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[xsacredvisionx]

Some mornings I wake up and it's an instant struggle. I feel depressed, I'll, and grouchy, so by the time I'm finally out of bed and getting dressed you know of course I'm going to feel like none of my clothes fit. So I will change 30 times and finally decide on something. (at this point all I want to do is stay home and I'm usually on the verge of

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[hannah_sofia]

I know exactly what you're talking about. Does Daniel know what's going on with you right now? These are the types of mornings when you need support the most... is there maybe some sort of a gentle way you could let him know that?

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Hang in there! <3

[xsacredvisionx]

He knows. He helped me through a really ruff period and avoid what would have been a terrible relapse last year. He is probably one of the most understanding BF's you will ever meet (lets not hope this is the case, because everyone else is fucked lol) anyways... this just wasn't a good morning. my rants like this consist of a lot of bitter and very verbal self loathing, including a borage of very mean things directed at myself... I try to only say them in my head but they slip out sometimes... when the morning are like this.

I'm working so hard right now at just accepting things as they are, and that includes myself well mainly myself... it's just hard. I have be patient I know that, but sometimes I just wish it didn't take so long lol... you know what I mean... I want better right now, and I've spent a long time teaching myself better comes in time...