him so he rode him harder. He rocked his hips and bounced on his lap, shallowly lifting his hips and dropping them as his hyung moaned and writhed beneath him, his hips occassionally bucking up to meet his as his fingers pressed deeper into Zelo's hips. Zelo's focus was on YongGuk's face as his lips stayed parted while he breathed heavily, and his upper lip would curl into a slight snarl when Zelo would rock his hips just the right way so his hyung's tip would brush a spot inside him that made him gasp and clench harder. Zelo quickened his pace as he splayed his hands over YongGuk's abs again and he missed it when YongGuk mumbled something about being close, whining loudly and fighting back when YongGuk tries to pull him off his lap.
"Z-zelo, shit, s-stop, I'm gonna cum." He growled out and this time Zelo caught it and he let his hyung lift him from his lap, licking his lips as he settled on YongGuk's thighs, eyes focused on his hyung's hand as he wrapped his fingers around his cock. YongGuk stroked himself quickly as his breathing increased until he was shuddering and his cum was spilling over his hand. It fascinated Zelo and he refused to look away as the milky substance dripped over YongGuk's fingers. Zelo leaned down before he thought about it too much and he flicked his tongue out to lap at some of it. His face contorted instantly at the bitter taste and he hurriedly crawled out of bed to go run to the bathroom for water. He heard YongGuk chuckling as he went.
"Yah, you're not supposed to do that, good God.." There was amusement in his voice though but Zelo decided he was going to avoid his hyung after that, coming back to the room only to grab his shorts and then left. YongGuk didn't go after him and that night they ate supper together. They had Zelo's favorite. Macaroni and cheese with green beans and a little bowl of ice cream.
YongGuk didn't know why but it seemed like his morning was just a dream and that somehow Zelo would never bring it up again. Zelo never did.
Zelo was where he needed to be. He sprawled out in the last remaining rays of sunlight on the living room floor while he ate. His hands mindlessly played with the strings on the carpet below him and YongGuk was letting him watch his favorite cartoon. Everything was perfect. It was sloppily done, but still perfect.